Story Notes
They found each other where the world was loud
and their pain was quiet.
Love doesnโt always save youโ
sometimes it just reminds you what youโre losing.
๐ Between the Shadows
Summary
Greya Matthews has already endured a lifetime of loss. Her grades and soccer talent could take her anywhere after graduation, but she feels tied to the only family she has left-her younger brother and her grandmother. Since her parents’ deaths, Greya has carried the weight of responsibility on her shoulders, sacrificing her dreams until she’s forgotten what it feels like to choose herself. That is, until she begins spending more time with Becker Reeves. Becker Reeves is the school’s golden boy-or so everyone believes. He’s the kind of guy every girl wants, except Greya. She sees past the charm, past the perfect image, and senses something darker. She pushes him in ways no one else dares to, and that terrifies him. Because letting her in means exposing secrets he’s kept hidden for far too long. Yet, there’s something about her he can’t walk away from. Then comes the tragedy. One moment that changes everything-shattering who they thought they were and forcing them to confront the truth. Together, Greya and Becker must face a new reality… one that will either forge them into something stronger or break them beyond repair.
Prologue
2017
The boy couldnโt have been more than thirteen or fourteen, but the depth of his piercing aqua-blue eyesโand the worried crease between themโmade him seem older. Shoulders hunched, hands jammed into his pockets, he stood at the front of our seventh-grade classroom like heโd rather be anywhere else.
โClass, we have a new student. This is Becker Reeves,โ Mrs. OโRourke announced. โHeโs been homeschooled until now, so please make him feel welcome.โ
Silence stretched, heavy and awkward.
When no one responded, he lifted his chin, straightened his spine, and pasted on a smile that looked too practiced to be real.
The moment his lips curved, revealing his perfect teeth and adoring dimples, whispers rippled through the girls in the roomโhushed but eager. Becker knew instantly heโd made an impression. He knew how to survive this.
I let myself join in the staring. It was easier than thinking about the emptiness waiting at home, about the hushed phone calls and casseroles that werenโt feeding anyone. Better to focus on him.
He wasnโt like the other boys. Taller, leaner, his skin unmarked where theirs was broken with acne. But it wasnโt his looks that pinned me in placeโit was the contradiction. Those eyes: guarded, wounded, older than they shouldโve been. That smile: polished, charming, a mask he wore with frightening skill.
He carried the attention easily as he walked to the empty desk beside mine. But I could tellโit cost him.
He slid into his seat, rummaging for a notebook and pen. I tried not to watch. Failed.
You canโt fool me, new kid. I know that mask. I wear one too.
And when he caught me staring, his gaze sharpened like he was testing meโmeasuring if I could see through him. He was right. I could. Becker Reeves reminded me of… me. Scared. Broken. Carrying too much.
A flicker of movement. He brushed dark hair from his face, and for a fraction of a second I saw it: a bruise beneath his right eye. Faded. Smudged with makeup, but still there. My chest tightened, my pulse quickening.
He glanced up, and just then his pen rolled off his desk, landing between us. We both bent to grab it. My fingers closed around it first.
Straightening, I offered it back.
He recoiledโso fast it startled me. Like my hand might burn him.
Fear. Anger. A smirk. All in the span of a heartbeat. My stomach knotted, unsettled. He smoothed it away just as quickly, pretending nothing had happened.
Still, I didnโt lower my hand. I held the pen steady until he finally reached for it. When his fingers brushed mine, a spark shot through meโunexpected, undeniable. His eyes widened. I forced myself to stay calm, offered him the faintest smile, then turned back to my notes.
The rest of class blurred into background noise. I kept stealing glances, drawn to him in a way I couldnโt explain. Whatever passed between us in that instant, it wasnโt nothing. It was a connection.
And even though tomorrow Iโd bury my fatherโhis cologne still clinging to the coat I wore today, his voice still echoing in the silent rooms of our houseโmy grief was suddenly eclipsed by worry for Becker Reeves. The boy with haunted eyes. The soldier fighting a battle he couldnโt name.
โGreya Matthews, please come to the office. Youโre being dismissed,โ the overhead speaker announced.
The room stilled. Heads turned, pity written across their faces. Everyone… except the new boy. Heโs the only one who doesnโt know my father just died.
I slung my backpack over my shoulder and gave him one last smile before walking out. And in that moment, I made a silent promise: I would help Becker Reeves, no matter what….
โGreya!โ
My eyes fly open. My heart pounds as the memory unravels, dissolving back into the present of 2022.
โGreya, wake up! Weโll be late!โ
I blink against the light spilling through the blinds, the air heavy with the same emptiness I remembered from that day years ago. The echo of his eyesโpiercing, broken, unforgettableโlingers in my chest like a wound that never heals.
Five years later, I still havenโt figured out the complexities of Becker Reeves…I still havenโt found a way to help him…found a way for him to let me in.
Part- 1
Present Day โ 2022
Greyaโs POV…
I overslept.
Thereโs only one reason I ever dream about Becker Reeves: game day. It means heโll talk to me more than usualโmaybe a jab about whoโs leading in points, maybe that rare crooked smile when I push back. Itโs never much, but itโs always enough to leave me restless. Becker doesnโt annoy me. He unsettles me.
โComing, Chase!โ I call, though my voice is still scratchy from sleep.
You know that sayingโwhen life gives you lemons, make lemonade? Whoever came up with it didnโt know what to do when the lemons are already rotten, when no matter how hard you squeeze, nothing good comes out. Thatโs my life. Every time I think Iโve got something sweet, it spoils.
โGreya! I canโt find the clothes you told me to wear!โ Chase calls again, his voice rising in frustration.
โTheyโre at the end of your bed. Feel around,โ I shout back from the bathroom.
I catch my reflection as I braid my hair. Same green eyes, same brown waves my mom always said were her gift to me. No makeup, just lip glossโitโs all I have time for. Ari swears I donโt need anything more. She says I look like my mom. She doesnโt know how much that hurts and makes me happy all at once.
โGrey!โ Chase again.
โDonโt worry, sweetheart, Iโll help him,โ Gramโs voice drifts down the hall.
โThanks, Gram.โ
Relief settles in my chest, but itโs always mixed with guilt. Sheโs ninety, her hands stiff with arthritis, her steps slower every year, and yet she still does more than anyone should have to. After our parents died, she stepped in. Now itโs my turn to carry the weight.
By the time I reach the kitchen, Chase comes sliding across the floor in his socks, nearly crashing into the counter.
โChase!โ I snap. โWhat if I had a hot pan in my hand? You couldโve been hurt.โ
โBut you didnโt. And I wasnโt.โ He shrugs, grinning like the whole world is his playground.
Typical ten-year-oldโreckless, full of energy. But not every ten-year-old has Child Services watching closely, waiting for a reason to say Gram is too old to raise him. They donโt see what I seeโthat Iโve been raising him since he was three.
โSit,โ I tell him, setting a plate in front of him. A waffle and milk.
He finds the fork and plate by touch, his hands moving with practiced confidence. My chest softens as I watch. Most people donโt notice the way he angles his fingers or how he pauses briefly before reaching for the glass, but I see it. I see all of it.
When heโs finished, I hand him his shoes and backpack. He makes his way to the door without hesitation. He knows every inch of this houseโas long as we never move the furniture.
I stop to set out Gramโs pills, pour her tea, and kiss her cheek. Her papery skin feels fragile against my lips. Then Chase and I are out the door.
Car rides with him are always loud. He belts every song on the radio, off-key and proud, the fall air whipping through the open window of my dadโs old Mustang. The leather still smells faintly of him. Sometimes, in moments like this, I almost trick myself into believing life is normal. Almost.
At his school, I pass him his white cane.
โSee you tonight, buddy. Fynnโs picking you up.โ
โScore lots of goals for me!โ he beams, waving as he skips toward his teacher. My heart squeezes. This kid knows how to make lemonade.
At my school, Ari and Fynn are waiting in the courtyard. Ari flips her hair into his face until he groans.
โWill you not? Tie your Rapunzel hair up,โ he mutters.
She does, rolling her eyes, just as I walk up.
โHey, Grey! Soccer party tonight. At Becker Reevesโ house.โ She grins like sheโs announcing we won the lottery. โYou have to come.โ
โYes, I saw. Instagram made sure of that. But no.โ
The truth is, Beckerโs always been private. People know his stats, not his story. Even though we share classes, sports, friendsโweโre not close. Not really.
But thereโs something unspoken between us. A strange, mostly silent connection I canโt explain. Beckerโs a lost soul, and maybe this party will show me why.
โYouโre going,โ Ari insists. โFynnโs going. Right, Fynn?โ
He looks up from his book, eyes wide. โWhat?โ
โYouโre going,โ she repeats, slower this time.
He shrugs. โSure, why not.โ
โSee?โ Ari smirks at me.
I roll my eyes. โFine. But Iโm skipping the guysโ game. Need to check on Chase and Gram.โ
โThanks for picking up Chase from school for me.โ
โAnytime,โ Fynn says, slinging an arm around my shoulders.
Heโs been like family since second grade, when his family moved in across the street. His parents treat us like their own. Between him, Ari, and Cohenโmy other childhood friendโtheyโre the only people I trust with Chase.
โFive minutes to locker room,โ I warn Ari, dragging her along.
As we jog down the hall, she leans closer. โYou ready for the big game?โ
โSame as any other.โ
โNot with UCLAโs scout in the stands.โ
I force a laugh. โCanโt think about that right now.โ
โYou should. What if you make it big?โ
โI canโt.โ
Because my future ended the day I found my fatherโs body. Chaseโs future didnโt. My dreams arenโt in the cards anymore. His still are.
We round the cornerโand there he is. Becker Reeves, standing at his locker.
His eyes lift, catching mine for a heartbeat too long. He doesnโt say anything, just raises his hand in a subtle wave. Almost like a secret hello meant only for me.
Before I can decide if I imagined it, the corner of his mouth pulls into a quick smileโsmall, almost shy, gone as quickly as it came.
And Iโm left standing in the hall with my heart doing the one thing I promised it wouldnโt do around Becker Reeves. It stumbles.
Part-2
Beckerโs POV
โNever judge a book by its cover,โ I whisper to myself as I get ready for the day.
No one actually follows that advice. They only see the flawless cover. If they bothered to read the pages, theyโd find a terrible story.
My life is a mess, though no one would guess. Iโve got the brains, the athleticism, and the looksโthe perfect trio, or so people think. I intend to use one of these gifts to escape this hell one day. Money isnโt an issue, and the last name helps, too. Thatโs all anyone notices. Thatโs fine, as long as they never look deeper. No one sees the curse I live under.
It takes all my strength to get through each day without unraveling. Pretending everythingโs fine is exhausting. My brother Alec is the only reason I fight to survive. Him and Greya Matthews. Greya… the only girl whoโs ever tried to see past my faรงade. Our friendship is complicated, messy, and my fault. Iโve learned love brings pain. Iโve made a vow never to ruin Greya with the horrors of my life. I stick to that vow and let me tell you how hard thatโs been the last five years.
Greya is sweet, pure, everything I canโt be. Every day, she makes me want to be better. Yet I keep her at armโs lengthโclose enough to remind me life isnโt all bad, but far enough to protect her. I push her without her knowing, because sheโs capable of so much and if anyone can make it out of here, itโs her.
But the truth is, Iโm scared. Always. Scared of letting anyone close, scared of touching anyone… scars from an abusive, alcoholic father. I fear I canโt always protect Alec. I fear Iโll never know what love really is. The one person who should have loved us left Alec and me to fend for ourselves.
โBecker, you up?โ Alec knocks at my door.
โYeah, Iโm up.โ Iโm always up. I havenโt slept properly since Mom left, over five years ago.
โOkay, Iโll wait for you in the car.โ
โWaitโJackโs here?โ His voice is tense.
โI donโt know. His doorโs shut. Hurry up, Beck.โ Alecโs worried. I hate that.
I grab my bags and head downstairs. Silence. Good. Too good. Until a hand grabs my throat.
Jack. The alcohol hits me first. Six inches taller, a hundred pounds heavier. He shoves me against the wall, fist into my side. The air leaves my lungs. I close my eyes, waiting.
โBecause of you, everythingโs destroyed. Because of you, I need to fix this mess, find your mother.โ
I barely breathe. His words are nonsense. His anger is directed at the wrong person.
He stumbles back. I hit the floor, gather my things, and flee.
โIโll be gone until Monday! You both better be here when I return!โ he slams the door.
I run to the car. Alec knows something happened, but he doesnโt confront me. He trusts Iโll protect him.
First we pick up Declan then Cohen. His messy curls bounce as he hops in the back. โYouโre such a disaster,โ I joke, trying to mask the tension.
โParty at your place tonight,โ Declan blurts from the passenger seat.
โNo!โ
โToo late. I already sent invites!โ
โYou asshole,โ I mutter.
At school, the crowd of girls is overwhelming. Hands reach outโunwelcome touches, flirtations, chaos. A consequence of keeping a flawless cover.
Delusional cheerleaders, Courtney and Layla, all of them testing boundaries. I tighten my chest, anxiety spiking. Physical contact feels like fire on my skin. I push through, heading for the locker room. Cold water splashes on my face before I end up panicking. I breathe. I regain control.
โDude! You see how many girls are following you around today wanting to know about the party?โ Declan asks while weโre storing our soccer gear in the locker room.
โYes, thanks to you.โ That was sarcastic.
โIโm just saying, maybe itโs time you find one youโre interested in. Could be good for you.โ I give him a sideways glare.
Thereโs only one girl Iโll only ever be interested in and sheโs off limits.
โHey, Iโm trying to help you out. I know the whole physical aspect is complicated but a girl might be different,โ he says. I shake my head and put the rest of my gear away.
โWeโll see bro,โ I tell him.
I walk out of the locker room without him. I know heโs trying to help. He doesnโt know how and neither do I, but some random girl in my arms isnโt going to fix anything.
What I need is to get to class where I can sit behind Greya and take comfort in the apple pie scent of her hair shampoo. Sounds weird when I say it out loud in my head, but thatโs what works. That and the way she smiles at me, her beautiful green eyes reminding me of freshly sprouted grass under the warm spring sun. She doesnโt try to undress me with her stare like every other girl does. She sees me for…me, in a way, without actually knowing the real me.
Her presence alone calms me. She never pushes, never touches without consent. She just exists, quietly, letting me breathe. I know itโs selfish to lean on her this way, but I canโt help it. Sheโs everything I want and everything I canโt have. Just seeing her, hearing her voice, is enough for me to survive the day.
Maybe sheโll come to the party tonight. Probably not, but the thought… it eases the tightness in my chest.
I wait longer before walking to class. I lean against my book locker as I watch the chaos around me, people buzzing about tonightโs party, Courtney and Layla thinking they have a chance. Let them talk. Let them dream. I have to preserve the cover.
There she is. Greya. Standing slightly apart, calm in the chaos. My chest eases a little just seeing her. She doesnโt scream for attention like everyone else. She doesnโt touch me. She just exists.
Our eyes meet for a heartbeat. She wavesโso small, so restrained. And I… I canโt do more. Not here, not now. I just nod, a silent agreement that she sees me and I see her. Thatโs enough for now.
This is survival. One day at a time. And maybe, just maybe, Greya will be the only reason I make it through today without breaking.
Part-3
Greyaโs POV…
Whoever invented Calculus must have done it purely to torture humanity. Why so many different math classes? Just give us the basicsโhow to survive in the real world, balance a checkbook, pay taxesโstuff adults actually need.
Thankfully, Fynn and Ari are in the trenches with me, sharing the misery and occasionally trying to help. They sit on either side of me, though โhelpingโ often means distracting me further. Numbers are not my forte, but I need this class if I want a shot at medical school.
I drop my books onto my desk, second row from the back, and the roomโs chatter dims slightly as Becker Reeves strolls in. He runs his fingers through his dark brown hair, flashes his perfect smile, and every girl in the room visibly swoons. Typical.
But then his eyes meet mine. Those Caribbean bluesโeveryone else sees them as mesmerizing; I see the faint flicker of something else. A hesitation. A weight heโs carrying no one else notices. For a moment, he seems lost in thought, until I tilt my head in a small, teasing smile.
He slides into the seat behind me. The air shifts. His presence is quiet, yet impossible to ignore.
โYou going to win your game today, Love?โ he whispers, leaning just enough for me to hear the faint rasp of his voice. โScout from UCLAโll be watching too.โ
I roll my eyes at the nickname. Ever since he learned my middle name, heโs insisted on using it, like some private code. Itโs the only personal detail about me he cares to know.
But this is Beckerโs way of talking. His way of connecting. So I play along.
โI heard… good luck then,โ I respond, careful not to turn around. If I face him, heโll see my intent, and heโll retreat into his usual silence.
โThe scoutโll notice who scores the most goals,โ he teases.
โThatโs a given, B,โ I reply, shrugging.
He inhales sharply, a sound that makes my pulse skip. Pain? Frustration? I canโt tell, but it almost makes me want to turn and ask. I want to reach out, to pull the mask off, but heโd never answer honestly. He protects himself too well. Not so different from me, actually.
โUp for the challenge?โ I ask instead. Keep it light, keep it safe. Let him reveal what he wants to in his own way.
He leans in slightly, the whisper near my ear, โToday Iโm going to break that tie. Youโll be the one chasing me.โ
I choose not to answer, not aloud. Instead, I note the subtle shift in his demeanor. Thereโs always something off about him, something hidden beneath the faรงade everyone else worships. First day in 7th grade, I saw it too: the loss in his eyes, the tension in his posture, the way he keeps everyone at armโs length.
Heโs never had a high school girlfriend. Only Declan and Cohen get close. His distance, his careful observationโitโs part of the armor heโs worn for years. And Iโve yet to get through that armor.
Then Declan interrupts, loudly enough for everyone to hear, โGreya, you get another offer tonight, who are you picking?โ
I ignore him. I havenโt figured it out myself, and Iโm not ready to put my hopes on something that might not exist.
Beckerโs voice suddenly cuts into my ear, sharp and furious, โWhat does he mean by another offer? Why havenโt you accepted?โ
I scrunch my eyes, staring at him, stunned. Heโs not usually this direct with me.
โSo?โ he adds, leaning back, arms crossed, irritation radiating off him.
โWhy do you care?โ I ask quietly. Finally. My first meaningful question to him, though the delivery isnโt exactly polite.
He freezes. The surprise in his eyes is almost… something else. And then heโs silent.
I turn back to my assignment, letting the moment linger. Thirty minutes later, Iโm still stuck on problem two. Then, his hand quietly drops a folded piece of paper onto my desk. I open it: detailed steps for solving the entire set. My heart liftsโthis is Beckerโs apology, his help, his bridge.
โYou coming to my party tonight?โ he asks calmly, leaning just close enough that I feel his presence.
Iโm still processing the math help. โMaybe,โ I say, handing the paper back slowly. โThanks.โ
He leans back, chair balanced on two legs, watching me return the paper. His expression shifts again, subtle pain flickering across his features. I look away, giving him space, but not before noting those ocean blues that hold so much mystery.
I break the silence with a challenge. โIf you score more goals than I do tonight, Iโll go to your party.โ
He straightens, chair back on all fours, leans toward me again, and smirks. โDeal.โ
Part-4
Greyaโs POV…
โEarth to Grey!โ Ariโs voice snaps me out of my thoughts. One brow is arched, her hands on her hips.
โWe have a game in thirty minutes and your headโs somewhere else.โ
โI know, Iโm sorry,โ I reply, finishing tying my cleats.
โIโve just… got a lot on my mind.โ
โGirl, the only thing that should be on your mind is how youโre going to wow the UCLA scout. Whether you have an offer or not, thatโs all that matters right now.โ
I manage a believable smile. If only she believed the real distractions in my life. Between taking care of my ninety-year-old grandmother and my ten-year-old brother, dreams like a soccer scholarship feel impossibly far away. But I wouldnโt trade them for anything. Chase and Grams are my world.
I pull on my warm-up jacket and grab a ball, letting the familiar weight settle in my hands. On the field, for ninety minutes, I get to escape. Everything that worries meโthe responsibilities, the past, the uncertaintyโfalls away when the ball is at my feet. For those moments, Iโm free.
โFinish up, girls! Coach wants warm-ups in five,โ Ari shouts.
Sheโs stepped up as team captain this year, and Iโm grateful. Iโm not the type to lead. Soccer is my sanctuary, not my platform.
The stadium is packed, everyone buzzing about the scout. I take to the field, letting myself enjoy the moment. Thatโs when I see Chase in the stands, waving frantically.
โChase! What are you doing here?โ I ask, jogging over.
โI wanted to watch! Please, Grey!โ His excitement is contagious.
I glance at Fynn, who just shrugs with a smile. โI couldnโt say no.โ
I scoop Chase into a hug. โGood luck hug first.โ He squeezes tight. โYouโve got this, Greya. Tell Ari I said good luck too!โ
I wave at Ari, who grins and blows kisses back to Chase. This kid… he doesnโt need sight to enjoy life. He reminds me every day that what matters isnโt what you see, but how you live.
Coach calls us in for the huddle. I close my eyes for a moment, grounding myself, clearing my head. When we shout our cheer and take the field, everything else falls away.
The game starts roughโweโre down 1-0 within the first ten minutes. Ari passes me the ball after the PK, and I see my opening. I split the defense and sprint, the goal in sight. In my head, itโs just me and the ball. I execute the move Iโve practiced a thousand timesโrolling the ball with my toe, flicking it over the goalkeeper. The net ripples, the crowd erupts, and for a moment, I feel untouchable.
My teammates rush me, hugging and high-fiving, and Ari beams. โThatโs teamwork, Grey. Your goal wouldnโt have happened without me!โ I grin back, knowing she deserves the credit too.
I glance toward the bleachers. Chase is clapping, beaming, and I point at him. That goal was for him.
Then I see Becker. Heโs sitting off to the side, calm, collected, but our eyes meet. Thereโs a subtle nod and a small smileโa private acknowledgment in the chaos. I return it with a tiny wave. Thatโs enough. Thatโs all we need sometimes.
We finish 3-1. I scored two, Ari one. Chase runs to me after the game, full of energy, and I let him take a ball onto the field to shoot at the net. He lines it up perfectly and scores, then Becker steps in, quietly retrieves the ball, and compliments him. โNice shot, kid.โ Chase grins like he just won the World Cup.
I call him back toward the bench. โTime to go home, little man.โ Fynn scoops him up, and I thank him for bringing Chase.
Ari rushes over, practically vibrating with excitement. โThe scout wants to talk to you now!โ
I nod, feeling the weight of responsibility settle back onto my shoulders. My ninety minutes of freedom is over.
The scout approaches, professional and encouraging. โThat was a great performance. Youโve exceeded my expectations.โ
โThank you,โ I say softly. I know what comes next.
โWeโre prepared to help you in any way. We want you on the team. Full scholarship. Even if you need to take a GAP year, your offer will stand.โ
I nod again. The offer is tempting, but impossible. I glance back at the field where Becker has scored another goal. He smiles, fleeting and rare, and searches the stands as if expecting someone who isnโt there. That smile fades, and I wonder what he carries in those moments that no one sees.
For a moment, our eyes meet again. I give him the tiniest wave and a subtle smile, the kind only he would notice. A private acknowledgment in a world that demands facades.
Then I turn, shake off the lingering thoughts, and head to the locker room. Reality calls: Chase needs sleep, Grams needs care, and tonight, thereโs a party at Beckerโs house I canโt back out from. Life never pauses. But for those ninety minutes on the field, I had control. I had freedom. And sometimes, thatโs enough.
Part-5
Greyaโs POV…
I step into my house, the smell of pepperoni pizza hitting me like a welcome hug. Chase is curled up on the couch with Grams.
โGrey! Youโre home!โ he perks up. โFynn brought pizza when he dropped me off!โ
โPerfect! I love pizza,โ I grin, heading to the kitchen.
Chase leans back into the cushions. โI know,โ he says in his squeaky little voice, and I canโt help laughing at him.
โWeโre watching The Hulk,โ he adds. I glance at Grams, nodding at her sleepy smile.
โAnd I have a surprise for you,โ I say, holding out my hand.
Chase jumps up, nearly colliding with the counter. โCareful!โ I warn, guiding him safely.
I place his hand over a small object. His fingers move across the tiny bumps.
โNo way! The Incredible Hulk, Vol. 2! Thank you, Greya!โ He spins to hug me, and I smile despite knowing he canโt see it.
โAnything for my favorite little brother.โ
โOnly brother,โ he corrects, grinning.
Soon, he runs off to his room with the comic, already absorbed. I quickly shower, throw on ripped jeans and a black lace tank top, leaving my hair down, a touch of mascara and lip gloss. โThis will do,โ I murmur.
I check on Chase again. โIโm going out tonight. Your alarm is on the nightstandโbrush teeth and bed when it goes off, okay?โ
โOkay.โ
I kiss his head and give Grams her meds. โIโll be late. Donโt wait up,โ I inform her.
โBe safe, sweetheart,โ she replies.
Fynn starts honking on his horn in my driveway so thatโs my cue to hurry up. I grab my house key and make my way out to his car. I slide into the passenger seat and Fynn looks over at me with a big smile on his face.
โWhy are you looking at me like that?โ I ask him.
โYou look hot!โ He says and I laugh. โYou do!โ He reiterates. โAnd Ari told me you need to wear these,โ he hands me a pair of silver loop earrings and a silver Pandora bracelet. I laugh, thinking about how Ari probably threatened Fynn to make me wear these.
There are dozens of cars lining up to Beckerโs house when we arrive. โYou ready for this?โ Fynn is clearly more excited than I am about being here. โNo,โ I respond to him. โCome on, itโll be fun, I promise,โ he says as he hooks his arm with mine and leads me to the door.
I knew Becker came from money but I canโt picture him growing up in this mansion. It doesnโt suit the real him anyway.
Inside, itโs chaos: red cups, beer pong, spilled drinks, teenagers making out on couches, a keg challenge raging. My stomach knots.
Becker sits alone, dark hair falling over his eyes, expression unreadable. He doesnโt belong here either. Every move is calculated, walls raised. He notices me the moment I step in, but his gaze flicks away quicklyโhe doesnโt want attention. He just wants control.
โGrey!โ I hear Ari squeal from across the room. Sheโs already drunk and thatโs alright because I need someone to talk to or laugh at.
โCome over and join us, weโre gonna play a game,โ Ari informs me. I roll my eyes at her and take a seat next to her on one of the couches. Fynn, Declan, Cohen and a few soccer players also join us.
โTruth or dare?โ Someone blurts out. God, I hate this game.
โTruth,โ Ari says excitedly. This should be good.
โIs it true that Norman Elsley already asked you to this years prom?โ Declan asks loudly.
Poor Norman. Heโs sweet and all and he probably asks Ari to prom about every other week. She always declines but Norman is hoping sheโll change her mind one day, I give him some credit for his efforts.
Becker unexpectedly joins us, taking a seat in the chair by the wall. No one can surprise him from that spot. He doesnโt at all look happy to be hosting this party. His dark messy hair like a hood over his eyes, his pouty lips forming a firm line. He quickly glances at me and frowns. Great, he doesnโt want me here just as much as I donโt want to be here. Parties are not my thing, and I can guess theyโre not his either. Too many people for him to avoid. Heโs probably putting on a good fight with himself over it as he usually does.
Courtney and Layla from the cheerleading squad follow him to where heโs sitting. Those two live in a fantasy world of their own, thinking that one day Becker will ask them out. I donโt know how Becker can tolerate them. Although, if he didnโt, those two gossip queens would ruin whatever he has going for him.
His expression remains stoic as the two girls are denied a seat next to him and instead squeeze onto the couches with the rest of us. I accidentally smirk out loud thinking about how funny this all is.
โAlright, Greya, truth or dare?โ Courtney the more twisted of the two smirks back. I get a glimpse of Becker stiffening upright in my peripheral vision.
Just Perfect! Iโm going to have to do a dare because thereโs no way Iโm truthfully answering any of her questions.
โI choose dare,โ I say automatically. I see Becker stiffen, muscles tensing. I smirk to myself. Heโs protective, but I donโt know how far that will go tonight.
Courtney smirks. โI dare you to go skinny dipping… with Becker.โ
The room erupts. I freeze. Then I see Becker, expression stormy, standing abruptly. He slams his cup and storms upstairs. My pulse spikes. Typical Becker, shutting down chaos before it hits him.
What the hell just happened?
โWait up Becker, Iโll keep you company,โ the twisted one says and follows him upstairs.
The rest of us are quietly staring at one another until some random kid bursts out laughing. Declan rescues us from the awkwardness and offers me a new dare. This time Iโm dared to do the keg stand with Ari and I gladly accept after that fiasco.
Numerous drinks later, My headโs spinning and I need to pee. I walk upstairs to find the restroom and come across Beckerโs brotherโs room first. He looks up from the video game heโs playing and chuckles when I latch onto his door frame for support.
โHi, Iโm Alec. Are you looking for something?โ He asks.
โIโm Greya and yeah, could you please direct me to the bathroom?โ
โTwo doors down on the left,โ I think he says.
โThanks,โ I stumble down the hall. Did he say two down on the left or right?
I pick the door on the right. Itโs slightly ajar so I push it open further.
โWhat the hell Greya?โ A girl shouts at me. I realize itโs Courtney and sheโs lying naked in the bed. Wtf!
โDonโt just stand there! Leave!โ She yells again. Just then, Becker walks out of his en-suite bathroom and looks at Courtney then at me. My vision is too hazy to decipher what his expression means, but Iโm not going to stand here while Courtneyโs breasts are on full display. Is he honestly going to get into bed with her?
I rush down the hall and open the door on the left, thankful itโs the bathroom. I quickly lock the door behind me and bolt for the toilet, as my insides hurl from my mouth. Gross!
A knock on the door startles me. โJust a sec!โ I move to the sink and quickly rinse out my mouth. Fynn needs to take me home. Now.
I open the door to find Becker standing there. Weโre both frozen, looking at each other until he finally speaks first.
โAre you okay?โ His deep voice full of what appears to be concern, surprises me. What is with him?
โIโm fine. Iโm sure Courtneyโs waiting for you,โ I hit him with a low blow thatโs completely uncharacteristic of me when it comes to dealing with Becker. He confuses me though. He wonโt let anyone close enough to touch him but heโs going to get into bed with Courtney? Iโm going to vomit again, whereโs Fynn?
โWhat you saw is not what you think.โ He says.
What does it matter? Does it really matter? I canโt think straight.
โHow would you know what Iโm thinking?โ I need to get out of here.
I start to walk through the door and he moves to the side to get out of my way.
โGreya!โ
โDonโt Becker. You donโt need to explain anything.โ He really does though. I laugh to myself.
My very unsteady body makes it back down the stairs and Iโm about to find Fynn when someone shoves my body against the wall.
โOuch, that hurt!โ I mumble to whoever has me pinned.
โMiss Goody Two Shoes decided she was good enough to party with us tonight?โ All I smell is alcohol. I realize that Mason Hendrix, our schoolโs starting wide receiver is the one mocking me. His hands are on my shoulders, pushing me further against the wall.
โYouโre hurting me Mason!โ He doesnโt care. Those blood shot dark eyes of his tells me heโs thirsty for something, and Iโm the one heโs chosen to mess with.
โHow about you and I find a place upstairs so we can have a little fun?โ He seethes.
โMason, youโre drunk.โ
โSo are you.โ
โIโm not going any where with you Mason, let me go.โ
He leans his whole body flush up against me and now Iโm scared. His face comes within an inch of my ear. โThatโs right, I almost forgot none of us are good enough for perfect little Greya Matthews.โ
โPlease get off of me,โ I plead again.
Before he can torture me further, heโs ripped away from me by someone and thrown to the floor. The guy begins punching Mason in the face. I quickly realize itโs Becker. He yanked Mason from me. โShe said to leave her alone Mason,โ Becker angrily shouts as he lays his fist into Mason again.
A second later, one of Masonโs friends jumps onto Beckerโs back causing Becker to freeze up. As soon as Mason realizes Becker isnโt fighting back, he sends an upper cut right into Beckerโs jaw, splitting his lip.
The other guy is still on his back and I realize why Beckerโs frozen. โBecker!โ I yell his name to snap him out of it. He looks at me and finally throws the guy off of him.
Becker stands up and points to Mason and his friend. โGet out of my house…Now!!โ He shouts at them and then turns around and walks back upstairs.
Fynn rushes to my side. โHoly shit! Are you ok Grey?โ
โYeah, Iโm ok now. I want to go home, just give me a minute.โ I say to Fynn.
I head back upstairs, straight for the bathroom where I find Becker sitting on the floor with his back against the wall.
Thereโs blood coming from his busted lip and his jaw is already red and bruising. He sits there silently watching me while I search for a wash cloth and soak it with cold water from the sink.
I cautiously approach him and kneel in front of him, his color instantly pales. He doesnโt say anything, but as soon as I bring the cool cloth towards his lip, he jerks his head back and grabs my wrist, holding my hand a few inches from his face.
He stares at my hand like itโs a weapon and suddenly I realize Iโm scaring him like everyone else does when their hand goes near him. My heart hurts for him, it must be so painful to live that way, afraid of having people near him. I donโt know what to do to help him with that.
โIโm trying to help, B,โ I whisper.
He glares, a mixture of anger and fear. โI donโt need your help. Leave me be.โ
I realizeโeverything he does, every wall he puts up, is survival. My heart clenches, for all he must carry.
He releases my wrist while keeping his conflicted glare on me. He almost looks as if he wants me to help him, I canโt tell at this point and Iโm too intoxicated to figure it out.
โFine.โ I stand, leaving him there, and head back downstairs to Fynn.
โLetโs go home,โ I say, voice trembling slightly. Tonightโs party has been chaos. Beckerโs mystery remains, his vulnerability only hinted at. But for now, itโs enough.
Part-6
Beckerโs POV…
What was I thinking, letting the guys talk me into hosting this party? By far the stupidest decision Iโve made in a while. And Greyaโof all people, she chooses my party to show up. Secretly I wished she would but sheโs never been to one before, never around this kind of chaos, and yet here she is.
By the time I cleaned the blood off my hands and face and returned downstairs, the party was still in full swing. My mind keeps drifting back to her. Greya following me upstairs to the bathroom… I should have welcomed her help, not snapped. She calls me โB.โ That nicknameโmy mother used to call me that. Hearing her say it while seeing her reach out to help me, it almost broke the wall Iโve built around myself. Almost.
โOh my god, Beck, are you okay? I heard about the fight!โ Laylaโs hand shoots toward my face. I catch her wrist mid-motion. โGet away from me.โ My growl surprises even me. I donโt have the patience for her tonight.
โWhatโs your problem, Becker? Weโre supposed to hang out!โ She flips her hair, exposing freckles and beady brown eyes. If looks could kill…
โNot tonight. Go bother someone else.โ I push through the crowd, my patience gone.
Red cups, spilled drinks, kids making a mess of my house. I make my way to the pool, relieved itโs empty. Courtney sprawled on some guyโs lap, but I donโt give a damn. She got what she wanted now.
Greyaโs face keeps flashing in my mind. That dareโthe idea of skinny-dipping with meโmade me want to punch something. Not because of her, but because she would have been exposed to a sea of drunk idiots. My blood boils at the thought of anyone touching her or seeing her that way. If Courtney hadnโt acted like a jealous fool, I mightโve lost it entirely.
Then the memory of Masonโs hands on her…how scared she looked. I couldโve killed him. Itโs taken me a while to calm down.
Now, Iโm sitting alone by the pool, finally cooling down, remembering her. She followed me upstairs to tend to my wounds. I canโt stop thinking about it. She reached out, noticed my reaction, and still tried. She always notices. Sheโs the only one besides Cohen and Declan who does. Iโve tried and failed to hide from her.
I rub my jaw, the sting of my busted lip still fresh, the memory of the fight raw. I think about how I flinchedโnot from her, but because of the situationโand I realize how much I hate the world sometimes, how much I fear losing control. Greya flinched at my reaction too but not out of fear, she flinched out of care. And I snapped. I shouldnโt have. She saw the real me and I panicked. She didnโt deserve for me to be harsh.
Morning comes, sunlight slicing through the windows. Cohen is yelling at everyone to get out. I shuffle through the mess, kitchen nearly clean, thankful I donโt have a hangover. Alec stayed out of the chaos like I told him, smart kid.
I thank the lads for cleaning them decide to take Alec out for breakfast.
โI spoke to that girl… Greya,โ Alec smirks while we sit at the diner booth.
โWhen?โ My interest peaks despite myself.
โShe was looking for the bathroom last night… found my room instead. I get why youโre always looking at herโsheโs hot, and those eyes…โ
โShut up,โ I mutter, rubbing the back of my neck. Iโve spent five years trying to convince myself sheโs untouchable. Too perfect for someone like me. Iโve tried to remind myself: Iโm damaged. She wouldnโt want the reality behind the calm surface.
Alec doesnโt push. He knows. Iโm his older brother in this fightโnot just for him, but for me too.
Reality hits hard later that night. My first thought, a nightmare, only itโs real. Alcohol burns my throat as someone pours it over my face. I scramble up off the bed, wiping my eyes, andโBAM. A fist knocks me into the nightstand.
Jack. Drunk, ruthless, violent. Always a consequence to every choice I make, and tonight is no exception. I block his next punch, then feel his grip tighten around my neck. Alec bursts in, yelling. My instincts take over: I knee Jack in the gut, push Alec to safety, plead with him to lock himself in his room.
Jack makes contact again. Then darkness swallows me.
The last thing I remember: chaos, blood, adrenaline, fear… and Greyaโs face, even if just in memory.
Part-7
Greyaโs POV…
If I could erase this past weekend from existence, I would.
First, the excruciatingly awkward party at Beckerโs house. Then, just when I thought I could have a quiet weekend, Chase came down with a fever, so I spent the last two days taking extra care of him. And as if that werenโt enough, Grams tripped and fell on her knee last night. Thankfully, she only bruised it, and I was able to get her home from the ER around 2 a.m.
I decided to let Chase stay home from school today so he could recoverโand help Grams a bit. I start laughing to myself thinking of it. Iโm so tired.
โHappy 18th birthday, Grey!โ Ari and Fynn shout as they come barreling down the school hallway.
I donโt feel eighteen. Most days, I feel like thirty, juggling homework, raising a kid, taking care of my grandmother, and balancing life. My teenage years flew by in a flash, skipping all the reckless fun and dropping me straight into adulthood.
โSorry about this past weekend, Grey. Iโll make it up to you this weekend with a proper celebration!โ Ari says, smiling warily.
โIโm glad Grams is okay,โ she adds.
โYeah… me too,โ I reply.
I turn to grab my books from my locker, but Fynn grips my arm and spins me around. He pulls me into a tight hug, and I sigh with relief, burying my head against his chest.
โThanks, Fynn. I really needed that,โ I murmur.
โI know. Thatโs what Iโm here for,โ he chuckles.
โThanks for taking care of Chase last night at the hospital. You must be tired.โ
โNot as tired as you, by the looks of it,โ he teases. โYou shouldโve stayed home today.โ
โWe have a Calculus test,โ I remind him. Birthday or not, math waits for no one.
โFynn and I will be over with cake and ice cream tonight,โ Ari beams.
โSounds great! Thanks, you two. See you in class,โ I smile before heading to my dreaded test.
The morning gets worse. I walk into class and notice Becker slouched in the back row, hood pulled over his head, twirling a pen like heโs lost in thought. My stomach tightens. That black-and-blue bruise along his jaw, the cut on his lip… more than that, somethingโs off.
I sit directly in front of him, silently waiting for any sign of an apology or explanation. Nothing happens. For five minutes, thereโs silence.
I shouldnโt be nervous. I should be ignoring him after how he acted at the party. But his silence is unnerving. Something else is wrong.
When I glance back, his glassy blue eyes meet mine, and I flinch. He retracts, hiding his face again. My heart pounds. That gash across his forehead… itโs bad.
โWh…what happened to your face?โ I stammer.
He ignores me for a moment before glowering. โWhat do you care?โ
I bite back, frustration mixing with concern. โI care when someone I know looks like they got the shit kicked out of them.โ
He doesnโt respond immediately, but I see the slightest softening in his eyes.
โB, please… be truthful with me. Are you okay?โ I ask softly.
He freezes, clearly unprepared for my concern. A flicker of appreciation crosses his features, but then Ari and Fynn walk in, and he reverts to his usual defensive mask.
โWhy donโt you care about someone else?โ he snaps.
I turn to Ari, who frowns at Becker. โWhat did you say to her this time, Becker? Way to ruin her birthday,โ she scolds. He doesnโt respond.
โDonโt worry about him, Grey. Just ace this test,โ Ari says kindly.
The calculus test drags on, but my thoughts keep drifting to Beckerโhis new injuries, his behavior, the flinching. As soon as the bell rings, I hand in my paper and tell Fynn and Ari Iโm heading home.
Outside, I hear a familiar voice. โWait up, love!โ
Becker is jogging to catch me, hair disheveled, eyes bloodshot, sweat glistening on his brow.
โAre you okay?โ I ask again.
โIโm sorry… love,โ he blurts. Heโs out of breath from jogging to my car. Heโs perfectly in shape so he shouldnโt be winded like this.
โSorry for what? The party or today in class?โ I press.
โBoth?โ he shrugs, uneasy.
I reach for the car door but pause. โLook, Becker…โ
He stumbles, catches himself on the car, clutching his head and panting. I step closer, offering my elbow. โHold onto my arm. Iโll walk you to the nurseโs office.โ
โNo! Iโll be fine,โ he insists, but I can see the fear swirling in his eyes.
โYou donโt look fine. Maybe you have a concussion. Let me at least drive you home.โ
โI canโt,โ he says, frantic.
Something clicks. His fear, the bruising, the flinchingโitโs a pattern. Someone at home is hurting him.
โWhy not? What happened? You can tell me,โ I ask gently.
โNo… just… go find Cohen or Declan,โ he replies, defeated.
โOkay. Please let me help you. Sit in my car while I find one of them.โ
I give him my arm again and it takes him a full minute to convince himself that touching me wonโt kill him. He slowly slides his fingers around my elbow all while holding his breath and I guide him to my car, arm linked carefully with his.
โPromise me youโll stay here while I find help?โ
โI promise,โ he grunts.
I sprint back inside, grab Cohen, and we return. Cohen takes charge, keeping an eye on Becker. I give a small nod, satisfied that heโs safe.
Before leaving, I kneel slightly to meet Beckerโs gaze. โB… thank you. For saving me from Mason at the party. I donโt know what he wouldโve done if you hadnโt stepped in.โ
For the briefest moment, the corners of his lips twitch. โThanks, Greya,โ he murmurs, and then Cohen drives him off.
Back at home, Chase greets me at the door. โYouโre home early!โ he squeals, holding up a birthday card. โGramโs been resting, donโt worry!โ
He drags me into the kitchen, ordering pizza through Siri, and I canโt help but laugh.
I help Grams to her room, apply an ice pack to her sore knee, and kiss her cheek. โYou take such good care of me , my sweet girl.โ
You took care of us when we needed it most, Grams. This is nothing.โ
โGreya, I left you a card on the counter. Happy birthday!โ
Thanks Grams. Now get some rest. Let me know if you need anything.โ
Forty minutes later, Fynn and Ari arrive with pizza, cake, and ice cream. Ari hands me a gift bag and hugs me. โHappy birthday, Grey! Now letโs eat, hang out, watch moviesโwhatever you want.โ
โSounds perfect,โ I say, closing the door behind them.
For the first time all day, I feel my shoulders relax. I have awesome friends. And somehow, surviving this birthday feels like a small victory.
Part-8
Beckerโs POV…
I mustโve been out for hours because I wake up to a dark room. I passed out cold in Cohenโs car and vaguely remember dragging my body into his house. Feeling around, I finally locate my phone. The screen lights up like a Christmas tree. Fuck. Thatโs bright. My head is pounding.
I recognize Cohenโs guest roomโbeen in it more times than I can count. My head still throbs, and itโs already 9:00 p.m. I have no idea where Alec is or if heโs safe.
Voices drift from the kitchen. Cohen and Declan.
โDude, youโre finally up!โ Declan says.
โYeah man, how you feeling? You gave Greya and me quite a scare,โ Cohen adds cautiously.
I canโt believe I let her see me like that. Vulnerable. Bruised.
I should be angry at her for helping. I should push her away. But I canโt. Every time she calls me โB,โ my defenses crack just a little. That nicknameโmy motherโs voice echoing through itโpulls at something Iโve buried for years.
She guided me to the car, arm steady, voice calm. My first instinct was to recoil, to reject her help. But… I didnโt. I let her lead me anyway. I hate myself for needing that. I hate that I trust her, even a fraction.
And yet… the fear in her eyes when she looked at meโit wasnโt pity. She didnโt shrink from me like everyone else. She cares. And I… I donโt know how to handle that.
Why does she care? Iโve spent so long convincing myself that no one should. No one should see what Iโve become. The bruises, the scars, the flinching… theyโre mine to carry. But she sees them anyway.
She doesnโt know the truth of it. Not the nights I wake in panic, not the shadows lingering in every corner of my house. Not Jack. Not the threats. Not the suffocating weight of fear.
โBecker?โ
โSorry… yeah, Iโm feeling a little better. Just a headache,โ I tell Cohen. He doesnโt believe me.
โIโm worried about Alec. He shouldnโt be home tonightโnot after standing up to Jack last night and having you drag us out of there. Maybe I should go check on him,โ I ramble, until Declan stops me.
โDonโt worry. Hayden invited him to stay the night at my house.โ
โThank God. Thank your brother for me, will ya?โ
โYou couldโve been hurt real bad, Becker. Jack couldโve killed you if Alec hadnโt stepped in. You need to talk to someoneโthe police, my dad,โ Cohenโs dark eyes bore into me.
I appreciate it. I really do. I wouldnโt survive without them around. But I canโt go to the police. Jackโs word against mine, Alecโs safety at stake. Even if I had proof, what lawyer could get a judge to believe me? Even Cohenโs dad isnโt a guarantee. Jack has money, connections, and influence. And if I leave, who would take care of Alec? As long as Iโm in the house, heโs safe. College isnโt an option eitherโnot while Alec needs me.
โI canโt,โ I finally say. โThereโs no guarantee anyone would believe me. If I go to the police, it could make things worse. I have to think of Alec.โ
They both stare, trying to understand, wanting to help. But some battles canโt be fought that way.
โIโll just have to be more careful around Jack… not give him a reason to lay a hand on me.โ
โMost of the time he doesnโt need a reason, Becker. He just does it,โ Cohen reminds me.
โI know,โ I sigh.
โWeโve got your back. Whatever you decide, whatever you need, weโre here,โ Declan promises.
My headache is pounding, nausea creeping in. I need a shower, need to escape for a few hours before tomorrow. I grab aspirin and retreat upstairs.
Morning comes too quickly. I move slowly, head secure as I make my way to the bathroom. The mirror greets me with the aftermath: black and blues in full glory. How the hell am I supposed to hide this?
Cohen nearly chokes on his breakfast when I enter the kitchen.
โWow… you look like shit.โ
โYes, I know. What am I supposed to do now?โ
โMy sister has concealer in her bathroom,โ he suggests, pointing. Not ideal, but maybe itโll help.
I do the best I can to cover up my face, then catch a ride with Cohen and Declan to school.
Calculus class is a horror show waiting to happen. I claim the last seat in the back, hoodie pulled low, hoping no one notices. Students fill the room. Ari and Fynn take their seats but Greya isnโt here yet. Good. I need a reprieve…
Then the late bell rings, and in she comesโapologizing, flustered, bright green eyes searching for me. I pull my hoodie lower, desperate to disappear. Please donโt look at me. Please donโt look at me.
She doesnโt sit. She exchanges a few words with Ari, who hands her something. Great. Now Ari knows somethingโs up. Soon the whole school will.
Ten minutes in, a note slides across my desk: โMeet me at the bathrooms ~Gโ
What?
She gets up, smiling at me. Is this a prank? Revenge? Or… curiosity?
Like an idiot being curious, I follow her down the hall, uneasy. She holds the girlsโ bathroom door open, gesturing for me to enter. My chest tightens. โGreya… this is the girlsโ bathroom. Iโm not going in there.โ
โWell, Iโm not going in the disgusting boysโ room,โ she retorts, smiling. โAnd no oneโs here, so hurry up!โ
Reluctantly, I step in. She locks the door behind us, and I glance around, wary.
โB… donโt worry. Iโm going to help you,โ she says, her voice steady, soothing.
โHelp me… with what exactly?โ I ask, suspicion dripping from my tone.
She pulls a small makeup case from her pocketโthe one Ari handed her earlier. โYou look like someone let my little brother play make-up with your face. Let me fix it.โ
My stomach twists. I donโt want anyone touching me. Especially not her. And yet… part of me wants her to. Sheโs patient, careful, her eyes never leaving mine. That patience alone disarms me.
โClose your eyes,โ she whispers. โItโs only me. I wonโt hurt you.โ
I hesitate. Memories of my fatherโs abuse flare upโhands reaching, water pouring, screaming. My body wants to run. But then I hear her voice again, soft, patient: โIโm going to touch your face with the sponge now. Iโll be gentle. I promise.โ
I close my eyes, gripping my hoodie. My chest heaves, every muscle tense. She touches my cheek. Soft. Cool. I freeze. My body screams to pull away. But her hands… theyโre careful, deliberate. She blends the concealer over the dark bruises under my eyes and across my cheeks, slow and methodical.
I feel her warmth through the sponge, like a tether keeping me from falling apart. My body starts to relax, just slightly, but enough that I lean in a fraction. She notices, smiles faintly. โYouโre doing great, B. Just breathe.โ
She moves her hands across my jaw, over the cut on my lip, careful not to press too hard. I swallow the lump forming in my throat. Itโs… comforting. And terrifying. My heart is racing, but not with fear alone. Itโs something else, something I havenโt felt in years.
I want to speak, to ask her why she even cares. But the words get caught in my chest. So I just let her work, tracing over the bruises, covering the worst of the black and blue.
I grab her wrist, impulsively, afraid sheโll finish and leave before I can even say anything. My hands are trembling.
โBreathe,โ she says softly, locking her gaze with mine. โYouโre okay. Youโre doing fine.โ
Her reassurance seeps into me. Slowly, my breathing steadies. I release her wrist, letting her finish. Her thumbs trace lightly along my cheekbones, blending the last bits of concealer. My eyes flutter closed again, savoring the warmth, the steadiness.
Finally, she lifts her hands from my face. โAll done. Almost good as new.โ She points at the mirror.
I open my eyes. My reflection looks… normal. Human. Like myself again. I blink, processing the warmth lingering on my skin, the way her presence made me feel safeโlike for once, I wasnโt alone in this.
I finally look at her. โWhy… are you helping me?โ My voice is rough, low.
She steps back slightly, avoids my eyes. โBecause I… care. And maybe itโs a little my fault Mason got you like this.โ
I shake my head, incredulous. โItโs not your fault, Love. Not even close.โ She thinks Mason did this to me.
โNo one should put their hands on you like he did. And Iโd do what I did all over again if it means keeping you safe from someone like him.โ
I watch her expression, slightly shocked. Itโs the first real thing Iโve ever said to her.
Her eyes meet mine then, sincere, unwavering. โOkay,โ she whispers. And in that moment, I feel seen. Not as a broken guy, not as someone to avoid, but as… me.
Part-9
Greyaโs POV…
โGrey, do you have to leave for the whole weekend?โ Chase whines, trailing behind me as I pack my things.
โDonโt worry, little man, you get to hang out with me all weekend!โ Fynn says, ruffling Chaseโs hair.
โReally? Yes! Pizza every night!โ Chase shouts, running towards his room with pure excitement.
I glance at Fynn, whoโs perched on the kitchen counter, watching me write down every important detail Chase needs to remember while Iโm gone.
โAre you writing a book?โ he teases. โItโs only two nights, I can handle it.โ
โI canโt believe you even talked me into going. Iโve never left them before,โ I admit, feeling a little guilty spending two nights away at UCLA for a College soccer ID camp.
โGreya, this is important to you. You deserve to put yourself first once in a while,โ Fynn says softly.
โItโs not that simple, Fynn. Gram and Chase need me. I canโt just leave them while I go off to college,โ I fire back, my voice sharper than I intended. Iโm stressed.
Fynn slides down from the counter and walks over, taking the pen from my hand and setting it aside. He spins me around to face him.
โI donโt know what Iโm supposed to do,โ I sniffle, unable to keep the worry from my voice.
He pulls me into a hug, holding me tightly. โI know itโs not easy. I just wish I could do more for my favorite girl,โ he murmurs.
โFynn, you help me more than you know. More than I could ever thank you for… Thank you,โ I whisper, hugging him back.
โIโll always help you, Grey. Now get packed before Ari gets here. Iโve got to order the little man some pizza,โ he chuckles.
On my way upstairs, I pass Gramโs room. Sheโs been sleeping more than usual lately, and I hope sheโs feeling alright. I knock lightly. She slowly sits up, smiling.
โHi sweetheart, are you ready for your trip?โ She asks.
โYes, Grams. Will you be okay while Iโm gone? Fynn will be here looking after Chase, so donโt hesitate to ask for his help,โ I tell her.
โOh Greya, always taking care of me. How did I get so lucky to have a beautiful, kind granddaughter like you?โ
โI think Iโm the lucky one, Grams,โ I answer, pressing a kiss to her cheek.
โLove you, Grams. Iโll call every night,โ I promise.
Chase greets me at the door to his room, headphones dangling around his neck. โCome here! Give me a hug, Iโm leaving now!โ I hold out my arms.
โBe good for Fynn this weekend, and have fun,โ I remind him gently.
โI will, Greya! You have fun too, and show those coaches how youโre the best player on the field!โ His smile is infectious.
I squeeze him one last time. โOkay, buddy. Go enjoy your weekend.โ
Ari calls from downstairs. โGreya! Letโs go! Weโre going to be late!โ
I grab my carry-on and soccer bag and jog down. Fynn and Ari are waiting at the door. I shoot Fynn a worried glance; he knows what Iโm thinking.
โStop worrying. Now go!โ he says, practically pushing me out the door.
โSo, just the four of us, huh?โ I say as we get into the van.
โYeah, we get to spend the weekend with Declan and Becker! Isnโt that great?โ Ari nudges me.
โDeclanโs funny, and Becker… well, heโs Becker,โ she shrugs.
โExactly. That means heโll spend the entire weekend trying to compete with me and gloat after,โ I add, laughing.
Ari snickers.
โBut seriously, are you finally going to admit your feelings for Declan this weekend? You canโt keep giving him false hope,โ I tease.
โSure I can,โ she laughs. โSeriously though, wouldnโt it be cool if we both played for UCLA? Cohenโs already accepted, and I know you want that too!โ
โYes, that would be amazing,โ I smile. Amazing if lifeโs circumstances were different.
The van hits the road after picking up Declan and Becker, traffic crawling as the driver navigates carefully. Ari and I take the front row, the guys in the back. Declan entertains us for the first hour, beats on, unaware of our laughter at his off-key singing.
โAre you just going to sit there staring at the back of her head, or talk to her?โ Declan calls to Becker.
Ari bursts out laughing. โIโm going to sit with Dec for a bit. Becker, come sit with Grey,โ she winks. I roll my eyes.
Becker slowly rises, gliding into the front seat next to me, head down. We havenโt spoken since the bathroom incident, and his silence makes me nervous.
โHey,โ I say softly, glancing at him.
โHey,โ he returns, small smile tugging at his lips. Itโs… different. Not the teasing, confident Becker Iโm used toโthis one seems quieter, more careful, like heโs measuring every word and movement.
โYour injuries are healing… your face doesnโt look so bad,โ I joke lightly, hoping to break the tension.
He scratches the back of his head, eyes flicking to mine, then away. โYeah… thanks. For helping me.โ
His words hang in the air. Heโs never said anything like that to me before, never admitted he needed help. My chest tightens. After five years of him pushing, teasing, and deflecting every time I got close, hearing him speak with… gratitude? Itโs unsettling. But also… kind of beautiful.
โAre you going to tell me what really happened?โ I ask, trying to meet his gaze.
โProbably not,โ he mutters, eyes darting around, then back at me, wary. He doesnโt like sitting here with others in back of him. He prefers everyone in front of him so no one can surprise him.
I exhale, letting the silence stretch for a moment. โTo be honest, I expected our usual banter over whoโll make the better impression this weekend,โ I admit with a small, teasing smile.
โThought Iโd try something new,โ he smirks, but it doesnโt reach his eyes fully. Heโs still… off balance.
โWell, I like this โnew,โโ I say, and I see his eyes soften just slightly. His lips twitch upward in a way that feels fragile, almost hesitant. Heโs letting me see a side of him Iโve rarely glimpsedโvulnerable, uncertain, human.
I decide I need to get him back to the back row seats. โHey, mind switching? I want to sit in the back for the rest of the trip. I get car sick up here,โ I obviously lie to Declan and Ari but Itโs better I make it sound like my fault so Becker doesnโt think Iโm pitying him.
โCome on,โ I say to Becker as the four of us switch seats. His big blue eyes follow me, full of curiosity and something else I canโt name yetโtentativeness, maybe trust. He doesnโt argue. He just gets up and follows, sliding into the seat next to mine.
Silence stretches for a few moments. The hum of the van fills the space between us, but it doesnโt feel uncomfortable anymore. It feels like weโre both learning a new rhythm. I hand him one of my AirPods and place the other in my ear. Leaning back, I close my eyes, letting the music drown out everything else.
I peek at him a few moments later. His head is back against the seat, eyes closed, lips curved in a small, peaceful smile. I can see the tension in his shoulders slowly release. The Becker who always needed to stay in control, who always kept everyone at a distance… heโs letting go, just a little. And heโs letting me see it.
A faint snore escapes him, and my lips twitch into a smile. Heโs comfortable enough to sleepโtrusting me enough to let his guard down. After five years, Iโve never seen him like this.
I reach out, lightly brushing my hand against the side of his arm as I adjust my seat. His eyes snap open, wide and alert, but when he sees me, he doesnโt pull away.
Instead, thereโs a pause… a moment of acknowledgment, almost like heโs silently asking, Are you really here? Are you really not going to run from me?
I smile gently, and the tension between us melts just a fraction. โRelax, B,โ I whisper. โIโll wake you when we get there.โ
For the first time, he leans slightly toward meโnot fully, not completely, but enough that I can feel the shift. The teasing, deflecting Becker is still there somewhere, but underneath… thereโs a boy whoโs tired of pretending, tired of being alone, tired of hiding. And heโs letting me in, inch by inch.
I realize something in that moment. Five years of knowing him, watching him, waiting for him to crackโthis isnโt just teasing anymore. Weโre moving into something new. Something real. And neither of us knows exactly what it is yet, but the air between us is charged, full of unspoken understanding and tentative trust.
The rest of the ride passes quietly, but in that silence, everything has changed. Becker isnโt just Becker anymoreโheโs Becker who lets me see a small part of him, Becker who lets me help him a little, Becker whoโs starting to let me in.
And somehow, I know this weekend will push that shift even further.
Part-10
Beckerโs POV…
Becker, wake up, weโre here!โ Declanโs loud voice jolts me out of an unusually peaceful slumber.
Greya is smiling next to me as I hand back her AirPod.
We pile out of the van and grab our bags from the trunk.
โIโve never seen you fall asleep around anyone before,โ Declan says, reaching for his soccer bag.
I shrug, lying easily. โIโm sure you have.โ The truth is, I havenโt but I felt comfortable near Greyaโsafe, even, for the first time ever. She moved to the back row for me, quietly observing, never pressing for answers, never prying. She protects in a way I havenโt let anyone before. Around her, I can almost be myself without revealing all the cracks I spend my life hiding.
โHey, you alright?โ Ari startles me with a pat on the shoulder, and I react instinctively, my body tensing.
โWhoa,โ I mutter. โI was just… thinking.โ
โSomeone woke up on the wrong side of the van,โ she teases, snatching her bag and jogging toward Greya.
I glance at the dorms as we approach. A guy and a girl come walking toward us. โWelcome to UCLA campus! Iโm Nate, one of the team captains, and this is Skye, captain of the girlsโ team. This is where most freshmen stay, and youโll share rooms with them this weekend,โ Nate explains.
Skye points toward the building. โThe guys are upstairs, girls downstairs, but we share a common room. Ready?โ
I lag behind, scanning the campus. Thisโcollege, the soccer, the freedomโis everything Iโve wanted. Only worry about practice, classes… no Jack, no punches, no constant fear.
The girls wave goodbye as they head to their rooms. I catch Declanโs eyes lingering on Ari and smirk.
โOh, you got it bad,โ I tease.
โShut up! Iโm trying,โ he groans. โPlus, I donโt see you doing much better when it comes to your love interest.โ
โHa, ha, funny,โ I allow the sarcasm to slip.
Weโre each bunked with a freshman player. I donโt know them, and I donโt know if I trust myself to sleep around strangers. But I canโt let that ruin my weekend. I donโt usually sleep much anyway.
While all the players are in bed, I wander the empty common room, letting the quiet wash over me.
My fingers find the piano tucked in the corner. I sit on the bench and close my eyes letting my hands play a soft, calming melody.
Memories of my mother flood inโher sitting beside me, guiding my fingers across the keys, her smile wide and proud. These are the only moments I remember with her that havenโt been tainted by fear or pain. I let the melody carry me, each note a fragile attempt to feel… normal.
โWow… that was beautiful,โ Greya whispers, sliding onto the bench beside me. I freeze, fingers hovering above the keys.
โI… didnโt mean to startle you,โ she adds softly, careful, patient.
โYouโre amazing… I didnโt even know you could play like that.โ
Breathe, Becker. Sheโs just sitting there, nothing more.
โB?โ Her voice is cautious, almost testing. She notices the stiffness in me.
โYeah… full of surprises,โ I manage, forcing a smile I hope looks natural.
โWhat are you doing here? Shouldnโt you be getting rest before tomorrow?โ she asks, bright green eyes curious, slightly amused.
โI could ask the same,โ I reply, smirking slightly despite myself.
She shrugs, unconcerned. โI couldnโt sleep.โ
Sheโs being honest so I decide to be honest, letting the words out quietly. โPlaying the piano… helps me relax.โ
Her surprise is evident. โYou… play for yourself?โ
โYeah… when I canโt sleep. The melody… I choose it. It calms me.โ
โCan you play something else?โ she asks softly, letting her fingers brush across the keys, tentative.
I canโt help but smile. No one since my mother has asked me to share this part of me. Although, thatโs my fault because most people donโt know I can play. Declan and Cohen only hear the rumors.
I begin another songโsomething gentle, flowing, delicate, like her. She closes her eyes, swaying lightly as if performing along with me, imagining the music in her hands.
Impulsively, I reach for her hand. My palm rests atop hers, guiding her fingers across the keys. The contact sends a spark through me, a mix of fear, comfort, and longing. My pulse hammers in my ears. I canโt believe Iโm doing this.
Her lips curve slightly upward in approval, eyes still closed. I hesitate, afraid that Iโll push too far, that Iโll break the fragile trust weโve started to build. Afraid of what my heart and mind can handle.
โItโs… beautiful,โ she whispers, her voice so soft it barely rises above the music. โYouโre… really good, Becker.โ
Her words pierce something Iโve tried to hide. I can sing too but thatโs not happening here. No one has ever seen me like thisโfor once not as my bruised, angry, always-on-guard self. She sees me. And yet, she doesnโt recoil. She doesnโt judge. She sits there… letting me exist.
โI… I didnโt know youโd like that,โ I admit, keeping my eyes on her hand. My fingers still lightly guide hers across the keys, feeling the warmth of her skin.
She opens her eyes slowly and looks at me. Something unspoken passes between us, an acknowledgment that for once, maybe we donโt have to pretend. That maybe… we can start trusting each other.
โIโm worried,โ she murmurs, catching me off guard.
โIโve never left home before.โ
I glance at her, astonished. โYouโve… never been away?โ
โI… never had the opportunity,โ she answers quietly, eyes returning to the keys.
โWhy not?โ I ask, my curiosity cutting through the melody, gentle but persistent.
โI just… couldnโt,โ she says softly.
โWhat made this weekend different?โ I press, needing to understand.
โFynn,โ she replies simply.
โHeโs a great friend,โ I tell her, hoping sheโll keep talking.
โHe is,โ is all she says.
Her hand still lingers under mine, almost unconsciously. The contact is brief, but the warmth of her skin leaves a trace on me. My chest tightens, my mind buzzing with questions I donโt dare ask. Thereโs something shifting between usโsomething subtle, dangerous, exhilarating.
Before I can speak again, a thin kid in flannel pajamas interrupts. โYou two should probably get some sleep. Coaches arenโt going to be easy tomorrow.โ
Greya slides off the bench carefully, avoiding further contact, then turns to me with a playful smirk. โWhoever scores the most goals tomorrow, the other buys coffee for a week!โ
I laugh, feeling the familiar thrill of competition bubble up. โDeal.โ
The energy between us has changedโfive years of teasing, rivalry, and familiarity are shifting into something new, something unfamiliar. Sheโs no longer just the girl Iโve known for years; sheโs someone who can see me, really see me, and that terrifies and excites me all at once.





















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