Chapter 21

Sunday night arrived; I was seated on the sofa as Dane and the others entered the basement. I had a can of coke in hand and Nico was sitting by my side.

“that’s Wilder’s phone, but you’re not going to like what’s on there.” Dane throws the cell at Nico who catches it with ease.

“Probably not best if teal sees.” he adds as Nico looks from Dane to me.

“Why. what’s on there.” I ask suddenly panicked.

“You said he was caught in the girl’s locker room right. am I on there.” my voice wavers. I’ve showered plenty of times in the school locker room.

Nico opens the phone and gets up so I can’t see. “Let me look first. who else has seen this.” he asks Dane who won’t now look at me.

“Just me, but.” he pauses. “He did send it to a few of his buddies.

Tadd walks in the room at this point and I can only describe the way he looks at me, as he’s undressing me with his eyes. it’s disgusting

Nico stiffens as Tadd sits down, the room is now cooler by a few degrees. “What the fuck.” I snap my head to Nico who runs his hand through his hair.

“Why the fuck is Wilder sending you videos of Teal naked in the shower, naked at the lake and almost naked through the window of her bedroom.” he directs the question to Tadd.

“After you said he was filming, I went to see him. told him to send it all to me, so I could get rid of it.” I don’t believe that for one second.

Nico narrows his eyes at his cousin. “So why is it still on his phone ass swipe.” Nico sneers.

“How should I know. he said he deleted it and that was the end. I trusted him to do that.” Tadd shrugs like he doesn’t give a fuck.

there are videos of me naked in the shower. oh God, there’s videos of me naked in a shower, where I should have been safe. videos of me at the lake, when cell phones were banned. what the fuck.

“You trusted him. you didn’t come to us, to me. are you some kind of moron. do you still have it.” Nico asks and Tadd looks at me.

“I might do.” this all Nico needs to hear. he’s over the room and is pulling Tadd from his seat by his collar.

“she’s part of the crew; you don’t fuck with the crew. ever. now fucking hand over your phone.” Austin is there in a heartbeat.

“Come on man. she’s hot, that shit is hot.” Nico lets his fist fly, Tadd dropping to the floor like a bag of bricks.

“I’m don’t with your shit. get the fuck out. you’re not part of the crew from here on out, you’re done.” Tadd splutters, scrambles up from the floor and gets in Nicos face.

“Fuck you, you can’t do that. you have to Challenge me.” Dane for some reason or another is holding my hand, how did I miss that.

“Fine. I Nico Dalles. challenge you Tadd Davenport, to a fight.” Tadd looks terrified but cools his features.

“Next Friday night motherfucker. you’re going down.” Nico growls and I shiver.

“that’s the night the girls fight.” I shudder at the reminder.

“Then I guess the crowd will get Two winners instead of one.” Nico replies and Dane squeezes my hand.

Tadd gives his goons a look, Austin hands him phone back and they leave. what the hell just happened? I sit numb, my mind whirling. was I targeted for being the new girl?

“I need to leave.” I stand up suddenly. Dane giving me a look of sympathy.

“Not yet. wait in my room.” Nico commands and I sigh.

what choice do I have. I don’t know where Tadd is, and I don’t want to run into him. so, I walk the short distance to Nicos room and flop down on his bed.

I realize soon after it’s where he had that girl tied up. many girls probably, so I jump up and pace the floor. “you’ll have to stay here tonight.” Nico makes me jump when he enters the room.

“What? why? I ask with my arms crossed over my chest.

“Because I’ve had a few beers. you didn’t drive and I’m not risking it.” I huff and sit down in the chair that’s facing the bed.

“Great. but I’m no sleeping on that.” I point to the bed and Nico chuckles.

“You slept on it last time.” he teases with a smile.

“Yeah well, last time I didn’t know you… did that.” I drop my head to my hands.

Nico sits on the bed, his knees almost touching mine. “What do you think I do in here. play guitar and sing kumbaya.” I almost swat at him but decide against it.

“I know you do… that. I just… never mind. what about the girls that come here.” I hate even saying it.

“I cancelled it. they guys are just going to have a few beers and pass out. so, you either sleep where you are or get in bed with me.” I let out a small squeak.

so said it so casually. like it’s a normal thing to do. “that’s my options. Jesus. what is a girl to do.” I huff leaning back in the seat.

“don’t be a brat. you know I like you being here. so, stay. please.” I don’t have a choice, but then I realize he’s asking me to sleep in his bed with him.

our eyes lock. his are so blue its unfair. his blonde hair is artfully messy. why does he have to be so hot. he rips his shirt up and off over his head. dear lord he’s beautiful.

“Here. put this on. get changed and get into bed. I’ll come back in later to check on you.” with that he stands up and closes the door when he leaves.

I sniff his shirt because why not. I close my eyes and sniff again. he smells of man, rich cologne and cinnamon. I send mum a text letting her know I’m staying with friends, and she sends me a thumbs up.

I debate taking off my jeans but then remember how awful it is to sleep in them. I swap my top for his and I moan at how soft it feels. God, I’m one of those girls.

I set an alarm for 6 and snuggle under the sheets. they smell clean, so that’s a bonus. before long I must doze off, because the next thing I realize is Nico is behind me, and he’s spooning me.

Chapter 22

Its Monday afternoon. Nico got me to mine just after 6.45 and I had time to shower and get ready for school. I slept so well, Nico too. it wasn’t awkward when we woke. it felt good.

Now I’m back at his place, in his basement gym. I swear this house is never ending. rooms upon rooms that I’ve yet to discover. we have mats on the floor, and we are working through some fighting techniques.

“Step back when I come at you. twist your body and use your right arm to uppercut. aim for the gut or the face.” I do as I’m told for the One hundred and twenty seventh time today.

“Good. but put more power behind your hit. don’t hold back, I can take it.” he makes an oomph sound when I slam my fist into his chest.

“Good. that was better. again.” we do it again and I hit his kidney. he grunts and we go again.

“you’re getting good. you got natural skills. now, I’m going to come at you from behind.” I pause because really. why would Val come at me from behind.

“Be prepared for anything little mouse.” I take a deep breath and turn away from him.

“When I step close. turn as fast as you can. use the same technique. bend, pivot. uppercut. it’s all the same. just from a different angle.”

I do as he tells me, but this time I follow through, my body still spinning and end up dizzy, hitting the floor with a thud. Nico laughs and helps me to my feet.

“Ok, that was trash. but, ok, let me try something. you trust me.” I give him a look and then nod. because I do trust him.

“what’s the one thing girls go for in a fight.” I frown and consider his question.

“Hair, I guess.” he nods and turns me away from him.

“Exactly. I’m going to go for your hair. do what feels natural.” he whispers this part in my ear, and I shudder.

“Focus little mouse.” I close my eyes because he’s too damn close to me.

my hair his pulled from under my ponytail. his large palm grabbing as much hair as he can. my natural instinct is to grab his hand. but I don’t. I still pivot and bend down lower. then I uppercut him right on his chin.

he releases me and falls to the floor backwards, but because I’m still going in a forward motion, I go down with him and end up on top of his large wide body.

“Damn. you hit like a man.” he chuckles, and I groan as I roll off him.

“I don’t think my arms can take much more. you split my knuckle on your iron chin.” I grumble throwing my arm over my eyes.

“Iron chin.” he laughs and then leans up on one arm, his lean body half laying over me. I can feel the heat of him through my clothes.

we are closer than ever when I finally look at him. “Why are you helping me.” I ask in a whisper. his frown is ever present.

“That night in the forest. when you asked me to show you my…” I pause when he puts a finger to my lips.

“I won’t apologize for that. I wanted to see your tits, which are fantastic by the way.” I swat him in the chest, and he chuckles again.

“But as to why I’m helping you.” he pauses and gets a faraway look in his eyes.

“I’ve told you before. I like being around you. you calm the voices in my head.” I watch him, the shine of his eyes. the tick in his jaw.

“But you won’t take it any further.” I whisper, his eyes flitting to mine.

time slows down as he brings his face close to mine. I can feel his breath on my skin. his lips are puffy and look soft to touch. I can’t stop my hand from raising and running my finger over his bottom lip.

he closes his eyes as if in pain. “I think it’s time for you to go.” the spell is broken, and I feel rejected and a fool.

I roll away and get up off the floor. “Your mad.” he asks as I throw on my hoody and grab my shoes.

“No.” that’s all I can reply, because I am mad. not at him, at myself.

“Teal, look at me.” I don’t and that forces him to grab my arm.

“Look at me.” I stop what I’m doing and lift my eyes to his.

a single tear falls down my cheek. I don’t mean to cry but I have feelings for him, and I don’t know how to deal with it. “Please don’t cry. it has to be this way. I’m no good for you. ill hurt you.”

I shake my head. “I can’t do this with you Nico. my feelings for you are too real. I can’t keep seeing you with different girls. watching them have you when I can’t.” I pause.

“Thank you for teaching me the basics. but I think its best if you keep your distance from now on.” he must see the devastation in my face because he steps back and finally nods.

I walk towards the door and pause when he speaks. “I’m sorry little mouse. I’ll stay away. I promise.” and just like that, I lost him.

The drive home is lonely and filled with my sniffles. I probably sound pathetic. but even now I realize I’ve fallen for Nico. I never felt this way for Devlin, or anyone for that matter.

Mum is out again when I get home. I can count a handful of times I’ve seen her since we moved across the world. I’m feeling sad and lonely when I finally crawl into bed,

it’s not until I step into the kitchen the next morning that I finally get to meet mums’ new man, and oh boy was I in for a shock.

Chapter 23

“Teal. sweetheart.” I freeze in the doorway. there’s no way in hell I’m looking at my dad right now. it’s impossible.

“Honey. talk to me. come sit.” I shake my head no. he doesn’t get to tell me what to do.

when tears fall down my cheeks, mum rushes over to console me, but I brush her off. I can’t be here right now. it’s all to raw.

“Teal. please honey. wait.” mums voice lingers as I run from the house. I climb into my car and peel out of the drive.

I don’t know where I’m going, so I just drive and drive. I realize at the last minute I’ve ended up at the lake. it’s beautiful in the morning light.

the water is flat, not a ripple in sight as I climb from my car and walk to the water’s edge. my phone buzzes in my blazer pocket but I ignore it.

Did mum know dad was here all along. is that why we moved here. was everything she told me about the magazine a lie. my stomach rolls with nausea.

After an hour, I finally check my phone. mum has tried to call me 12 times. she texts me too. she said “sorry” and to call her. I almost scoff at that.

Harper text me, “where are you, why aren’t you here. are you ok.”

I text her back, she’s the only one I want to tell that I’m ok. her reply is “thank god. you scared me. here if you need me.”

I spend the rest of the morning at the lake. it feels good to just sit and think. I love school, never missed a day. but right now, I’m an emotional mess.

deciding to go to school, I arrive just before lunch. “Oh my god. there you are. you ok.” Harper comes up to me and hugs me close.

“My dad’s back.” is all I can say.

“When? now, I mean didn’t he leave when you were young.” I nod and we sit down.

she must text bass because a few minutes later bass walks over with a tray of food, most of which he hands to me.

“How do you feel about it.” bass asks, I’m guessing Harper text him that too.

“I don’t know. numb I guess.” my reply is short and sweet.

“Your mums been dating him right.” Harper asks and I nod.

“So that would mean that she started seeing him from the moment you arrived.” I nod again.

“I think it’s one of the reasons we moved here. I think she lied about her job.”

“I’m so sorry Teal. that’s utter dog shit.” I can’t help but chuckle at her comment.

“He was just there. this morning. in the kitchen, sitting at the table like…like he never left. I ran. I’m so confused.” I drop my head in my hands.

my day goes from bad to worse when Tadd corners me outside the locker room after gym. the halls are quiet and there’s nobody around to help me. even Bass is missing.

“it’s all your fucking fault. Nico kicking me from the crew. you’ll pay for that.” he sneers in my face as he holds my wrist in a tight grip.

“I didn’t ask him too. you could be a decent human being and not accept nude pictures of girls in the shower.” I snap back and he tightens his grip making me wince.

“This has nothing to do with pictures and everything to do with you. ever since you rolled up. he’s been obsessed. its fucking sick, but no mind. I’ll get rid of you and then I’ll get rid of him.” his face is so close I almost gag.

“What are you even talking about. Nico is not obsessed with me. we aren’t anything to each other.” he lets out a small chuckle.

“Your so fucking clueless. ever wonder why the girls he has in the basement all look like you.” I frown at his comment.

I mean sure, I saw one who vaguely resembled me. but her hair was a shade daker than mine and she was small. I guess by most standards I’m considered small, but…. shit.

“I forgot, you always leave when they arrive. all of them. ever since you showed up. they all look like you.” I gasp because that can’t be true.

“that’s right. every time he beats or whips their flesh, it’s you he thinks of.” tears form in my eyes.

“Every time they scream from having his big cock shoved up their ass. it’s you he’s imagining.” he chuckles and leans in closer.

“Every time they come close to death, his belt wrapped around their neck. it’s you he wished he could choke.” he finally lets me go and I run.

I run to my car. I drive home as fast as I can. I run to my room and slam my door shut. I close and lock my window, then I have a hot shower and climb into bed.

“Teal honey.” soft knocking on my door wakes me.

“You awake honey. I made dinner.” mum speaks softly through the wood of the door.

“Come down when you’re ready. we need to talk.” I don’t reply, but I do get up and brush my teeth.

I can’t deal with the let’s talk about dad conversation right now. am I being unfair, probably. but I think she’s been lying to me and that’s not cool.

I pull out some homework and make a start on that. I also pull a bottle of coke from my bag that was left over from lunch. I’m starving, but I’ll wait until later to go find food.

just before 10 another knock comes to my door. “Teal honey, I know your upset and I totally understand. just know I won’t push you. come talk to me when you’re ready ok.”

I don’t answer her. “I love your honey.” she whispers before finally leaving. I hear her door shut a few seconds later.

Chapter 24

“I’m so nervous. I think I may puke.” Harper is driving us to the forest. its fight night and I’m a wreck.

“I’m not one for violence but just trust your gut. defend your face and your stomach. that’s what my older sister told me when I had some bullies to deal with in middle school.”

“You were bullied.” I ask in shock.

“Sure was. kids bullied me for having religious parents. called us God fuckers. so childish.”

“I know you don’t fully understand this system Nico and the crew has. but honestly it works. less fighting. less crime. less drugs.”

I understand what she’s saying. I do see how it works. you can only start shit with someone and come to an agreement through a challenge. I just wish it wasn’t fighting.

“Oh lord. why is every single person in New York here to see this.” harper chuckles.

“Not just you remember. news spread fast of Nico and Tadd’s fight. people have wanted to see them go at each other for a while.”

“How is a winner determined.” I just realized I never asked.

“Whoever gets knocked out, or whichever person taps out.”

“Weapons.” I ask because I never thought of that.

“Hell no. just good old fisty cuffs.” I chuckle and we park the car.

after a beat, Harper taps my hand, and we exit the car. Cheers go up all round as I enter the main area. Harper drops of her offering and gets a single nod from Nico.

we find Bass near the drinks table, and he hands me a fruity cocktail. “For courage.” I take it and knock it back

“This is fucking bullshit. you can’t deny me into the party, I’m here to support val.” I see Nancy talking to the crew from the bottom of the steps.

I don’t know what Nico reply is but Nancy screams in frustration and stomps past me, her shoulder knocking me in the ribs, the empty cup falling from my hand.

“Welcome everyone. we have Two fights tonight.” Nico yells and the crowd cheers.

“The first is between Valerie Thatcher and Teal Grant. please make your way to the pit.” I panic.

“what’s the pit.” I cry as harper grabs my shoulders.

“Calm. it’s for safety. it’s just a big hole in the ground, means no one else can interfere.” Oh great, I feel so much better. Harper chuckles.

“Come on, this way.” we both follow Bass and sure enough, there in the ground, not far from the house, is a big old hole, just dirt and weeds. I’m guessing there used to be a pool here.

“there’s a ladder there. climb in.” Bass orders me and I nod with a shake.

Val is already down there, eager to get this over with. my feet hit the floor and at the last minute I look up and lock eyes with Nico, who in turn gives me a nod.

remembering what he said, I whip my shirt off over my head. cheers go up around us, but this is purely for my safety. I don’t want Val to be able to rip my clothes or use them to strangle me.

I toss the top to Harper who catches it. “Nobody wants to see your disgusting body.” Val sneers but I ignore her.

“Fighters ready.” Nico calls with a hand in the air. I nod, Val does too, and he drops his arm to signal for the fight to begin.

Val charges at me like a banshee. her scream is louder than her slap to the face. it stings but it it’s pathetic. I dodge the next hit and the next.

round and round we go. her slaps just missing my face and landing on my neck or shoulder.

I’m cornered with mud at my back. “Move Teal.” bass shouts and I manage to slide to the side as her fist connects to the mud, right where my head had been.

I spin away and in sheer desperation I swing my hand backwards and catch her right across the mouth. her lip splits on impact and the crowd roars.

she does what I predicted and grabs for my hair. her long nails scratch across my neck and I hiss. but what she doesn’t expect is for me to bend, pivot and punch her so hard in the guts, she drops to her knees.

I don’t wait for her to recover, I use my leg, lift it and kick her as hard across the chest as I can. the thud is deafening, but she still doesn’t go down. so, I pull back my fist and clock her square in the jaw.

I stand breathing hard. my right knuckle is split and bleeding, my neck too. but Val looks up towards Nico and the crew. she nods once. I won. holy shit I won.

Harper is screaming and jumping up and down when I climb the ladder to the top of the pit. bass hands me my top and takes a look at my hands.

“Teal Grant is the winner. Val your officially banned from the forest now, get the fuck out.” Nic yells so he is heard. Val sneers at me, but walks away, some of the other girls in tow.

“Holy shit that was amazing. you are my hero.” Harper gushes as Nico walks over to us.

“Congrats little mouse. now let me show you how a real fight ends.” I shiver at his words as Tadd climbs down into the pit.

I didn’t even see him arrive. Nico joins him and they both look up to see Austin standing with his arm raised. ok, so no words of wisdom for this fight then.

it’s one thing to be in a fight. you know what’s coming. you can assess the other person and adjust. seeing Nico circle Tadd is frightening, watching his muscles ripple on his bare chest. Tadd spinning to keep his eyes on his opponent.

No words are spoken. no screaming or yelling. no insults or vulgar threats. just fists to flesh. Nico hits Tadd in the face. Tadd hits Nico in the kidney.

round and round they go, punch for punch, until Nico kicks Tadd so hard he bends forward. Nico then lifts his knee and delivers the knockout blow. the crowd celebrates as Tadd lies motionless out on the floor.

Nico is breathing hard, red spit dribbling from his chin, but he looks pleased with himself. he looks like he enjoys it. revels in it. his eyes lock to mine and he winks.

Chapter 25

Drinks in hand, we dance around the fire like a couple of goons. Bass is with us, but his eyes are across the way, locked on Dane. after a few songs I decide to sit down and rest my aching limbs.

my neck is sore from being scratched, my knuckle stings from being ripped open, but I feel good. I feel like I belong here, that feels strange to admit. I feel good until a shadow fall across my back.

“Little mouse. walk with me.” my instincts tell me to say no. but my heart screams yes. I’m an idiot, I should walk the other way.

it’s been 4 days since we spoke, so I get up and follow him, Harper giving me a small smile. “I miss you.” that’s what he started with.

“don’t do that. that’s not fair.” I reply. we are now just inside the thickest trees at the edge of the forest.

“it’s the truth. I know I said I would stay away, but I fucking miss you.” he runs a hand through his thick blonde hair.

silence falls around us, in the distant, you can hear the bass of the music from the party. “Why am I here. what do you want from me, and don’t say it’s because I calm you. that’s bullshit. my head is a mess, this push pull, whatever the fuck you call it.”

he stops pacing and stands in front of me. it looks like he has a thousand words stuck to his tongue. “Tell me about the girls in the basement. the ones who look like me.” he freezes where he stands, eyes wider than normal.

“Who told you that.” he snaps but not in anger.

“that’s irrelevant.” I snap back before I calm. “I saw one of them. that night, do you remember.” I whisper as his eyes stay locked on mine.

“Tell me. is it true.” I continue.

“Is what true.” he looks haunted but plays dumb.

“Is it true you now pick girls who look like me, wish they were me.” he remains silent.

“Tell me. do you hurt them wishing it was me.” I pause. “Do you fuck them wishing it was my body.”

“Fuck.” he growls with frustration, pulling on his hair; he’s breathing so harshly now. his massive chest rising and falling.

in a move I didn’t see coming, Nico crashes into me. I’m slammed back against the nearest tree. we are all lips, teeth and tongue as his mouth consumes mine. I’ve never been kissed like this. the way he devours me whole.

he moans as he lashes his tongue with mine. I groan when he bites my bottom lip. both of us panting like we just ran up a steep hill. its messy. it’s delicious. its fucking with my head.

“Stop.” I push on his chest as he leans back. no other part of his body is touching me, his hands now resting beside my head. his eyes are so expressive right now, but his face is a blank slate.

blood drips from his lip, bringing his thumb up to wipe it away. we must look like a right pair. both scratched and bloody. both panting, both lost to the world around us.

“That should never have happened. we can’t do that again; my heart won’t survive. I feel too much.” my words are so quiet, but eventually he stands back and allows me room.

tears fall from my eyes. I’m a teenager in love. it’s got the be one of the worst feelings in the world when your 17. I move away from him but stop to look at him over my shoulder.

“I dreamed of you Nico. I dreamed of you before I even met you. what do you suppose that means.” I ask letting him see the devastation on my face.

he fully turns to face me but stays quiet. “Enough now Nico. this has to be enough.” I choke as he continues to watch me. if I looked closer, I would be able to see his eyes classed over. but who knows.

I turn to leave, hearing the whisper of his voice break my heart all over again. “I dreamed of you too.” I keep walking, willing my legs to get me back to Harper so she can take me home.

Bass is nowhere to be seen when I find Harper and with one look on of my face, she can see that I’ve been crying. she bundles me into her arms and walks me back to her car.

“I still can’t believe he kissed you. he doesn’t kiss Teal, like ever.” Harper has been talking about this for the last 30 minutes, since we got home to mine and made snacks.

“I think I fell for him Harp. I didn’t want to. I tried not to. I tried so bloody hard. but…” I drop my head into my hands.

“I feel you girl. love is a big pile of horse manure. honestly, I hope I never fall in love.” I smile when she comes right up to my face.

“Unless its Alan Ritchson, then hell yeah.” I chuckle because she’s like 17 and Alan Ritchson is like 40 something.

I let out a sigh and fall onto my bed. “Have you spoke to your mum yet.” her voice is soft.

“Nope.” I reply popping the p.

“What are you going to do about Nico.” I don’t know how much longer I can keep discussing this subject.

“I don’t no. I honestly don’t think it will go anywhere, he’s too… advanced. I’m a novice when it comes to sex or any sexual situation.” I groan and roll on to my tummy.

“let’s forget about him for now. it’s your birthday soon. what’s the plan.” she bounces on the bed making me lift up and down.

“Strippers. No, to cliche. male escorts, no, too last year. booze. blah, been there done that.” she snaps her fingers at me.

“I know. how about clowns.” I raise one eyebrow.

“Clowns.” I ask confused.

“Yes clowns. big ass scary ones. ones that chase us and try to eat us. cos they are a dam sight better than boys.” she pretends to gag and falls to the floor grabbing her own throat.

“You are seriously the weirdest person I’ve ever met.” I say with as much sarcasm as I can.

“Why thank you kind sir.” she bows, and we both fall about laughing.

she may be weird in some one’s eyes. but in mine, I love her to bits. she’s been the very thing I needed since I got here.

Chapter 26

it’s been a few weeks since I’ve seen Nico. school has been quiet. Nancy has backed off, Tadd too. I can’t help feeling it’s the calm before the storm.

I haven’t seen much of mum either and I feel a little guilty about it. she’s tried, of course she’s tried. but I shut her out and I know I’m being unfair.

Sadly, on a random Wednesday morning, I find her in the kitchen drinking coffee, waiting for me to enter. it’s not that I don’t want to talk to her. it’s what she will tell me, I’m scared.

“Hi honey. will you join me before you leave.” she speaks softly.

I almost bolt but her words stop me. “Please Teal. I miss you.” I close my eyes and fight hard not to cry and scream.

eventually I sit down with my own drink and wait for her to speak. “how’s school.” I shrug, I’m a cow, I know.

“Harper and you still friends.” I nod again.

“Can we please talk about your dad. I owe you an explanation.” just hearing her say his name makes me shudder.

for so long I wanted to see him again. I missed him with the warmth of a thousand suns. but to find out she’s now dating him like no time passed at all. it hurts.

“Did you know your dad was born in New York.” I didn’t know that actually.

“Moved to the UK when he was 3. Mitchel and Donna, his parents. we didn’t get on.” I wait for more. “They never accepted me as his girlfriend, hated me when we got married.” she adds with a small smile.

“When you were born, they moved back here. Mitchel was already in bad health and Donna wanted to be back with her friends. back to what was familiar.”

“Mitchel died when you were 5. your dad was sad, but they weren’t close. he came here for the funeral. you were too young to remember.” I know dad went on business trips. but I didn’t know where.

“When you were 9. when he left.” she chokes slightly but composes herself.

“Donna was unwell. your dad wanted to be with her. to comfort her in her last days.” I’m not liking where this is going.

“One month turned into Three. Three turned into a year. before you know it. he called and said he wasn’t coming back.” I watch a tear slip from her eye.

“He met someone and fell in love. got…married. said he loved us both.” she scoffs and shakes her head.

“I held on to hope for too many years thinking he would come back. he said he was coming back.” a sob leaves her lips, and I reach out to touch her hand.

“He asked about you. when we spoke. he asked about you all the time.” it takes a minute for that truth to hit me.

“You spoke to him.” I ask in a whisper. “When. why didn’t you let me speak to him. did he want to speak to me.” I ask in quick succession.

“I didn’t want to confuse you. you always asked when he was coming back so it was easier to let you move on, think he wasn’t coming back.” I snatch my hand away from her.

“Why didn’t he come to see me. travel to the Uk. send me a birthday card. anything to let me know he was thinking of me. that would have been better than to believe he just disappeared like we meant nothing.” I cry.

she lifts a box that was sitting beside her on the chair. it’s the size of a shoe box. she slides it across the table towards me, and I debate whether to open it, so I leave it.

“When did he decided he wanted us to come here because I don’t believe we came for your promotion.” she looks so guilty when I ask that.

“I’m sorry. that was a lie.” I knew it. “We met in Canada last year at a conference. it was so out of the blue to see him there. we reconnected and…” she pauses.

“He asked if I would be willing to relocate here, bring you with me so we could be a family again.” it’s my turn to scoff.

“And his wife.” I ask with a snap.

she looks down at her mug. “he’s still married.” my legs lift me from my seat so fast, the chair scratches across the floor.

“you’re having an affair.” I cry making her wince.

“Teal its… complicated. she knows about me.”

“Oh well that’s ok then. as long as you’re all on the same page. nobody needs to get hurt. accept you all forgot about one thing…me.” I slap my own chest in anger.

“Me. mum. I’m the one that’s been lied to since I was 9. I’m the one who was lied to when you dragged me here. I’m the one who has a box full of what, I don’t know, and I don’t want it.”

“Teal please. don’t be angry. it was all so… complicated.”

“Jesus. listen to yourself mum. he snaps his fingers, and you go running. he. is. married. he left us. he left me. I don’t forgive him for that, and I don’t forgive you.”

I back away from the table. “Teal honey. don’t do this. listen to him. hear him out. he just wants to see you, get to know you again.” I laugh at that.

I laugh because if I don’t, I’ll hit something. “it’s too late for that. I don’t want to know him. he had his chance, and he chose another woman. he chose to live here instead of coming home. I hate him.” she gasps, hand to mouth.

“You don’t mean that.” is she for real right now.

I turn and run, away from her, from this house, from the lies. I’m sick of people treating me like shit and then explaining it with. “it’s complicated.” I’ve never hated a phrase so much as I do right now.

I drive around for the rest of the night, ending up at the lake. I wish all the noise inside my head would stop. Nico is right. when he is close it’s all so much calmer. but sadly, he’s not here.

Chapter 27

another Friday night, another crappy party in the forest. another bullshit challenge. this time its Two second year boys fighting in the pit.

Harper is sitting beside me near the fire. I have no interest in watching, it’s all so high school. my life is a mess and my head constantly hurts.

Bass is off doing God knows what. Nico is being Nico and refereeing the fight. Harper is chatting to me about my birthday, and I sit numbly watching the flames.

I haven’t spoken to my mum accept for the odd word in over 2 weeks. my birthday is in Three weeks and I’m dreading it. “Why the long face.” I look up to see a guy standing there looking at me.

he reminds me of Devlin in a lot of ways. soft brown hair that sways in the breeze. tall but maybe slightly too thin. he’s wearing a leather jacket and dark blue jeans.

“Do I know you.” I drawl. Harper squeaks beside me.

“Names Joel. you’re from pacific prep right.” he sits down beside me without being asked.

“How is it you know this. I mean it’s a pacific prep party. easy guess right.” I ask as he smiles at me.

he has a nice smile. “Watched your fight. your bad ass.” he smirks, and I find I like him.

“Thanks. you don’t go to pacific prep.” it’s more a statement than a question.

“Fuck no. I graduated last year from Staton U.” I nod but don’t really have a clue where that is.

“So that makes you 20.” I raise a brow.

“Almost 19. but close.” he teases, and I smile.

“What brings you here tonight.” I ask and he looks around for a second.

“Business. maybe pleasure.” the way he purred it, should be illegal.

“Marrion.” we both snap our heads to Nico’s tone.

he stands with Dane and Austin. Donavan and Chris are just behind him.

“You said your name was Joel.” I ask confused.

he looks at me then with a grin. “Joel Marrion at your service.” he holds out his hand for me to shake.

to say Nico looks pissed would be putting it mildly. “let’s go Marrion.”

“Duty calls. maybe I’ll see you around later.” he’s definitely flirting with me.

“don’t count on it. she’s off limits to you.” I glare at Nico. who the hell does he think he is.

“Come find me.” I purr and Nico almost looks ready to swing.

“I said she’s off limits.” Nico snaps and I stand up.

“You don’t fucking own me Nico Dallas.” I snap.

“don’t I. was it not you, begging me to fuck you. was it not you who spent two nights, no, Three in my bed. I own you and you know it.”

“I have never begged you to fuck me. who the hell do you think you are. I was in your bed recovering from being beaten by your crazy ass girlfriend.”

Harper pulls on my arm, that’s when I realize I’m right up in Nicos face. “As lovely as this is. let’s move on shall we. much to discuss.” Joel jokes and the tension drops.

Nico and the crew walk away. one after the other, like little soldiers. I scoff and sit back down. “Well, that was dramatic.” Joel winks at me and I finally smile.

“I’ll come find you later killer.” Harper lets out a long sigh when he leaves.

for the next Two hours I find myself lost in thought. thoughts of my mum, my dad. that damn shoe box that appeared on the end of my bed one afternoon.

“Come on, let’s dance.” Harper pulls me up and reluctantly I follow.

Not even one dance later, Nico comes charging at me. the muscles tight on his shoulders, his face a mask of indifference. “let’s go.” he snatches my arm before I have a chance to argue.

he pulls me along, some people watching with wide eyes. “Teal.” I whip my head back to see a concerned Harper following us.

“it’s ok Harp. I’ll be back in a bit.” my tone is bored. unconcerned.

we walk into the thickest trees. the moon only just visible if you look up. the sounds of the part fade and I realize we have walked quite a way.

“Nico, stop it. for god’s sake, what is your deal.” I yank my arm from his iron grip.

“Stay the fuck away from Marrion.” the anger in his face should scare me, but it doesn’t.

“You don’t get to tell me what to do. you don’t want me, remember. I’m free to speak to whoever I want, do whatever I please.” I snap back and he lunges for me.

my back against a tree, his hand around my throat. “Not him. anyone but him. you have no idea who he is, how dangerous he is. don’t test me little mouse.” his lips slams down on mine. it’s like Deja vu.

I struggle to push him away. his hand gripping so tight I feel the blood rushing to my head, my ears ring and my eyes bulge. “Your mine.” his words are clipped, dangerous.

his mouth destroys me, his tongue striking like a weapon. he consumes me to the point I can’t breathe. “N… Nicko.” I stutter as his hand leaves my throat. both hands together he rips my top open and down the middle.

“What. Ni…” I’m cut off with his lips back on mine. he grinds his pelvis into me. his hard cock can be felt through his jeans. he’s so hard it must hurt.

“Show me those tits.” he growls yanking the cups of my bra down. his eyes roam my chest.

“Not like this. Nico, you need to stop.” but he doesn’t top. his lips suck and bite onto my sedative nipples making me cry out into the black night.

“You asked for me. you asked for his. now you’ll understand.” he grabs both of my wrists and holds then high above my head. I’m equal parts afraid and turned on.

using one hand he flips the buttons of my jeans and yanks them down my legs. “Please stop. Nico, you proved your point. you’re scaring me.” I whimper when he snatches my knickers from my hips.

“And yet you wouldn’t stop. kept asking me to show you. kept hinting you could be what those other girls are. do what they do. now you’re about to find out.” I shiver as I stand before him, no jeans, no knickers. my top open and my bra bunched under my breasts.

his hand strokes a path from between my breasts, down to my stomach. it’s almost gentle, like he can’t decide whether to keep going or if he should stop.

“Your skin is so soft.” he whispers, his eyes locked onto mine. I stop moving, stop trying to wiggle out of his grip.

he slides a hand between my legs, and I gasp. “Your wet too.” I groan when he pushes a single finger into my body.

I hate him, yet I don’t. I want him, yet I don’t, not like this. my body is sending out mixed signals and I could scream, yet all I want to do is kiss him until my lips are bruised.

Chapter 28

I just had sex with Nico Dallas against a tree.

Nico Dallas just had sex with me, against a fucking tree.

I’m not a virgin anymore.

my virginity is gone.

I just lost my virginity to Nico Dallas.

This is what plays on repeat over and over again in my head as harper drives me home. “Are you sure you’re ok babe.” she asks with concern.

I told her as soon as we got in the car. play by play of what just happened in the forest. how he played me like a fiddle. used his fingers to get me off.

how he wrapped his belt around my wrists and the tied me to a high branch. lifted me by my waist and plunged his big cock inside me.

it was as brutal as it was beautiful. his hand wrapped around my throat, all the while he thrust his hips up into me, over and over again.

I can still hear him in my mind. “Fuck me. your so damn tight. so damn addicting little mouse.”

as I cried out from a sudden orgasm. he groaned into my ear. “Only I will ever make you feel this way. only you can tame the beast.”

“I’m fine. honestly. a little sore, but it’s nothing I can’t handle.” I try to sound reassuring, but harper isn’t buying it.

“Please tell me he wore a condom.” I tense up because no, he didn’t, and I didn’t think of it. both of too caught up in the moment.

was it how I saw myself losing my V card, hell no. but would I change it. Not a chance in hell.

“No. we didn’t.” I reply quietly.

“that’s ok, you can get the plan B.” she tells me while we drive up my street.

“Yeah.” I answer in a despondent way.

she pulls into my dive. “Are you sure you’re ok. you seem off. if he hurt you, if… did he… ask.” I turn to face her.

Harper is a good friend, she genially cares. “Honestly. it was all a bit wild. I promise I’m fine and I agreed to it. I’m fine. go home and get some sleep.”

“Ok, if, you’re sure. call me tomorrow, maybe we can go out or do something.” I nod as a way to reply, and she squeezes my hand.

“Thanks Harper. thanks for bringing me home.” she smiles warmly, and I get out of her car.

Nico left me shortly after our passionate encounter. mumbled something about being needed someplace and walked away. he completely shut down on me and I never felt so cheap.

but I must be a complete sadist because I loved every minute of it. walking into the house feels weird. its dark and quiet, mum long since gone to bed.

I take a shower and pause when I see spots of blood in my knickers. I guess that normal. I guess I should get the plan B tomorrow too. it was reckless and I’m not sure if this is the kind of reckless mum meant.

I wake the next day to the smell of bacon and the low murmur of voices. its already nearly 9, so I text harper and ask her to meet me in town for breakfast.

she responds right away and says to meet her at the coffee shop called Bagels. I’ve been before, Bass got me hooked on iced coffee. I get dressed and head down the stairs.

I know its dad in the kitchen with mum, I would recognize his voice anywhere, even after all this time. I don’t stop to say hello or even acknowledge them.

I drive to town, meet harper. we drink coffee. we buy some new clothes. I even treat myself to some new perfume. we go to the cinema, then we go to the roller rink and skate till our feet are sore.

I even buy the plan B, determined to take it when I get home.

when I do finally get home, dad is still there, and I curse under my breath. I can’t avoid him forever, but I just can’t deal with this right now. I try my hardest to sneak in unnoticed.

“Teal.” dads voice stops me as I place one foot on the bottom step of the stairs.

“Please honey. don’t shut me out. let me explain.” I let out a humorless laugh.

“Explain what dad. how you left. how you moved on and forgot about me. how you didn’t come to visit, got married again. yeah. explain it to me because I’m real confused right now.”

“Teal. don’t speak to your father that way.” mum comes from behind him and I want to scream.

“You know what, your right. I don’t want to speak to you at all. so, both of you, leave me alone.” I spin around and walk back outside to my car.

I drive and I drive. emotions running rampant through my brain. how he just expects me to forgive and move on, accept he’s back. how mum is sleeping with a married man. it’s wrong on so many levels.

I end up outside Nicos. my face is wet from tears, my stomach in knots. will he welcome me if I just show up. will he be angry and kick me out. “Fuck.” I slam my hand on the wheel.

“Fuck it.” I make a decision and drive up to his house. there’re a few cars in the drive and I realize the crew must be here. this will be so damn awkward.

I exit the car and walk up to his front door. on nights we have meetings, I normally just walk in, but what if I’m wrong to do that now. I look around nervously.

deciding to be brave, I swing open the door and walk down the long hall. I can hear music from the top of the basement stairs. I wring my hands together in frustration and fear.

“it’s fine. everything is fine.” I talk myself into it. make my feet move, one after the other as I descend the steps.

music is louder now. some deep sultry beat that I don’t recognize. I push open the door and gasp in horror. Theres a woman chained to the ceiling. like literal chains around her wrists as she swings on her tippy toes.

Dane, Austin, Donavan and the rest are all sitting around her. each one in a state of undress. all drinking beer or some form of alcohol.

but what gets me the most is when Nico walks from his room, pants undone, no shirt, whip in hand. I can see from here, the girl is crying. she’s gagging on the thing that’s stuffed into her mouth.

I should leave. run from here and never come back. but I don’t. for some sick and twisted reason, I need to see how this ends.

Chapter 29

Nico raises his hand, the one holding the whip. I brace myself against the frame of the door. I’m completely hidden from view.

the whip whistles as it flies through the air, the harsh crack as it hits the girl’s flesh. her scream will haunt me for days to come.

she looks like me. oh, dear lord. she looks just like me. same hair. same frame. same eyes. eyes that are wide and pleading.

“Had enough yet bitch.” Nico hisses in her ear when he lowers the whip.

“Need another cock to fill that gaping hole.” I slam my hands to my mouth, why is he talking like that.

he whips her again and again. her small body swaying from the force. “How about now.” he repeats whipping her again.

the rest of the crew watch on in delight. not one of them steps in to stop him. I mean, why would they. “Fuck you for making me do this.” he yells whipping her flesh.

“Fuck you for making me feel.” he cries louder as he hits harder.

“Fuck you. fuck you fuck you.” he yells after each hit.

he drops the whip and pulls his cock from his jeans. he spits on his hand and thrusts upwards. her scream is ear splitting. I then realize he must have taken her in the back, because I see the blood from where I stand.

I can’t stop the tears from falling. I mean I knew he was a savage. he needs certain things I can’t give him. but to see it and listen to his derogatory words. it’s heart breaking.

not only that, but I thought we shared a connection in the forest. he said I was his. but he clearly isn’t mine. what does this all mean. I’m so fucking confused.

as if sensing my distress, Nico snaps his head towards me and that’s when I run. I run for my life, for my sanity. for myself respect.

I run to my car and throw myself inside. Nico makes it to the door of the house as I pull away in a cloud of smoke. fuck him. fuck them all. fuck mum and fuck dad.

when I make it home Three hours later, the house is dark and quiet. I think I’m on the home run when I step inside. but a light flicks on and I see mum waiting in one of the armchairs.

I don’t know what happens next, but I’m breaking down and she’s got me bundled into her loving arms. I cry for me. I cry for the way I feel. I cry for the way my life is right now.

mum holds me until I’m sobbing and sniffing back snot. she tells me she is here, she has me. that she’s sorry for how everything has happened. she’s sorry for it all and I’m right there with her.

The next day I join her for breakfast. I can’t keep treating her the way I have, it’s not fair. “I’m sorry.” I sit down and she hands me a plate of waffles.

she kisses me head affectionately. “I’m sorry too. truly I am. it should have never got this bad between us.” she takes my hand and squeezes it.

we talk for some time. many hours in fact. she explains in more detail why dad left, and I tell her I’m just not ready to forgive him yet, let alone talk to him and she understands.

“It was wrong of me to push you.” I nod and continue to sit in the kitchen.

“What do you want to do for your birthday.” she asks out of the blue.

“I haven’t really thought about it. maybe go away someplace, just the two of us.” she gives me a warm smile.

“I think that’s a wonderful idea. I’ll book something today.” a small weight lifts from my shoulders.

“Some place hot so we can sunbathe.” I smile and she rolls her eyes.

“You and you’re sunbathing.” she replies with a chuckle.

“And no dad.” I add quickly and she nods.

“No dad.” I relax and go to my room to message Harper.

Halfway through texting harper Nico knocks at my bedroom window. I have to fight to keep the scream lodged in my throat.

“What the fuck are you doing here.” I seethe as I open the window for him to climb in.

“You ran last night. I wanted to explain.” I scoff and throw myself on my bed.

“don’t bother. it was clear what happened between us meant nothing to you. so, leave.” I point to the place he just entered through.

“I don’t owe you anything little mouse. but for some reason it pains me to see you upset.”

“Wow. that’s your way of explaining. you don’t owe me anything. well fuck you. fuck you and get out.” I stand now and ball my fists tight.

“No. not until I know you’re ok. I meant what I said about you being mine.” I laugh at that.

“I’m yours. but let me guess, you’re not mine.” his face is blank.

“I’m just another notch is that it. a scratch you had to itch. you ripped my virginity from me against a fucking tree Nico.

his nostrils flare and I have to look away.

“You ripped my heart out with it when you walked away. like I was nothing.” my tone drops to a whisper.

“I can’t be what you need me to be. I don’t do soft. I don’t do hearts and flowers. I’m me. you need to get over it.” why is he being so cold.

“You didn’t break me. not when we were…” I pause and gather my thoughts, while he stands stock still.

“I’m guessing nothing has changed. you still don’t want me. you… need that.” I choke thinking of last night. what I saw.

“I’ll always need that.” he whispers, and I nod.

we stand face to face. him one side of the bed, me the other. “Then I guess this is goodbye. because it hurts too much to be around you. stop seeking me out. stop pulling me into your orbit. just stop.”

after a pregnant pause he finally nods. he moves to the window and sits on the sill. “I tried, you know. I tried to calm the beast. for almost a second, it worked.” his eyes find mine.

“Take care little mouse.” he drops onto the tree branch and disappears from sight.

with my heart in my hands, I climb onto my bed, and I curl into a ball and cry. I must fall asleep because when I wake up, I reach for the plan B and pop the pill, drinking it down with some water.

Chapter 30

Mum and I end up taking a flight to Brazil. 7 hours in first class is not to be scoffed at. I know dad helped pay for it and I’m not even mad.

we spent Two glorious weeks on the beach. we drank margaritas in the pool and danced the night away. the hotel was beautiful and the people even more so.

we took a pony trek up a mountain, and we done a forest walk in Belem. it was just what we both needed, and we grew even closer.

now we are back and I’m sitting with harper on my bed; she’s filling me in all things the crew. Nico has been absent quite a lot and was seen recently with blood on his hands.

the biggest shock though, is that Bass and Dane have come out as a couple. apparently, the whole school was in shock, Nico giving them his full blessing.

“Did you meet any cute boys in Brazil.” Harper teases and I slap her arm.

“I was with my mum. we didn’t have time to scout out male attention.” I chuckle when she pouts.

“it’s a travesty. the best way to get over someone, is to get under someone else.”

“Harper.” I gasp as she giggles.

“it’s your birthday Friday. will you come to the party with me.” I consider it.

mum and I discussed in length the reason I don’t want to make a fuss of my 18th. I told her that Harper and I will do something together, maybe even Bass and Dane too.

“I don’t know. it’s… fuck. I don’t know if I can see him yet.” she knows who I mean.

“I understand. it’s a lot. I mean with the way he’s been acting, he’s scary, more so than before you and him… you know.” she’s said this a few times now.

“Scary how.” I ask.

“Just angry. walking around threatening people. challenging more people than ever before.” she chews her lip. “He came to school with blood on his shirt.”

my stomach knots and rolls. “Fuck.” I grip my stomach in desperation.

“You ok.” she asks touching my arm.

“I don’t know…I.” my stomach rolls again, and I get up from the bed.

I run to the bathroom and reach it just before I empty the contents of my stomach in the bowl. Harper is there holding my hair from my face.

“Teal. you don’t look so good.” I wipe my mouth and rinse it out.

“I’ve been sick a few times this week. it sucks.” I groan sitting back down on my bed.

“You don’t think.” she pauses looking at me in shock.

“Hell no. I took the plan B. admittedly, I took it late, but it should still work, right.” I ask needing guidance.

“I have no idea babe. you should do a test just in case.” I don’t like her reply, so I groan into my hands.

choosing to ignore the elephant in the room, we talk about other things until it’s time for her to go. I agree to go to the party and celebrate my birthday, the way I want.

I don’t want to go to school tomorrow but I’ve had Two weeks off and I don’t want to fail. I decide on a hot bath and an early night.

The next morning mum cooks me breakfast and I open a gift that she got me. a silver neckless with an 18-pendant dangling from the chain. it’s beautiful.

dad got me a gift too, but I took it to my room and dropped it with the others. I’m being a brat I know. but I don’t want to deal with it right now.

on the way to school, I stop at the pharmacy and get a pregnancy test. I’ll do it later before the party. I pull up to school and walk in with my head held high.

“Happy birthday Teal.” bass comes from the other side of the hall, Dane in tow.

“Thanks Bass. you shouldn’t have.” he thrusts a package in my hands and shrugs.

“Your 18. it’s a big deal.” Dane gives me a nod, and I smile back at him.

I rip of the paper and see he got me a first addition pride and prejudice, which is awfully sweet of him. we spoke about my love for books when I first got here.

“This is too much. Bass, this must have cost a ton.” I gush looking it over.

“Your worth it.” he hugs me and Dane fidgets behind him.

“So. you and Dane huh.” I whisper as he leans away and winks.

“I knew he couldn’t resist me.” we both laugh as Harper comes barreling towards us.

“Happy birthday bestie.” she flings herself in my arms.

“I thought I was your bestie.” Bass teases and she laughs.

“You were. but now you have Dane. Teal takes top spot.” she wrinkles her small nose at him.

she hands me a small gift, and I hug her when I unwrap a personalized keychain and car air freshener with picture of us both on it. it’s a silly gift, but I love it.

hearing a commotion down the hall, I turn to see Nico standing with Austin. what shocks me more is that Nancy and Val are with him. “When did that happen.” I ask absently mindedly.

“don’t worry about it. some bullshit deals his dad made with Nancy’s dad.” I decide then and there, it’s not my business.

Nico stares for a while. his eyes are cold and indifferent. his shoulders are stiff, and his hands are balled into fists. he looks lethal. he looks absolutely terrifying.

Tadd walks past and gives a low whistle under his breath. “Looks like you finally aged out huh.”

Bass steps forward. “Walkway mother fucker.” Dane grabs onto Bass to stop his advancing.

“it’s all good brother. I hear she’s fair game now that Nico is done using her pussy.” my stomach drops. how would he know that.

Bass is vibrating with rage. Dane holding him back. “You just signed your death warrant.” Tadd smirks and winks at me.

“Listen up. I Bass Stanford. challenge Tadd Davenport. we fight. me and you, motherfucker.” the smirk drops from Tadd’s face.

Nico walks over, his crew beside him. “Tonight, you fight in the pit.” he won’t meet my eye and I’m grateful.

murmurs and cheers go up around us. Harper pulling me away from their standoff. if I thought my birthday could get any worse, I was very much mistaken.

Chapter 31

“Did you do it. what does it say.” Harper has been calling me through my bathroom door for the last 15 minutes.

I’ve been staring at the positive pregnancy test ever since. my mind on total lock down. my body shivering with all the crap that gone wrong since I got here.

I open the door and shove the test in her hand. she looks down and then her eyes find mine. “Oh fuck.” my sentiments exactly.

“Yeah, oh fuck. what the fuck am I going to do. I took the pill. why is this happening to me.” I rant as I pace my room.

“Ok, ok, calm, lets calm. you took the pill. this could be false. this could be faulty. when did you take the pill. was it straight away. it works best if its straight away.”

I flop down on my bed and groan. “It was Two days after. I had shit on my mind. stuff happened. fuck.” I lay back and look up at the ceiling.

Harper drops down beside me. “What am I going to do.” I speak with a quiver in my tone.

“I’m here Teal I’m here for you, whatever you decide to do. I’m here.” she lays down beside me and wraps her arm across my chest.

“Do you think I should tell him.” I whisper as a tear slides down my face.

“I don’t know. maybe tell your mum first, get some advice.” I cringe at the thought.

we spend the rest of the evening getting ready and calling an uber to come get us. I’m not going to let this destroy my birthday. I’ll tell Nico tonight, then I’ll tell mum.

The party is in full swing when we arrive, Bass meeting us near the entrance. Dane is not with him and when I ask where he is, he shrugs.

at some point Harper walks off to find a bush to pee in. I’m standing near the drinks table when Nancy finds me, Val by her side.

“Nico is looking for you. “I glance at her briefly and shrug.

“I’m right here. if he wants to talk to me, he can come to me.” Nancy huffs and folds her arms over her chest.

“Look, I don’t like you and I won’t apologize for what I did. you walked in here with your nose in the air and it pissed me off.” I look at her this time.

“But Nico has been unpredictable these last few weeks I suggest you find him before you piss him off. he’s at the house.” I don’t trust her for one second, but she’s right, I need to speak to him.

my luck runs out when Tadd strolls over, his two goons beside him. why won’t he just leave me alone.

“Oh look, it’s the school whore. you ready to get on your knees for me yet.” he sneers down at me and almost step back.

“Jealous much. are you sad that Nico gets all the girls and you get his sloppy seconds.” I shouldn’t goad him, but he asked for it.

“And that’s all you will ever be, his sloppy second. he’s already moved on, all set to marry Nancy when he turns 21. I bet that hurts right.” I don’t reply. because it does hurt.

eventually he walks off but not before warning me to watch my back. I stand there for a few minutes more. I’m cold and feeling miserable. it’s my birthday and I’ve never felt more alone.

I wait for a while by the drinks table, hoping harper would come with me to face Nico, but unfortunately, she’s MIA. Bass is also missing and now I’m just plain pissed off.

I walk towards the house. my determination driving me forward. I climb the steps to the house and enter inside. I’ve never been in here before and although it’s almost falling down, its clean and warm.

Voices filter up form a doorway that leads to basement. how the hell this house has a basement I don’t know. but the smell coming from there is not good.

“Nico.” I call, apprehensive, from the top of the stairs.

I step down and almost lose my footing. the stairs are in bad shape. “Nico. you, down here.” I call again, the voices getting louder as I descend.

more and more voices filter into my ears as I go lower. Nico is more distinctive because his tone is so low, almost like a growl. I stop when the crew comes into view.

I’m hidden behind a wooden post but what I see stop me from going any further. the fear of what I see is enough to make me almost pee my pants.

“Consider this a warning. you and your crew are done.” Nico sneers in the face of the man standing before him.

he’s being held up my Austin and Dane, covered in blood. I have to hold my hand to my mouth to stop myself from crying out. his face is mashed to a pulp.

Nico is holding a knife. its blade glinting in the low lighting of the room. “When they find your dead body. I hope they know it’s me. I hope they come for me. cos when they do. ill end the entire lot of them.”

the knife is then thrust forward, into the man’s guts. all I can here is his low gurgle as Nico drags the knife up and up. I can’t stop the gasp that leaves my mouth and its Austin who sees me first.

Nico whips his head towards me and that’s when I run. I run for my life. I run up and out, back into the forest. but I don’t get far. the knock across the back of my head is so hard I hit the floor with a thud.

Voices filter in and out of my consciousness. flickers of light, Sharpe pain. my body is being dragged. I’m hit and I’m slapped. there’s more than one person and I know I’m screwed.

My hands are tied, my feet too. the world spins when I’m shoved into a vehicle. I recognize the sound of the sliding door. after that I can only describe what is done to me as something form a horror movie.

I think about my mum, will she ever see me again. my dad, how he always looked at me like I was his princess. how I didn’t make things right. I think of harper, Bass.

but the one person who I cry for out of all of them. the one person who could save me and this nightmare. but chose to push me away, shut me and out ignore me, is Nico.

Then nothing.

To be continued…