Chapter 11

“what’s going on with Bass.” I ask the following week as we sit outside enjoying one of the rare sunny days.

“I’m not sure. he’s being very secretive recently. I think he may have a secret crush, or maybe he’s screwing someone and has to keep it on the down low. who knows.”

I haven’t told Harper what I saw the night of the party. I haven’t mentioned it to Bass either, it not my business. I just hope he knows what he’s doing.

“You don’t think he’s…” I stop myself and she frowns.

a shadow falls over us and I look up into a pair of blinding blue eyes.

“Little mouse.” Nico sits down beside me, his legs rubbing against mine.

“what do you want.” I snap looking around at the other faces all taking a seat with us.

whatever, fresh loving hell going on?

“I want you to come to the race Friday night.” I notice he’s not asking, he’s telling.

“I’m busy.” I snip back.

“Doing what.” his cool blue eyes rest on mine.

“None of your business.” Harper is sitting quietly listening to all this go down.

“I’ll pick you up at 8.” that’s all he says before he gets up, his crew doing the same.

“I don’t think so. you don’t control me.” I bark as he runs his hand through his hair.

“8. don’t keep me waiting.” he strolls away, not a care in the world.

“Jesus H Christ.” I mumble under my breath.

“Um, Teal. what did I miss.” poor harper sounds so confused.

I sigh and lean back on my hands. I fill her in about him coming into the shower. I then tell her about him coming into my room via my window and spending the night.

her face is blank through the whole ordeal. she nods in all the right places. she hums and Ah’s too. her head bobs up and down when I tell her how confusing, yet annoying he is.

“You saw his penis.” that’s what she got form that.

“Really Harp. that’s all you digested.” I muse with a smirk.

“Oh, I ingested a whole heap. but you saw his penis and I need to visualize it. for research purposes.” she’s being cute.

I roll my eyes. “he’s big ok. like larger than what I deem normal for an 18-year-old man.” she nods and giggles.

“Did he kiss you.” I shake my head no.

he got close but never overstepped the mark. “no. he didn’t.” I sigh again.

“Rumor has it, he never kisses girls.” I frown at that comment.

“Like ever.” I ask and she nod biting her lip.

“The races are a big thing here. you going to go.” she asks, and I consider it.

“Will you come with me.” I ask and she squeals throwing herself in my arms.

“I knew we would be besties.” she gushes as the bell rings.

Friday comes quickly. the day flowing from one class to another. Gym is my next lesson and I groan as I make my way into the locker room.

my body is slammed into the wall, my elbow catching on the edge of a locker door making me hiss.

“I warned you. you wouldn’t listen.” Nancy gets right up in my face, and I almost roll my eyes.

“What have I done this time.” I ask honestly. I really should antagonize her.

“Like you don’t know, you little man stealing bitch.” that’s her god to honest answer.

“Man stealing bitch. wow. who did I steal.” I ask with a fake smile.

“You know what you did. I always go to the races with Nico. but what do I hear from some random first year. some bitch named after a color is going in my place. fuck that.”

she punches me in the stomach, and I bend at the waist. fuck that hurt. next I get my hair pulled and my top ripped right down the middle.

the slap to my face stings and I feel my lip split open. Val has joined in at this point and it amazes me how much the human body can take.

so much for Harpers words. she said Nancy issues threats but never follows through. what the hell have I done to deserve this.

after what feels like forever, they grow bored and leave me there on the cold floor. my ribs hurt like a bitch. my face is swollen and sweaty. my hair is in clumps, some on the floor.

I can’t find it in me to move; the pain is too real. I’m so far back, not one person walks past. when the first light goes out, I realize no one will find me. the door is pulled shut and the remaining lights follow after. great.

I must have dozed off, because the next thing I know I’m being lifted and carried out into the crisp night air. I think I hear harper, maybe even Bass.

“Harper, text her mom and tell her she’s staying at yours.”

“Ok. what are you going to do. where are you taking her.” Harper sounds concerned.

“I’ll take her to my house. I have a doctor who comes to look after us when we fight. he can check her over. get yourself home.” Nico speaks softly.

“you’re going to be fine Teal. Nico will look after you. please call me and keep me updated.” I feel a small squeeze on my arm and then it’s gone.

I’m placed on the backseat of a car and the soft hum sends me into a deep sleep. flashes of light filter through my eyes at brief intervals, but nothing comes after that.

I groan as I try to roll over on one of the softest beds ever felt. “don’t move too much, your ribs are bruised, and your body is healing.” I open my eyes to Nico leaning in closer than necessary.

“Where am I.” I ask with a dry scratchy throat.

a straw is placed to my lips, and I drink down some cool refreshing water. the room is large, with dark colors on the walls. the sheets I’m on are black and feel silky to touch.

“You at my place. in my basement bedroom. Harper called me when you didn’t answer your phone. I looked everywhere until I found you in the locker room.”

I look harder, I see no windows, and the room feels chilly but that’s good because I’m burning up. “Why not the hospital.” I ask and he sighs.

“I have my own doctor. he checked you over. I didn’t want to worry your mom.” that’s oddly very thoughtful of him.

“Thanks. she would have pitched a fit.” I groan again as my ribs protest.

“Just rest. its Friday now. you can stay as long as you need.”

“What about the race tonight.” I ask.

“Cancelled. weather reports are saying that heavy rain is on the way. it’s too dangerous to race.” I nod and snuggle back down into the warmth of the bed.

Chapter 12

Nico looks after me for Two days. he cooks and cleans up around me, like a maid, only he doesn’t wear a uniform. I almost giggle to that thought.

“what’s got you smiling like a kid at thanksgiving.” his deep tone startles me from where he’s standing in the doorway, his face void of emotion.

“Sorry. I was just thinking you lack a uniform.” his brows scrunch and then he gets it.

“You want to see me in a dress, is that it.” he stalks closer, and I bite the inside of my bottom lip.

Not one single person could tell you Nico isn’t beautiful. “Your different.” my mouth blurts the words before I can stop them.

“Opposed to how.” he drawls.

“Your intense at school. moody even, with a side plate of arrogance.” I can’t contain my grin.

“And here.” he asks sitting far too close to me.

“Here, your… different. warm, caring, but still intense.” he slides a hand down the side of my face, his warm fingers touching my lip.

“Will you tell me now, what happened.” he asks, and I sigh.

every time I tried to speak, I broke down in tears. I don’t fully understand what happened, why Nancy and Val beat me so viciously.

“Nancy and Val.” I choke on a tear and Nico swipes it away with his thumb.

“She screamed at me, said I took you away from her. she was so…angry.” I close my eyes remembering what they did.

“I’m sorry they did that. if it makes you feel any better. I already have plans to kick them out of the crew.”

“Why would you do that.”

“Because they broke a rule, they hurt an innocent person without going through the proper channels.”

“What channels are they, explain it to me.”

he lets out a deep sigh and sits back a fraction. “We have rules in the crew. if you have grievances with another person, you invite them to a challenge.”

“What kind of challenge.” I ask.

“It could be anything. most of the guys pick fighting or racing.” I nod along.

“The girls like to fight, don’t get me wrong. but Nancy likes to embarrass people. she would ask you to do a series of tasks, some demeaning. some dangerous.”

“And what happens if your challenged and you don’t accept.” I dread the answer as soon as I ask.

“Its social suicide. you’re an outcast. you would be shunned by the entire school.”

fucking rich people.

“So, all Nancy had to do was challenge me, then what.”

“You do whatever she decides. if you both complete the challenge, things go back to normal. unless she challenges you again, but rules state you can only be challenged by the same person once every 3 months.

“Some of the people here, they don’t like each other. long time feuds are a thing. but we keep order by doing the challenges. no fighting outside of that.”

“With Nancy out of the crew, what does that mean for her.” he grins at my question.

“She will become an outcast. no more protection. no more parties unless I allow it. she will be ignored like she didn’t exist. it’s the ultimate cruelty for a girl like her, Val too.”

So, this has nothing to do with me and what she did to me. it’s all about the crew and the rules. got it.

“She hurt an innocent. she hurt you and that is not ok.” he looks at me with a fierce expression. “For that she will become a leper. a social pariah. no more friends. totally cut off.”

“But she can still challenge me.” I ask and he nods.

“Unfortunately, yes. it’s the only way to keep order among the masses.” I nod along, my heart feeling like its beating from my chest.

he takes my hands into his. “I won’t let her hurt you again. if she challenges you to a fight, ill train you. if she challenges you to something else, I’ll help you. you’re not alone in this.”

“How many times have you been challenged.” I find myself asking.

he grins. “I haven’t.” I roll my eyes, of course he hasn’t.

“You might want to get dressed. the crew will be here soon. its Sunday and we have a crew meeting.” I nod as he stands up.

“You can use the shower if you want. I had your clothes cleaned and fixed. then I’ll take you home.” his palm strokes me face again.

there’s a longing in his gaze, but just as quickly its squashed. he shows me the door, and I take a short refreshing shower, my ribs still smarting when I move too quickly.

Nico drives me home. his car is all black, a McLaren, I think. he drives it like a boss. he shows confidence in almost everything he does.

“We will throw a party next weekend. Nancy and Val will be publicly kicked from the crew. you’ll be there right.” he asks as he stops outside my house.

“Do I still need to bring an offering.” I smile and he grins.

“Yes.” one word answer and I figured that’s what he would say.

“What do you do with all the alcohol you get offered.” I ask waning to know.

“If I tell you, I’ll have to kill you.” I don’t know if he’s teasing me or not.

“I like you too much to do that, so don’t ask me again.” he tucks a piece of hair behind my ear, and I revel in the moment.

“Thanks for taking care of me.” I whisper and he nods, his face blank of emotion. he’s so good at that.

“Get inside. I’ll see you tomorrow.” I open the door and climb out with a wince. I’ll be sore for a while yet.

once inside, mom nowhere to be seen. I grab some food and a bottle of water and go to my room. I watch a few shows and get my stuff ready for tomorrow.

Harper texts me shortly after, she was so worried about me, but Nico kept her informed of my progress. I text her back telling her I’m home now and I’ll see her tomorrow.

After I get ready for bed and settle down for the night do I hear mum come home. she tells me she loves me through the door, and I finally fall asleep.

Chapter13

This week has gone by surprisingly quick. Bass has been with us all week, during Gym he never leaves my side. at lunch we all sit together, and I feel safe with them there.

Bass feels bad and so does Harper. she explained that when I didn’t respond to her texts of calling, she became worried. she called Nico for some reason, and he was the one who found me curled into a ball and bleeding.

Nancy for all things great, has left me alone, she presumes I’ve been taught a lesson and will stay clear of Nico. the man himself has been oddly distant, but I’m ok with that.

“What was it like at Nicos.” Harper asks me on Friday afternoon.

“Quiet. he took care of me. cooked for me and cleaned me up.” Bass is looking at me like I’ve grown two heads.

“Nico did all that.” he frowns, and I nod.

“He doesn’t take anyone to the basement. not unless your there to…” he stops himself and I look at him.

“Unless your what.” I ask not wanting to know but asking anyway.

“Forget I said anything.” Bass looks down at his empty plate.

“Tell me.” I touch his hand, and he holds my fingers in a tight grip.

“Are you sure you want to know, you could see him in a different light and not like it.” I squeeze his hand back.

“Tell me. I know he’s… I have no words for what he is. I’ve only two sides. I’ve seen the moody, emotionless man here when he’s with his crew at school. and the intense yet caring one from when he helped me.”

Bass nods and looks to harper who nods telling him to spill the T.

“Remember I said he has those meeting, crew meeting in his basement.” she starts, and I nod. “Girls are allowed in after, it’s their way to destress after discussions.”

“Every member brings a girl. she’s willing of course. who wouldn’t want to sleep with one of the crew.” Bass is stalling, so I nudge his hand.

“Right. well, Nico is a little different when it comes to the girls.” he pauses and looks around.

“He… he… fuck.” Bass drops his head low, his messy hair falling all around.

“Hey its ok. we don’t need to talk about it. it’s not like I’ll willingly offer myself to him or any of the crew. let’s talk about something else.” I try to change the subject, but Bass stops me.

“I’ve seen the way Nico looks at you. he’s obsessed. but I think he knows you’re not like the other girls. girls who go there for his kind of pain.” I frown and look to harper.

“Nico is a sadist. a masochist. a dominant. he’s cruel, to the point he causes actual bodily harm to the girls he uses. he marks them. chokes them. it’s fucked up and I don’t want you to end up down there.” I have no words.

have I seen darkness in Nicos eyes. yes, I have. his blank expression, his lack of emotion. he tells me he’s not a sociopath, but yet he’s never been diagnosed.

“All I’m saying is, be very careful. I’ve seen him in action.” he shudders. “I’ve seen the girls when they limp out of his room. the look of pure pain on their faces.”

“Why do they go if he hurts them.” I ask as harper draws closer to me. I’m suddenly freezing.

“Most are into it. some claim they’re into it. but a lot of them just want bragging rights. Nico is an enigma. he’s the top dog and anyone who’s anyone wants a slice of that pie.”

I shudder for real this time. I’ve never has sex, let alone experimented with pain. it’s not something I want. ever.

“For some reason, Nico needs it. for as long as I’ve known him, he’s been that way. he’s not a hearts and flowers kind of guy. none of them are, although Dane…” his voice floats off.

“You want to fill us in on that.” Harper raises her brow.

“No. its… complicated.” harper places her hand on top of both of ours.

“We get it. you don’t have to explain. just don’t let him hurt you again.” I agree with Harper.

the rest of the day is uneventful. we have gym and I run track. I run better than I have since I got here. all this hard work must be doing me good.

Harper arrives at mine to get ready, and mum tells me she’s going on a date. I’m so shocked that I don’t realize she’s put another bottle of booze in front of me and winked.

“I’ll bet you anything it’s her boss Glen.” I muse as Harper struggles to zip up her dress.

“Have you met him.” she asks, and I shake my head.

“What was your dad like.” I pause with my mascara and harper walks closer to me. “Sorry, that was rude.” she adds touching my arm.

“No, it’s fine. he was… fun. he was always making me laugh. he would read to me, play with me in the back garden. we would go to car boot sales on a Sunday morning, get fish and chips.” I pause feeling the stab of pain in my heart.

“what’s a car boot sale.” Harper scrunches her tiny nose at me, and I giggle.

“it’s where cars line up on a huge field or parking lot. then they open their boots, trunks.” I clarify and she nods.

“Then they sell all their unwanted clothing, electronics, books, and more. anything really. you can grab a real bargain if you look hard enough.”

“So, kind of like a yard sale.” she asks fluffing her hair.

“Kind of, but there can be as many as 50 cars in one spot. then there’s food trucks and fresh fruit sellers. it’s a real experience.” her smile tells me she understands.

“Maybe one day, you’ll take me to England, and I can see for myself.” she asks in a quiet tone.

“Absolutely.” I agree as we finish getting ready.

I miss my dad all the time. I don’t fully understand how he could be such a big part of my life one minute and up and leave the next. mum was heartbroken for years after he left.

we climb in the uber 20 minutes later and Harper tells me about her family. she’s got siblings and shares a room with her sister eve. her parents are strict, religious too.

Chapter 14

The party is in full swing by the time we arrive. there’s a fire just like before, but this time there are men and woman walking around on giant stilts. it’s crazy.

I’m dressed casually in a pair of light washed flare jeans. I’ve got a black crop top on and a white cardigan that’s light and soft. my feet are covered in my black vans.

Harper is in a blue dress; the thing is so short she has to keep pulling it down, so she doesn’t flash everyone her knickers. but she looks bloody hot.

Bass greets us with a wide grin. “Shows soon starting. go offer your booze and come find me.” Harper drags me away.

we reach the same wooden steps, and I see the crew, plus Nancy and Val sitting like kings and queens on the deck. Nancy looks at me with utter distain and I shrug it off.

“Bring your offering.” Nico calls as I step up to meet him.

just like last time I have to hand him the bottle of expensive whiskey. I’m pretty sure it’s worth more than the last bottle I brought.

Nico nods in approval and I drop my shoulders. “You can’t be serious; we talked about this. she’s not welcome here.” Nancy whines but Nico ignores her.

harper offers her bottle, and she too gets a nod. we don’t hang around, opting to find the drinks table and Bass just as Nico yells for quiet.

every set of eyes are on the small wooden house. Nico stands leaning against the broken railing. his face is blank, yet his eyes sparkle from the fire light.

“Tonight, we have an announcement.” he starts and a few murmurs filter around us.

“We have rules in the crew. rules that everyone must follow. when these rules are broken, we take action and punish those who don’t comply.” Nancy looks nervous, as does val.

“Last week, an innocent was harmed.” Nancy fidgets in her seat.

“This person was left beaten and broken. who would do such a thing I hear you say.” he looks around the crowd until his eyes find me.

“Nancy Matlow and Valerie thatcher. step forward.” I hold my hand to my chest as Harper squeezes my arm.

Nancy and Val eventually stand up. both girls looking scared as to what might come.

“These two crew members took it upon themselves to beat an innocent. there was no challenge. it was done in secret. what do we think about that.” Nico keeps his eyes on me.

“Burn em.” someone yells.

“Drown em in the river.” another calls out.

Nico holds up his hand. “As much as that would be fitting. we decided to cut them lose. both girls are now no longer part of the crew and will mingle with the commoners. they will be treated lower than scum.”

Nancy screeches as Austin yanks on her arm, Dane grabbing Val, marching them right off the wooden deck and pushing them to the dirty floor.

“You can’t do this. I’m part of the crew.” Nancy screams standing up.

“You were a part of the crew. you broke the rules. now you will bow to us and accept your fate.” it’s all so dramatic.

Nancy stands up taller, her bony finger pointing my way. “This is all her fault. she tried to come in here and steal…” Nico levels her with a dark look.

“All you had to do was challenge her. if you did it the right way, you wouldn’t be where you are now.” he holds no argument.

“Fine. then I challenge her. I Nancy Matlow, challenge Teal Grant to a naked swim across the river.” there’s a collective oh shit and fuck yes, from the crowd.

shock must cross my face because all eyes are on me. it’s not the naked part that gets me. it’s the swimming part that has me shivering. I can’t swim.

Nico must see the panic on my face. “Two weeks from now, the challenge is set and will take place here. but even if you win, you’re not back in the crew, you’ll be treated with respect at best.”

Nancy preens at this. “If Teal wins. she gets your spot on the crew, and you’ll still be treated like your less than nothing.” my body is fighting to stay upright.

“Holy shit.” Harper whispers beside me. Bass is standing so close I’m thankful for his support.

The music starts up again and I follow Harper to a nearby tree trunk. my body feels numb. my brain is screaming for me to run and hide.

“it’s only swimming, naked. could have been a lot worse.” Bass says handing me a fruity drink.

“I can’t swim.” I blurt and both of them freeze.

“Well, look who it is. bassy boy and his little lesbian followers.” Tadd approaches with the two dicks who grabbed me last time.

“Fuck off Tadd. go find a willing body.” I notice he said willing in such a way.

“Why would I do that. I like a little fight.” he snaps his teeth together and I almost gag.

“you’re sick. fuck off before I challenge you again.” Bass repeats and Tadd laughs.

“That was Two years ago. I’ll kick your ass all the way back to Nashville.” Tadd steps closer and Bass stands taller.

“Then challenge me Tadd. if you’re so confident. challenge me motherfucker.” Tadd just laughs and walks away with his two bus boys behind him.

Harper takes me hand in hers. I hear her mumbling to Bass, but I can’t make out any words. I have to swim, naked in a lake. I can’t fucking swim.

I drop my head into my hands and groan. “Jesus. what the fuck am I going to do.” Harper pulls me closer, and Bass kneels at my feet.

“We will teach you.” he looks to Harper who nods.

“I only have two weeks. that’s impossible.” I whisper but Bass gets cut off when shadow fall upon us.

Chapter 15

“Just relax your weight, let me hold your body while you try to find your balance.” Nico is so close to me I almost blush.

After Nancy challenged me, Nico decided he wanted to help. I cussed out Bass when he informed Nico I couldn’t swim. Nico looked at me with his blue eyes and nodded.

Just one nod and that was that. he was going to teach me to swim, and I was going to accept it. so here we are, in his pool at his house.

its day Three and I’m still getting used to balancing on his arm, trusting him to not let me drown. “Relax little mouse, I’ve got you.”

“Easy for you to say. I have less than two weeks before I have to swim across a lake, naked.” I grumble and Nico moves through the water with ease.

“How did you go almost 18 years without learning to swim.” my feet fall back to the pool floor.

“England is cold, we don’t have pools in our back gardens. it never really interested me. when I was younger, we went to the beach a lot, but I never learned to swim.”

his cool gaze runs over my exposed shoulders, down the front of my body, landing on my breasts. he’s already seen them, but it doesn’t stop me from wanting to hide away.

“Again.” that’s all he says, lifting me up and me spreading my hands out in front of me.

“Kick your legs.” he instructs, and I do as I’m told.

after an hour, I’m able to float. Nico tells me to hold onto the wall and practice kicking my legs, I do. he then gets me to doggy paddle across the shallow end. I do.

this goes on for an entire week. Nico is nothing but dedicated. when I finally swim across the full length of the pool, I scream with delight and throw my arms around Nico.

“That felt amazing.” I smile as he looks down at me.

“Sorry.” I mumble pulling myself away from his body.

we do this a few more times before he calls for a break. “let’s have some lunch, you need to keep up your strength.” we climb out and he seats me on the patio.

“Where are your parents.” I ask when we finish eating.

“Europe. dad works in Germany. that’s his main office. mom is in Switzerland. her cosmetics company is doing this big campaign.”

“So, your here all alone. how long has it been since you saw them.” I remember Harper telling me he looks lonely. or was it Bass.

“I haven’t seen dad for over 4 months. mom even longer.” I cringe for him.

“That must be hard. do you miss them.” I ask and he levels me with a stone-cold look.

“No. I don’t miss them.” that’s all he says.

“My dad left when I was 9. didn’t come back.” I shrug my shoulders like it’s no big deal.

“Your close with your mom.” he asks, and I nod.

“Yeah. she’s great. we get on like sisters. she had me when she was 19.” he nods and sips his drink.

we sit in comfortable silence for a few minutes. “Did you really mean what you said about me joining the crew.” he nods and looks towards the pool.

“Nancy has been around for as long as I can remember. but what she did…” he stops there and takes a deep breath.

“What if I don’t want to join your crew.” I ask sipping my own drink.

“Why wouldn’t you. it’s the ultimate prize. being in the inner circle. protection. information. parties.” I frown because none of that interests me.

“So that would mean coming to the crew meetings that take place on Sunday evenings.” I hedge and he freezes.

“Bass told you then.” he rolls his eyes.

“He told me enough. I don’t think I want to be a part of that world.” I reply and he nods.

“Figures. you don’t actually have to stick around after the meetings. I know things can get a little …wild.” he won’t look me in the eye.

“I’ve heard that too.” I whisper and he finally looks my way.

“You probably heard about my… kinks. what pleases me, how I treat girls.” he pauses. “All of its true. that’s why I warned you away. but saying that, I’m drawn to you.” he frowns.

“I don’t want to hurt you, Teal. that’s why we can’t be anything more than this.” I nod and accept his response.

“I understand. you calm me too. I know everything about you screams bad boy. but I feel safe with you.” I confess.

“You shouldn’t. if I had you the way my body screams to want you…” he shakes his head and gets up.

we get back in the pool and I swim a few laps, Nico right there beside me. I like the way he looks at me, his intense stare. I like the way his blonde hair flops in his eyes, how he brushes it away.

I like his body, all hard muscle, only a few small tattoos dotted here and there. he’s smart and educated. he’s caring and I see the kindness behind the mask.

when he drops me at home, mum is waiting for me in the kitchen. “Hey love. you had a good day.” she gives me a brief hug.

“Yes actually. I’m learning to swim.” I reply looking at what’s cooking on the stove.

“Really, that’s fantastic. why the sudden need.” she asks, getting up to pull down two plates.

“No need. it’s just something I wanted to do. plus, there’s a lake here. close by, did you know that.” I ask and she nods.

“Sure do. its big too. have you been. the weather is getting warmer now. so maybe you and Harper could go for the day, ill pack you a picnic.” I love my mum to the ends of the earth.

“I think we are going with some friends from school next weekend.” I don’t tell her I have to swim, said lake, naked.

“I love that. I have another date next weekend.” she throws it out there so casually.

“Is it Glen.” I ask and she shakes her head.

“it’s…complicated. but as soon as I know where it’s going, I’ll let you know.” I accept her reply and we sit to eat.

Chapter 16

Mum wasn’t lying when she said the lake was big. its bloody massive. this is the second time I’ve been here in the last Two weeks. the first just Three days ago.

Nico swam across it with me. the first time I made it halfway, panicked, then continued. it’s not the thought of drowning anymore, it’s the thought of what’s under the water.

with Nico by my side, I was able to breathe again. his strong presence calming me. I wouldn’t say I’m the fastest swimmer, but I’m steady and confident.

“Why are there so many people here.” I ask as Harper parks her car near a group of trees.

“Everyone wants to see you fail. that or they just want to see you and Nancy naked.” Bass comments as we exit the car.

“Great.” I mumble as I spot Nico near the shore.

we make our way over and a crowd surrounds us as Nico holds up his hand to stop chatter. “Listen up.” his voice strong and commanding.

“No cell phones aloud. you will not record this, or the girls naked. anyone who breaks the rules will be punished.” I let out a low breath.

“Thank god for that.” Harper grumbles as Nico comes over to me.

“You ready little mouse. remember your training.” Nancy scoffs beside me, her clothes already halfway off.

I spot a few boys looking me up and down as I remove my shorts and top. I decided to leave my underwear on until the last minute. Nancy strips it all off. not in the least bit bothered.

“let’s get this done.” Nico calls as I finally drop my draws. it’s humiliating to say the least.

I should have just said fuck it. let Nancy win, but I’m too proud for that. mum didn’t raise a weak daughter. I may like things calm and avoid loud places. but I won’t back down from a challenge.

“First one back is the winner.” Nico steps closer to me, his mouth near my ear. “Slow and steady. if you go at it too hard, you’ll burn out too quickly.” I nod as his eyes remain on mine.

the water is surprisingly warm as we wade in until we are waist deep. Nancy flicks her hair over her shoulder, and I can’t find in me to give a shit. sure, she’s stunning, but she’s also vapid.

“On my mark.” Nico raised a black starting gun. at least I hope that’s what it is.

The gun makes a loud bang and Nancy dives into the water; her whole body disappears under the lake’s surface. she must be a mermaid.

I push myself forward. cheers of excitement behind us. not even halfway and my arms are already tired, Nacy is a few feet ahead of me. I swim until the cheers peter out.

Nancy gets to the other side first. my lungs are on fire by the time I reach the broken tree trunk. Harper told me its left over from a storm.

when I turn around, Nancy has stopped. it looks like she’s struggling, her low grumble filters in my mind. her head bobs up and down. when she lets out a small cry, I swim faster towards her.

“You ok.” I ask almost close enough to touch.

her elbow breeches the water and slams into my face. stunned, I sink under the surface and swallow a shit ton of the lake. such a dirty trick.

when I come back up for a breath, Nancy is almost halfway back. my anger bubbles to the surface. pulling all my strength, I dive back under and steam through the water like I’m possessed.

Nancy must feel confident she’s won, because she doesn’t even hear me come up from behind. I guess the way she steamed on in front me, she’s worn herself out.

I swim with all I have; we are neck and neck. the shore comes into view, Harper jumping up and down. “Swim Teal, swim.” she screams.

Nancy and I reach the shore at the exact same time. both of panting hard, my airways fit to bursting. Nancy stands on shaky legs, her head held high.

Nico takes one look at my face his eyes snap to Nancy. “Teal is the winner.” Nancy screams.

“it’s a draw, we both won. we need a new challenge.” Nancy yells still very much naked.

“No, Teal won. hitting her in the face to gain a win is cheating.” Nico’s voice holds no argument.

Harper throws a towel around my shoulders, grateful for the warmth and the dignity. Nancy is shimmering with rage. I get a few curious looks at my face back to Nico.

“Fuck you. I didn’t do shit.” Nancy stands taller, he wet skin shining in the moonlight.

“No, then explain her face.” Nico asks and everyone watching waits with bated breath.

“a little healthy competition is all.” she sniffs, and I want to punch her in the face.

“Teal.” Nico looks to me then.

“Did she hit you to win.” I look to Nancy and see the fury in her gaze.

“No. I hit my face on the fallen tree. but I Teal grant want to challenge Nancy Matlow and Valerie Thatcher.” Nancy gasps as Valerie eyes go wide.

Nico smiles. “what’s the challenge.” he asks as Harper stands closer to me.

this could go horribly wrong, or incredibly right. “Archery.” voices whisper around me.

“you’ve got to be kidding me.” Nancy scowls. “Fucking Archery.” Nico nods once.

“Two weeks from today. we will come back here and all three of you will compete. Three arrows each. nearest to the target wins.” Nico makes a motion for the crowd to disperse.

Harper turns to look at me. “Please tell me your good.” I nod and start to get dressed.

“I won county championship Four years in a row.” Bass laughs and Harper smiles.

“Why didn’t you just tell everyone she hit you.” harper asks as I slide on my shoes.

“Because I want to win fair and square, not because Nancy is a dirty cheat.” I huff. both of my friends nodding in agreement.

before we climb in the car, Nico comes over to me and tells me that I’m still invited to join the crew. I tell him I’ll think about it. he accepts this and walks away.

Chapter 17

every night for the past week, Nico has been creeping into my room to watch me sleep. it’s creepy as fuck but also calming in a way I never imagined.

sometimes I wake and we talk, sometimes I just get the feeling of him being there, sitting, watching me from the corner. tonight is the first meeting of the crew, with me being in attendance.

I said I would go, just to see what it’s all about. but Nico told me that whatever I see and hear, can’t be repeated. I don’t believe for one second, he wouldn’t hurt me if I opened my mouth.

Nico picks me up at 9 on Sunday evening. mom is out with her new man, and she still won’t tell me who it is. being back at Nico’s house is comforting yet frightening. all I hear in my head is Bass and his warnings.

“Make yourself at home. do you want a drink.” Nico asks as we settle in the basement.

“Coke is fine.” I reply and he nods grabbing me a can from his fridge.

Austin is already here. his blue hair ruffled in a sexy kind of way. his eyes flit from me to Nico, then to Dane who just walked in. he’s also smoking a joint which I hate the smell of.

“If it isn’t little miss Archery.” Dane sits next to me, and I have to say, I see what Bass sees. the man is fine.

“Dane right.” I ask holding out my hand.

“In the flesh. welcome to the dark side.” he grins, and I grin back.

Three others join us. I’m told they are John Mathers. Chris Coil and Donaven Holt. all part of the crew. all as silent and as deadly as Austin. Nico hands me my drink and sits down beside me.

“I was informed this morning that a certain rat has been seen going into the girl’s locker room and taking pictures of the girls in the shower.” I whip my head to Dane.

“Who.” Nico asks and I whip my head to him next. I’m going to break my neck if I’m not careful.

The door to the basement opens and in walks Tadd, plus his Two goons. “Fucking great.” I grumble as Tadd looks at me with a smirk.

“You brought entertainment. I call dibs.” my body does a full shiver; Nico looks at me and then back to Tadd.

“Fuck off. she’s part of the crew, not some whore for you to fuck.” ok, Nico just stood up for me again.

Tadd rolls his eyes and slumps in a nearby chair, his goons standing behind him. “Relax man. I brought my own girls.” I wonder where he keeps them.

knowing Tadd, he has them drugged and locked in the trunk of his car. sick fuck. “Can we get back to business.” Austin drawls.

“who’s the Rat.” Nico asks.

“Henry Mayhew.” I have no idea who that is. but I hate him.

“And how did you find out.” Nico asks sipping his bottle of beer.

“One of the girls told Bass. he told me.” Nico flares his nostrils.

“And you believe that gay piece of shit” Tadd laughs.

So, Tadd is a homophobe, no Suprise there.

“Shut your fucking mouth.” Nico snaps and Tadd shuts up. interesting.

“Find out. get his phone if you have too. if he’s broken the rules, he will be punished.” Nico adds and Dane nods.

“Wilder Grint slapped a first year in the bathroom on Friday. I shit you not, he full on bitch slapped this poor kid for walking in when he was sniffing a line.” Chris speaks calmly but clearly.

“And you saw this.” Nico asks to which Chris nods.

this crew is whack. they have serious rules about violence. but I mean I get it. keep order in the school. if you break the rules, your outed and punished. it’s a deterrent for sure.

“Austin, challenge him to a fight at the next party.” Austin nods and I sink lower into my seat.

“Yule wants us to up the price for a buy in.” I look to Nico hoping for more info but get nothing.

“Fine. up it by another grand. send the extra money with the booze.” Donavan nods.

now I’m completely lost. buy in for what? send the extra cash and the booze where. Nico told me, if I wanted information he would have to kill me. does that still stand now I’m in the crew.

“Anything else.” Nico asks looking around the room.

“Want to add anything little mouse.” he looks at me and I almost squeak.

“Why didn’t to rat out Nancy for hitting you.” Dane asks and all eyes swing to me.

“What would be the point. I want to beat her fair and square, not because she cheats.” Tadd laughs and slaps his knee.

“Fucking A, man.” God, I hate him. his eyes are predatory, and I feel my skin itch.

“Now let’s bring in the girls.” Tadd nods to his goons who leave the basement.

Nico looks at me. “Time for you to go.” I nod because seriously. my head is going to explode.

once in the car, Nico drives me home. “I owe you some answers now you’re in the crew. but not tonight.” I don’t answer as he stops at my house.

“I’m not sure I want to know. that way you can’t use it against me.” I reply and he sort of smiles.

“Clever girl.” that’s all he says as we sit in silence.

“Will you…” I chew on my cheek thinking of the best way to ask him the next question.

“Never mind, it’s none of my business.” I add quickly as he turns to look at me.

“Ask me.” his tone is flat, bored even.

“Will you sleep with a girl tonight.” there, I said it.

“You, jealous little mouse.” he smirks, and I close my eyes.

am I jealous, yes, a little. we have grown close these last few weeks. the bedroom visits, the swimming lessons. “I..” I don’t continue.

“don’t be jealous. I’m not a nice man. if you see that side of me, you’ll understand what kind of a monster I am.” his words make me shiver.

“Ok.” that’s all I can say as I climb from the car.

I watch him drive off. my heart feeling like it’s going to burst, and I don’t understand why. why does he need to do the things Bass said. why can’t he be a normal teenage boy.

chapter 18

A week has passed since the first meeting in the basement. I’ve been practicing my archery, and I’m pleased I’ve still got it. Nancy and Val don’t stand a chance. that’s not me being cocky, I’m just talented.

I drove myself tonight. I can’t keep expecting Nico to drive me everywhere. plus, if I need a quick getaway, I can jump in my own car and high tail it out of there.

we discuss the boy who took pictures in the locker room. turns out he wasn’t alone and he and his friend Samuel lathis, were in on it together he’s a second year and a creep.

Dane confirms he has pictures on his phone, some very explicit and I cringe. so next weekend before the next meeting, Chris will challenge him to a fight, Samual too.

we discuss Wilder and how Austin will beat his ass at the next party. apparently if you challenge someone to a fight, it happens then and there, no backing out.

Nico informed me that they sell all the booze we offer and give the money to a homeless shelter. they also use the money they make from fights to fund the parties.

they also sell drugs and most of that selling is to people in the community who are receiving treatment for cancer. who knew these boys had a soft side.

the only one in the room who complains is Tadd. he has a comment on everything and its fucking annoying. don’t get me wrong, they are still bad to the bone.

they also organize illegal underground fights. Nico helps run the events and from what I can gather, it’s a fight to the death. Austin is ruthless when he speaks about it.

Nico tells me when it’s time to go and I get up to gather my things. I could stay but I’m not sure I can see some random girl hanging over Nico.

“You ok to drive.” he asks walking me to the basement door.

“Yes Nico. I’ll be fine. enjoy… whatever it is your doing.” I mumble as he laughs.

“Your fucking cute when you blush, you know that.” his hand strokes my cheek in a way that sends shiver down my spine.

we are standing so close he could kiss me. but I know it will never happen and a part of me hates it. what would it feel like to have his lips on mine, just once.

“Thanks. every girl wants to hear how cute and adorable they are.” I tease as he smirks.

“Would you rather I tell you how damn fuckable you are. how I want to see your tits again. how I want to bend you over and fuck you senseless.” my eyes widen, and he laughs.

“that’s what I thought, get out of here.” he pushes me playfully and I turn to leave.

the music starts and Tadd is like a child, clapping when 6 girls from a different school enter the door behind me. Dane looks bored and Austin licks his lips. I leave, quicker than most.

it’s not until I’m in the car that I realize I left my bag by the sofa. I curse myself and contemplate what to do. should I go back? what will I see? can I handle it? will Nico get mad?

my house key is in there; I need it to be able to get in. fuck and damn it all to hell. I can just slip in and hope I’m not seen. hope that they are all occupied and won’t notice me.

“Fuck.” I slam my hand on the wheel. I’ve been sitting here for over half an hour now. “Just go.” I tell myself with a curse.

I climb out of the car and let myself in. the music is louder now. good job he has no neighbors. I slip down the stairs and pause at the door.

I can hear moaning and slapping of skin. dear god, what am I going to see. I open the door a slither and peek inside. my eyes widen when Austin is the first person I see.

there’s a girl on the floor between his legs, his cock in her mouth. his head thrown back in sheer ecstasy. Tadd has a girl on his lap, his jeans down to his ankles.

I can literally see where his cock disappears inside her body.

all of them. every single one, in some form of sexual position. but the thing that hits me the most is Nico. I can see him in his bedroom, on the bed, where I slept, is a girl. a small girl, slim and petite. my age. who looks like me.

she’s tied up. her hands above her head, and he’s hitting her, with a belt. that’s the slapping noise I could hear. her cries are muffled with the gag that’s in her mouth. dear lord.

it looks barbaric. he’s sweating from exertion. his top off. his pants undone. I gasp when he yanks her head back by her hair and he spits in her face. christ.

I’ve never grabbed my bag so quickly before in my life. Tadd sees me and smirks as he grabs the girl’s ass who is on top of him and slams her down hard on his cock. that must hurt.

I don’t realize I’ve stopped still until I look back to Nico and see that his gaze is now on me. double shit. he shows no emotion. his face a blank mask of indifference.

I run from the room. my legs not walking fast enough. I climb in my car as Nico appears at the front door. he’s breathing hard but he doesn’t stop me, my car roaring backwards in the loose gravel.

I hate what I saw. is it jealousy, fear. the image of that girl tied up, gagged. Nico whipping her with a belt. the tears on her face but the look of what? was she excited, turned on? or was she scared, just wishing it would end. I’m so confused.

I make it home just as mum pulls into the driveway. she looks nice dressed up for her date. when she sees me and she clearly sees the state of my face, her eyes turned concerned.

“Teal love. what’s wrong.” I stumble into her arms and for some reason I cry.

“Baby. what’s wrong. are you hurt, did someone hurt you.” she’s frantic now, pulling me inside the house.

I don’t know what I’ll say when I find my voice, but me and mum have always been close. if anyone can explain these confusing feelings, it will be her.

Chapter 19

I don’t see Nico for almost a week. Harper tells me he and the crew left town to some secret location. something about a race, I wasn’t really listening, and a little miffed he didn’t ask me to go.

after that night, mum sat with me for over Two hours, explaining various kinks, fetishes, and more. I didn’t go into detail, just that I had heard some stuff and it confused and frightened me.

mum explained stuff like that would and should only ever be explored if both parties agreed. she said some men and woman like to feel pain during sex which absolutely blew my mind.

“You ready to beat Nancy and Val tonight.” Harper asks as we sit down to eat lunch.

“I’ve been practicing all week. I guess the question is, are they ready.” I ask and Bass joins us; he looks tired and pale.

“Word in school is, Nancy has been seeking professional lessons in Archery. Val too, but from what I’ve gathered, both still suck at it.” I’m not worried. I could do it with my eyes closed.

“How was your last crew meeting.” Bass asks, it’s the first time we have sat down all together all week.

“Fine.” I squeak and Bass looks at me confused.

“Tell him. he already knows what those parties look like.” Harper encourages.

Bass listens when I tell him what I saw. he then tells me what I saw was very tame considering. he said I should consider not going to anymore meetings if I was traumatized by that.

“Has anyone ever changed the rules to a challenge at the last minute.” I ask out of the blue. “I mean is it allowed.” I add looking at Bass.

“I couldn’t honestly tell you; no one has ever wanted to change the rules. but no harm in asking.” Harper looks at me with narrowed eyes.

“what’s going on in the bright little British brain of yours.” she pokes my side, and I flinch.

“you’ll have to wait and see.” I reply poking her back and making her giggle.

we finish the day on a high. well, I do. running track has strengthened my leg muscles to no end. I feel fitter and my lungs don’t scream at me anymore.

I get home to a note from mum telling me she was called back to the office for some late-night revisions. she left me some food and said to call her if needed.

after a long hot shower. Harper picks me up along with Bass just after 8 and we drive to the forest, all of us singing along to the radio. harper has a really good voice, Bass, not so much.

The party is in full swing when we arrive. I know we won’t be doing the archery until tomorrow, so, tonight is just a night to chill and let lose. but I need to speak with Nico, I can’t keep putting it off.

Harper takes her offering along with bass. I don’t need to do that now I’m in the crew. I should be up there with them, but I told Nico I wanted to hang with my friends and he said I could do what I wanted.

“I just need to speak with Nico, and I’ll come find you.” Harper and Bass both squeeze my arm as they walk away.

I climb the wooden steps and Nico’s blue eyes find mine. “Could I have a word.” I ask confidently.

Nico watches me for a few seconds and then stands. “You can speak in front of the crew. unless its private.” he smirks. bloody sexy bastard.

“No that’s fine. I was wondering if I could request a change to the challenge. I mean, still do the Archery, but add a little something.” all eyes on me, great.

“This should be good.” Dane speaks getting up and coming closer.

it doesn’t skip my notice that I have more than the crew’s eyes on me right now. I can see Nancy and Val in the crowd. both girls looking at me like some kind of wild animal.

“Go on.” Nico folds his arms over his impressive chest.

“I was wondering if I could request that I alone do the challenge blindfolded. I hear Nancy has been taking lessons and I want to show her that even with the help she’s received. she won’t win.”

Dane whistles loudly. “Damn you really are that confident.” I shrug because, yeah, I am.

“I mean if she then wants to be blindfolded too, I won’t stop her. but I feel this will be the ultimate fuck you, does that make sense.” I ask and Nico smiles.

“I’ll grant your request. if Nancy then decides she wants in on it. we won’t deny her.” he adds, and I nod my head.

Dane walks back to the porch, filling the others in on what I said. “Walk with me.” Nico asks and I bits the inside of my cheek.

“I’m sorry about the other night.” I finally say as we step through the trees.

“What exactly are you sorry for.” he asks leaning back against a low hanging branch.

“For walking back inside. I left my bag, and it had my…” Nico holds his hand up to stop me.

“You don’t need to explain. but I saw the look on your face, and I knew you were scared because of what you saw.” I scrape my shoe in the dirt.

“I wasn’t scared. I was… confused. when I spoke to my mum…” he stops me again.

“You spoke to your mum.” he looks mad.

“Not about you or what I saw. I told her I had heard a conversation, and it confused me. she was really sweet and explained all these.” I stop myself embarrassed.

“All these what… kinks. fetishes. different ways to fuck.” I hate it when he does that. treats me like I’m a child.

“Yes.” I snap grinding my teeth.

he watches me for a while. “And how do you feel now.” he asks.

“I don’t know. maybe one day I could…” I jump when he speaks.

“No.” his tone holds no argument.

“No.” I repeat looking at his face.

“No, you won’t one day try it. it’s not for you little mouse.” I don’t know if I’m offended or if he’s being really sweet.

“Stay away from that scene. your too damn pure to have your skin bruised. you should be loved, cherished. not used as some…” he closes his eyes as if in pain.

“Go back and enjoy the party. you have a challenge to win, don’t go looking for something that’s not there.” he walks off and the shadows swallow him.

collective cheers fill the air when Austin challenges Henry Mayhew to a fight. I can’t find it in me to care. so, I find a spot nearby and contemplate my life choices.

Chapter 20

“Damn, the whole school is here.” Harper is currently looking around the small area that’s been set up for the challenge.

“I’m not worried.” I reply as I pull my bow and arrow set from my bag. I’ve had this set since I was 12.

“Word has it, Nancy has gotten good.” Bass chimes in from my left.

“In two days, doubtful.” I scoff.

Nancy and Val are both standing to my right, just a few feet away. there are Three targets set up 20 yards away, the red, blue and yellow circle target standing out among all the green of the forest.

Nico and the crew arrive. people part when they step closer. more whisper. it’s a sight for sure. “Listen up people. the challenge will go like this.” Nico starts.

“Same rules apply, no cell phones. Teal, Nancy and Val all have three arrows.” he pauses. “They will each have a turn to hit the middle target. the one who gets all three closest to the middle wins.”

hushed murmurs drift around me, some taking bets. “Teal came to me with a change to her side of the challenge.” Nico continues and Nancy snaps her head towards me.

“She requested to be blindfolded.” there’s a few gasps and more murmuring. I see money leaving hands and boys nodding.

“You have got to be kidding me. she can’t do that.” Val speaks this time.

“She can and she did. the way I see it, she’s making it more difficult, not easier.” Nico levels her with a look.

“If you want to add a change, now’s the time to do it.” he looks at both girls who remain quiet. we all wait.

“I request you move her target back another 20 yards.” Nancy looks so proud of herself.

Nico looks to me. “I don’t have a problem with that.” I shrug and Nico smirks.

“If that’s all. let’s get ready. Val will go first.” Nico yells as Val visibly shakes.

“Jesus. can you hit from that far away, blindfolded.” Harper hisses in my ear.

I smile and nod. “it’s not impossible. I’ve never tried.” I sound so casual. I’m not worried.

Val steps up to the starting line, her target 20 yards away. the first outer ring of the target is blue, then red, blue and finally yellow. I call it 2, 3, 4, 10.

the way I played it. you get 2 points for the outer blue. 3 for the next on the red and 4 for the next. but the bulls’ eyes are worth 10. I know points don’t count here, it’s just whoever gets close to the middle.

Val sets herself up for the first hit. she shoulders are calm and steady, but her form is wrong. if she continues to lean on her left leg the arrow will go wide.

“that’s 2.” I whisper to myself when the arrow lands.

she sets up the next. “that’s 3.” I grunt as Harper looks at me with amusement.

final arrow. she takes a deep breath and. that’s another 3.” I relax my shoulders.

“Fuck.” Val huffs in annoyance.

“Nancy, you’re up.” Nico calls from where he sits in a fold out lawn chair.

Nancy shows confidence. she has all the correct gear on too. but again, she’s stands more on her right leg, her right arm not pulled back far enough. the arrow flies.

“that’s a 4.” I curse under my breath; Nico looks at me with a smirk.

the next one is a bullseye, and Nancy can’t help but give me a smug look. admittedly it’s on the outer edge of the bullseye, but it’s there non the less.

“Last one.” Harper whispers next to me.

Nancy steps up and I have to say, she stands tall and posed. she corrected her form, and I hate her for it. “Bullseye.” I mumble under my breath when she hits her target.

Dead. Centre.

some of the girls around her clap. some of the guy’s cheer, but Nico just looks at me. “Teal. you’re up.” I take a deep breath and step forward.

Nico steps up behind me, his warm body pressing to my back and I shudder. “You sure about this.” he asks as he ties a black cloth around my eyes.

“let’s do this.” he squeezes my shoulder and kisses me on the cheek. it’s so sudden I almost stumble and fall. his strong hands hold me steady.

I adjust my feet. raise my bow and pull back my arrow. this isn’t a quick sport. this is a game of balance and poise. I can visualize the target in my mind and when I let the arrow fly, I hear it hit.

there’re a few gasps in the crowd, but I have no idea where I hit. the next arrow flies and I hear a hit. more gasps and a few choice words from Nancy.

“This is fucking bullshit.” Val whispers.

I guess I’m doing ok. the last arrow is set up and I take a minute to remember my training. Mr. Hannah taught me for years; he was state champion for almost a decade. I want to do him proud.

The last arrow flies and I hear a hit, but it sounds different. “Holy fuck.” that’s Dane. I rip my blindfold off and scan the crowd.

“How did you learn to do that.” Val is looking at me with utter shock. Nico is smirking and after a beat he stands up again.

“Take a look Teal. you win.” I spin to look at the target, my own gasp catching in my throat. the first two arrows are side by side, both in the middle of the yellow, not an inch apart.

the last arrow is wedged between the two, splitting the one on the right, right down the middle. it’s a sight to behold. and Harper runs and jumps up and down squealing as the rest of the crowd cheers.

“Holy fuck.” I copy Danes words as Nico comes over to congratulate me.

“Impressive, little mouse.” he grins, and I copy him.

“I Valerie Thatcher, challenge teal grant to a fight.” the words freeze me in my place.

Nancy looks so smug, Val looks proud if not a little shaky. but me, my insides are like ash. I don’t fight, never have. I’m not a violent person.

Nico curses under his breath. “The fight will take place at the next party.” his voice is so loud it makes me wince. that’s six days from now.

“Bullshit, it happens now.” Nancy yells.

Nico looks at her with such distain, I would be shitting myself.

“And I said it takes place at the next party. anyone else want to disagree.” Nico asks looking around, but everyone stays quiet.

“Look at me. breath.” Nico is rubbing my arm. I didn’t realize I was holding my breath, or I had zoned out.

“I’ll teach you. just like before.” the look in his eyes tells me he won’t see me fail.