21: Vanessa

Callum is standing before me but won’t look in my eyes. “What’s happened, why do you look so worried.” oh god this is the part where he tells me that he made a mistake and he doesn’t want me anymore.

“My father called, he told me some things, fuck…” I don’t know Callum’s father apart from what he’s told me and how he wants Callum to Marry Jessa for his own personal gain. “Talk to me, what did he say, you’re freaking me out.”

Callum comes closer and pulls out his phone, he taps on the screen and then hands it to me. My face pales and my stomach sinks at what I’m reading. “Where did you get this? Callum scratches the back of his neck.

“My father is friends with Jessa’s dad as you know, he’s a powerful man and he had access to this as well as your hospital records and.” he pauses. “Your files from the time you spent in the institution.” I look at him with sharp eyes. No one knows about my time there apart from my aunt.

“What? How? Callum not one single person knows about that. Your father has breached some serious laws to get hold of that information.” I feel so sick. I get up and storm inside the house, Callum hot on my heels.

“So, you did spend time in an institute? Talk to me baby, explain to me so I can understand.” he looks at me with pleading eyes. I’ve never told anyone the extent of what my father did to me or what the bullies did to me in school, but I can see it in Callum’s eyes that he needs the full story. But telling him this could break me.

“Can you not just trust that what I told you was the truth? That I don’t want to go over every painful detail about my childhood or how I was beaten and humiliated every day in high school.” it only takes a second for me to realize he needs to know because he’s undecided if he should believe me or not and that hurts, that hurts a lot.

“You don’t believe me?” He doesn’t answer but still looks at me with adoration in his eyes.

“Fine, you’ve made your choice. Here is it” I walk into the kitchen and grab my own files from my cupboard that holds all my household bills. “But know this Callum, you’ve forced my hand and now you have to live with the consequences.”

I slam the thick folder on the table in anger. I flip the first one open and show him all the detailed abuse at the hands of my father. “Look here, age 12, deep lacerations across my back and thighs, that was his belt buckle.”

“Look here, age 13, a broken arm from when he pushed me down the stairs after he found out I took some bread without asking, here, age 13, perforated ear drum from being punched in the head, again, how dare I ask for some water, here, the loss of two teeth where he kicked me too hard, that was because he had no more beer and it was my fault.”

Callum is pale, his eyes wander from injury to injury. “Vanessa I.” I don’t let him finish. “This next file is from when I was in high school, look here, broken fingers from having books slammed on my hands. I have Roman to thank for that. here, a 2-inch scar in my hairline from where I was punched so hard while in the shower after gym, I fell and hit my head That was Kimberly Parish who did that. Here, cigarettes burn, 16 in total that start from my right hip down to my thigh. that was Roman and his buddy Zander.”

“Again, that’s not all, there was a shit ton more, but guess who was behind it all Callum.” he looks at me as a tear rolls down his cheek. “That’s right, Jessa, the same Jessa your father is adamant you should marry. Shall I continue.” I see his silence as a yes.

“This last file is after my rape, look here, internal bleeding, in other words I was raped so brutally my insides split open, bruises and bleeding to my upper torso as well as my inner thighs, that’s from being punched and bitten, swollen eyes, split lips, broken nails, hair loss, that was me trying but failing to fight back, and 47 lacerations made by a knife, 24 of those required stitching, because clearly punching me wasn’t enough anymore.” I’m heaving when I finish.

“Vanessa. Fuck…God I’m so sorry…I’m sorry for everything.” he runs his hands through his hair in frustration “Why do you have the original files? Why did my father send me fake ones? I’m so confused.” It’s a fair question, I’m confused too.

“I have these Because I didn’t trust anyone, after the two people responsible got to walk away. I needed to protect all evidence, and it was only because my aunt was dating my surgeon that she was able to get her hands on the files. The same surgeon I might add who repaired my back passage after HE ripped me apart”?

“Vanessa I’m.” I hold up my hand, “I don’t want to hear your sorry, sorry never got me anywhere. When I tuned 17, I tried to kill myself, and then I tried again and again and again. It was only after spending time in Henderson that I learned how to heal. I got myself together and with my aunts help I graduated college and moved here with Beth.”

My own face is wet now, but just to prove everything I just told him I whip my shirt off over my head so he can see the worst of my scars. From my neck down my breasts, my ribs and over my stomach. More deeper ones across both hips, some scars are more prominent but they are all ugly, a mixture between pink and silver.

“This is what I was left with Callum, get a good look. It’s disgusting and I have to look at it every damn day. Your father has false files and is lying to you. I hope all this was worth it.”

“What? Vanessa Jesus baby, fuck. I didn’t believe him, he just confused me, he’s being doing it my whole life. I’m so fucking sorry it had to come to this.” me fucking too. “Please don’t shut down on me again, I can’t lose you now, I’m going to make this right baby I promise you that, I’m going to find out who did this to you and I’m going to make it right.”

I shake my head as a sob escapes me. “You could have just believed me.” my whole body is shaking with rage and hurt. “You could have just believed me.” I whisper again before standing up straight. “Goodbye Callum, please get the fuck out of my house and don’t ever come back.” his shoulders drop in defeat because he knows that he’s lost me.

“I’m going to make this right, I promise you Vanessa, I won’t lose you, I won’t.” he walks to the door and looks at me one last time “I believed you; I never doubted you for a second. I let my father get in my head and I know I just royally fucked everything up and I’m so, so sorry, but I’m going to fix it, fix us.” he leaves and shuts the door.

My heart is breaking, and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to drink because that gets me know where. So, I sink to the floor and quietly sob for what feels like hours. When it’s dark outside I climb the stairs and crawl into bed. Just when I think something good comes along, someone comes along and rips it all away.

Well fuck him, fuck his father and fuck everything else. He made his choice when he came here. Now he can deal with the consequences. Beth is going to lose her shit when I tell her, she may even kill him for real this time.

22: Callum

It’s been a month since I last saw Vanessa. She doesn’t even sit on her porch anymore. I miss her every day, her smile, her quick wit and her blunt tone. But I miss her kisses, her warm body against mine when she cuddles me. I miss sleeping next to her and hearing her soft snores.

“You good Cal, your distracted today.” Buxton is beside me as we finish the last of the dividing walls in the basement. “Yeah, I’m good man. I’m also sad and angry with myself still but yeah, I’m good.” he nods, and we finish putting in the last few nails.

Josh chooses that moment to come over and he’s holding his phone in his hand. He and Beth are stronger than ever and after what happened with Vanessa and me, she refuses to come to my house now. I don’t blame her. I hurt her friend, which she reminds me of whenever I see her.

“I’m going to sleep at Beths tonight. I don’t want to make it awkward for her, your, my bro and everything but” I wave my hand at him dismissively. “I get it man, it’s cool. I’m just going to sit home a brood anyway.” Josh nods and types something on his phone.

“You still writing her letters.” Buxton asks as he hands me a bottle of water. It’s so damn hot down here until we get the air con installed. “Yep, every damn day for a month.” I decided to keep writing even though she has yet to write me back.

“I send her text messages too, but as of a few days ago she blocked my number.” that hurt more than not getting a letter back. “Just keep on it, open up to her.” he thinks by giving her something personal about me it will bring us back together.

“I don’t even know if she’s even reading the damn letters.” I finish my water and start to pack up. “She reads them.” Josh speaks from behind me. “How do you know she reads them.” Josh gives me a what the fuck look. “Dude, I have ears.”

“I know you don’t like talking about it, but how is she.” Josh has said from the beginning he didn’t want to be the middleman and I respect that. “She’s good man, she’s just working and doing her own thing.” well at least she’s not rocking in a corner somewhere. I would never forgive myself if I was the one who made her lose it again.

“Don’t suppose if I asked you to tell her I miss her, you would?” He gives me the eyes. The eyes that say I love you but no. “I’m sorry, I just miss her so damn much.” Josh squeezes my shoulder in support. “We no brother and all I’ll say is have patience.” I give him a look to which he replies. “I have ears dude.”

We all walk outside into the fresh air, it’s one month till Christmas and after everything that’s happened, Kyle made me cancel the vacation which gutted me. My father calls and yells at me more and more. I yell back. I’ve called him out for lying about what he’s done to Vanessa, saying he is sick and twisted and all for the name of power.

He was so angry I didn’t turn up to my own engagement party he had mom call me and basically sob down the phone. Jessa thank goodness has had the decency to stay away. Now that it’s been confirmed that our brother is coming for Christmas and is staying for a whole month, both Kyle and I are on tender hooks.

Maybe talking about Cane is my way back in with Vanessa. Maybe if she knows to truth about mine and Kyle’s childhood. But I don’t want her to think I’m doing it to make her feel guilty.

“You both fancy grabbing some beer on the weekend, I need a distraction.” Buxton nods and so does Josh. “Sure man, we got you brother.” they both pat me on the back as we all part ways. I’m working on my own tomorrow to start on Mrs. Kingsley’s porch.

Once home I have a shower and grab some food. Vanessa is yet again not on her porch, and it kills me she won’t even let me see her doing something as simple as drinking coffee. But she did warn me that day and I didn’t listen.

I grab my pen and my notebook and decide it’s time for Vanessa to know the real me. All the dark ugly parts that I have buried a long time ago. Before I start my phone tells me I have a message.

Ky: hey brother, just a heads up. Dad is coming to yours this Sunday and he’s bringing our brother.

Oh fuck.

Me: what the fuck dude, call me now.

This can’t be happening; how did I not know he was already here. My phone rings and I answer straight away.

“Before you go off on me, I only just found out he was in town.”

“He’s here already, fuck Ky, what are our parents thinking? Why is he here early”?

“Fuck knows but as long as I don’t have to see him, I’ll be fine, mom keeps on about a family dinner, fuck no to that.”

What a shit show. Our brother coming here early is a clear manipulation on our father’s behalf. He still doesn’t know that our vacation has been cancelled and thinks he’s being clever getting Cane to come early.

“So why is he coming here then? What could I possibly have done wrong now? I don’t want Cane in my house or anywhere near me.”

“I’m sorry Cal, I just thought I would warn you.”

“I know and thanks by the way, I’ve been ignoring dads calls for a couple of weeks now.”

“Oh, I know, I get it in the neck every time he can’t get hold of you.”

“Fuck, I’m sorry Ky.”

“Don’t be, just watch out for Cane when he’s there, you know what he’s like and I would keep him away from Vanessa.”

Even though we aren’t together anymore, Kyle still holds hope in his heart that she will forgive me. He too told me to open up to her.

“Thanks bro, hey what are your plans for Saturday night? Wanna come join me and the guys for a few beers.”

“Fuck yes, sounds like a plan, just don’t let me stay and get caught there when Cane and dad arrive.”

“I’ve got you little bro, always. Love you, see you soon.”

Love you too Cal, Seeya.”

Cane will be here on Sunday, why would dad bring him here? I need a drink. A strong one. Once that’s poured, I start my letter to Vanessa. Now is a good a time as any to explain Cane and what he put me and Kyle through as kids.

23: Vanessa

“So how many letters does that make so far?” Beth called in to see me an hour ago and is currently reading through some of my letters from Callum.

“33, I haven’t had todays one yet” I say as I hand her a cookie to dunk in her milk. She requested it instead of coffee. “And you haven’t replied to a single one.” I shake my head no. She sighs loudly. “Can I read some out loud.” I nod for her to knock herself out.

She clears her throat.

Vanessa

It’s been 5 days since I’ve seen you. I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I’m asking for it anyway. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve beaten myself up for that day. Me and my Father are not talking at all, he’s a lying snake and I should have known better than to listen to him. Please talk to me, a letter, a text, anything.

Your Callum x

some would say, “that was sweet.”, “shame when I saw him, I didn’t actually see any bruises on him. I could do a better job.” Beth sniggers and I smile. “Ok next.” she picks up another.

Vanessa

Its day 12 and I’m seriously going out of my mind not being able to see you or talk to you. I’m a fucking idiot. If you met my father, you would understand. I still haven’t spoken to him, and I don’t plan too. I will keep apologizing until the end of time if I could just have you back in my life. Please, please forgive me. I miss you.

Your Callum

“So now he’s begging, this is getting good.” Beth smiles. I huff and give her another. They get more and more pleading as they go.

Vanessa

Please baby, it’s been 20 days without you, that’s nearly two whole weeks and I miss you so much. I’m not speaking to my father ever again. ok maybe now I’m acting like a spoilt child, but please. I’ve called him a lying piece of shit daily. I’ve also seen my lawyer and got some safety nets in place. My father fights dirty. Please write back, anything, even if it’s to tell me to fuck off. Text me and tell me what an asshole I am. Shout at me when I drive past or throw eggs at my van. Anything.

Yours Callum x

“Now he sounds pathetic in a sweet kind of way.” she snorts and so do I, “so why haven’t you egged his van, or shouted at him.” she gives me that look. “Because he wants a reaction and he’s not getting it, this is torture for him and it’s what he deserves.” she nods and picks up another letter.

Vanessa

Today is Saturday and being 26 days of not seeing your beautiful face or hearing your beautiful voice. I’m an idiot, a moron, I took you for granted and totally disregarded your thoughts and feelings over my own. Like I said, I’m an idiot. Work is crazy at the minute, which is good because all I think about is you. Josh and Beth are together all the time now and it makes me so mad at myself for throwing away what we could have had. So yeah, I’m an idiot and I’m also sad and mad at myself. Please write back, hell maybe you aren’t even reading these stupid things. I miss you always.

Ps, please unblock my number.

Your Callum x

That one almost sounded like a cry for help when I read it. He sounds like he’s struggling, and I didn’t like it. “Do you think you’ll ever forgive him.” Beth looks at me with sad eyes. “In all honesty I don’t know, he hurt me by not trusting me. With no trust there is no relationship.” Beth nods in understanding.

“Ok well I better head off, Josh is staying again tonight, and he will be at mine in like 15 minutes.” she gets up and empties her glass in the sink. “He’s taking me to meet his father next Friday, I’m so nervous.” at least Josh has a normal father, well from what I’ve heard. “Just be yourself, if Josh likes you that’s all that matters.” she smiles and hugs me as we walk to the door.

Bending down Beth picks up what looks like my newest letter and frowns. “This one feels a hell of a lot thicker.” I take it from her and agree. “As much as I still want to murder him, I still say he’s one of the good ones.” I kiss her cheek and wave her goodbye.

I take the letter into the living room and get comfortable. As much as he hurt me, I still enjoy getting his letters and I do miss him. I rip open the envelope and pull out the letter.

Vanessa

This letter is going to be a little different. You have been nothing but honest with me from the start and I threw it back in your face. Again, I’m so fucking sorry. I want to be honest with you, and what I’m about to tell you is not easy for me. You see you’re not the only one to go through a traumatic experience. Myself and my brother Kyle also suffered abuse at a young age at those hands of a family member.

Oh my god, I was not expecting this.

That family member was our older brother Cane. And no not everyone knows we have an older brother. Kyle and I chose to bury our past a long time ago, but with our brother back for the holidays I feel now would be a good time to open up to you.

I need a coffee before I continue, both Callum and his brother Kyle were abused as children by their oldest brother Cane, my heart already wants to reach out to them both. Coffee in hand I continue reading.

Cane is 6 years older than me, and he was always a bully, he was rough and uncaring, spiteful and cruel. We later found out he is a diagnosed sociopath with narcissistic tendencies and unfortunately for Kyle and me he was also a sexual predator.

I think I’m going to be sick. Poor Callum, poor Kyle. He was their brother.

I don’t know the exact moment Cane went from hurting us to touching us sexually, but it started with Kyle first when he was around 8. He would make Kyle cry all the time and when I came into a room, Cane would leave while doing up his pants. Sometimes I would walk in on Cane pinning Kyle down on the floor. My young brain thought they were, play fighting. But I now know it was Cane holding Kyle down so he could touch him where he shouldn’t. My youngest brother was feisty and always put up a good fight, but Cane was stronger.

He started to come into my room at night. I was 10 at the time. He would cuddle me at first, he was almost nice. Then he moved to touching me and eventually getting me to touch him. I told my mother, and she said its Canes way of loving me. I never mentioned it again. This way of life continued for a couple of years until Cane was eventually sent away to join the army at 18.

His own mother could have stopped it, but she didn’t. Why?

I’m not telling you this because I want to bond over trauma, I’m telling you this because I admire your Bravery. I admire the fuck out of you for going through what you did and still turning out a decent human being. I miss you with everything that is me. And if you want to know more or ask me any questions then write me a letter back, or text me (please unblock my number) I’ll answer everything as honestly as I can.

Yours Callum x

I’m, crying so hard for them both. I can’t even begin to imagine what they went through. He says I turned out a decent human being, but so did he, and although I’ve only met Kyle once, he too seems like a nice guy. The thing is now, what do I do?

24: Callum

Its late and I should go to bed. Pouring my heart out in a letter to Vanessa took its toll on me. It opened old wounds and ripped my heart in to pieces. As Kyles older brother I should have protected him more, I should have tried to get my mother to listen to me more.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

I get up off the sofa and head for the front door. I can’t contain my emotions when I open the door and there stands Vanessa in a baggy top and some tiny sleep shorts.

“Vanessa.” I choke out her name as a sob leaves my mouth. The next thing I know she’s in my arms. Her body wrapped around mine in a tight embrace. “I’m so sorry Callum.” she hugs me tighter and I lift her up, so she has no choice but to wrap her legs around my waist.

I walk us over to the sofa and sit down with Vanessa still on my lap, leg’s either side. “Why are you saying sorry baby, you have nothing to be sorry for.” she gives me a half smile. “I’m sorry I pushed you away, I tend to do that a lot, I get scared.” I can’t help but kiss her.

“I’m scared to baby; I’m scared of how quickly I fell in love with you.” I hear her gasp as she leans back to look in my eyes. “How? You don’t hardly know me and all I’ve done is, be rude and push you away.” I can’t help but smile at her. “That is the exact reason I fell in love with you, your you and your unashamed to show it.”

“Vanessa, let me love you. Please” she has tears in her eyes as she clutches my arms, after a few beats she nods. “Ok Callum, last chance to show each other that we can do this. No more bullshit. We trust each other one hundred percent, or we walk away.” I nod and kiss her deeply.

Feeling brave I pull the hem of her shirt up expecting her to stop me, but she doesn’t. When her body comes into view, I can’t help but run my hands over her soft skin. Even with her scars raised and bumpy, they are all smooth and beautiful. “This ok, for me to touch you like this.” She nods and lets me explore her flesh.

“You have seen the worst of them now. I don’t need to hide them from you anymore.” her voice is so quiet I almost missed it. I bring her body closer and kiss the skin around her neck and collar. She makes the cutest little noises.

I slide my hands up her back and the raised scars there are more prominent. “Is it too much for you, do you want me to stop.” she’s shaking, shivering. “No. Please keep going Cal, p-please keep g-going.” I can’t do any more right now than wrap my arms around her and comfort her.

She starts to lift my own shirt up and I help her to take it off. “You’re a beautiful man Callum, has anyone ever told you that.” she runs her delicate fingers down my chest over my pecks and onto my stomach making me shiver. “I’ve been called a lot of things, never beautiful.” she matches my smile.

She looks at me for a few seconds, her eyes flitting between mine. She leans forward and kisses me. She encourages my hands back on her body and I dont put up a fight. I unclip her bra and slide it down her arms throwing it down beside us.

Her breasts are magnificent, they fit perfectly in my hands. She lets out a small moan when I pull on her nipples gently. “Oh wow. That feels good.” She’s breathing hard, her chest rises, and that motion pushes her breasts deeper into my hands and I can’t help but lean forward and suck a nipple into my mouth.

“Cal, oh god Cal.” she’s squirming on my lap now and my cock is hard as rock. She must realize because she looks down and her eyes go wide. “Can I..” she swallows before she continues. “Can I… touch you.” she looks down again and who the hell am I to deny her.

“All you got to do is pull the string and reach inside baby.” I have decided to let her take the lead. She’s in charge here. She leans back slightly and reaches down for the string on my sweatpants. I’m not wearing any underwear so she’s in for a surprise when she looks inside.

“Oh my God, Cal, that’s… that’s.” she can’t form words as she looks at my cock. My heart swells and so does my tight balls when she strokes a finger from the base of my cock to the head. “Baby, why don’t you take it out so you can see it better.” I keep my voice gentle.

She does exactly that. The feeling of her hand wrapped around my cock is heavenly. She even starts to stroke me and I almost cum on the spot her eyes never leaving mine. My body shivers and she smile at me leaning down to kiss me again. “Do you like me touching you Cal.” her voice is a sexy purr. “Best feeling in the world baby.”

She starts to slide her shorts down her legs, and I so shocked I don’t move to help her. But when I see how determined she is I realize she doesn’t want or need my help. “Is this ok.” she’s asking me if its ok for her to be naked. “It’s more than ok baby; you’re in charge here not me. Do whatever you want to me.”

She beams down at me and slides herself along my shaft making me groan in pleasure. She wraps her hands around my neck and kisses me, never stopping her slow thrusts. “Baby, you’re going to make me cum if you keep going.” she smiles against my mouth. “Good because I’m going to cum too, you make me feel so safe and loved.”

She picks up her speed her breathing matching her movements. my hands can’t help wandering all over her body. She’s hot and sweaty from her grinding and her breathing is faster now. “Cal. Oh god Cal I’m.” she doesn’t finish as her body begins to tremble.

My balls are drawn up ready to explode. “Don’t stop, fuck. Don’t stop baby.” She grinds against me, the feeling of her hot center rubbing against me is so damn hot. Who knew. This feeling seems more intimate than actually being inside her.

She cries out my name as she reaches her peak, her moans and pants against my lips push me over the edge and I too cum from her wild rocking, thick ropes of cum splash across my stomach. “Fuck baby, that feels so good.” she slows down when I shudder beneath her. “That was… my god baby. that was amazing.” she smiles and kisses me. I’m in awe of her.

I slide my top over her head, and we walk up to my bedroom hand in hand. “I just need to wash up before bed. Do you need anything” I ask her as she stops in the bathroom doorway. “No, I’m good. Just do your thing and I’ll wait in bed for you.” I kiss her head and off she goes.

It feels like a dream to have her here. Hell, maybe it is. Once I’ve cleaned myself up, I walk into my bedroom to see Vanessa curled up under the sheets. I can’t help but stand and stare. She looks so beautiful and peaceful. I slide in behind her and pull her close. I’m still naked and so is her bottom half.

“Good night baby, I love you.” I kiss her neck and breath her in. Just when I think she’s asleep and not going to answer, she speaks, soft and gentle “I love you too Cal.” she relaxes in my arms, and I know that now, she’s asleep. She loves me too. I’m not fucking this up again.

25: Vanessa

I wake to a note on the pillow again. I’m still at Callum’s because after our little make out session I was exhausted. I smile at the memory of what I did. Grinding on Callum’s dick until I got off and got him off. it was wild and totally not me. but by God did it feel good. I roll over and sit up taking the note with me I make my way downstairs and into the Livingroom.

Vanessa

Sorry for leaving, but I promised Mrs. Kingsley’s I would start on her porch today. I only plan to be a few hours so please, make yourself at home. or feel free to go home and shower, or shower at mine, whatever you want. god I sound like an idiot. just do what makes you feel comfortable baby. I will see you in a few hours.

I love you x.

Your Callum x

I love the sweet side of him; it’s so fucking cute. I wander into the kitchen and look around. his home is beautiful, but somewhat cold and clinical. I make a mental note to help him warm it up. I open some cupboards and see he has a top of the range mixer. I almost squeal with delight. I bring it down and suddenly an idea hits me. I want to make him some muffins and then I’ll walk them to Mrs. Kingsley’s. its Saturday after all and it’s my day to venture out.

The muffins came out fantastic. the house smells of Banana, cinnamon and Vanilla. I find a container in another cupboard and once I’ve cleaned up, I take them next door to mine so I can get dressed. the walk to Mrs. Kingsley is only 5 or 6 minutes. the sun is shining and I’m wearing my favorite purple sun dress. it covers me in all the right places and flows down to the floor.

Mrs. Kingsley sees me first and waves. I wave back and that’s when Callum lifts his head to see who has Mrs. Kingsley’s attention. “Well hello Vanessa, fancy seeing you here pretty girl.” I love Mrs. Kingsley, she’s a young soul in an older woman’s body, and she’s not afraid to tell you how it is. “What brings you to my neck of the woods sugar.” I smile up at her as Callum wipes his hands on a rag.

“I’m here to bring some muffins to my boyfriend.” both Callum and Mrs. Kingsley stare opened mouthed as I get to the bottom step of the porch. “Callum Peterson, when you said your new woman was beautiful and smart, with a killer body and a Sharpe wit. I did not think for a second think it would be this gorgeous lady right here.” I blush and look at Callum who wanders down the step and kisses me right in front of Mrs. Kingsley.

“You brought me muffins hmm.” he hums in my ear and the sound travels to my core. I nod like a fool in love. “Well come on up and let’s see what you brought me. I could use a break anyway.” I kiss him again and he leads me up the steps, carefully I might add because he’s still fixing them. “Oh, how wonderful to have some company. I’ll just go and make some tea.” Mrs. Kingsley is up and gone before I can say a word.

we spent another hour at Mrs. Kingsley’s. we had another cup of tea and even had the added company of Mrs. Ferdinand when she popped over to say hi. I’ve never wanted to be a part of this town, I always felt I should hate the people here and keep myself locked away. but even when I was sitting there watching Callum work and listening to the two older ladies talk, I felt at peace. I don’t know if that Callum’s doing, but I liked it all the same.

Once we leave, Callum drives us home. “Those two old ladies will be me and Beth in a few years.” Callum laughs like I’ve told the best joke. “Baby you’re like 24, it’s going to be over thirty years before you consider yourself old.” I sigh because he’s right. “Do you think their happy though.” I can’t help but wonder if they are lonely. “Baby, Mrs. Ferdinand is the happiest She’s ever been since she kicked out her husband. and Mrs. Kingsley was in an abusive relationship up until she was in her late forties.”

“I knew Mr. Ferdinand was cheating on her. Beth works in the office next door to the bank.” he was a slimy piece of shit, always chatting up the females who came in. “yeah she told us, I think she always knew, but one day she just snapped.” I sigh again as we pull up at Callum’s house. “You want to stay and have to drinks with me and the boys tonight.” I pull a face as if to say fuck no.

Callum laughs and takes my face in his hands and kisses me gently. “I guess that told me huh.” I smile. “Sorry but I have some very important things to do tonight, and I can’t neglect Beth if Josh is with you. “Well considering this night was meant for cheering me up. now it will just be a night of drinking and chatting shit. I’ll be surprised if Josh lasts the whole night.”

“Well, whatever its for just keep the noise down. I would hate to have to come over and tell you off again.” I give him a wink as he picks me up and walks me over to my house. “Can I sneak over when they all leave or pass out.” I nod and kiss him. “I’ll leave the back door open for you but make some noise and let me know it’s you please.” He smiles and puts me down at my front door.

“Thank you for the muffins today and I promise to call out as I sneak in later.” we share a longer kiss, and he may or may not have grabbed my ass in the process. “I love you baby. thank you for last night and for giving me another chance.” he is so Sincear when he speaks. “I really do love you Cal, and thanks for letting me stay over, and for… the other stuff. please don’t break my heart.” I can’t help but blush up at him as he grins from ear to ear. “Never baby, not possible.” only time will tell I suppose.

“Go on you big oof. go get ready for your boys’ night. I’ll see you later.” he kisses me again and walks back towards his house only turning once to give me a wicked smile. I really should pop into town to do some grocery shopping, but I really can’t be bothered. Just as I step inside, I get a call from Beth who indeed informs me she will be over in about an hour for some drinks and a movie.

26: Callum

the boys have been here for over two hours, and we have approached the topic of my love life on and off. we have discussed Buxton being a father and Josh talks about taking Beth to visit his father next week. our current topic is why Kyle is still single considering he’s a good-looking bastard, Josh’s words not mine. It’s been just what I needed, and even though Vanessa and I have sorted our differences, I needed this night with the guys.

My phone pings with an unknown number.

Unknown; looking forward to seeing you tomorrow little bro. long time no see or is that long time no feel.

I feel physically sick. my eyes wander to Kyle who’s talking with Buxton, Cane always has to taunt me and bring up painful memories. the worst one was when he made me suck him off and he finished in my mouth. I was sick afterwards and he laughed as he walked away. How the hell I’m supposed to be in the same room as him tomorrow without killing him is beyond me.

“Cal… Yō Cal. you ok buddy, you went white as a sheet.” I shake my head to clear my thoughts. “Yeah sorry. just a lot on my mind, I’m good.” Kyle looks at me with concern and Buxton stands up. “I’m going to head off man, Lacey is nearly ready to pop, and I don’t like being too far from her.” I nod and rise too and pat him on the shoulder putting my phone away, so Kyle doesn’t see. “it’s all good man, thanks for coming and shooting the shit with us.” he laughs as Josh stands and walks over. “Take it easy bro, oh and I hear good hard sex gets the women into labor.” he winks at Buxton who rolls his eyes.

after a few shots, Kyle and Josh decided to have a dance off and it was the funniest thing I’ve ever seen. I stopped drinking an hour ago so I’m currently drinking soda. eventually Josh and Kyle grow to tired and to drunk. I help Kyle inside and into the spare room that he uses more often than not. Josh has called Beth and she’s on her way over. she hasn’t hissed at me yet for hurting her friend, so I’m hoping I don’t run into her now.

I walk around the back of Vanessa’s house and open the back door. I tug off my boots and drop them loudly. “it’s me baby.” I call up to her when I’ve locked the door and headed for the stairs. “I’m coming up the stairs now.” I call again and that’s when I hear her soft giggle. “I didn’t mean I wanted a running commentary of you coming in the house.” she chuckles again as I push open her door.

“Well, I was being polite, so be quiet and accept that I’m thoughtful.” she laughs and moves over when I sit on the edge of the bed. “Are you getting in or are you going to sit there all night.” I don’t need to be asked twice. I pull my top off and lower my jeans, leaving my black boxer shorts on. I climb into bed and Vanessa instantly cuddles up to my side.

“This is what I missed when you blocked me out.” I sigh as I try to make a joke of it. “I did not block you out Mr. you hurt me, and you know it.” she jabs my side, and I curl around her as I jab her back. “you’re the most stubborn, rude, frustrating women I’ve ever met. but your also beautiful, caring and brave.” I kiss her, and she melts against me while my hands travel lower over her curves. “Baby you’re not wearing any underwear.” I moan into her mouth.

“I want you to make love to me Callum, I’m ready.” she looks up at me with a serious face, and I can see determination in her eyes. “If you’re sure Baby, I don’t want to hurt you.” she smiles up at me and brings my face down for a kiss. she removes her top and then helps me remove my underwear.

“Slow down baby, let me love you.” I run my hands down her body and feel every inch of her skin. I touch her between her legs and feel how wet she is. she purrs and whines against me until I slip my cock inside her pussy for the first time. she feels like heaven and when she gasps, I have to stop. “You ok baby, am I hurting you.” she shakes her head left and right. “No, Callum don’t stop, please keep going.” I look at her face and see a slight blush.

I move my hips and make love to her slowly. she kisses me senseless and when I rub her clit between our bodies, I feel her orgasm begin to bloom, her body shudders when she reaches her peak, and this brings me to my own release. “Fuck, Jesus Christ, that was so good baby.” I kiss her with want and need. I’m never letting her go, she’s mine. we fall asleep with me behind her and her back to my front.

…………………………………

The next morning I’m up early because I don’t know what time my father is coming, and I need to get Kyle up. but once I get home he’s already gone and left a note saying he will call me later. after a shower I dress and put on the coffee pot. I hear my dad’s car before I see it. a big SUV with blacked out windows rolls up the drive and I have to scoff at the whole situation.

when I see dad step out of the car, I let out a soft sigh thinking maybe he’s alone. but then Cane steps out too, in his dark jeans and light blue polo. he looks like a catwalk model, and I hate it, I hate him. they approach the house and instead of knocking they both just walk right in. “Callum, you up son.” oh dads got his cheery voice on today.

“I’m in the kitchen.” I call out but not too loud. “Ah there you are, Cane come say hi to you brother it’s been too long since you’ve seen each other.” Cane walks in the kitchen, a pillar of confidence and arrogance. “Hey little bro, good to see you after all this time. Dad tells me you’re doing alright for yourself.” he smirks and looks up and down my body like he’s remembering all the dirty things he made me do.

“I’m doing good, I have the house, my own business, and now a steady relationship.” my father snaps his head my way. “You’re seriously still pursuing this Vanessa girl.” I really don’t understand his problem with her. “Yes dad, I am, I told you time and time again, I won’t Marry Jessa.” he waves a hand in the air to stop me. “don’t worry about that, Cane is going to marry her instead.” Cane has a grin on his face but there’s no emotion behind his eyes.

“Then why come all the way here, why not just call me and tell me this.” dad looks around. “Because as much as Cane has got me out of a bad spot, I still don’t want you with that Vanessa girl. She’s trouble and I’m here because you haven’t been answering my calls and you haven’t seen your brother for over three years.” I’m starting to get angry now and that’s not good.

“I’ve not seen Cane for over three years for a very good reason dad, and you know this. I don’t fucking like him, and I don’t fucking want him in my house.” my father scoffs. “Still going with the poor Callum routine are we.” my mouth falls open in shock. “Are you being serious right now.” I’m practically shouting now. “I know we don’t get along Cal, but I want to make it up to you, apologize for all the shit I put you through in the past.”

Is he for fucking real. “Just get out, both of you. I’m angry and I’m going to say something I don’t regret, so please leave.” Dad pats Cane on the shoulder like they are best friends, and it pisses me off. “I told you It wouldn’t work, and he still won’t forgive me.” oh please, Cane going for the sympathy vote now.

“Your mother wants you to join us for the engagement dinner next weekend, it’s just family only.” Cane smirks and I look away. “Well Vanessa is my family now so either she comes with me or none of us come at all.” they walk out of the house with my dad grumbling about disrespect as they climb in the car, and I let out a long exhale. that was far too intense, and completely unnecessary.

27: Vanessa

the last few days have been like a dream. I have spent so much time with Callum its crazy. Beth was over the moon when I told her we had agreed to try again. she basically clapped and threw herself on me in excitement. Her and Josh have decided to move in together and right now that’s her small apartment in town, but hopefully they can get something bigger in the new year.

Christmas is only three weeks away, and since thanksgiving was a complete bust. I plan to make Christmas special. Beth has already asked me when we are shopping for a tree. I have never had one before, choosing to spend time with Beth at her small apartment was always our thing. and that was only because the lights are so pretty in town, and we were being cheap with decorations.

Callum has been off ever since his father and older brother visited. he told me time and time again he didn’t want me near his brother. but now that the engagement to Jessa has been passed onto cane, Callum has been asked to bring me to the engagement dinner on Saturday. I don’t particularly want to meet his dad or his mom, and certainly not Cane. but I will do this for Callum.

“Hey baby, sorry I’ve been in my own head lately.” Callum walked through the door 5 minutes ago and wrapped me up in his arms. “You don’t need to apologize to me, I know your family are…. different and uncaring, and… God Callum how do you do it. how do you speak to them and pretend with them when all I want to do is rip them all to shreds.”

Callum chuckles but holds me tighter. “Years of practice baby. but I promise you once the dinner is over, we never have to see them again. Kyle is in agreement with me, it’s just too much.” I kiss his soft lips and hold him close. “I love you Callum, always.” he smiles and pulls me down on his lap. “Love you more baby.”

………………………………………..

Turns out we didn’t need to worry about the engagement party because Jessa’s dad cancelled the dinner with the agreement to rearrange. that was nearly a month ago and Christmas has been and gone. Callum and I spent Christmas with Beth and Josh. Kyle and his new girlfriend, Sarah. we had turkey with all the trimmings. I made a pumpkin pie and Beth made Cocktails instead of eggnog.

Callum bought me a beautiful silver necklace with a heart and a key hanging from the chain. it was a beautiful moment when he explained the heart is his and the key is mine. whenever I feel overwhelmed, I can take the key and open the heart and that’s where I’ll find all of Callum’s love and support. so cheesy but I loved it. I in return gave him a silly keyring and an actual key to my front door. he was over the moon.

Now its New Year’s Eve and I’m getting ready for our evening of BBQ and bonfire with everyone invited. Even Buxton and Lacey are coming. Lacey gave birth to their daughter 8 weeks ago and she’s the spitting image of her mother. much to Buxton’s annoyance. Lacey fit in well with me and Beth, her calm but funny nature and the way she is so chill has me in awe of her. even Kyles new women Sarah is chill.

“Thanks for inviting me, not everyone wants a screaming baby around when you’re trying to celebrate and chill.” I look at Lacey and see the way she holds little Mazy. my own stomach is in knots, and I don’t know why. “We wouldn’t have it any other way. your part of the family now, and so is this little lady.” I run my finger down her little arm, and she instantly grips my finger.

“She likes you.” I smile at Lacey. “Well, I glad someone does. come on let’s get this beer to the pack of wolves.” we make our way outside and I find Callum and sit down on his lap. Beth winks at me from where she’s cuddles up to Josh. “5 minutes guys and then it will be another new year.” Kyle looks up at the sky where some fireworks have already been set off, and we all watch in silence.”

“10, 9, 8, 7. 6.” we are counting down as Callum holds me in his arms. “5, 4, 3, 2. Happy new year baby.” Callum kisses me deeply and I love the way he makes me feel. I’m here now surrounded with family and friends because of him. “Happy new year Cal, oh and I’m pregnant.” he smiles and then his face drops. “Are you serious? tell me your serious right now.” he doesn’t know if I’m joking or not.

“I’m serious, I’m 5 weeks pregnant, you’re going to be a daddy” he lifts me up and spins me around. “Holy shit, everyone, listen up. I’m going to be a father, Vanessa is pregnant.” Kyle bounds up to me first and hugs me tight. “you’ve made him the happiest man in the world V.” he uses my nickname that Beth gave me. “he’s made me happy too Ky.” I use the nickname Callum does for him.

Callum comes back to my side when everyone has said congratulations. “I’m so happy baby. but there is something I want to know.” I spin around and see he’s now on the floor in front of me. he’s holding a box open with a small diamond ring inside. “Vanessa Helana Kinny will you please marry me and make me the happiest man in the world.” I nod and nod and nod, I can’t form words because it feels like I’m not in my own body anymore.

I’m picked up and twirled and then kissed. “God, I love you and I can’t wait to marry you and see what our first baby will look like.” he’s so happy, I feel like I’m floating on a cloud. Beth comes over and throws her arms around us both. “I knew you were made for each other. I love you both.” Josh comes over too. “I love you all too. in fact, this is the closest I’ve had to a family since my mom died. my dad is awesome, but you all make me thankful.”

Jesus where did that come from. Josh is never the soppy type. “Come on you big teddy bear. let’s get you home.” Beth helps Josh into the car and they leave. Buxton and Lacey follow soon after and Kyle and Sarah head to Callum’s house. “Funny how we always seem to entertain at my house.” Callum smiles as we head inside. “Because this is where I prefer to be baby.” I spin and fold my arms over my chest.

“Then move in with me. we can live here, and you can rent your house to Kyle or Beth or hell Buxton. he’s desperate to get out of his mother in laws house” Callum walks closer and wraps me in his arms. “I can’t think of anything more perfect that what you just said, yes ill move in and yes I’ll see if Buxton wants to rent my house.”

that was easy. we make our way up to bed and snuggle up together. life is just too good at the minute and I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Callum holds his hand against my stomach and kisses my lips. “Thank you for being you and giving me an awesome gift.” I smile and snuggle in closer to his warm body. “Thank you for wanting to make me your wife.” I find myself under him as Callum makes love to me, we fall asleep in each other’s arms.

28: Callum

Life is good, better than good. I have a beautiful fiancé, and a baby on the way. our first neonatal appointment went well, and Vanessa is now 9 weeks pregnant. hearing the heartbeat for the first time did something to me and I vow to protect the both of them with my life. Now we just have to get through the dinner with my parents and Cane. I hate to put Vanessa in the same room as Jessa, but my mother just won’t let up.

“Still can’t believe we are actually going to this stupid dinner.” Kyle is standing next to me waiting for Vanessa to come downstairs. Sarah is up there with her, helping her get ready. they have become good friends. “Me too, I told mom repeatedly that I didn’t care for Jessa and Cane, but with Jessa’s dad being there also we have to show a united front.” I hate the fact that Vanessa will be surrounded with people who could harm her or have harmed her, but she insisted she’s ok.

The sound of feet on the stairs draws our attention and then I see her. “Holy shit baby, you look fucking fantastic.” she smiles and walks towards me. her long emerald, green dress falls to the floor, and she has some silver sandals in her hand that she has yet to put on. she has the cutest little baby bump, and I can’t wait to see her get bigger. “I feel like a whale Callum.” she huffs but smiles again.

“Baby you look more like an adorable seal pup.” she hits my arm playfully. “That does not make me feel any better.” Both Kyle and Sarah both chuckle. “Come on, lets hit the road, do you need help with your shoes baby.” she smiles and hands them to me. “Thank you, I just can’t bend to far as the dress might split open.” I look down her body and see it sits tight around her middle. but fuck me does she look edible. once that’s done, she grabs the cherry pie she made, and we head for the door.

“You know you didn’t have to bake right.” Kyle teases as we climb into the car. we decided to travel together for moral support. “I know, but I know your mother doesn’t cook so I thought I would show her how a real woman works.” Kyle laughs and I squeeze her thigh as I beam down at her. fuck she’s beautiful and she will be a fantastic mom to our child.

Sarah is quiet the whole drive there. she knows what Kyle and I went through as children because Kyle has informed me that she’s the one. he plans to ask her to marry him soon. She has to finish her Psychology degree first. We arrive at the big gates of our parents’ estate 2 hours later and all in full need to get out of the car. “Wow, such a big house. is your dad compensating for something.” Kyle howls with laughter as I chuckle and kiss her cheek.

“This believe it or not is one of three properties my father owns. he has a huge house in New York and one in the Hamptons.” Vanessa rolls her eyes at me. “Rich people” that’s all she says as we walk towards the front door. Kyle gets there first as the door opens and Tanner our butler from when we were kids greets us with a smile on his face. “My two favorite Petersons, so good to see you.” Kyle embraces the older man, and I do the same.

“Good to see you again old timer.” Tanner smacks Kyle across the back of the head. “Less of the old you little shit, I’m barely out of my fifties.” Vanessa and Sarah are both smiling. “Exactly, that’s like ancient.” he receives another smack, but this one is from Sarah. “Kyle don’t be rude, introduce us so we can get off the front doorstep.” Kyle grabs her side and pulls her close.

“Tanner this is my beautiful girlfriend Sarah, Sarah this is Tanner, a man who has looked after Cal and me since we were in Training pants.” Sarah smiles and shakes his hand he kisses her knuckles, and she blushes. “And this is vanessa.” I pull her close. “She is my fiancé, and we are expecting our first baby.” Tanner is beaming with pride. “Well, I never, both of you boys managed to actually find yourselves pretty girls, good to meet you both.” Vanessa shakes his hand, and he kisses her knuckles just like he did with Sarah.

“Well come on in then. most parties are here. your mother is in the dining room already and your father is in the office with Cane.” he says his name with a grimace. Tanner has known all along about Canes behavior towards us, but I don’t know if he knows about the sexual side of things. I hope for his sake he doesn’t. Vanessa is shaking from my side, and I look to see she is pale.

“Hey, what’s wrong, I’m here with you, you’re doing great.” she smiles but I can see its strained. Kyle and Sarah have already gone to the dining room, so I give Vanessa a moment to calm her nerves. “Ok, I’m ok, I just… God I’m just scared.” she is coming face to face with Jessa, and I don’t blame her for being scared. “Look at me, I promise you now, she will not say a word. If she so much as steps in your direction I will throw her through the nearest window.” she relaxes slightly and nods her head. I kiss her, I need to help her relax.

“Is everything ok. everybody has now been seated in the dining room.” Tanner comes to our side, and he looks at Vanessa and sees she is having a moment. “I’m sorry, I’ll give you a second, there’s no rush.” Vanessa shakes her head and then stands up straight. “No, it’s fine, I’m good. lead the way.” she makes me so fucking proud. we walk hand in hand toward the dining room, and she’s still holding her pie in her other hand. god I love her.

we step into the dining room, and everyone falls quiet. “Callum, sweetheart.” my mother speaks and stands up. “Come sit and let’s catch up.” she’s so fake it’s unreal. Vanessa is silent beside me and when I place my hand on her back, she is physically shaking. when I look down in her eyes, she isn’t looking at me. she isn’t looking at Jessa. she’s looking directly at Cane.

it’s like my world implodes and I know in this very moment that Cane is the one who raped and mutilated Vanessa with the help of Jessa. the pie she’s holding crashes to the floor and my mother gasps. probably worried for her Persian rug. “Baby, look at me.” but she doesn’t. her feet take her backwards in slow measured steps. “Kyle.” I snap “take Vanessa outside.” my eyes lock onto Cane, the son of a bitch who hurt her, the son of a bitch who I’m going to destroy.

“I got her Cal; I’ll take care of her. Sarah, help me please.” Sarah jumps up and rounds the table. “Callum what on earth is going on.” my father’s voice booms around the room. “Callum, Kyle where are you going.” my mother’s shrill voice pierces my ears. Jessa is just as shocked from where she sits. I bet no one told her Vanessa was coming today. “I can’t breathe.” Vanessa is white and in the middle of a panic attack so when Tanner comes into the room, I’m relieved because I know he will have her.

“Will someone explain what just happened, I told you she was trouble Callum, but you wouldn’t listen.” My father has no idea. “SHUT THE FUCK UP.” I yell at the top of my lungs. All the while Cane sits there with no emotion on his face. he has no care in the world to how he’s hurt countless people over the years, but as of today it stops.

29: Vanessa

I can’t think, I can’t breathe. Cane is HIM. HIM is Cane.

“Vanessa darling girl you need to breath for me ok.” who is that. the butler. Tanner. yes, that’s right Tanner. nice man, kind man.

“Look at me, yes that right, good girl. now in, big breath.” I try to follow him, I really do. but I can’t do it. my lung’s wont function.

“Now listen to me, my voice, you can do it. feel my chest, copy me.” my hand is on his chest, he’s firm under my palm. his chest is going up and down, in and out.

“that’s right, good, very good. and again, in and out.” I’m copying him. I’m breathing, I’m ok. I’m breathing in and out, my lungs work just fine.

“Callum.” I choke out the word as Kyle comes into view. “he’s on his way V. just keep breathing, keep following Tanner.” ok I can do that. Tanner the gentle man.

“We need to leave. it’s not safe.” Kyle holds my hands as I whisper the words to him. I manage to calm myself down. my eyes are everywhere. where is he now. is he coming to find me. where are we. can we get out from here.

“We are leaving V, but we need you to calm down, you were having a panic attack, and you have ripped your dress where you fell.” I fell? I don’t remember falling. but I’m on the floor, oh good why am I on the floor. my poor dress.

“Where is he.” I ask not wanting to know but needing to know. “he’s talking to our father, well he’s shouting, my father is shouting back.” he thinks I mean Callum.

“No, where is HE, where is that Monster.” Kyle places his palm on my face, “he’s not here, your safe. this is where Tanner stays, its safe I promise you.” Tanner looks down and me and smiles.

“The boys would come here when it all became too much. your perfectly safe.” I sigh and sit up more. my chest hurts and Sarah hands me some water. I take the glass and sip it slowly.

the door opens and in steps Callum’s mom. her face is pale, and she looks at me with such hate and Vermon. “You filthy whore, get out of my house and stay the fuck away from my son. your lies have ripped my family apart.” I gasp and try to stand. she takes a step forward, but Kyle stands in her way.

“Move away from her. she’s poison and needs to leave. Tanner, remove her from this house now.” Kyle shakes his head no.

“Mom when are you going to open your eyes to the things Cane has done over the years? he’s ruined lives and hurt people, but yet you defend him time and time again, why? why not me and Callum for once in your life, why him?”

Kyle is shaking and I see a tear slide down his cheek. Sarah comforts him and I stand up as carefully as I can with Tanner helping me.

“Get her out now, I don’t want to ever see you in my house. Callum will not be seen with the likes of you.” she is delusional, she’s too far gone to see reason. I step up closer.

“I’m going to marry your son and I’m having his baby. you can’t stop us being together. Your crazy if you can’t see that two of your sons are hurting and yet the one son who is the abuser walks around like a king. your no mother. your just as bad as HIM.” I point to the door to emphasize my meaning. fuck this woman.

“How dare you talk to me like that in my own home. you have no idea what you’re talking about.” I scoff at her, and she widens her eyes at me.

“I know what Cane was doing to his brothers, I know Callum came to you and told you. I know you told him it was Canes way of loving him. you’re sick, your just as bad as HIM. No, your worse because you allowed it to continue.”

she steps closer and raises her hand but Tanner steps in front of me and shakes his head no. she curses and leaves the room.

“Come on, let’s get you all back outside and to the safety of your car.” Tanner is a gentle soul and just having him here with me calms me down. I can hear shouting as we walk down the long hall. I’m not listening though; I’m just trying to make it outside away from HIM.

we make it to the front door as Kyle and Sarah pass through. the door is slammed in my face and Tanner is pushed to the ground. my eyes mover up a body that’s tall and built. HIM.

he’s smiling down at me because he’s taller than me. I step back away as Tanner gets to his feet and tries to move HIM away from me. “Vanessa.” Tanner says my name as Cane turns and punches him in the side of the head, poor Tanner hits the hard floor. Kyle is pounding on the front door trying to get back in, while shouting continues in the dining room.

“Well, well, well. didn’t think I would ever see your juicy fat ass again.” I gag; my insides are on fire from wanting to puke. “Let me guess you want a repeat, but don’t they all, I must say your pussy was one of the best I’ve ever had.” he leans closer and almost touches me with his hand.

“GET. THE. FUCK. AWAY. FROM. HER.” Callum’s voice booms along the hall. my legs threaten to buckle but I stand tall. “Cal.” my whisper is heard as he turns his eyes on me. “Come to me Vanessa, baby.” I step away from Cane expecting him to grab me, but he doesn’t. he seems almost bored.

Kyle comes barreling through the back door as Tanner groans from the floor. Callum’s dad walks up behind us as police sirens sound in the background. “what’s going on, who called the police.”

Callum’s mom comes down the stairs and walks to the front door in a panic. “I did.” we all look towards Jessa. “I called them because the things I just heard and the things I’ve seen I can’t go on like that anymore. one monster can’t marry another. I will tell the police everything.” my hand flies to my mouth.

“Like fuck you will.” Cane pulls out a gun from the inside of his jacket and points it at Jessa. “You will keep your fucking mouth shut.” he pulls the trigger as his mother screams. then he causally walks over her now dead body towards the back door.

everything stops. for me, there is no noise, no lights, no faces and it’s then that I realize I’ve fallen to the floor again and the world goes black.

30: Callum

“Why are you not listening to me, mom knew, I told her.” My father stands rooted to the spot. we have been shouting for over 10 minutes while Tanner and Kyle keep Vanessa safe. Cane left after mom stomped away in a huff after I called him a sexual predator. My father basically yelled in his face and told him he was no longer aloud in the house if we were around. small miracles.

“She never said anything to me Callum, your mother never said a word, do you honestly think I would allow him to keep doing that had I have known.” he looks genuinely shocked by what I’ve told him.

“She told me it was Canes way of loving me dad, she basically gave him permission to carry on, then he was out and about in the world, around people. he’s unsafe dad. he raped Vanessa when she was 16.”

my father sits Down heavily in the chair. “I thought I was sending him away because he was hitting you, I saw how you avoided him, you and Kyle both. he was always so rough; I didn’t know he was abusing you in a different way Callum, I didn’t know.” I sit down in the chair next to him. I believe him.

“I would have done something. I may struggle as a father to do what’s right sometimes, but I would have stopped him doing that. god Callum, you and Kyle were so young, but I would have stopped him somehow.” my father breaks down right in front of me and I pat him on the shoulder. not once does he mention the police, but I’m sure we have lots more to talk about.

I hear a commotion in the hall and my instincts tell me to see if Vanessa is ok. I wanted to go to her sooner, but my father needed to hear the truth, I made him hear every little detail. even if that meant throwing our mom under the bus. dad hears it too and stands with me.

I walk the hall and see Cane standing over Vanessa. she’s shaking and I lose it. “GET. THE. FUCK. AWAY. FROM. HER.” my voice is so loud it, echo’s down the hall. Vanessa looks at me and whispers my name. Cane looks like he doesn’t give to fucks. my father demands to know what’s going on. then I hear it. police sirens in the distance. my mother rushing to the door as Jessa confesses that she called them.

Cane has a gun and is shouting at Jessa, before any of us know what’s going on, he pulls the trigger and Jessa is shot dead in front of us all. my mother screams and I pull Vanessa close to my body. Cane steps over Jessa like the sociopath he is and walks calmly out of the back door.

Tanner has woken up by now and can see the scene before his shocked eyes. Dad is staring down at Jessa’s body while mom whales like a banshee. Vanessa falls limp in my arms as I guide her to the floor. “Holy shit Cal, are you ok? is Vanessa, ok?” Kyle comes to my side with Sarah in tow as I stare at her sleeping form.

“she’s good, just passed out from shock I think.” he looks around. “What the fuck happened.” I hold Vanessa closer as her breathing continues to be even and calm. “Cane shot Jessa, she called the police, wanting to confess about all the shit she had done, Cane shot her to keep her quiet.” Kyle looks at me and then over to Jessa’s lifeless form.

once Vanessa is cleared to leave from where she has been assessed in the back of an ambulance, we head home. Kyle and I both gave statements about what happened, and dad said he would handle the rest. Mom refused to speak to us and didn’t even say goodbye. what a shit show of a day and to top it all off Cane is now AWOL.

…………………………..

SOME TIME LATER.

“You need to push baby, you’re doing so good, push baby, push.” Vanessa bares down and pushes with all her might. she’s been in labor for about 5 hours and she’s tired but with only Gas and air to help her through she’s done an amazing job. “Oh my god, arhhhhh.” she screams as she pushes and then the nurse tells her to breathe deeply while the head is delivered.

the nurse hands me the scissors to cut the cord as our baby begins to cry. “Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Peterson, you have a beautiful baby girl.” the nurse hands the baby to Vanessa, and I kiss her forehead. “Well done baby, I’m so proud of you. look how beautiful she is.” Vanessa looks at our baby in awe. “what’s her name.” the nurse asks as Vanessa lets me hold her.

“Her name is Polly.” Vanessa answers first. “she’s named after Callum’s grandmother.” the nurse smiles and then offers to weigh Polly. she weighs in at 7 pounds and 9 ounces. I take some pictures and we get her dressed after Vanessa pushes out the placenta. Again, I’m in awe of this woman who is my wife.

we married 6 months ago on a beach near palm springs. we took a long vacation, and all of our friends joined us for the special day. Even Josh’s dad came. he is one cool dude if I do say so myself. “let’s get you in the car and let’s get you home.” I kiss Vanessa tenderly and walk her over to the car and help her inside. I take baby Polly from the nurse and strap her in too.

“Thank god they finally let us go; I was going crazy in that room.” I squeeze her leg. “It was literally like 4 hours baby; they have to do that to make sure there’s no complications with you or Polly.” Vanessa smiles and closes her eyes. “I’m so happy Cal and it’s all because of you.” she places her hand on top of mine and squeezes me back.

“You my dear wife, have made me the happiest man alive, I love you baby.” we pull up to a stop light, and I lean over to kiss her lips. “Good because when I can pump milk you are on night feeds.” I chuckle and kiss her again. “Deal, I know you still don’t sleep well because of your nightmares, so Ill happily take over all feeds if that helps.” I wink at her, and she rolls her eyes.

“don’t get cocky Mr. you will need to sleep too, but hopefully she’s a good baby.” I honestly think she will be. I’ve only heard her cry twice since she was born, the second time was only because we woke her to put her in the baby carrier. “I bet Beth has already called you and asked to come over, hasn’t she?”

“Only about 10 times, I think she’s calming down a bit.” we both laugh. “Josh brings out the worst in her, but in a good way.” I nod and agree. Josh is completely different since he’s been with Beth. we pull up at home, and I help Vanessa out and then carefully carry Polly inside. we both just stand and stare for a few minutes unsure of what to do with a tiny human being.

31: Vanessa

2 years later

“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday Pollllyyyy pocckkeettt, happy birthday to you.” the back garden has been transformed into a princess castle theme for Pollys 2nd birthday. all of our friends are here and it’s a beautiful day. Polly blows and spits all over her own, smash it cake. we have another one that the adults can enjoy without toddler drool. everyone cheers and Polly giggles as she indeed smashes her face in the cake and looks adorable doing it.

“We made one beautiful kid.” Callum comes up to my side and pulls me in his arms. “We sure did and guess what.” I wait for him to finish kissing my neck so he can look at me. “Yes, my beautiful wife.” he kisses my lips. “I’m pregnant.” he stops moving and slowly brings his eyes to mine. I raise my brow and wait.

“Oh my god, yes, yes, yes. another baby, baby.” he spins me around. He cashed in on his inheritance last year, not that we need it or spend it, because we don’t. even now with two Kids, we don’t need to touch it. Callum’s business has grown from strength to strength; Logan has asked him back to add another ten rooms to his underground sex club. Callum laughed when I called it that. but it is what it is.

Eventually, as everyone starts to grasp what’s happening and as soon as Beth hears Callum yell, she comes running over to us. “Oh my god really, another one. V I’m so proud of you.” she hugs me as she pushes Callum to move. “Hey, what about me? I helped.” Callum pouts and Beth, rolls her eyes. “Well done you big baby.” she smiles and pokes him playfully.

“My turn, my turn.” Josh pounds over to us and wraps his arms around Beth from behind. “We are also pregnant.” Josh wiggles his eyebrows, and Beth has a stupid grin on her face. “Oh my god, besties pregnant together, I love it.” I can’t contain my excitement. “Good for you man, now you just need to put a ring on her finger.” Callum jokes with Josh as Beth and I continue to chat about being pregnant together.

“Ok, ok, my turn.” we all stop talking and look towards Kyle who is now kneeling down in front of Sarah and is presenting her with a ring. “Oh my god, what a day for surprises.” Lacey is clapping excitedly behind us. “Sarah Jane Greenshaw, please say yes to becoming my wife, I love you with every part of me.” Sarah crumbles and nods her head, “yes, yes ill marry you.” Kyle shows relief and stands up to put the ring on her finger.

“This day just gets better and better.” Callum hums beside me. “Buxton, you got any news mate.” Josh asks as Kyle and Sarah kiss like their lives depend on it. “Nah, been trying for another baby, like trying all the damn time, but as of yet.” he shrugs his shoulders and Lacey hits him playfully as Kyle and Sarah approach us, Buxton and Lacey live next door now in Callum’s old house and I love it… “Congrats little bro, you deserve this.” Callum hugs his brother and I smile. Allister, who is Josh’s dad comes to congratulate his son and Beth.

Allister is another new member to our family. he moved into town a few months ago and when Josh took his dad out for a beer in town they ran into Mrs. Ferdinand or Pat as we now call her. the two of them started dating and now Allister has moved in with Pat. happy ending for everyone, well for now, I think. “Seriously congratulations Ky, Sarah, its wonderful news.” I give them both a hug and everyone follows suit.

A throat clears behind us, and we all spin around. Buxton has already picked up Mazy and Josh has grabbed Polly, even though she’s covered in cake. Callum’s dad stands at the gate looking relaxed with a smile on his face. “Dad, what brings you here?” Callum and his dad have spoken a handful of times in the last two years. it’s not been easy for any of them, but his dad does seem to be making an effort, and I say that means something.

“Oh, I uh… I have some news, and I wanted to share it with you all.” Callum takes Polly and wipes her hands and face with a wet towel. “Ok, what’s the news.” Kyle asks first. Their father stands taller “Well, the first news is that your brother was arrested last night in Germany.” we all look at Callum and then Kyle, then they look at me. “He was with an underage girl, she was… uh 13, and it was only the quick thinking of the girl’s friend that the police found her in time before Cane could… well you know.” well shit.

“They say he will be shipped back here for a trial, then it’s likely he could face up to 30 years for his crimes, some that date back to when he was a teenager himself… it seems Jessa opened a can of worms and well… more and more people came forward to report him.” this is so good. “As long as Vanessa doesn’t have to testify then good, I’m glad he’s going to jail.” Callum walks back over to me with Polly, and she asks for me to take her.

we talked about it a while ago, I said I want no part of his arrest or sentence. I just simply wanted to forget. “what’s the other news?” Kyle takes a seat and pulls Sarah onto his lap. “Yes, the other news… your mother and I are divorcing. she is keeping the house, and I have moved here.” Callum and Kyle both looked shocked.

“Here? as in here in town.” Callum’s dad nods. I notice both boys never mention the divorce or ask how their mother is. but then she chose her side, and now she has to live with it. “Yes, I stepped down from politics, too stressful, there was a position that became available at the bank, you know how I love numbers. seems the last manager quit all of a sudden.” we all look towards Pat, after all it was her ex-husband who was the one sleeping with staff and taking small amounts of cash from the safe.

“I don’t even know your name.” I look towards Callum’s dad, and he smiles back before extending his hand towards me. “The name is Andrew.” I shake his hand and smile back. “Andrew, would you like to stay and have a drink with us, maybe some food, or cake.”

Andrew looks at the smashed cake sitting on Pollys highchair and pulls a face. “don’t get me wrong, I was fairly hands on when the boys were younger, But I prefer my cake in triangle form and preferably with cream and a fork.” I laugh and turn to Callum with a nod. he wanders inside and brings out her real cake. Andew accepts a piece, and we all sit and talk way into the night.

I look around at the people in my space. how did this happen? when did I become comfortable with strangers in my home? I look down at my engagement ring and wedding band. How did go from being isolated and quiet to a wife and a mother? I’m happy for the first time in years. and it’s not just because of Beth sticking by my side. its Callum too, he took me from out of my safety box and let me spread my wings knowing full well that if I fell, he would catch me.

I love him, I love my life and my daughter, my friends and extended family and it all started when he said those four words.

“Let me love you.”

THE END.

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