11: Vanessa

I can’t believe I nearly let Callum kiss me. Thank God for Beth charging in and ripping my rose-tinted glasses off my face. I would have kissed him back; I would have let him devour me. But that thought alone terrifies me. I can’t let him get close, even if my heart is screaming for me to let him.

“Honestly he’s like a child” Beth fills her wine glass and storms back outside. “I um, need to take this outside, can you grab the rest.” my awkwardness is at an all-time high with him standing so close to me. He is cool and calm. but his eyes stay on me.

“Sure, let’s get everyone fed and then enjoy the evening” Callum grabs the pasta the bread rolls. “Did you make these” he asks raising a roll to his nose and inhaling. “Unfortunately, no, I could never master the art of bread making.”

“Thats a shame, come on then, let’s go break up the newlyweds. maybe with their mouths stuffed they won’t fight anymore” I can’t help but chuckle. “But it’s so entertaining, don’t break them up, I think they are a match made in heaven” I truly believe Josh is the other half of Beths soul.

Don’t get me wrong Trevor is amazing, but he’s also boring and safe, if I had to guess that’s what’s bothering Beth, she likes the excitement. “Is he really staying with you.” I ask as we walk back outside. “Yes, just for a while, he just moved here from Boston, terrible breakup with his girlfriend.” I walk over to the table and Callum grabs the last of the steaks.”

“Why are you single.” I don’t know what possessed me to blurt that question out like that. Callum is a good-looking man, so for him to be single, it’s just a big fat why? he’s been flirting with me for over a week now sure, but he could literally have anyone he wanted. “Last girlfriend was a sweetheart, but we just didn’t gel, I wasn’t looking for a relationship until I moved here, until I moved next door to you.” I’m literally left speechless.

An hour later and Josh is smashed. Beth too if the way she is slurring is anything to go off. I’ve been sitting next to Callum while we both talk to Buxton. Callum is pressed to my side and refuses to move. Not that I really want him too. “Thanks for the lovely food and the company Vanessa, it’s been a great night.” Callum looks at me when Buxton stands. “You’re welcome and it was nice to meet you.” I reply when I extend my hand for him to shake.

“God woman you’re a brat; you drive me insane.” Josh slurs as he stands abruptly and wobbles. oh boy here we go again. “Yeah, well good, you’re a hairy caveman, so why don’t you go and crawl back to your cave and stay there.” Beth slurs back at him as she also tries to stand. I get to her side to help her up. “Come on you little troublemaker, time for bed.” I try to get her to walk but she’s not cooperating. “Why do I have to leave, he’s the dickhead who insulted me and called me a brat.”

“Here, let me.” Callum swoops her up in his arms and carries her inside the house putting her on the sofa.

“You are a brat, brat, and you’re leaving because I’m staying, only room for one awesome person.” Josh yells and I hear Buxton gently coax him to leave. “Come on buddy, let’s go get beer at Callum’s house yeah.” I don’t hear josh’s reply, but it must work because they walk, well stumble through the gate.

“Thanks, she’s going to be a bear with a sore head tomorrow.” I throw a blanket on her as she mumbles about Josh and his hairy face. “I better get the caveman home too; my family is coming over tomorrow, and I need him to at least act like a decent human being.” I laugh and Callum smiles. “Good luck with that.” we walk back to the garden and Buxton is already leading a drunk Josh across the lawn. “Will you write me another letter tomorrow?” I ask shyly to which he smiles a mile wide.

“Thanks again, I had a great night vanessa.” Callum leans down and kisses me on the cheek which startles me slightly. because my head was slightly turned, he ends up catching me half on the lips and it makes me gasp. both caught by Suprise, Callum wastes no time to push for more. “Can I kiss you now.” he asks in a breathless tone. he steps back with a little smile on his face, and I can’t help but nod. I nod and reply with a whisper. “Ok.” because I’m curious. He leans into me, and his lips meet mine, no tongue just gentle lips touching mine and its incredible.

His lips are so soft, his breath is fresh like mint and chocolate. I feel him pull away and when I open my eyes, he is looking at me with what I presume is lust on his face and now he’s biting his bottom lip. God damn he’s beautiful. “Good night my sweet Vanessa.” he whispers against my mouth and then walks away. “Good night, Callum.” I say as he walks through the gate and over to his back door. what the hell just happened. No one has ever got that close to me before, ever.

Walking inside I close and lock the door. I will deal with the mess outside tomorrow. I walk to the kitchen window and look towards his house. Lights go on in Callum’s kitchen and a light turns on upstairs. I presume they are putting Josh to bed, which makes me chuckle. such a man child.

Buxton is nice, he’s calm and reserved. He told me he would bring Lacey over to meet me one day. Thank God for Callum stepping in and explaining I don’t play well with others. Even if tonight totally took me out of my comfort zone, I don’t plan to make a habit out of it. I’ll be honest and say, I could kiss Beth for making the night a lot more fun and relaxed.

I sit down at my table and begin to write Callum a letter. I mainly want to thank him for the evening and his cooking skills. I want to thank him for the entertainment that was his friend. but in the end, it ends up with me thanking him about the kiss, how I didn’t hate it, how it felt good because it was him. such an innocent kiss, but it turned my heart upside down and my head inside out.

I finally climb the stairs after checking on Beth to make sure she hasn’t choked on her own vomit and fall into bed happy and content, the first for a long time.

12: Callum

“Jesus’ man, what the fuck happened last night” Josh is currently flopping down on the sofa looking like death. I can’t help but laugh at him as I hand him a coffee. “You really want me to rehash everything that went down last night with you and Beth.” Josh groaned. “That woman, fuck, she’s a feisty little fucker.” I laugh again. “And you just couldn’t help winding her up all night.” He looks at me with a guilty face but then smiles.

“What time are your parents getting here.” Josh is currently putting his boots on; he had a shower and now thankfully looks more awake. “Any minute now, I’m hoping Kyle will get here first.” I have the meat marinading and the salad prepped, the pasta is cooked and the Wine and whiskey ready to pour. “Well good luck man, I know how your folks are, well you told me how they are. just be strong and stand your ground.” he’s right of course, I know this.

“Knock, knock fucker.” Kyle walks into the kitchen as Josh is walking out. they exchange a quick handshake as I introduce them for the first time. “I take it the Rents haven’t arrived yet?” Kyle always calls them the rents. “Nope, and I just want to get this day over with.” I hand Kyle a beer, I stick with a soda for now.

fifteen minutes later my parents’ car pulls into my drive. “Show time peeps.” Kyle laughs as he opens the front door. My mother and father get out of the car. my mother looks like She’s off to a wedding in her tight cream dress, not her sons back garden cook- out. My father is a bit more relaxed with his black slacks and a white shirt with no tie. It’s the person who steps out after them that makes my insides boil with rage. Jessa.

“Callum darling boy, get mommy some wine would you, it’s been a long drive oh and this town, Callum it’s so small, there’s only one grocery store, one Callum.” I shake my head as she pretends to kiss each cheek. “Cal, Kyle, good to see you both, the house looks good.” I nod and reply with a thanks, that’s a compliment coming from dad.

“Hey Cal, long time no see.” Jessa steps up close but I turn away and wander back inside. “I would say it’s nice to see you, but it’s not.” my dad looks at me with narrowed eyes.

“Callum where are all the photographs I had sent over to you, why are they not up on the wall. this house needs a woman’s touch don’t you think Jessa.” I roll my eyes, and Kyle hides his smile behind his hand. “They are still in the box because I wasn’t sure where I wanted them.” it’s a total lie, I just don’t want them up, the only pictures I have put up are of me and Kyle, just one of mom and dad.

“Drinks anyone.” Kyle asks as he walks into the kitchen to grab glasses. “Yes drinks, thank you Kyle let’s get you all get a drink and head out the back, the garden is all set up ready for dinner.” I say as we all take our drinks. my mother however continues to go through the photos until she finds the few she wants and starts placing them around the Livingroom.

“Your brother is coming home for Christmas this year.” Kyle and I both freeze. Our brother Cane is a narcissistic, sociopath. “Why.” I ask the question because Kyle has gone pale. “What a silly question Callum, he’s you brother and he hasn’t been home for over three years, we miss him.” she’s so full of shit, she doesn’t miss him, because he was an evil child, an evil teenager and an even worse adult.

Some of my worst memories involve Cane, and I can see it on Kyles face that he’s starting to panic. “Well good luck with that, Kyle and I are going away for Christmas this year, it’s already been booked.” Kyle looks at me with surprise on his face but plays along with a nod. “Callum that’s unfair, Cane has been serving our country and wants to come home to see his family, you can’t seriously tell me you’ll still go away knowing he will be home and wanting to see you.” that’s exactly what in saying.

“Besides it’s not just Kyle and I going away, I’ll be taking my girlfriend with me.” dad snaps his head in my direction and Jessa looks like she’s about to spit fire but fuck her. “Callum, a word, now.” my dad walks off towards the back of the house and I follow, this should be good.

He stops abruptly and spins on me. “Care to explain why you have a girlfriend when I specifically asked you to marry Jessa.” my dad is red in the face, but I keep my cool.

“I told you time and time again I won’t marry that lying, cheating whore, so don’t ask me again.” I will not back down on this. “I hear your doing a refurb on the new club, fever, in town.” I grind my teeth to keep me from snapping.

“I believe Logan Spencer is the son of a friend of mine, so be very careful with what your final decision is Callum because I can cut your contact with him just like that.” my dad snaps his fingers in my face.

“Now, I need Jessa’s father, I need his contacts to help build my business, you WILL marry her or so help me god, I will take away your home, your new business that you love, and maybe even this new girlfriend you speak about.”

“And if you do that dad, you will lose your son, maybe even two, I won’t have you come into my home and threaten me.” he lets out a long sigh and pinches the bridge of his nose. “All I ask is you at least consider it, for me, after a year you can divorce her.”

“A year, dad, listen to yourself, you would see me in misery just to further your career, you would rather lose me than make this deal off your own back instead of mine.” this is getting us know where and it’s the same thing every single time.

“I’m giving you a month, one month to come around to the idea or you will force my hand, now let’s enjoy today for your mother, you will be polite to Jessa and you will be happy that your brother is coming home.” he has no clue, or does he and he’s just in denial.

“You know as well as I do, I will not be polite to her in my own home, and as for Cane, you know what he did and yet you still allow him around us.” my mom and dad have been pandering to Canes needs since I was a baby, since before Kyle was born. They know what he did and yet they did nothing in return.

“Moms asking about the food, Jessa is snooping so you might want to finish this up later.” thank you Kyle. “Let’s just get some food on and then try to enjoy the day.” I head back inside and get the meat from the fridge.

“Are you going to ignore me all day Cal.” Jessa stands before me, and I sneer at her to move. “Yes, I am, I don’t want you, not now, not ever, so do me a favor and fuck off.” I’m not normally this rude but Jessa is a snake, she’s a lying piece if shit who lives of daddy’s money.

“Just stay out of my way and let’s go eat.” I walk past her, and she follows me outside. Kyle takes the meat and starts to cook. What an absolute shit show this has been. I wish I was hanging with Vanessa instead.

13: Vanessa

It’s late in the day; the sun still casts a warmth over the earth and I breath in the fresh air as I enjoy my coffee on the porch. I’ve written Callum his letter and I’m building up the courage to drop it off because his family is still there.

Beth left a few hours ago, Trevor picked her up and I could see the tension between them a mile away. She promised to call me later and explain what’s going on.

After putting my cup in the sink, I grab the letter and head out of the front door towards Callum’s house. At that exact moment he and his family step out of the house. Not wanting to be seen I step to the side of the house and into the late afternoon shadow.

“This will the wedding of the century Callum, I will plan it all and you won’t have to do a thing.” I presume that’s Callum’s mom. She’s a beautiful woman with dark hair pulled into a tight bun. His father steps out next, a sour look on his face.

“We can have the ceremony at our house, your mother and I can arrange the invites, and Jessa can pick her dress.” who the hell is Jessa and why are they talking about Callum getting married. He said he was single. Was it all a lie to get close to me.

My world stops when the next person steps into view, my legs buckle, and I feel like I’m going to be sick. Jessica Roberts. Why is Callum marrying her? Oh god it’s like high school all over again. This was all a lie, his interest in me, it was all a joke.

My insides are on fire as I watch them climb in the car, I can’t here anymore or hear what they are saying because I can hardly breath. I need to get home. I drop the letter in the trash can and stumble back to my house.

Once I’m home, I grab the vodka from the freezer and take a shot, then another and another. I drink and drink to drown out the black goo that’s wrapping around my heart.

I drink until I fall to the kitchen floor where the tiles are cool under my hot flesh. I drink until I pass out.

“Hold the bitch down.” his voice makes me cringe. “Stop fighting you little whore.” Jessica spits in my face and slaps me hard. My ears are ringing, and my pants are being ripped off my body.

“Please help me, somebody, help me.” my cries are pathetic because he is too heavy on top of me. “Fuck your tight, I can’t get it in.” my body is jostling with him trying to force himself between my legs.

He slaps my thighs hard, “open the fuck up bitch and take my cock.” I feel like I’m going to throw up. Jessica pinches my skin around my neck hard. Its hurts so bad.

Then the pain from between my legs takes over and my innocence is lost forever.

I peel my eyes open and see its morning. I’m still on the kitchen floor. The bottle of vodka is still in my hand. I lurch forward and empty my stomach all over the floor.

My head is pounding but my heart is cracked. Why? Why did he do that to me, I was only 16, I didn’t deserve it. Why did Jessica have to be so cruel and why did she help him? How could a person do that to another person.

I climb up the stairs and as I pass the front door, I see a letter laying on the matt. I don’t bother to stop and read it, it’s over. Whatever Callum and I had been, is over.

I reach the bathroom and drink some water, but within seconds I throw it all back up again. I cling to the toilet like it’s my hero before I fall to the floor and sob.

When I wake again, I drag myself up and into the shower. On my hands and knees, I throw up again and I can feel my body shut down. I curl into a fetal position and cry. I cry for myself, for my innocence and for my future that has been taken away from me.

Once I’ve stopped crying, I climb out of the shower and dry my body. I’m on auto pilot. I climb into bed and that’s where I stay for the next two days.

The only time I leave the bed is to get water and eat a granola bar that I keep for emergencies next to my bed. After another shower I walk downstairs and put some bread in the toaster. My phone is dead, so I plug it in and wait for it to fire up.

I sip my coffee and read the thousand text messages from Beth.

Bestie: v, are you ok, you didn’t answer your phone, call me back x

Bestie: v, please call me back, I’m worried now x

Bestie: v, is it bad, should I come over?

Beth has seen me at my lowest, she knows when I need her and when she needs to give me space.

Bestie: I’m guessing its bad because your silent, I’m here if you need me, I love you x

Bestie: v, it’s been two days, please call me back, you’re breaking my heart, love you forever x

A sob breaks from my throat, and I don’t know what to do. I’ve been bad before, but this feels different. I need to get it together. I make my way to the living room and see another two letters on the matt.

Bestie: v, Callum is blowing up my phone, he’s worried, please text me or call x

Bestie: v, was it Callum, did he hurt you? Shall I bring a shovel when I come over x?

I smile at that one. Taking a deep breath, I text her back.

Me: hey, I’m ok now, been a rough, few days. I’ll call you tomorrow, love you too x.

I lay down on the sofa and pull the blanket over me. My toast completely forgotten as I think about Callum and Jessica getting married. My heart hurts and I don’t know why.

Bestie: oh, thank God you’re ok, please don’t do that to me again. I was tempted to come around so many times, but I know you like your space, call me when you feel like talking, love you with every bit of my sexy body x.

I laugh at this, and it lifts my mood considerably. I must fall asleep again because the next time I wake its past 5 in the evening.

14: Callum

It’s been three days since I’ve seen Vanessa and I’m worried sick. She won’t answer her door or her massages from Beth. I’ve been blowing up her phone after she gave her number to Josh on Saturday.

I’ve wrote three letters, all asking if she’s ok, asking if she needs anything. But I’ve got nothing in return. Beth says to give her space. She has episodes where she shuts everyone out and sinks into depression. Only she can get herself out of it and we just have to wait.

The waiting is the hardest part of all.

“You boys have done an amazing job, this looks beautiful, thank you.” Mrs. Ferdinand is looking around her new kitchen as we finish off the grout in the new tiles. “Your most welcome and it’s been a pleasure to do this for you” Buxton replies as he wipes his hand on a cloth hanging from his pocket.

“I hope your husband is pleased with the results.” I noticed her husband hasn’t been home much in the evenings when we are here late. “Oh yes, well he’s busy and… oh I may as well tell you, hank moved out yesterday, we were uh, having problems.”

I knew there was something up with that slimy piece if shit. “Sorry to hear that, if there’s anything you need help with don’t be afraid to call.” I keep my tone soft because she looks like she wants to cry.

“I’ll be fine, don’t worry about little old me, and besides I’ll see you around when you start on Mrs. Kingsley’s porch.” her smile is a mile wide, and we all finish up and put our tools away.

When I finally make it home, it’s just past 6.30 and Vanessa is sitting on her front porch drinking coffee. I’m so glad she’s ok but she doesn’t wave when I drive past and that in itself rings all of my warning alarm’s.

I climb out of my van and head over; I’ve got my next letter on me ready to give her. “Hey, you, ok? Not seen you around, I was worried.” she snorts and stands up. “Go back to your fiancé Callum and leave me the fuck alone, don’t ever come back.”

I’m thrown for a second because how did she know this? She turns and walks inside, slamming the front door in anger. I guess I fucked up. She must have heard my conversation with my dad or was it when we were on the front step saying goodbye.

Mom wouldn’t stop going on about the wedding of the century and how she would arrange everything. I told her multiple times that I wont marry Jessa but she just kept on and dragging my dad into it often.

Kyle was furious and snapped at them both to quit it which got him a scalding from mom. The only thing I can think to do is write her another letter and explain it was all a misunderstanding.

Josh pulls up as I make my way back home. “Whoa, why the long face, did you speak to her.” I shake my head no. “She told me to go back to my fiancé and never come back.” Josh looks at Vanessa’s house and back to me.

“Damn, I’m sorry brother, what are you going to do? I mean she doesn’t understand, maybe explain it all and beg for forgiveness.” I huff and walk inside. “That’s what I was planning to do, I’ll write her a letter and prey that she reads it.”

“Your parents are whack, my old man is one of a kind and he would never ask me to do what your old man is asking.” he’s right, his old man is a carbon copy, both dresses well and look after their bodies. His old man is supportive of anything he wants to do.

“Let’s get some beer and chill for the night, we start on the club tomorrow and I have a feeling it’s going to be a long day.” I grab some beers, and we sink into the sofa. I’ll shower later when I’m not feeling so sorry for myself.

……………………

The new club is going to be fucking awesome when it’s done. A long shiny black and gold bar will go from one end of the room to the other, there is a stage for the DJ and booths with sheer curtains for people who want privacy.

We are discussing the lights and where he wants them placed when Logan walks in and greets us. “Morning team, how is it going so far.” I like Logan, he’s an easy-going guy, he has vision and drive.

“Hey, all good so far, just discussing where to put the bar lights? We were thinking along the rim of the bar and along the bottom.” I show him what I mean, and he nods his head. “Fucking perfect, I like it.”

We walk around a bit more and talk about flooring and color. “So, I’ve had a new idea, and I want your thoughts.” We all look to where Logan is standing at the top of some stairs that lead to the basement.

“Follow me gentlemen and let me blow your mind.” we all follow him down and the room opens up to a huge open space. “So, the club up top is Fever, a nightclub, but down here, this is where the fun never ends.” ok so he has our attention.

“Like a sex club.” Josh is the first to speak what we were all thinking. “Kind of, more like a kinky fetish, no holds bar, kind of club, with pay by hour rooms and a membership that gets you all year access.” Josh smiles and claps his hands.

“Fucking fantastic idea, I want first dibs on joining, at a discount of course.” Logan laughs. “I’ll give you three a free membership if you help me promote it.” Josh is practically jumping at this. “Fucking A man.” me and Buxton both smile and shrug our shoulders.

“Fab, let’s get the main club started and then we can work on making this place a thing of kinky dreams.” at this point in time, I’ll be happy for any kind of distraction from my thing that’s called my life.

Vanessa is always on my mind, and I just want to be given the chance to explain myself. “You think Lacey would come here.” Josh is talking to Buxton while Logan talks on his phone.

“Hell, yes she would, she would most likely drag me here before I even get the chance to suggest it to her.” I can’t help but think of Vanessa coming here and my immediate thought is no way in hell.

“I bet Beth would come here; all the kinky shit I want to do to her sexy body gets me hard as nails.” fucking man has no filter. “Dude, TMI and I bet Beth is wild in bed, you probably couldn’t keep up.” I snigger at this. “Fuck you dude, I’m a stallion in bed, I’m wild and can go for hours.”

We all laugh, today has been a good day. Lots of planning and sorting out materials. I just hope Vanessa has read my letter and is willing to give me a chance.

15: Vanessa

I still can’t believe Callum came here last night, and to do what. he didn’t even apologize, nor did he deny the fact I said Fiancé to him. I told him to fuck off and I meant it. my heart hurts and I don’t like it. I get up, shower and walk downstairs. I see the new letter on the matt and it’s not just my name on the front, there’s more black ink than normal. My curiosity gets the better of me and I bend down to collect all 4 letters.

the top letter, the new one has my name in bold capital letters. the words underneath is what catch my eye.

Vanessa, please read this, it will explain a lot of things to you. please don’t write me off just yet.

I take the letters and sit down on the sofa pulling a blanket down on top of me. I ponder for a while as to whether I want to read any of them, but in the end, I must have fallen asleep because when I wake up its late afternoon. I walk into the kitchen and grab a coffee before coming back to the letter. In anger, I rip open the letter and begin to read.

Vanessa

I want to start by saying how sorry I am about what you must have heard. My father wants me to marry Jessa to help build his business via Jessa’s Father and I have told him NO multiple times. I can’t stand that woman; she is a snake and a lying cheat. my father has threatened to take away my house, my new business with Logan Stanley and even YOU if I don’t do as he says. But I would, rather lose it all if it means not Marrying HER. I guess out of everything, losing you would hurt me the most. I hope this explains some things. Just please don’t shut me out. I know we have only known each other for a short time, but I consider you my friend, I consider you more than that. I NEED more than that. I was so worried about you when I didn’t see you. I’m here if you ever want to talk, or yell.

Callum x

I don’t realize I’m crying again until the first drip lands on the letter. All of this could have been avoided if I had just asked him out right. The front door opens and in comes Beth, she looks devastated. she falls to her knees in front of me and wraps her arms around my body. “It was a really bad, wasn’t it?” I nod against her head unable to form words. “Babe, I’m here for you, I would have been here for you.” she cries with me for a few minutes.

after we calm down, Beth stays on her knees and grabs my hands in hers. “Talk to me, what happened, what was the trigger.” I hand her the letter and she read in silence. her sharp blue eyes look up at me. “Who the fuck is Jessa?” I have to chuckle at her tone. “After reading the whole thing, that’s what stood out the most.” she puts the letter down. “Beth, I need to tell you something and it’s going to be difficult for you to hear.”

Beth sat beside me on the sofa and stayed holding my hands. it helped ground me. “Jessa, is… Jessica Roberts” the look on Beths face is that of utter shock, anger and confusion. “She was there that night…. she was… she …” I can’t do it, the words wont form. “Hey, hey, look at me. you’re brave, your so fucking brave V. you don’t have to tell me now, or ever, I love you always.” I cry into her arms. I’m so sick of crying.

“She was the one who held me down, she hit me, she bruised me, she held me down so he could rape me, Beth, she held me down… she was so cruel… she was … why… why did she do that to me… why.” I wail loudly into the small room. I’m a mess, my emotions are frayed, and I want to give up. Beth holds me through it all.

“V listen to me because what I’m about to say is very serious ok. I’m going to kill the bitch and you’re going to help dig the damn hole. she deserves to die for what she did, for who she is. I fucking hate her for you, for me and for everyone else out there who she has humiliated and hurt.” Beth finishes on a sigh. “I love you so damn much V. you’re the strongest person I know. I’m here for you, always babe.”

A while later after we have cried some more and calmed down, Beth suggested we stay in, its Wednesday after all. we order some Chinese and Beth gets me to pick a movie to watch. “V, Callum cares about you, he messaged me every damn day to ask if I had spoken or seen you.” I keep my eyes on the TV. “He fucked up V, or kind of fucked up. he obviously doesn’t know what Jess has done to you, he can’t know, hell I didn’t know.” she sits up and pauses the movie.

“All I’m saying is, maybe explain some things to him, give him a chance to see why you have trust issues, why you hate people. explain what you need and nothing more.” I think for a minute but don’t address what she said. “What about you, how’s things with Trevor.” I’m deflecting I know. “Oh shoot, I forgot to say, well, we kind of broke up.” I look at her in shock. “When? why.” I ask taking her hand in mine.

“God I’m such a shit friend, you needed me and.” Beth yanks me toward her. “don’t do that, I’m fine. we kind of grew apart, it was mutual and he’s moving out next week to live with his brother.” she looks almost pleased about it. “Look I’m here now and we have Mark Walburg to drool over.” I smile and sit back up. “You know, Josh kind of looks like Mark Walburg.” I wiggle my eyebrows at her, and she hits me with a pillow.

“Oh shit, that reminds me. the letter, Trevor is related to Logan Stanley, cousins or something. I can have a word and see if Trevor can talk to his cousin or whatever and give him the heads up about Callum’s father.” this is why I love Beth, she knows everyone in this town. “Thank you, that means a lot to me.”

“So, you and Callum, are you going to talk to him. he’s a pretty cool guy V, he’s one of the good ones.” I nod and smile. “Yeah, I’m going to give him a chance to explain properly, and in return I will try to open up about my past.” Beth hugs me tight. “I’m so proud of you.” she kisses my cheek, “but you in return you have to give Josh a fair go.” and to this she groans.

once the movie has finished Beth stands and tells me she needs to get going. “I hate leaving you after what you just went through.” I hug her tight. “I’m ok, it was a bad one, but I’m good now, stronger than ever.” she kisses me again and heads for the door. “Call me tomorrow ok, love you.” I nod. “Love you more” I watch her climb in her car and drive away.

I look over to Callum’s house and wonder if now is too soon for me to go over and see him. If I don’t go soon, I will fall back into myself and try to brush it all under the carpet again. it’s best to speak now while it’s still so raw.

16: Callum

I’m standing at my kitchen sink when there is a knock at the front door. Josh is in bed already because work was hard today, moving materials and lifting ceiling panels. I walk to the door and open it up to Vanessa standing there. It shocks me at first. she’s in an oversized white top and a pair of black leggings. she looks so beautiful.

“Hi, um, is this a bad time.” she’s so quiet it snaps me out of my mind. “Sorry, yes, uh, yes, I mean no, it’s not a bad time, come in.” she smiles and steps inside. “Wow, your home is lovely Callum.” when she says my name like that it makes me ache. “Thank you, it still needs some homely touches here and there, but I like it.” she nods in agreement.

“Would you like a drink or anything?” I ask as she wonders into the kitchen further. “No thank you, I just wanted to come and say that I read your letter.” I swallow and wait for more. “It did explain a lot, and I jumped to conclusions, but what I need to tell you about… Jessa, is going to make you uncomfortable.” Oh lord, am I ready for this.

“Would you like to sit in the lounge with me.” she nods, and I walk towards the large grey sectional, it’s the best thing I ever bought. Vanessa sits on one end, and I find peace in the middle, I’m far enough away but not too far. “Before you say anything, I’m so fucking sorry about what you heard. my mother just wouldn’t stop, my father is relentless in his pursuit for more power and I’m just the collateral damage.” she nods and accepts what I’ve said without comment.

“Callum, I knew Jessa in high school. Jessica Roberts, she was my bully and my tormentor for over 5 years. she and her friends were beyond horrible towards me, and I never understood why.” I knew Jessa was a bitch, I’ve seen some of the things she did or said. I never stopped her because I was never around enough to see how far she went.

small world that I ended up next door to vanessa, but I’m fucking grateful I did.

“My own mother and Father were not good people, my father would call me names, he would make me feel less than nothing and mock me about my weight.” dear god, and I thought I had it bad. “My father turned to alcohol when I was 11 and he would beat me for just being in the house, let alone in my room.” I’m not liking where this is going.

“He would punish me for eating his food, he would take his belt off and wave it in my face. I knew what was coming because at this point, I had seen him hit my mother.” I want to say something, but she holds her hand up to stop me. “I have many scars on my back from the buckle, deep lacerations that just didn’t heal correctly, Jessa and her friends took great pride in showing them to everyone in the locker room.”

“Beth was my only shining hope in high school, we met when we were 12, she was like the incredible hulk, so strong, so mean. she would fight my tormentors for me, she hit one of the boys around the face with a book, I think he lost a tooth.” I remember that Roman was such a punk, thought his shit didn’t stink. he was part of our circle, but God he was a prick.

“When things became too much at home, I stayed with Beth, her parents were absent most of the time too. we would sneak out to find Parties that her brother was invited to, he was older by 4 years, so their parties were way cooler.” I never went to any parties, I just wasn’t interested, but by God I wished I had of done now.

“So, this one particular party, Beth and I got separated because her brother was drunk, and I had just gone to get us some drinks.” she looks down at her hands and gets her breathing under control. “Jessa was there, she was… nice to me… I know, major alarm bells right. I was such an idiot to think she was being nice, that she actually wanted to hang out with me.” she breaks into a sob, and it takes everything in me to not pull her onto my lap.

“She uh, asked me to drink with her… she asked me to go to the bathroom with her… she needed a tampon… I was so stupid to go into that room… stupid, stupid, stupid.” she hits her head with her small hands over and over again.

I can’t sit here and watch her hurt herself, so I grab her hands and hold them in my own. she has tears falling down her face when she looks at me. “What did she do to you.” It’s a question I wish I didn’t ask, because the answer rips my heart out.

“There was a man in the room, he was big… so big… he was violent… so rough… she knew him, she helped him… she helped hold me down… she hit me… spat on me… pinched and bruised me… for him.” she cries again, and I pull her into my arms. “She held me down so he could get between my legs… it hurt so bad Callum… so fucking bad… he didn’t stop when I cried… when I begged… he just kept going and she… she laughed.” Jesus fucking Christ.

this is possibly one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to listen too, to hear her break in front of me. she lets me hold her. she lets me sooth her and I’m so fucking grateful. “How old were you.” for while I don’t think she will tell me anymore. “I had just turned 16.” my insides are filled with rage. “Who was he.” she shakes her head. “I don’t know, he was older, like collage age, maybe even older than that.” she shivers in my arms, and I pull her closer.

“Please don’t say sorry, just don’t say anything ok.” she talks quietly and I respect her wishes while she gets herself together. “I filled a rape charge and an assault charge against them both, but Jessa’s dad is very powerful and well, I’m guessing the man had help too because all charges were dropped before they even got arrested.”

How the fuck is that fair. I swear our country is messed up. “Not long after I turned 18 my parents both died and I went to live with my aunt, she put me through college and then when I got my degree, I moved here with Beth.” I squeeze her to my chest and stroke my hand down her silky hair.

“Thank you for telling me, I can’t imagine what it was like to go through that, and I think your so brave for trusting me.” I kissed her head, and she sighed in what I presume is contentment.

After several minutes I realized Vanessa had fallen asleep in my arms. I wasn’t moving for love nor money, so I snuggled down and pulled the blanket off the back of the sofa, tucking us in. My mind is on what she told me. Jessa is vile, a truly evil human being and if my dad thinks I’m going anywhere near her now, he can fuck right off.

17: Vanessa

I wake up slowly, my mind playing catch up with where I am. I’m on Callum’s sofa with a blanket over me and Callum is laying curled around me. My instant thought is panic, but he looks so peaceful, and it calms me down.

He groans in his sleep and pulls me closer. It feels good, I feel so protected and safe. Looking at the clock on the wall I see it’s still early, so I stay looking at his beautiful face.

“Are you checking me out in my sleep.” I can’t help but laugh. “Maybe, you’re better looking when you’re quiet.” he tickles my sides and I freeze. He too stops and before he can apologize, I kiss him. It’s not a deep kiss but there is a little tongue and by God does he taste good. No morning breath in sight.

“Sorry, I just wanted to say thank you for being you. Everything I told you last night, I thought.” he peels one eye open and kisses me again. “You thought I would run for the hills? Sorry baby but I’m here to stay.” he called me baby.

“Do you want some breakfast?” his voice is gruff and sleepy. “I could eat, but only if you do.” he smiles and kisses me once more. “Sorry if I’m too much, but all I can think about is kissing you, I think about you all the time.” this makes me smile and I try to hide it behind my hand.

“Don’t hide from me, I love your smile, I love everything about you, I just don’t want to rush you or put any pressure on you.” He loves everything about me. I wonder if he would still love me when he sees my scars. Not just the one from my father’s buckle but the ones left by HIM.

“Stop overthinking, I can hear your beautiful brain ticking from here, let’s get some food in you and we can worry about all the mooshy stuff later.” he kisses me quick and then helps me up off the sofa.

“Bathroom is just down the hall if you want to go freshen up.” I nod and head in that direction. I do my business and wash my hands. Who am I? I’m in a man’s house, sleeping on a sofa wrapped in his arms. I didn’t panic or sink into depression. I feel calm and content.

I look in the mirror and see I look fresh, not tired. My cheeks are rosy from Callum’s kisses. My lips are puffy from his gorgeous mouth. I could get used to this. But then I remember HIM, he always spoils my mood, but when I look at me again, I smile.

“Do you like waffles? Or would you prefer pancakes?” Callum is busy getting ingredients from the cupboard. “I’m happy with toast and coffee.” he smiles and grabs the bread. “What time do you need to be at work” he looks at the clock the same time as a sleepy Josh walks into the kitchen in just his boxer briefs.

Oh, dear lord, now that’s a sight for first thing in the morning. “Morning peeps, where’s the coffee at, good to see you two finally got it together, maybe now he can stop bitching about how much he likes you and stuff.” my cheeks turn red as Callum hands me a coffee.

“I’m sorry about him, he has no filter, and I do not talk about Vanessa that much.” Josh smiles lazily. “Don’t lie to the woman, you talk about her constantly. Vanessa this or Vanessa that.” he uses a childlike voice, and Callum launches at him tackling him to the floor.

I laugh and snort as they roll around the floor. “Dude stop; your hands are all over my junk.” I laugh harder as Callum jumps up and pretends to gag. “I’ll leave the junk touching to Beth if that’s ok with you.” I look from Josh to Callum wondering how much I’ve missed.

Callum walks be back home after some toast and two more cups of coffee. “Thank you again Callum, I’m not used to all this so please be patient with me.” Callum smiles and steps closer almost asking permission to approach the enemy.

“Don’t you ever feel like you have to apologize. We go at your speed ok, just know that I’m not going anywhere and we won’t do anything you’re not comfortable with.” he’s being too sweet. How could he possibly be happy with me? He may never get a normal relationship if he stays with me, I’m too fucked up.

“You’re doing it again baby, stop overthinking everything, I want you, but I’ll wait, if that means waiting forever then so be it, it’s my choice ok.” eventually I nod and he kisses me goodbye. The kisses I can handle, who knew.

Once I’ve had a shower I spend a few hours doing some work. I emailed my boss and explained why I was offline for so long. She’s fully aware of my past and this is not the first bout of depression where I’ve fallen off the face of the earth.

Beth calls me in the afternoon, and I fill her in with what happened.

“I’m so god damn proud of you babe.”

“Thanks, it was…intense, but he listened and didn’t judge.”

“Why in hell would he judge babe, he likes you, I told you this from the start, do you like him?

It only takes me a second to think.

“Yeah, I think I do, but Beth… what if he gets bored with waiting for me to be… you know… in the bedroom.”

“Oh babe, stop right there, he’s a good man, if he couldn’t handle it, he would have said seeya later by now… trust him and trust to know that he will always tell you the truth.”

God, I love this woman.

“Ok.” I let out a long sigh.

“Baby steps, just take it day by day babe, just let him lead, but don’t let him push.”

“I won’t, I just want to be happy, I feel like I deserve to be happy.”

“Damn straight you do, it takes time, but everything happens for a reason, we meet people for a reason, and I believe you were always destined to meet Callum.”

“Just like you were always destined to meet Josh.”

I hear her groan, and it makes me laugh.

“he’s so full on, like seriously babe, I think I’ve met my match.”

“He is full on; I had the pleasure of seeing him in his underwear this morning.”

Beth laughs hard.

“I’m so sorry babe, he has no shame.”

“Honestly it was a funny moment when he said Callum was touching him up.”

We both laugh and then go quiet.

“I’m happy for you babe, I love you always ok. Now go do some work you slacker.”

I snort.

“Love you too, forever, bye.”

“Bye.”

I feel like I’m floating on a cloud with how happy I am. Callum coming into my life sure has caused a stir. But it’s a good thing. I’m just going to take it day by day and not rush things. He said he has patience and I believe him.

18: Callum

I’m flying high today; this is the happiest I’ve been in a long time. When Vanessa told be about Jessa’s part in her rape, I wanted to kill her. I know her father would have gotten the charges dropped and it makes me feel sick to think my father wants to be a part of that.

“Morning team, the bar is looking great now the lights are on and working.” Logan is in a good mood as usual. “Callum, can we speak privately for a moment please.” I put down my drill and pat Josh on the shoulder as I walk away.

“What’s up, don’t tell me you’ve had another idea and want to add a swimming pool.” he laughs and leans against the bar. “No, but fuck that’s a good idea. Your old man called me this morning.” he pauses to assess my reaction. “Fuck, sorry, I was hoping he would drop the idea and leave my business alone.”

“Look it’s all good, lucky for you I had a heads up he was going to call.” now I am confused. “Ok so what did he want and how did you know he was going to call.” Logan smiles. “My cousin Trevor called me. His ex-girlfriend is Beth.” he raises his eyebrows when it finally clicks in my head.

“Seems your girl asked Beth to get Trevor to warn me that your old man was going to cause trouble.” Vanessa? I owe that girl so fucking much. “Your old man asked me to fire you and I laughed, he’s doesn’t like the word no, does he?” This time I laugh. “My father hates the word no. I’m sorry if it causes you any stress.”

Logan waves his hand in the air. “He can try, what your father doesn’t realize is that I have more money, more power and more backing than he could ever imagine.” this makes me smile. “But I appreciate the heads up, it certainly helped to know that he was planning on trying to cause trouble.”

The rest of the day flows like a calm river. My father calls me when we are packing up, but I send him to voicemail. Not long after Kyle calls me, and I pick up on the send ring.

“What’s up little brother.”

“Why do you have to answer the phone like that, what happened to a good old hello.”

“Sorry brother, I’ll remember my manners when you do, so what’s up.”

He laughs.

“Listen the old man is on the war path, he spoke to Logan today, but Logan didn’t let dad get a word in and he basically called dad out on his shit, he’s fucking mad man.”

I sling my bag in the back of my van.

“Look, I know what it’s about and Logan has assured me my contract with him is safe so dad will have to just get over it.”

“I hear you man, but dads been talking with Jessa’s dad, and I’m worried that they have something planned up their sleeve.”

“Don’t worry about it, Ky, dad is just trying to get his own way, I’ve got some new information on Jessa and let me tell you man, she’s a dead woman walking.”

“Shit Cal, don’t talk like that on the phone, what’s happening? What has the bitch done now?”

“Look don’t worry about it now, like you said, we can’t talk about it over the phone. come see me on the weekend and ill fill you in.”

“Ok, just keep in mind that dad has some reach, he’s planning something I just don’t know what.”

“Thanks for the heads up, see you soon.”

“Yeah sure, See you soon.”

I think it’s time for me to visit the family lawyer, I need to know where I stand with my house and my inheritance. “Everything ok man.” Buxton leans on the side of the van with his arms crossed.

“Yeah, just my father trying to cause shit as usual, but don’t worry, I’m always going to be one step ahead of him.” Buxton nods and slaps my back. “See you tomorrow buddy.” I nod back, and he walks away.

After a hot shower I grab some food and a cold beer. Vanessa is always on my mind, and I want nothing more to go over and see her. She asked me to be patient and that’s what I’m going to do.

There’s a knock at the door and before I can even think about opening it, Josh jumps up yelling. “It’s for me man, it’s just my booty call.” great now I’m a third wheel in my own home. “Oh, hey Callum.” Beth walks in looking casual in her skinny jeans and a light blue blouse.

“Hey Beth, how’s things? Oh, and thanks by the way, for your, well for.” Beth laughs. “Trevor, my ex-boyfriend, its ok I knew what you meant. And things are… good.” she looks at Josh and then back at me.

“Come in brat, let’s go upstairs, I want to show you, my room.” Josh winks at me and they both go upstairs and out of sight. “V, is home alone, in case you were wondering.” Beth poked her head around the top corner of the stairs and smiles a cheeky grin.

Could I go over there? Should I go over there? I mean what if I do and I make her feel uncomfortable. But what if I don’t and I regret not going. I stand up and say, “fuck it.” I grab my boots and walk out of the door.

Knocking on Vanessas door I feel so nervous. I can hear her soft footsteps as she approaches the door. “Cal.” she pokes her head out and looks around. “Is everything ok, your here late.” I run my hand through my hair. “Yeah sorry, I uh, shit, I uh, had to leave the house.”

“Let me guess, Beth is at your place and Josh is giving her some much-needed attention.” I nod. “I didn’t feel like playing third wheel in my own home and the thought of hearing them fu.” I stop myself in time.

“You can say it you know, I’m not some delicate flower. Sorry I have no manners, come in.” I step inside, and she shuts the door and locks it behind me. “Sorry to just drop in on you, you’re probably ready to go to bed.” I can see now she’s in a pair of sleep shirts and a vest, with no bra. Shit did I just look at her chest.

“Would you like coffee or something stronger or do you want to just sit and talk or watch a movie.” and now she’s mumbling, like she’s nervous. “In all honesty I was ready to go to bed, but Beth put a stop to that.” I scratch my head. I’m tired and slightly frustrated.

She looks at me for a long time before she speaks. “Callum. Would you like… I mean you could stay if you want.” she looks adorable right now. She asked me to stay. “Do you want me to stay? I ask hopefully.

She gets the cutest little blush and nods her head yes. “I would love for you to stay, I’m just… I’m really not sure how to do all this.” fuck she’s cute. I take her hand and pull her close. She wraps her arms around my waist and hugs me back.

19: Vanessa

Holy shit, I just asked Callum to stay the night. What is wrong with me. I don’t do this kind of thing, I’m a nervous wreck and all he’s done is hold me. “You’re overthinking again Arnt you? He always knows what I’m thinking but it calms me down.

“I’m sorry, it’s just all this is new to me. I don’t know how to act; I don’t want to make a fool of myself.” Callum kisses me softly. When he runs his tongue along the seam of my lips, I open up for him. His tongue sweeps inside my mouth, and he deepens the kiss.

“Stop letting all the little details worry you, we can just go to bed, and you can let me hold you all night, that’s it, nothing more, nothing less.” I relax in his arms. That sounds fucking perfect. “Ok, sure, I can do that.” Callum smiles at me.

I take his hand and walk him upstairs to my bedroom. It’s a cozy in here, soft cream walls with small green accents. “I’m just going to get some more clothes on.” I don’t give Callum a chance to respond before I dive into the bathroom to change.

When I come back out, Callum is sitting on my bed. He has taken off his top and is sitting in his grey sweatpants. Drool. “Sorry, I just needed the extra layer, you know.” I can feel my face flush. “Come here.” Callum holds out his hand to me and I take it.

“You don’t have to explain yourself to me, I would still want to be with you if you only ever wore a black refuse sack.” I roll my eyes. There’s no way in hell I’m showing him my body, my scars. he pulls me down until I’m sitting on his lap, his hard chest is touching mine “I just feel more comfortable with more clothes on.”

“I understand and that’s perfectly ok, now let’s get in bed so we can cuddle and get some sleep.” my heart is beating a mile a minute. I climb off him and sink under the covers while Callum does the same. We are side by side and laying on our backs.

Our hands find each other under the blankets, and he links his little finger with mine. “You, doing ok over there.” he whispers, and I close my eyes. “I’m ok, I’m doing better than I thought I would.” he lets out a sigh and turns onto his side.

I turn to face him, and it puts our heads close together. He runs his hand down my face, his fingers light on my skin. “You’re so beautiful Vanessa, and so brave.” I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Leaning forward I kiss him.

He kisses me back and it soon becomes heated. He makes me feel hot and sweaty. But all in a good way, yet I know this won’t go any further. Not tonight anyway. “Good night, Callum.” I whisper when he pulls away breathless. “Good night baby.” he replies as he wraps his hand across my waist and gently touches my hip.

…………………………..

The next morning, I wake up and Callum is gone. It’s the best night’s sleep I’ve had in a long time. I roll over in bed and smell him on my sheets. There’s a note on the pillow too.

Good morning baby.

I didn’t want to wake you because you looked so peaceful and I know you don’t sleep well, have an amazing day and think of me. Here is my number so text or call me at any time if you need me, or if you just want to say hi.

Yours Callum x

His number is written along the bottom, and it fills my heart with hope. I have something to look forward to, something that’s all mines. I put his number in my phone under the name my Cal and send him a message.

Me: good morning, thank you for staying last night and thank you for not waking me up x

I climb out of bed and walk into my bathroom ready to have a shower. The extra clothes I wore in bed last night was not ideal, so now I need to shower to wash away the sweat. I hear my phone chime with a message, but I ignore it and get in the shower.

Once I’m dressed, I walk downstairs for a coffee and food. I also check my phone.

My Cal: good morning baby, thank you for letting me stay, and you look beautiful when you’re sleeping so I didn’t have the heart to wake you x.

Me: so, I’m not beautiful when I’m awake? Only when I sleep.

My Cal: well, someone has woken up in a playful mood, your beautiful all the time, have an amazing day and hopefully I can see you later x.

He’s too cute and I feel like a teenager all over again.

Me: that’s more like it, my day will be full of romance and yes to seeing me later x

I make my coffee and take it out onto my porch. It’s a beautiful morning and its already past 9. I never sleep in, ever. Callum is changing me for the better. Yes, I still feel shy around him. Yes, I still hate everyone. But I’m starting to feel happy, I’m starting to live.

After lunch Beth pops in to see me before she heads home. She had a half day at the accountant job she does because they have a presentation evening tonight at some fancy hotel just outside of town.

“Please come with me tonight and save me from all the old man who just want to leer at my chest.” I can’t help but laugh at her pouting face. “Hell to the no, you know how I feel about social situations and most of the men you talk about just sound like perverts.”

She sighs dramatically. “Good job Josh has already said he would come with me then.” I throw a biscuit at her which she picks up and stuffs it in her mouth. “Then why the hell ask me.” she smiles and waves her hand around. “So how was your night with Callum? My face heats and turns beet red.

“He was the perfect gentleman and we just slept, he didn’t push, and he didn’t crowd me, it was… perfect.” she sighs as she places her chin on her hand. “You make a cute couple, and I told you he was one of the good ones.” she winks.

“What about you and Josh, how’s that going.” she thinks for a moment. “He’s intense, he’s slightly immature but he’s also strong and masculine, and my god he is insatiable in the bedroom, like he can go for hours, over and over again.”

I shake my head at her dreamy state. “So, what you’re telling me is your in love and he’s your soul mate.” she swats my arm playfully. “I’m just saying that yea I like him a lot, maybe too much because he’s unsure if he’s sticking around.”

“I didn’t know he was planning on leaving again, Callum never said anything to me.” she sighs again and gets up. “It’s his dad, he has to leave his apartment in Manhattan, obviously they can’t both stay with Cal, so he needs to find somewhere else to live soon and that could literally be anywhere.”

I touch her arm and walk her to the door. “I’m sure it will all work out, like you said, some people are just meant to come into our lives, and I think Josh is your person” she kisses my cheek. “Thanks babe, I love you, I’ll call you tomorrow and let you know all the boring gossip.” I clap sarcastically. “Yay me.” she leaves, and I go back to work.

20: Callum

The last two weeks have been amazing. Vanessa has really come out of her shell around me. She comes to me for cuddles and kisses when we are together and I stay at her house at least twice a week.

We haven’t done anything more than kiss and cuddle and she is always wearing more than I would like her too but that’s ok. I’m a patient man, and she’s worth the wait. My dad has tried calling me at least 6 times and I’ve avoided him so far.

My mother has text me a few times, but it’s always the same thing. What color do we want for the wedding. I say, there is no wedding. Then she asks me if I want just close family there or distant family. Again, I tell her there is no wedding.

Jessa has text me once and asked me if I plan to buy her a ring or if she should just get her own. My reply is “fuck off and leave me the hell alone” she didn’t text back after that. Ky is a constant in my life and with Christmas fast approaching we actually plan to go away for a small vacation.

Vanessa is coming and even Josh and Beth said they would like to join us. Sadly, Buxton can’t because Lacey will be nearly 8 months pregnant, and he doesn’t want to risk being away from home if she goes into labor.

The club, Fever is almost halfway done. We are currently laying the floor which is black marble tiles with flecks of gold in them. Expensive stuff. Once that’s done, we will be starting on the basement as well as Mrs. Kingsley’s porch.

After we pack up for the day I head out to my van and throw my things inside. My phone rings, when I pull my phone from my pocket, I see that it’s my father. Might as well find out what he wants.

“Hello father.” I sigh and close my eyes.

“Callum, care to explain what’s going with you? You’re avoiding me and your mother. plus, Jessa came to me telling me, you told her to, and I quote, “fuck off.”

I can’t help the little snigger that leaves my mouth.

“I’ve told mom I’m not interested in helping with wedding plans because there won’t be a wedding, Jessa is a snake, and a lying cheat.”

Dad scoffs down the line.

“Callum, I don’t understand you, we talked about this, Jessa is looking forward to this and you’re fucking everything up.”

Why won’t he listen to me?

“No, you talked about this, and I said no, I’ve said no time and time again, oh and thanks for calling Logan and trying to get me fired from this contract, that was awesome.”

“I need this contract Callum; I told you what the consequences were, and you still dare to go against me.”

I can hear the anger in his tone.

“Look we can keep going around and around in circles, but the answer is the same, Jessa can go to hell, she hurt my girlfriend and that’s unacceptable.”

“Your girlfriend, Callum what do you mean? Jessa is your girlfriend. Who is this other woman you speak of? What’s her name.”

“I’m not telling you shit dad, just drop this shit and find another way to get your precious contract, my life is my own.”

“Tell me her name or so help me god Callum, I can always find out another way and it will only piss me off more.”

I huff out loud, this man is trying my last nerve.

“Her name is Vanessa, she lives next door to me, and we have been seeing each other for over two weeks, she means more to me than Jessa ever would.”

“Vanessa who? What’s her last name.”

Jesus this man, if he so much as lays a finger on Vanessa.

“Vanessa Kinny, she went to high school with me, and Jessa and I didn’t realize the whole time that Jessa was her bully, the things she did dad, she’s disgusting, do you know she held Vanessa down so a man could rape her.”

“Callum listen to me and listen well. That girl has been lying to you, she was never bullied by Jessa, it was the other way round, I remember it well when Gregory told me that Jessa was the one who had been raped and Vanessa was the one who helped it happen.”

Is he for real right now. Jessa doesn’t act like a rape victim.

“Vanessa had a troubled childhood, she spent time in and out of hospital, as well as mental institutions from the age of 17, Callum she is a danger to herself and now to you.”

“You’re not making sense dad, it was Jessa who helped in Vanessa’s rape, your wrong in what you’ve been told.”

“And I’m telling you it was Vanessa who is the bully, I have the police report, and I’ve seen the files from when she was in Henderson institute, why would I lie to you.”

I can’t wrap my head around what he’s saying, sure I don’t know Vanessa that well, but would she lie to me? My instincts tell me no.

“Look, I’ll send you the report, see for yourself and then end things with her. Your engagement party is next weekend so be there and make me proud.”

I don’t hear any more of what he’s saying because my brain is running in so many different directions.

“I’ve got to go.”

I cut off his reply and climb into my van. “You good bro?” Buxton taps on my window, and I roll it down. “Yeah, just had a very disturbing conversation with my father.” can my life get any more complicated. “What did he say now.” Buxton hates my father; he can see for himself what a manipulative asshole he is.

“He said that Vanessa isn’t who she says she is, and I need to end it.” Buxton whistles. “And what do you feel, do you think she’s been lying to you? I shake my head no. “Honestly, I’ve seen some of her scars, she told me about her past and if you had been there and saw how devastated she was you would believe her too”?

“Then go with your gut man. Ask her and put your fears to bed.” I nod but knowing I will hurt Vanessa by getting her to talk about it again will rip my heart open. “Thanks man, take care and I’ll see you on Monday.”

I drive home in a daze; it can’t be true. I saw how talking about her past crushed her. My dad is just trying to break us up for his own gain.

When I pull up at home Vanessa is on her porch and I sit for a few minutes just watching her. She waves and I wave back but for some reason I don’t smile. She sees my face and frowns; I shake my head to clear my thoughts.

My phone tells me I have a new email and sure enough my father has sent me the police report. It’s a detailed log of harassment charges brought against Vanessa; she attacked Jessa and assisted in sexual assault. I’m at a loss for words.

All files have been signed by Gregory Roberts, my father’s signature below them. Why would my father have been there? What the hell is going on.

I get out of the van and walk over to Vanessa’s house; my legs feel heavy and my head hurts. She smiles when I get closer, and my instant thoughts are that I love this woman. I don’t know when it happened, but it did and now with everything my dad told me along with the email. Fuck, my head is pounding.