11 The Language of Control
Korath
The ship blurred with motion as I walked its length, my soldiers snapping to attention as I passed. The air outside my quarters felt colder, as if Iโd left something warm behindโฆ
I shook the thought away and entered the briefing chamber.
The Councilor was already there, speaking with Malrik. His ceremonial robes shimmered faintly, catching the shipโs light like oil over water. He smiled when he saw meโsharp and indulgent, the way one smiles at a weapon they believe they own.
โCommander Korath,โ he greeted smoothly. โYour camp runs most smoothly. Orderly. Productive. I continue to be impressed.โ
I inclined my head. โWe aim for efficiency, Councilor.โ
โEfficiencyโฆโ he repeated, savoring the word before letting it twist into a grin. โYes, despite you devoting special attention to one of your specimens.โ
My soldiers shifted, uncertain whether to snort or stay silent. The Councilor thrived on that discomfort.
โI was hoping to see your pet again,โ he continued, his voice lilting with mock curiosity. โFragile little things, these humans, but perhaps thatโs the appealโas Iโve learned. The way she clung to you last nightโฆ it was quite a display.โ
The room went still.
Malrikโs expression flickeredโhalf grimace, half warningโbut I stood unmoving. My jaw locked, my hands folded behind my back. โSheโs indisposed,โ I said evenly. โThe medic ordered rest.โ
The Councilor chuckled, low and knowing. โI imagine she needs plenty of it, being kept so close to you. Tell me, how much slack in the chain is she allowed when youโre alone?โ
A few of the junior officers working on their consoles dared a smirk before Malrikโs glare silenced them.
I forced my breathing to remain steady. โYou forget yourself, Councilor.โ
โDo I?โ His smile widened, unrepentant. โI assumed all this was well-known to your inferiors. Understanding the creatures we rule is, after all, a noble pursuit.โ The laughter that followed was light, civilized, yet barbed.
โStill,โ he went on, circling me like a vulture, โI would advise you to keep your leash shortโone pet owner to another. A pet can be entertaining untilโฆโ He paused, just long enough to make sure every eye in the room was on us. โUntil others begin to wonder which of you truly holds the leash.โ
The silence that followed was suffocating.
Finally, I inclined my head. โYour advice is noted, Councilor.โ
He patted my shoulder as though speaking to a favored child. โIโm sure it wonโt be a problem, Commander.โ When the doors sealed with a hiss behind him, I let out a slow breath I hadnโt realized Iโd been holding.
Malrik looked at me, keeping his voice low, โYou handled that well. Though I admit, I was half-expecting you to break his jaw.โ
I ignored the comment and turned to the viewport. From here, the human camp was visibleโants at work under a pale sky. But my gaze drifted past it, toward the section of the ship where my quarters were. Somehow, knowing she was there, safe, steadied me in a way no victory ever had. That, I realized with grim clarity, was the most dangerous thing of all.
โWill your pet be showing off in the Sholta pens today? Serral was particularly pleased with how dinner went. Perhaps youโve trained her better than I previously thought.โ
I exhaled harshly through my nostrils. โNo, and I have notโฆ trained her. She is how she is.โ
โThen I commend your choice.โ
No one could comprehend what Maren and I hadโincluding ourselves; however, it was not what they all believed. Trying to put it into words was keeping me up at night, and I wasnโt about to talk to Malrik about itโyet.
โLet us stay focused, Captain, on the Councilor and Princessโs visit. That should be our top priority. Iโll be occupied on the Training Grounds with more of Serralโsโฆ demonstrations. I trust I can leave you to stop gossiping and get back to work.โ
โYes, sir.โ
The door sealed behind me, muting the hum of the ship. For the first time all day, there was silence.
My armor felt heavier than it ever had, weighted not by the plating but by the day. The Councilorโs chiding still ricocheted in my skull, cutting sharper than any blade. I had spent hours on the Training Grounds, shooting, striking, and proving myself fit for command until my hands bled through the wraps. The soldiers had watched in silence, pretending not to see their Commanderโs fury beneath the discipline.
Now, I stood in the threshold of my quarters, the scent of steel and blood still clinging to me.
Maren was awake, sitting in the middle of her bed, her brown hair loose and damp from washing. The light caught faintly on her rosy skin, one shoulder poking through the collar of my shirt. She looked up when I enteredโcautious, as alwaysโbut something in her expression shifted when her eyes traced the streaks of deep green across my arm.
โYouโre hurt,โ she said quietly.
โItโs nothing.โ I stripped off my gauntlet and dropped it onto the table. โTraining.โ
Her brows drew together. โTraining or punishment?โ
The words stilled me. She had learned too muchโread too much in a single glance. โBoth,โ I resigned finally. โFor the Councilor and the Princessโs inspection of the soldiers.โ
I moved past her, unfastening the chestplate. The muscles in my back burned with every movement. When the last clasp fell, I exhaled and let the armor slide to the floor haphazardly. My undershirt was soaked, the scent of sweat and blood thick in the recycled air. Even if I were Supreme Commander, it didnโt mean I was coddled in training.
I pulled the soiled fabric over my head and discarded it into the bin. Giving a sore and tired stretch to my muscles, I caught Maren staring at me.
โYou need a bath and to clean those,โ she murmured, gesturing to my wounds. Her eyes softened when she saw the bruising across my ribs, the torn skin along my forearm.
โIโll manage,โ I said.
โLet me.โ Her voice was quiet but steady.
I should have refused, but the memory of the Councilorโs words still lingered, his smirk, his suggestion that I was growing weak. And yet, the weakness he mocked feltโฆ almost welcome.
I nodded once.
Without another word, she moved toward the bath, filling it from the overhead spout, steam curling through the air. Maren faced away, allowing me to disrobe and get into the now cloudy waist-high water. When she turned back to me, she gestured toward the bathโs bench within it. โSit.โ
I obeyed, physically and mentally drained. Direction was a balm I didnโt know I needed after a day consumed by trying to maintain control over everything, from my words to the entire operation. Maren knelt beside me with a cloth; her hands trembled slightly as she began to clean the blood and grime from my arm. She worked with a gentleness I hadnโt felt in yearsโsince before the war, before the council chambers, before this planet.
โYou shouldnโt have to do this,โ I muttered.
She glanced up at me. โNeither should you.โ
The words landed heavier than she probably intended. Neither should you. I looked at her thenโreally lookedโand for a moment, she wasnโt my captive. She was something else. Something defiant, exhausted, and heartbreakingly alive.
Her hand lingered when she finished with my arm, her thumb brushing a streak of blue-gray skin where the blood had thinned. โYou fight too hard,โ she whispered.
โSo do you.โ That got a small snort of a laugh. โIt is what I am made for.โ
โNo,โ she said softly. โItโs what they made you for.โ
The silence that followed stretched thick, strange, and charged. I didnโt know how to answer her, so I didnโt. She rinsed the cloth and reached for my forearm, cleaning a deeper gash there. The sting was sharp, grounding.
When she leaned closer to wipe the back of my neck, I felt her breath against my skin. The scent of herโfloral and something faintly humanโcut through the humid air. I closed my eyes briefly, forcing the thoughts away. โThere,โ she said, almost to herself. โYou look less like a commander and more like a person.โ
I turned toward her, voice low. โAnd which do you prefer?โ
Her lips parted, but no answer came. She hesitated, then smiled, small but real. โAsk me again when youโve stopped bleeding and smell lessโฆ swampy.โ
I let out something between a laugh and a sigh, shaking my head. The tension that had coiled in me since morning loosened, just slightly.
As she rose to dry her hands, I caught myself watching herโhow carefully she moved, how her presence softened the edges of the room. I had spent the entire day proving my strength to everyone who mattered. Now, here, with her hands still stained by my blood, Iโd never felt more disarmed.
12 The Language of Inevitability
Korath
The days that followed carried a strange rhythm. The Councilor and the Princess extended their stay longer than Iโd hoped, their โinspectionโ turning into a parade of indulgence, especially as they gorged themselves on the fresh Sholta meat meant for home. Iโd grown used to their presence during campaignsโpredators in silk and jewelsโbut never had their interest felt so dangerous. Not until now.
Everywhere I went, I felt Jorekโs eyes on me. Noโon her.
So, I kept Maren close.
She stayed in my quarters most hours of the day, out of their sight. I told myself it was for her safety, and perhaps it was, but the truth was uglier. I didnโt like the quiet ache I felt when I left her there, or the odd peace that settled when I returned to find her sitting by the viewport, tracing the patterns of the stars on the glass with her fingertip. I looked forward to her nurturing presence after long days.
Maren had been rightโฆ It was attachment.
Jorek grew restless as the days passed. He spoke of the Eastern Hemisphereโhow there were โdifferent breedsโ of humans there, untouched and unclaimed. His hunger was transparent. The Princess was no better, sighing about her sister bringing civilization to this world, and about how she wished to collect a pair for her attendants Vyrn was gifting her. I kept my face impassive, but every word turned my stomach.
When he finally announced he would continue his tour under Commander Vyrnโs supervision, I could breathe again.
Before leaving, he praised my โefficiency,โ my โdiscipline.โ Serral and Malrik preened like fledglings at their fifth commendations. I only nodded, keeping my expression neutral until the transport departed and the sound of its engines faded.
The silence that followed was the kind I hadnโt known I neededโthat the whole camp required. I was about to dismiss all non-essential personnel when a report from Thyrekโs recon detail was deliveredโฆ
After giving my orders to Malrik to carry out, I found Maren still in my quarters, just as Iโd left herโbarefoot, quiet, the faint light painting her hair gold at the edges. When she turned, something in my chest shifted.
โTheyโre gone?โ she asked.
โYes.โ
She exhaled slowly, shoulders loosening. โGood.โ
For a long time, neither of us spoke. The hum of the ship filled the space between us, and for a moment, I allowed myself to believe in peace. Then I said, โYou will stay here. With me. Permanently.โ
Her eyes widened slightlyโnot in fear, not quite. Surprise, maybe, then something gentler. โAre you asking,โ she said quietly, โor commanding?โ
I hesitated. โBoth.โ
A faint smile tugged at her lips, and she rolled her eyes. โThenโฆ yes.โ
Something in me unclenched. The war outside these walls was coming to an end, but the one inside me had just begun. โThere is something else you should know.โ
Her smile faltered. โWhat is it?โ
I moved to the control panel and activated the holo-map. Blue light bled into the dim room, shaping the jagged outline of the Rockies. Tiny pulses marked heat signaturesโbunkers, generators, weapon caches. The Resistance.
โWeโve found the last stronghold of your people in the western ranges,โ I said, my voice steady though my pulse was not. โIโll be leading the assault myself.โ
For a heartbeat, she didnโt breathe. Then her hand flew to her mouth. โThatโs my home,โ she whispered. โThoseโthose are my people. They took me in andโโ Her gaze snapped to mine, horror dawning. โYou canโtโโ
โI can,โ I said quietly. โAnd I must.โ
โYou told me you wanted your people to eat,โ she spat, taking a step toward me. โYou said you fought so no one would go hungry againโthey are fighting for the same chance at living!โ
Her words hit deeper than I cared to admit. โThey are not defenseless farmers, Maren. They are soldiers. They raid supply lines and never take prisoners. You of all people should know that, for youโve put your bullets in many of my soldiers. If I do not end them, the Councilor will send someone who wonโt hesitate to raze the entire range.โ
โThen let him!โ Her voice broke, raw and desperate. โWhy do you have to be the one?โ
โBecause it is my duty.โ I met her eyes, forcing her to see the truth of it. โBecause I can make it quick. Because if Iโm relieved of my position, the Councilor will take you before my rank.โ
She shook her head, a tear streaking down her cheek. Her lip quivered as she tried to think of something to say back. The situation was out of our control. The silence that followed was a wound neither of us knew how to close.
Finally, I spoke again, quieter now. โIโll be gone several days. You may stay here or with Serral. No one would dare harm you.โ
Her voice trembled, low and venomous. โYou already have.โ
Maren
The silence pressed against me like a weight.
Korathโs quarters were too clean and stillโeverything in perfect order, as if nothing human had ever touched it. The air carried a faint metallic scent, cold and sterile. I hated it. Hated the quiet hum of the parked ship, the endless gray metal walls, the way time seemed to stop here. He had left three days ago, and the longer he was gone, the more I felt the walls closing in.
Serral came and went like clockwork, always polite, always distant. She brought trays of food and watched me eat until I took at least a few bites. I tried, for her sake, but the thought of eating while Rhett and the others burned turned my stomach.
It wasnโt that I had forgotten what Rhett had done, but the base was humankindโs last stand. It was over. The human race is enslaved. Our history, forgotten to the ages, and scattered throughout space. Everything my family had ever lovedโthe Colt Ranch, the wide-open sky, the smell of rain on dustโwas gone.
โYouโre losing weight,โ Serral said today, her narrow violet eyes scanning me as she adjusted the collar around my throat. โThe Commander wonโt be pleased.โ
I stiffened at the mention of him. โHeโll get over it.โ
Her crest lifted, flashing irritation. โYou think yourself brave, but it sounds more like ingratitude.โ She set the tray down, then crossed her arms, watching me with an unreadable calm. โYou sit here, alive, fed, and protected because he commanded it. Do you understand how rare that is? For someone like you?โ
I stared at her, biting back the retort clawing at my throat.
Serral sighed, her tone softening but still edged with conviction. โYou donโt understand who he isโor what he means to us. Korath rose from nothing. He was born during a famine, when our kind devoured one another to survive, and he swore no Eksese would ever starve again. Every victory heโs takenโevery world heโs tamedโwas for that promise.โ
I turned toward the viewport, my reflection faint against the glass. โAnd how many worlds had to die for that promise?โ
โEnough,โ she said simply. โEnough that the rest may live.โ
There was pride in her voice, not crueltyโdevotion, the kind that couldnโt be reasoned with. โHe is a savior to our people,โ she went on. โThe Council reveres him, even as they fear him. And yet, he risks that reverence for you. For a human who snarls when spoken to, who refuses to eat or kneel or yield.โ
Her eyes narrowed slightly. โYou should be thanking him every day he does not tire of your defiance and throw you back to the cellsโor worse, offer you to the Councilor. Iโve seen what becomes of humans who catch Jorekโs eye. He does not leave them whole.โ
Her words struck deep, bitter, and true. I wanted to tell her she was wrong, that Korathโs mercy wasnโt worth the ruin he causedโbut my voice refused to come.
After she left, I sat on the edge of his bed, staring at the faint scratches on the floor where his boots had scuffed the metal. Proof that heโd been here. Proof that he wasnโt now. I didnโt know what I wanted anymore; for him to come back safe, or for him not to come back at all.
The conqueror of the human race. My savior.
Outside the viewport, the sky burned orange where the sun dipped below the horizon. Somewhere beneath that light, the smoke of my former home would be rising. Tears streaked down my cheeks, mourning ourโhumansโloss. For all our flaws and fighting, not even a common enemy could unite us.
It would be a lesson humanity would never remember. Our history was over, and for once, it couldnโt be repeated.
13 The Language of War
Korath
From the ridge, I could see the human stronghold below, a crude network of bunkers and cabins woven into the stone. Smoke clawed toward the clouds in thick black ribbons, the air stinking of scorched earth and ion discharge. The sound of plasma fire echoed through the valley, punctuated by the screams of our prey taken unaware.
โCommander,โ Malrikโs voice came through the comms, crackling over static. โEastern flank secured. Resistance is retreating toward the old mines.โ
I raised my rifle, scanning the canyon through my scope. Figures scattered in the hazeโsmall, desperate, and fast. Humans have always run differently from other species, not strategically, just wildโsurvival written in every step.
โDrive them to the lower tunnels,โ I ordered. โSurround the exits. No fire inside, theyโre hoarding fuel down there.โ
โYes, Commander.โ
I lowered the rifle, watching as the mountain wind carried embers across the snowline. The same ridges Iโd once studied from orbitโwhere the last remnants of human defiance had hidden for months.
Marenโs home.
The memory of her voice from days before pressed at the back of my mind. The way her breath hitched when she recognized the map: โThatโs myโwas my home.โ
Iโd told her I had to see the war through. That it wasnโt personal, but it was now. Every shot, every scream, every fallen body felt like a betrayal of the strange, fragile trust weโd built in silence and stolen words.
โCommander!โ Thyrekโs voice broke through the comms. โWeโre taking heavy casualties. The humans are making a final stand, and theyโve prepared. Theyโre refusing to surrender.โ
Of course they were. Humans never surrendered, not when they still had someone to protect. Maren had taught me that.
I moved down the ridge, boots crunching against frozen soil, the air so cold it burned in my lungs. My armor hummed with each measured step, a low pulse matching the rhythm of my heart. Smoke curled up from the shattered outpost below, black and heavy against the pale sky. My squad fell into formation behind me, silent and exacting. We advanced through the battlefield like a blade through clothโand I was the tip.
Tracer fire cracked from the treeline ahead. My HUD flared red. I raised a hand, signaling my soldiers to fan out. The world narrowed to breath, motion, and instinct.
โHold position,โ I ordered, stepping forward alone. The smoke swallowed me whole. My voice carried through the valley, deep and metallic, echoing off the rocks. โLay down your arms or die! You have already lost!โ
No answer. Just the sound of ragged breathing in the dark.
Thenโmovement. A muzzle flash. I pivoted as the shot tore past, grabbed the figure lunging from cover, and slammed him hard against a boulder. His weapon fell with a clatter, lost to the dirt and brush.
The human couldnโt have been older than twenty. A boy. His chest heaved against my grip, defiance sparking in eyes that had already accepted death. โYouโll burn for this,โ he spat, blood flecking his teeth. โEvery one of you.โ
I growled, then drove the butt of my rifle into his chest. He dropped, breathless, unconsciousโbut alive. The boy was right through, Maren would see to it. Damn her and her empathy, and damn me for wanting to understand it.
The battle surged anew. I pushed the thought of her aside and charged back into the storm. Explosions split the sky, earth shaking underfoot as our heavy weapons squad battered the remnants of the ridge with machine gun fire. I moved fast, cutting through the fog like a wraithโmy rifle singing, my blade finishing what the gun could not. My soldiers followed without question, synced through the neural feed in their armor. No words. Just precision.
Bullets pinged off my chest plate, the kinetic shock rippling through my ribs. Itโd bruise, but Iโd be whole. Still, I advanced through the human line, step by step, their returning fire relenting.
My gaze snagged on movement near the burned supply shelter โ a lone figure dragging himself through the ash, one arm useless at his side. Another man hauled him up. โCome on, Rhett! Weโre not done yet!โ he shouted, breath hot with steam and adrenaline.
Rhett.
The name slashed through me. Iโd heard it before, in the half-light of my quarters, from a voice that had once cursed him between frightened breaths. The man whoโd left Maren for dead. For a moment, I did not know whether to obliterate him where he lay or to thank him for the ruin heโd sownโbecause it had delivered her into my hands.
I moved toward them, rifle lowered but always ready. Up close, Rhett looked smaller than the rumorsโsinged auburn hair, a face caked in soot, eyes that burned with something like madness. โYouโre him,โ he rasped when he saw me. โThe butcher.โ
I did not dignify him with an answer.
His companion lunged, shotgun barking; the rounds pinged uselessly off my plates. I kicked the weapon free with a practiced sweep and dipped low as he charged, my shoulder taking the impact. He roared; I ended him with a single, clean strike to the gutโa motion trained a thousand times in a hundred worlds. He folded like a marionette whose strings had been cut.
Then Rhett did something desperate. He fired a scatter of pellets at my side. My armor absorbed most of it, but a few found gapsโseams where augmentation met flesh. Pain lanced through me, hot and immediate, a pocket of real sensation in the dull hum of command. The shock made my shoulder flare, and for an instant, I tasted copper.
He fumbled, trying to raise his weapon again. His hands shook so violently the barrel wagged. I caught it mid-swing, ripped it out of his grasp. He was not finished. With the ferocity of a cornered animal, he pulled a second piece: a concealed pistol. It spat a slug through a narrow crack in my plating. Metal screamed; my augmentations flared and stuttered in the spot where an energy sword had almost killed me years ago. The shock lit me up like a struck nerve; pain flared across my chest and shoulder, sharp and bright.
My vision narrowed. For a heartbeat, the battlefield spun, the smoke and flame dissolving into a single, focused point of white-hot clarity. Then I brought the haft of my blade down across his jaw in a motion that needed no thought. Bone cracked. He folded to his knees, blinking, stunned.
โTake him,โ I said, my voice flat, hiding the pain. The soldiers beside me moved with the same efficient brutality that had carved our path through the range: hands on wrists, ropes looping, boots hauling. They dragged Rhett and his companion toward the convoy, and I spat some blood at their tracks.
Malrik arrived then, armor streaked with soot, lungs working hard. โA trophy for the Council?โ
โNo,โ I said, eyes still on Rhett. โA prisoner,โ I lied, knowing full well he was to become my apology to Maren.
Apology? For doing what I was made for? No. I will not.
I would present him to her and let her have revenge if she wanted it. I’d show her the true monster, and it wasn’t me. Surely, she would be pleased by this; how I captured the source of her nightmares and offered her his life.
I pressed a hand to my side, pulling away green, the air around us stinking of earth and blood. The flames crackled like distant applause. My soldiers moved past me to secure the rest, Malrik directing some with hand signals while listening to the comm, โAll sectors reportingโฆ the Resistance has been eliminated. Hundreds surrendering. The Council will be pleased. Youโve done it again, Commander.โ
โYes,โ I said quietly. โAgain.โ But inside, the victory rang hollow.
Malrik’s eyes darted to my side. “You’re injured. I’ll call for the medic.” He raised his hand to push the comm button, but I stopped him.
“I want the base destroyed first. Send for the engineers and see it done.” There was a tiredness in my voice I had never noticed before. It had nothing to do with the pain, which was grounding. It brought back memories of who and what I was.
Maren would not change that.
By dusk, the outpost was nothing but embers, the smoke drifting skyward like a funeral pyre. We had taken what resources we needed, then leveled the mountain. I looked toward the horizon where the settlement had once stood, the air still shimmering with the heat from explosives. When I closed my eyes, I saw herโstanding barefoot in my quarters, the light from the viewport bathing her in gold, her voice barely above a whisper. โThatโs my home.โ
Now, it wasnโt anyoneโs. The war in the West was over. I walked back to the transport where a medic awaited me, the taste of smoke and iron thick in my mouth. All I could do was let the ash fall where it would.
14 The Language of Loss
Maren
The atmosphere of the ship felt heavier that evening, pressing against the walls like it was waiting for something to break. Iโd grown used to Korathโs absences, but today was different. I could feel it in the air before the door even slid open.
He filled the doorway like a stormโarmor dusted in ash, the cloying smell of smoke and blood clinging to him. He looked like hell. Korathโs expression was carved from stone, but his eyes… There was something behind them. Something darker.
โCome with me.โ
There was no anger in his voice, no room for questions either. I followed, grabbing a band to tie my shirtโwell, hisโat my waist so it couldnโt make me look smaller than I was compared to the Eksese. I didnโt ask where we were going, only matched his long strides down the corridors, through the dimly lit halls of the lower decks. The air grew colder, the scent of antiseptic giving way to something more earthly.
When the doors to the holding cells opened, the sound hit firstโhoarse voices, chains shifting, someone coughing wetly. My breath hitched, and then I saw them.
Rhett and Trent, with the others from the base. The last scraps of my old world, lined up behind energy bars. Mud-caked, beaten, defiant even in ruin.
Rhett looked up first. โMaren.โ My name came out like a curse. โDid you tell him?! You told them where we were to get back at me, didnโt you, you bitch?!โ
I flinched. Korath didnโt move. He just stood behind me, silent, watching. My mouth went dry, and I shook my head frantically, โNo, how could you even think that?!โ
Rhett pushed himself to the front of the cell, one hand gripping the barrier until his skin sizzled faintly and let go. His other arm hung limp at his side. โYouโre dressed like them, Maren. Is that his shirt? Andโwhat the fuck is that? A collar?! Youโre a fucking traitor.โ
The word cracked something in me. I took a step back without meaning to, right into the chest of the armored Commander.
โYou think theyโll reward you? Ever see you as anything but a slave?โ Rhett spat. My throat and eyes burned. The others said nothing, but their eyes told the same storyโdisgust and betrayal. โYou sold us out for nothing.โ His rage was cold and seething.
โI didnโt! If anyoneโs the traitor, itโs you! Taking the supplies and leaving me behind!โ I yelled back, furious heโd think Iโd do such a thing despite what he did to me.
Before he could retort, Korathโs voice cut through the tension, low and dangerous. โEnough.โ
Rhett sneered but didnโt back down. โAre you going to kill me in front of her? Go ahead. Iโd rather die than share the same air as her.โ At his words, the others now piped up, cursing at me, saying their piece.
My lungs wouldnโt work, as I stood paralyzed while they slung their words to wound. Any defense I tried to make was drowned out by their slander. They really believed this was all my faultโฆ
For a heartbeat, I thought Korath might kill him. His jaw flexed, and the room seemed to shrink around him. But then he stepped forwardโnot to strike, but to shield. His body came between us, broad shoulders blocking them from my view.
โDisperse them into the cells with the others,โ he said to the guards at the console. The soldiers obeyed instantly, giving the ones who would shut up a taste of the rods.
Korath turned slightly, just enough that I could see the side of his face. โYouโve seen what you needed to.โ
I wanted to argue, but the words caught somewhere between rage and shame. I could still hear Rhett raving and ranting as Korath led me back to his quarters. Only when the door sealed behind us did I realize my hands were shaking.
He removed his gauntlets slowly, deliberately, as though trying to set his mind in order. โYou lost weight in my absence,โ he said, voice like gravel. โHave you been eating?โ
My breath hitched, my mind a mile away. โYou had me go down there to see that?โ
โI thought youโd be pleased at their capture. That oneโRhettโyou speak of him in your sleep.โ My eyes widen, it being the first time he mentioned it, but the nightmares he spoke of were fresh. Korath looked up steadily, but something had shifted behind his eyes. โYou are not one of them anymore.โ
The words hit harder than Rhettโs insults. I turned away before he could see the sting on my face. โYou donโt know what youโre saying.โ
โI know what I saw and heard.โ He stepped closer, slow, cautious, like I was a cornered thing. โThey left you there on the night you attacked my convoy. I cannot understand it.โ
I laughed, a hollow sound. โYou wouldnโt understand. Humans turn on each other when weโre afraid.โ It was a half-truth, and the other half was even uglier than that.
โI have seen fear,โ he said quietly. โIt does not excuse cruelty.โ My chest tightened. I didnโt know what to say, only that his voiceโusually so commandingโwas soft in a way Iโd never heard before.
Without thinking, I whispered, โThank youโฆ for stepping in.โ
His head tilted slightly, as though the words didnโt make sense. โYou should not thank me for protecting what is mine. Had you wished him dead, he would be so.โ
He didnโt look back when he walked past and disappeared into the washroom, the soft hiss of the door sealing behind him like a line being drawn. Korath called me his, but it didnโt sound like he meant it simply as a petโฆ
I stood there for a moment, seethingโat Rhett, at myself, at the hollow ache his words had left behind. If I didnโt belong with my own kind, then where did I belong? The other slaves were weary of meโof the Commanderโs pet. Rhett and the others would spread word of my supposed treachery. To the Eksese, I was nothing, but to Korathโฆ
I followed him in.
The room was filled with mist from the running bath, the sharp tang of metal and soap hanging in the air. Korath was half out of his clothes, the clean ones stacked neatly to one side and the dirty on the other. His skin was darkened from battle grime, streaked with what looked like dirt and blood. He had multiple wounds, like from a gunshot or shrapnel, along his side. Even the augmented area of his right shoulder to the top of his pec had been repaired recently.
โWhy did you do it?โ I demanded.
He didnโt glance up. โDo what?โ
โCapture him. Bring him here like that. You couldโve just killed them, couldnโt you?โ
He was unhurried as he adjusted the bathโs temperature, the movement of his clawed hands precise. โI could have. Dead humans are of little use to me.โ He paused, gazing over, gauging me. โAndโฆ I thought youโd be pleased that Iโve put them in chains.โ
โPleased?โ I stepped closer. โTo be called a traitorโฆ among other things.โ
โI can have their tongues removed so you donโt have to hear it.โ
โWhatโno!โ
โThen if you do not seek revenge on your enemies, I will do what I want with them.โ
โAnd what would that be?โ
โI do not owe you an explanation.โ
My hands clenched. โYou always think you donโt owe anyone anything, donโt you? Not answers, not feelings, not the decency ofโโ
He turned then, slow and deliberate. โYouโre angry with them,โ he said, voice even.
โWhat?โ
His head tilted, studying me. โYour kind. You are angry with them, not with me.โ
โOh no, I am mad at you! You destroyed our home! Everything gone because you needed resources to feed your people! Couldnโt you have asked? Used a little diplomacy? What makes you so superior? You canโt even feel!โ
โBe grateful it was my kind and not the Haesse, who remove their captives’ tongues and reproductive organs. Or the Osanee whose technology is so advanced compared to humans, that they could conquer you through mind-control without you noticing.โ
I took a shuddering breath at the thought of either. Even so, it was hard to feel like Earth dodged a bullet, that it was Eksese who invaded first.
Korath continued, โDwelling in the past is pointless. The war is over. What you do now does not make you a traitor to your people, for Earth belongs to the Eksese. You only require our approval now. Mine.โ
โTell that to them!โ Frustration cracked in my voice.
He said nothing, removing the gauze-like bandages from his body. Beneath it, the colorful sheen of bruising caught the light, dark and strange against the patterns of scales in the places where human men usually had body hair. The ragged tear through his shoulder looked worse in the pale light of the bathroom despite being repaired. The bullet holes painted on his side, however, had made it through the flesh.
โYouโre hurt,โ I said, all the fight knocked out of me.
โI will mend.โ
โLet meโโ
โNo.โ
I reached for him, but he blocked me with his large arm. โIf you’re going to keep me safe, then it would benefit us both if I help you.โ I tried again with the same result, folding my arms across my chest. โYouโre terrible at accepting help, you know that?โ
He ignored me, testing the water with his hand.
โWas it Rhett who hurt you?โ
He exhaled sharply through his nose. โYou ask too many questions.โ
โThen answer one!โ
He turned, eyes flashing gold in the steam. โEnough.โ
I opened my mouth to argue, but he closed the distance in two long strides. One strong steel-blue hand caught my wrist, the other pressed against my backโand before I realized what he meant to do, the world tilted. Water surged up around me with a splash.
I gasped, sputtering, drenched, and glaring up at him as he stood over the edge of the tub, arms crossed, the faintest smirk ghosting across his mouth. โI simply wanted you to stop talking,โ he stated.
I blinked, stunned, hair plastered to my face. Then, despite myself, a choked laugh escaped. โSo, youโyou threw me in the bath?โ
His expression remained unreadable, but I saw the tiniest flicker of amusement in his eyes as he shrugged.
โI hate you.โ
โPerhaps now you will be quiet.โ
He turned away, unbuckling his pants. I averted my gaze as he finally sank into the opposite side of the large bath. The silence that followed wasnโt hostileโjustโฆ strange. Weighted. Beneath the rippling water scented by salts and soap, something unspoken began to shift between us.
15 The Language of Endurance
Korath
The water steamed between us, carrying the faint scent of the mineral salts I had come to favor thanks to her. Marenโs anger, once a wildfire, dulled to a quiet simmer. Her breaths slowed, and her eyes drifted down to the water, rippling with each tiny movement.
She stripped away the remnants of her clothing without a word, while I shed the grime of war until only the murk separated us. The bathwater turned cloudy as it filtered, hiding her soft human shapes beneath. I told myself I was glad for it.
For several long minutes, neither of us spoke. The only sound was the low hum of the filtration jets. Then, softlyโtoo softlyโshe said, โTheyโre gone. Everything I was supposed to go back to. Gone.โ Her voice cracked. โWhat do I do now?โ
I looked at her across the mist, unable to form the simple comfort I thought she wanted. โYou endure,โ I said finally.
Her laugh was brittle, but her brown eyes were tired. โEndure. Thatโs all Iโve been doing for three years.โ
โYou asked what I would do,โ I reminded her, keeping my tone even. โThat is what I would do.โ
โThatโs not living.โ She looked away, shoulders trembling slightly. โI want to live.โ
The admission unsettled me. I had seen her fight, curse, and bleed, and yet this quiet surrender struck me harder than any weapon could.
Her eyes shone wet, and before I could stop myself, I moved closer. The water lapped gently against her milky arms as I reached out, my hand hovering before settling on her shoulder. Her skin was fever-warm, soft in a way that made me too aware of the difference between us.
Maren flinched, not from fear, but from the shock of my touch. Then she leaned, barely perceptible, into the contact. โThis isnโt how I thought dying would feel,โ she whispered.
โYou are not dying,โ I said, too sharply.
โThen why does it feel like it?โ
I had no answer for the chief cause of all her pain. None that would soothe her.
Her quiet sobs returned, barely audible over the hum of the room. I remembered the night sheโd made me restโhow her hand had moved over my crest until the tension in my bones had melted. That strange, human form of comfort.
Instinct, or maybe a long-buried memory, guided me. My thumb brushed the curve of her shoulder, then her back. Her breath hitched, but she didnโt pull away.
โI do not understand you,โ I murmured. โYou rage one moment, and weep the next.โ
โThatโs being human,โ she said thickly, tears cutting through her voice. โWe break, we rebuild, and keep going.โ Marenโs eyes glistened up at me, blinking back the next swell of tears. โAs you said, I find hope when there is none. I just havenโt found any yet.โ
Her words stayed with me longer than they should have. I was a commander, conqueror of continents, yet here I was uncertain, sitting in the water with a trembling human who should have meant nothing. Yet, in all of it, there was one simple truth pounding in my brain: โI do not want you to break,โ I admitted at last.
She looked at me then, really looked. Something fragile flickered in her eyes.
Either way, for the first time since the invasion began, I felt disarmed. The heat between us wasnโt only from the bath anymore. It was the dangerous quiet of two people stripped bare of everythingโclothes, pride, purposeโand finding that neither could turn away.
Steam coiled around us, blurring the edges of the world until only she remained. Marenโs anger had burned away, leaving something quieter and unmistakably human. She stood from the water, and my eyes darted elsewhere, though still tracking her pale form from the periphery.
When she reached for the cloth to dry me, I let her. The brush of fabric across my skin was too soft, too deliberate, around every wound. Each motion lingered longer than it should have, her touch learning me as much as tending me. Opening the towel for me, I stepped out, wrapping it around my waist.
Spinning, she reached for another one, but I took the cloth from her hand and returned the favor. She didnโt look away, but her mind was universes away. I traced the water down the curve of her shoulder, the hollow of her throat. Her pulse was a fast rhythm beneath her skinโalive, defiant, afraid. Not of me, I realized, but of everything else.
โYou should rest,โ I rasped when, though my voice was low, uncertain. I wrapped her up tightly in the cloth with her assistance in tying the knot.
Her lips twitchedโa ghost of a smile, tired but stubborn. โSo should you, having ended a war and all. You look worse than I do.โ
She reached for the medkit, ordering me to sit to tend to my wounds, as was becoming a ritual for us. My augments flickered faintly in the dim light as her fingers brushed against the joint of metal and flesh. No flinching. No disgust. She dressed the wound as if sheโd done it a hundred times, humming human songs I didnโt understand but felt all the same.
When she was finished, she stepped back, studying me with that unblinking gaze that made me feel seen in a way I hadnโt since before the wars. โYou couldโve left me in that cell. Let me be just another slave,โ she said softly. โWhy didnโt you?โ
โI donโt fully know, but it was your ability to hate me for longer than most that intrigued me,โ I admitted, truth heavy on my tongue. โYouโreโฆ inconvenient.โ
That earned a real smile, weary but bright. โSo are you.โ
Something loosened in my chest thenโa dangerous shift in my pulse. I reached up, brushing a damp lock of hair from her face, and she didnโt pull away. For a heartbeat, the silence stretched taut between us, the air charged and fragile. She leaned forward, drawn by the same pull I couldnโt seem to fight. Our eyes studied the other, having never been so close. Her pink lips looked incredibly soft compared to Eksesesโ rough skin. Paired with Marenโs warm breath and body pressing closer, it felt like the kind of trap worth dying for.
But I stopped just short of touching her. โYou should sleep,โ I murmured again, more to myself than her.
Her breath trembled as she nodded. I stood, crossed to the bed, and climbed in, gesturing for her to follow. When she hesitated, cheeks flushing red, I added, โThe floor is cold. Youโll rest here.โ
Her bare feet padded softly across the metal floor as she climbed in beside me without argument. We didnโt speak. Her warmth bled through the thin sheet between us, even as emotions cooled. The scent of human skin mingled with the soap still clinging to her.
It was nothing more than shared exhaustion. Thatโs what I told myself. But when her hand brushed mine in the dark, I didnโt move it away.
Maren
I woke with my cheek pressed against cool scales that were far from the softness of a blanket. For a heartbeat, I forgot where I wasโforgot the war, the loss, the collar. Then the rise and fall beneath my head and palm brought everything rushing back.
Korath.
He hadnโt moved all night. His arm still rested loosely across my waist, heavy and solid, as if heโd fallen asleep guarding me from his own kind. When I shifted, his fingers twitched but didnโt pull away.
There was a strange comfort in it. The kind that shouldnโt exist between captor and captive. But I needed to stop trying to fit the two of us into words that made sense. Words and reason had failed a long time ago. If this was what โenduringโ meant for me now, then I was ready to accept it. I was sick and tired of being alone when there was someone right here beside me, who actually wanted me there.
He stirred when I sat up, hugging the sheets to me, blinking once before pushing to his elbows. His crest and jet black hair caught the early light from the window, shadowing his sharp features. โYou slept,โ he observed, voice rough from his own full night of rest.
โI did,โ I smiled slightly back at him from over my bare shoulder. A heat crept up my back to my cheeks as I turned away. He was much too naked in the sobering thoughts of the morning. His ruddy chest of dark blue battle scars and chiseled muscle was starting to finally have an effect on me. A scattering of scales began between his pecs, descending down his treasure trail, making me wonder aboutโฆ
No, Maren. God, I really am a fucking headcase! Iโm starting to see why Korath is in a constant state of confusion over my emotions! One minute Iโm yelling, then next Iโm jumping into bed naked with him, thinking about what heโs packingโฆ
Jesus, get a grip.
We ate in silence, seated across the table as if pretending we werenโt sharing the same air, the same thoughts we didnโt dare say. But I couldnโt ignore the pull anymoreโthe quiet gravity between us that felt less wrong and more like something Iโd chosen.
Even so, I still wanted to belong with my own kind.
โI want to go to the Sholta pens,โ I said suddenly.
His fork paused midair. โWhy?โ
โRhett will be assigned to feeding duty. I canโt imagine them placing him anywhere else.โ I looked up, meeting his yellow, hawk-like gaze. โI want to see him again. I need to.โ
His jaw tightened, but not in anger. Korath studied me the way he a battle, as if weighing risk against instinct. โYou think this will help you?โ
โI think itโll help me remember who I am,โ I said. โAnd show him who Iโve become.โ
For a moment, he said nothing. Then he stood with a groan from his injuries, giving me a resolute nod. โVery well. Finish eating.โ He didnโt order me to silence or warn me against foolishness. That alone made my pulse race.
The Sholta pens were alive with noise and stench when we arrived, the beasts snarling and shoving at the barriers, their fangs glinting like ivory blades. Rhett and Trent stood with the other handlers, their expressions grim under a film of grime. When his eyes landed on me, the recognition there was swiftโand sharpโas he also noted the Commander at my side.
The overseer, a broad-shouldered female Eksese, snapped at the humans in the vat in irritation. โTheyโre too slow, Commander,โ she barked, in that guttural Common that grated against human ears. โUseless creatures. Theyโll be eaten before midday, especially the new ones who refuse to heed commands.โ
Korath stepped forward. โThen a lesson is in order to achieve maximum efficiency.โ
The overseer froze, her head bowing instinctively. โCommander?โ
โMaren,โ he said without turning to me. โShow them.โ
I moved forward slowly.
I swallowed, heart hammering as all eyes turned toward me, but I held my head high. The people who already knew meโthe ones I had kept safeโseemed relieved as I led them in demonstration. I placed a warm squeeze on their arms, not as friends but comrades.
The Sholtaโs breath steamed in the cool morning air, reeking of rot. The vat waitedโa mountain of food, blood, and danger. I shed the jacket Korath gave me and rolled my pants to the knee.
Rhett scoffed. โMaren, what the hell are youโโ
โShut up, Rhett.โ Heโd learn soon enough I hadnโt barked it from malice, but for his own good.
I waded in barefoot, the entrails and pulp squelching around my calves. I didnโt spare the nicer set of fatigues Korath had made for me, whereas the othersโ were permanently stained brown by the sludge. The Sholta loomed closer, their heavy antlered heads swinging and clattering against each other in excitement. Their nostrils flared at the scent of food.
Looking to the others, I waited until they were in position. My hands moved by memory, calm and sure. I tossed a melon to start the feeding frenzy, then something that looked like an intestine, murmuring under my breath. The trick wasnโt fearlessness, it was rhythm. Anticipation. I fed them like a dance, keeping pace with their hunger until the beastsโ aggression melted into greedy satisfaction. The others began alternating the throwing, with mine and they mashed, assuring there was always food flying.
When I glanced up, smearing my forehead with some pulp, Korath was watching. Not like a commander assessing a soldier, but like a man witnessing something he hadnโt expected to see again.
Rhett stared, too, for entirely different reasons. Disbelief. Hate. Most likely hoping Iโd slip right into one of their mouths.
When there was an opening, I climbed out, letting another take my place with the rhythm intact. Slick with sweat and pulp, I met Rhett, Trent, and the other newbies, who gazed squarely. โThatโs how itโs done if you donโt want to be eaten or get others killed.โ
โCommander,โ the overseer rasped, โpermission to reassign your pet permanently?โ
Korathโs expression was unreadable, but his tone carried that quiet authority that silenced everyone. โNo. She may be consulted, but she has value that surpasses this work.โ He motioned for me to come to him, and I moved closer. โIf you require her, make a request.โ
I smiled inwardly, not missing the way his prideful eyes lingered on me. He had personally made it clear I wasnโt just another petโฆ in fact, he didnโt even refer to me as such. My heart swelled.
Should it? No, I was an alienโs pet, but considering the circumstances, could one blame me? Finding hope where there was none was my new mantra. And my new hope was Korath.
I placed my hand on his armโour signal for speaking in public. He bent to listen. โMay I stay? Iโm already filthy.โ His brows furrowed together briefly. โThe exercise would do me good.โ
His ever-calculating mind worked behind his avian-like eyes. โVery well. I need to attend to a few tasks anyway. You have until I return.โ Stepping over for a private word with the overseer, the female eyed me stoically before bowing her head to Korath. Striding past, he imparted, โObey the Overseer in my absence.โ
I nodded.
When he was out of sight, I walked over to Trent, while he waited for a shift with the Sholta. โYou alright?โ
He snarled at me, but there was no real bite behind it. โWe lost the war, and now weโre slaves. How do you think I am?โ His gaze glanced down at my collar. โYou seem to be doing well.โ
โThatโs because sheโs the alienโs whore.โ Rhett chimed in over his shoulder.
I crossed my arms. โThink what you want, but he hasnโt touched me.โ
At least not like heโs suggesting.
โThe Commander saw something in me when you left me for dead,โ I added.
Rhett turned, the muscles in his jaw tightening. โYou think that makes you special? You think he actually cares about you?โ
I laughedโa short, sharp sound that didnโt reach my eyes. โCare doesnโt matter. Respect does, and Iโve earned it.โ
Trent looked between us, uneasy. โMaren, seriouslyโโ
โNo,โ I said, stepping closer to Rhett. The Sholta pens reeked of decay, but all I could smell was the bitterness on his breath. โYou want to talk about what matters? You abandoned me. You ran to save yourselves. Why? Because you couldnโt handle a buckinโ ranch hand like me, telling you a better way to do your job? For fuckโs sake, in the face of annihilation, you could still find it in yourself to be petty!โ
โYou! Pet! Silence.โ The overseer wouldnโt dare scold me with the rod, for that was the Commanderโs exclusive prerogative, but I didnโt want to push it.
His face flushed with ire. โYou donโt know what theyโve done to usโโ
โI know exactly what theyโve done,โ I cut in, voice trembling despite my resolve. โI lived it. How else would I know how to tend the Sholta? I was thrown in there on my first day and stayed. And before that, beat bloody after they captured me.โ I took another step, close enough that I could see the uncertainty flicker in his eyes. โYou know nothing.โ
For a moment, no one said anything. The air between us crackled with the same tension that used to hum between battle lines.
Rhettโs lip curled. โHeโll keep asking more of you, Maren. Then once he gets it, heโll toss you back here.โ
My throat went tight, but I didnโt let the words land. โMaybe. We both know you wouldโoh, wait, you did.โ His nostrils flared, and for the first time, I saw guilt flicker beneath the rage. Good, let it burn him. โThe Commander isnโt like you.โ
He scoffed. โYou know, at least one good thing will come of my shots not killing the butcher. That youโll get to find out how right I am.โ
My blood froze. โYou? Youโre the one who shot him up?โ Something about it felt personal. I had assumed it was from days of fighting, but to find out Rhett hurt Korathโฆ
โWith your own pistol.โ He smiled with barred teeth. โWe found it after combing through the ambush site. How is that shoulder? Lame, I hope.โ
โAugmented, actually.โ Our gazes met fiercely. โOld injury from an energy swordโwhatever that isโand the whole thing was replaced. So, if you were hoping itโd fester and kill him, no chance, asshole.โ
Rhett bristled, but victory didnโt feel like triumphโit felt hollow, like ash on my tongue. It could be because, despite everything, he was right about one thing. What would happen if Korath tired of me? He couldnโt let me go. I had been playing the short game, but what of the long game?
The next few hours were spent speaking with some of the others, asking after injuries, and I asked the Overseer to see Kavya. I found her thigh-deep in soiled straw, mucking Sholta pens. I grabbed a rake and joined in until the rhythm of work made talking easier.
โThe new group that came in?โ Kavya said as she scraped up a pile of reeking hay. โThe men are hotheads. They wonโt last long the way theyโre carrying on.โ
โI just spoke with their leader. Heโs the one who left me the night I was captured.โ We shared a knowing look, having told her the full history. โJust stay away from him. Warn the others, too. Korath will come after him first should there be any trouble in the cells.โ
There was a small beat of silence before she added, almost accusingly, โDid you just call the Commander by his name? Donโt tell me he lets you.โ
A reluctant smile tugged at my mouth. โHeโs a warrior far from home, fighting a war that ended before we even knew it began. Sixty years of it.โ I shook a stall gate until a bolt slid into place. โI think heโsโฆ searching for something to make it all mean something. He says humans confuse himโour defiance, our hope, our refusal to break when we should.โ
โAnd does he say that youโre special among us?โ Kavya teased, only half-serious.
I swallowed. โHe says my hope is what he admires most. Maybe he thinks I can help him find something he lost.โ A strange ache pulled behind my ribs. โMaybe thatโs what heโs searching for.โ
Kavya stopped sweeping and leaned against her broom, braid slipping over her shoulder. โSounds like youโre the one losing some defiance.โ
โI want to hate him.โ My voice came out too soft. โAnd last night, I tried. I yelled at him.โ
Her eyes widened. โAnd youโre standing here breathing? He didnโt snap your neck on the spot?โ
I huffed a humorless laugh. โNo. Heโs patient with me. For now. But Iโve been thinkingโฆโ I said quietly. โThis is our reality now.โ I gestured to the pens, the chains, the carved stone walls. โNo oneโs coming to save us. I can die defiantly for a war thatโs overโor accept where we are and try to make something out of the scraps.โ
Kavya pursed her lips, tilting her head as if weighing stones in either hand. โThatโs up to you, Maren. But letโs be honestโif youโre his pet, youโll see him every day. Eat better. Sleep on a bed. And the rest of us?โ She tapped her broom handle against the floor. โWe stay here. In the dirt. Treated like it.โ
The words landed harder than I wanted them to.
โWhat ifโฆโ I hesitated. โWhat if I could suggest things to Korath? Things to make life better down here.โ
Kavya blinked. โUse your position?โ
I nodded.
She snortedโshort, sharp, bitter. โWhat position? You live in his rooms. Thatโs not power; thatโs proximity. Butโโ She looked around at the tired, frightened faces working nearby. โIf it gets us better food, fewer beatings, anything? What more do we have left to lose?โ
Her voice softened, just barely.
โAnd if youโre the one who might survive this place long enough to speak upโฆ then maybe thatโs not nothing.โ
16 The Language of Lies
Korath
The console glowed like a cold sun before me, pale-blue light washing over my desk and hands. At the top of the screen pulsed the decree Iโd been dreading:
WITH CLAIMS SECURED ON THE WESTERN CONTINENT, MATING MAY RESUME AT NORMAL QUOTAS.
Below it were messagesโdozensโstacked in neat, eager rows of females requesting me.
Strong males were always sought afterโespecially victorious commanders. This was our way, carved into instinct and ancestry. Mating was duty. Expectation. Contribution to the strength of the species.
I should have felt pride or drive, but instead, irritation crawled beneath my skin.
I opened one request after another: Genetic markers, lineage rankings, fertility windows, and transport schedules. Nothing stirred in me. Not desire. Not interest. Not even the efficient readiness that usually accompanied such obligations.
My chest tightenedโirrational and unwelcome.
You grow weak. The human is clouding my judgment. The thought tasted like poison, because I knew exactly what would happen if I ignored these invitations. If I refused to mate.
Rumors.
The Commander keeps a human in his private chambers.
He fought a Councilor to protect her.
He refuses all females because he is attached.
If those whispers reached the Council, Maren would be the one to suffer. She would be made an exampleโthe way Jorek had intended to.
My jaw ached from clenching. I could not let that happen.
I opened the roster of incoming fleets. Scrolled until I found a suitable option: a female en route with the next cargo ship, returning to Ekse after a brief layover. Unmated, healthy, compatible, and most importantly, she would be gone from my sight the moment the act was done.
Efficient. Clean. Impossible to misinterpret.
I accepted her request; the console chimed with finality. Duty complete.
Then why did my gut twist?
A violent urge clawed up my spineโprimitive, territorial, irrationalโto seek out Maren on the security feeds and make sure she was still within my grasp. I scrolled through them until I found her in the Sholta pens. She stood beside another female, sleeves rolled up, hair pulled into the loose knot she tied whenever she meant to work hard. Sweat glistened at her temple while laughing softly at something the other saidโa small, unguarded smile that made my chest constrict.
I hovered my hand over the screen, as if I could feel the heat of her skin through the glass.
That warmth from the morning still clung to meโher breath against my arm when sheโd leaned close, the faint press of her hand as she steadied herself, unaware of the effect it had on me. It clung like a brand, burning deeper the more I tried to ignore it.
I exhaled sharply, the sound edging into a growl. โMarenโฆ how will you look at me when you learn what I must do?โ
The question hollowed me from the inside, because mating for the sake of the species was simple. Mechanical. I had never cared who the female was before, and they had never cared who I was beyond my rank and strength.
But Maren would care with all her fragile emotions. As much as she knew me, I knew the human capacity for jealousy knew no bounds. She would see it as betrayal. As a choice, not duty, because she did not know our way. Because she mattered to me in a way that made everything dangerously unclear.
I dragged a hand over my face, claws scraping lightly against my jaw.
I could explain it to her and deal with the fallout, orโฆ she never had to know. I would keep this hidden, as I hid the darker parts of myselfโthe instincts sharpened by sixty years of war, the blood on my hands, the ache in my chest when she flinched or doubted her place at my side.
I would time the meeting with the female precisely. Schedule the overseer to expect her down in the pens. Iโd make it quick. No trace for Maren to scent or sense when she returned. As if I had not just severed something vital within myself.
A commander did what was necessary. An Eksese mated to strengthen the line. A soldier never wavered. These were my truths.
But the male inside meโthe part that had begun to reach for her when she wasnโt looking, that listened for her footsteps, that found meaning in her defianceโthat part was restless. I curled my fist until the metal groaned beneath my grip.
โI cannot lose you,โ I breathed to the empty room, to the image of her helping the other female who struggled with a heavy bucket.
The door to my cabin hissed open. โCommander,โ Malrik said, โtheโI see youโre unable to go a few hours without viewing your pet.โ
โItโs worse than that,โ I muttered grimly.
โWhat?โ I motioned for him to sit across from me, watching his cyan eyes through the security feed. โWhy do you look ill? Did your female finally poison you to escape?โ A slight smirk made his mouth crooked.
I gave him a flat glare. โWorse.โ
That wiped the smirk off his face. His crest lifted in genuine alarm. โWhat happened? Did she attack you? Bite you? Humans carry dozens ofโโ
โIโฆโ My jaw locked. I hated this. Hated the words forming in my throat like something sharp. What I had stated as a flaw in others, I was now guilty of. โI may have becomeโฆ attached to her.โ
Malrik froze. He stared at me as if Iโd just told him I planned to defect to the humans.
โAttached?โ he echoed. โKorath, attached to a weapon, is understandable. Attached to a war-beast? Fine. Attached to a humanโโ
โDo not say it like that.โ The growl in my chest made the lights tremble in their housings.
Malrik held up both hands. โForgive me. I simplyโฆ need clarification.โ His eyes narrowed, studying me like I had sprouted a second head. โBy โattached,โ you meanโฆ You prefer her company?โ
โI mean,โ I said slowly, โI think of her when I should be thinking of war. I worry about her safety. Her moods affect my own. I feelโฆโ I grimaced. โUnsettled when she is not near.โ
Malrikโs eyes widened with slight disgust. โBy the stars. Youโre bonded.โ
I shot to my feet. โI am NOT bonded.โ
He didnโt even flinch. Malrik leaned forward, voice lower. โDoes she know?โ
I flopped back in my seat. โNo.โ
โWill she?โ
โNo.โ I pulled up the message I sent to the femaleโs mating request I accepted.
Malrik quickly scanned it, nodding in understanding of what was happening. He exhaled. โAre you choosing to lie to her about it all?โ
My hands tightened into fists. โThis is duty. Nothing more.โ
โTo whom?โ he challenged. I glared at him, but he didnโt back down. He never had. That was why he was still alive. Malrik shifted, toneless mocking now. โKorathโฆ if the Council senses even a whisper of thisโher life becomes leverage. Her existence becomes a threat. You know this.โ
โI know. This is why I need to do this, but Maren will not understand.โ The words scraped my throat raw.
โSo you must act as if nothing has changed,โ he continued. โMate. Fight. Command. And neverโEVERโlet her see what she has become to you.โ
I looked back at the feedโat Maren brushing straw from her clothes, smiling faintly at something the other human said.
Malrik followed my gaze and sighed. โOr,โ he added under his breath, โyou could accept that you are bonded and deal with it before it kills you.โ
I snapped the console dark.
โI will control it,โ I said.
โYou better,โ Malrik replied. โFor her sake as much as yours.โ
With that, I left my cabin with a plan. A clear, disciplined, necessary plan.
I would retrieve Maren from the Sholta pens. I would speak to her with neutrality. No tenderness. No softness. No lingering looks that would betray what sheโd become to me. She would never sense the shift inside me; she would never see her importance reflected back at her. That way, she would remain safe. Unnoticed by enemies. Unharmed by my weakness.
I repeated this to myself the entire walk to the stables.
And then I saw her.
She stood on the lower rung of the feeding rail, one boot braced, shirt hitched slightly as she poured a bucket of slurry into the trough. A stubborn strand of hair had escaped her bun, brushing her mouth as she blew it aside, muttering at the infant Sholta, who shoved each other for the first bite. A smear of dust streaked her cheek as her shoulders rounded with honest labor.
And she smiled. Not at meโat the miniature beast knawing on the bars of the pen, like a teething fledgling. โKnock it off, you watermelon-with-legs.โ Maren kicked the bar with her toes lightly to try to get it to release it from its maw. The Sholta stopped to consider her words, it seemed, then blinked blankly back and continued chewing. The small, unguarded smile she gave hit me with more force than any enemy shot ever had. It was her sparkโalive again.
The spark I had nearly crushed out of her. My resolve wavered like a flimsy barricade in a storm.
Maren noticed me then, straightening. Her eyes widened slightly, and she reached up to brush her hair back, trying to look less windblown and failing miserably. โCommander,โ she said, breath still a little short from work.
I nodded stiffly. โYou are finished here.โ
She blinked. โIโyes, but I still have to rake theโโ
โI said you are finished.โ
Her lips parted, then curved into something wry. โBossy as ever.โ
I swallowed hard.
Do not soften. Do not break.
โGather your things,โ I ordered.
She hopped down with a light thud, dusting off her hands. โGive me a minute.โ She didnโt wait for permissionโshe walked right past me to the rack that held her jacket, hips swinging, humming under her breath. A warmth spread through my chest, traitorous and bright. As she grabbed the jacket I gave her, she looked back at me. โWhatโs that look for?โ she teased.
โNothing,โ I said too quickly. Her eyes were gauging me. I forced my expression into something cold, something safe. โWe are leaving.โ
Her expression told me that my odd behavior was worrying her as she stepped closer. Close enough, I could smell the faint warm scent of hay, sweat, and something uniquely her. โDid something happen?โ Her voiceโit was soft, concerned, warm. It scraped directly against the raw parts of me I was trying to bury.
โNo,โ I lied, thickly. โNothing.โ
She studied me, eyes narrowing just a fraction. She always looked at me as if she could see more than I wanted her to. As if she could peel the armor open and read what was underneath, making me attempt to turn away before she could. โKorath?โ
It felt like a strike to the chestโsharp, disarming. I kept my voice steady. โCome, Maren.โ My instincts were kicking in, telling me this was a battle I didnโt want to get caught in. I should have told her nothing was wrong, but she just kept asking questions to draw the answers from me.
I didnโt look back, hearing her soft steps rhythmically behind me, but I could feel her aura trying to smother me. The weight of my guilt began to press on me harder than Earthโs gravity as the lift doors opened and we were alone again. The silence seemed deliberate and judgemental, absent of everything that had brought me comfort of late. Yet, it was preferable to her endless questions.
She had no idea what I had agreed to do with another female. No idea how deeply my thoughts had begun to orbit her. No idea how hard I was fighting to hide the things growing inside me. But as she stood beside me, warmth radiating off her, scent of earth and Sholta hay clinging to her clothes, I feared it would only be a matter of time before she knew.
Before everyone knew, and by then, it might already be too late.
17 The Language of Desperation
Maren
If someone had told me a week ago that Korath could go cold after everything we shared, I wouldโve laughed. He wasnโt overly warmโnever that, but heโd been steady. Attentive in his own intense, quiet way. The kind of man who listened with his whole body. The kind of man who let me feelโฆ chosen.
But the shift hit fast.
The next morning, I came out of the stables after helping the newbies again, proud of myself for not dying or losing a limb. Korath waited by the doors with his hands clasped behind his back, and I swear his eyes softened for a heartbeat. Thenโ
โReport.โ
Flat. Detached. Like I was one of his crew, giving a damage readout.
I blinked, thrown off. โUhโฆ feed ratios, successful. The overseer and I fixed theโโ He was already walking, expression carved from stone.
And that was how the whole week went.
Whenever I approached, he stepped back. Whenever our hands brushed, he moved his as it burned. He barely looked at me unless giving an order, and even then, it feltโฆ clinical. Cold answers with a clipped tone with no hint of the strange closeness weโd begun to form in the privacy of his quarters.
I tried not to take it personally. Really. Maybe he was just stressed with command stuff. Maybe the Councilor had chewed him out. Maybe the Sholtaโs scent was making everyone cranky.
Yet, by the third day of silence and stiff posture, the pit in my stomach started eating me alive. So at dinner, I asked, quietly, โDid Iโฆ do something wrong?โ
He didnโt even hesitate, as if ready for it. โI have been occupied with command matters.โ The lie was subtle, but I felt it, like a soft recoil in the air between us. I saw the guilt straining his features, and the rest of the night, he acted like a gun barrel needing a cooldown; he let the warmth build, but then cool.
I worked harder after that. Tried to give him space, be useful, and not to hover even though I kept catching myself lingering ourโhisโquarters, hoping heโd need me again like before.
But he didnโt.
By the end of the week, he was handing me to my babysitter. Serral showed up at my door early, emotionless as always. โGreetings, pet. Youโre with me today. Commanderโs orders.โ
I froze mid-step. โToday? All day? Why?โ
She rubbed the back of his neck. โThe Commander isโฆ busy.โ It felt like the same lie in a different voice. I followed still, seeing that I had no choice in the matter.
Serral had me follow her like a personal aide. I wouldโve been annoyed, but I couldnโt focus. My brain kept circling the same panicked drain: What did I do? Is he angry? Is he disappointed? Is he done with me?
Every time I asked where Korath was, Serral tripped over her own tongue. โHeโsโฆ uhโฆ in a meeting.โ
โThatโs what you said two hours ago.โ She was lying, but I didnโt know why.
โNo, waitโactually, heโs with the maintenance engineers. Hard to track him today.โ Eksese were many things, but they were terrible liars, unable to make anything sound remotely convincing.
By afternoon, my nerves were shredded, so when we ran into Malrik, I pounced like a starving dog. โCaptain Malrik, have you seen the Commander today?โ
Malrik froze. Actually froze. The man moves like a blade, usually, but right then, he looked like Iโd tossed a grenade into his hands. โHe isโฆ occupied,โ he said carefully.
โThatโs what she said,โ I murmured, pointing over to Serral, who was taken aback by my bluntness. My stomach twisted. โIs something wrong? Heโs been acting weird all week.โ
Both of them exchanged a look. A whole conversation passed between them that I wasnโt invited to.
My voice came out smaller than I meant. โCan I justโฆ see him?โ
They reacted instantly. โNo,โ they said in perfect unison.
I stared between them. โNo?โ My mouth went dry. โWhy not? Did something happen?โ I felt like I was sinking fast, unable to tread water fast enough to ascend.
Neither of them answered. They just stared at me with their cold, unyielding expressions.
And thatโs when something inside me crackedโnot loudly, but with that soft, aching pain of losing something you didnโt realize mattered this much. I wrapped my arms around myself. โOkay,โ I whispered. โSure. Whatever.โ I turned before they could see my eyes sting, and I foolishly ran.
Sprinting for the doors that led to the hall, I became a bull in an alien Command Deck. Anything I could tip over crashed to the floor. I grabbed anything in reach and threw it, or used it to beat a few keypads until they sparked. None of them knew what to do as the Commander’s famed pet went feral, knowing that to touch me could incur his wrath.
“Take her down, under my authority!” Malrik ordered, having had enough.
When the soldiers went to grab me, I slid under consoles, disturbing those working, sowing chaos in my wake. I could hear the buzz of their weapons charging, but I didn’t care. They could not wound me more than Korath already had. They could shoot me, because every conclusion to this fight ended with me seeing him.
Jumping up onto my feet, the door was just feet away, when I was slammed to the floor. My vision swam, and my limbs hurt as the large Eksese warrior pressed me with an arm against the cold metal as he cuffed me. I didnโt relent, though, struggling with all the anger and frustration that I kept inside for the last week. I went full-blown toddler temper tantrum on them, kicking and yelling, so much so, the whole deck went silent.
โEnough,โ Malrikโs voice cut through the din, โRelease her. I will handle the Commanderโs pet.โ He lifted me to my feet by my jacket. His aqua eyes cut me sharply with chastisement, but it did little to cool my savage breathing. After exchanging a terse look with Serral, Malrik growled, baring teeth, โInform the Commander of the situation.โ Grabbing the back of my neck at the collar, he began dragging me out the door. โCome, pet. I will let the Commander issue punishment for what youโve done.โ
I looked back at the Eksese cleaning up and righting their equipment, impressed that I was able to do so muchโฆ Shit. Maybe I did some serious damage? What if I made things worse for Korath? The pit in my stomach widened as Malrik dragged me through the halls back to the Commanderโs quarters.
I was in serious troubleโฆ
Korath
I cleared my quarters, so it was ritualistically bare. No shadows to hide in, no softness to pretend warmth existed here. Nothing about me or my pet lingered in the open. The air hummed with the low thrum of the shipโs stabilizers, a steady reminder of duty.
Gulima arrived on time and stood across the room, tall and broad-shouldered, marked with the sigils of her lineage. She was strongโgood genetic stock. Her stance was proud but detached. โCommander,โ she said with a respectful incline of her head. โYour acceptance was timely. I am prepared.โ
โAs am I.โ The words tasted like iron.
An Eksese mating contract was not born of emotion. It was a treaty between bodies, a transaction for genetic continuation. Touch was minimal. Connectionโirrelevant. The ritual required presence and endurance, nothing more.
We approached one another, offering handsโpalms out, wrists aligned. A symbolic gesture to confirm consent and lineage exchange. Her skin was cool, her pulse steady.
I forced my mind into the familiar emptiness, the one I had mastered long ago. The one I needed now, because the moment I allowed thought to flow freely, Marenโs face burned through the void: Her smile in the stables; Her defiance; The way she leaned in without meaning to, like I was a gravity she didnโt know she obeyed.
I shut it down.
โYou are unfocused,โ Gulima observed, tilting her head.
โI am not,โ I said, too fast.
She arched a brow. โYou chose a female from a departing cargo fleet. It suggests a desire for no lingering attachment. That says something, and there are rumors, Commander.โ
My jaw flexed. โIt is irrelevant. You invited me, I merely accepted.โ But she was right. Of all the females who had petitioned me, I chose the one Iโd never have to see again. I looked to the luminous paint on my arm, voice like rumbling thunder, โNot all accept my lacking genetics, despite overcoming it.โ It was a deflection, yes, but it was also the truth. I came from the dust of my planet. I was nothing without my rank.
โIf they do, then they havenโt been paying attention.โ Gulima talked smoothly and softly, helping me to focus on the task before me and notโฆ elsewhere.
We began the ritual, removing cumbersome clothing. Gulima’s movements were direct and strong, most liking from her time serving on cargo ships. Her crimson eyes roamed my body, but I kept my gaze high, concentrating on her perfectly executed high-woven bun. Her light blue skin was a cheerful shade, in contrast to her wandering eyes.
Moving next to a series of coordinated movements meant to assess compatibility and endurance, the result was mutual arousal. It was purely clinical; the cold rhythm of obligation. It was almost too efficient, devoid of the care and want of Marenโs. Yet, this was for her. To protect her. Us.
Consenting to continue, Gilima lay beneath me on the bed, legs parting widely. I rubbed my shaft against her skin to slick it for entry, as was our way. I had overheard that itโs the opposite for humans. Precum dripped steadily from me, fueled not by the instinct to mate but protect. I avoided her gaze, which continued to try and figure out what my hesitation was.
Guilt. Thatโs what it was.
Stars above, I wanted Maren to be the one touching me with her warmth. Her soft skin was clinging to me at night, as she needed me. She made me feel like a true alpha male, relying on me for safety and sustenance. Esksese women were independently cold and detached from the feminine qualities of Maren, who was also strong, but still she held my hand because she wanted to.
A flood of resolve hardened in me. If I wanted to keep that warmth, duty had to come first. My rank needed to remain in place, and rumors needed to be vanquished. I needed to mate.
My eyes locked on Gulimaโs, making her notice the shift in me, moving over her. Having submitted, I was in control now, for all sheโd do was lie there for me until I spilled my seed in her. Then sheโd leave and raise the fledgling alone for a few yearsโour duty to Ekse complete.
Tilting my hips and pushing in, I used one of my hands to grab her throat as an anchor as I thrusted. The quiet grunts and breaths hardly broke over the sound of our coupling and the overall stillness of the room. I worked as diligently as I could, not wishing to prolong it, but minutes later, a sharp chime cut through the room, disrupting my rhythm.
A command alert.
I stiffened. Alerts during the ritual were permitted only in emergencies. As Commander, I had to take them.
I stepped away from Gulima, crossing to the console. My heart thudded once, hard, as I opened the channel. Serralโs voice came through, tersely:
โCommanderโyour pet just destroyed half the Command Deck. Comms are down, and weโve had to disable defenses temporarily until the consoles are repaired. Captain Malrik is bringing her to your quarters before the crew harms her. Sheโs in some kind ofโฆ rage response.โ
My breath froze, then dropped like a stone, knowing that the fault of her reaction did not lie with her.
โLieutenant, prioritize the defenses first and secure the humans in the cells as a precaution. Find the Captain and tell him to throw her in cells for the time beingโโ
โApologies, Commander, but he should be there soon. Inter-ship comms are returning slowly. We prioritized yours first to advise you of the situation.โ
I looked back at Gulima, who frowned, puzzled. โYour famous pet?โ she asked. There was no judgment in her toneโonly logic. โYou are needed, Commander.โ
โI cannot leave until the ritual is complete,โ I snapped, hating the rigidity of the law in that moment. โI cannot jeopardize the crewโs safety, yet I cannot violate our customs either.โ
Gulima exhaled slowly. โThen we continue. Quickly.โ She was a reasonable partner, and for that, I was grateful.
We resumed the sequence, but my mind was nowhere in the room. Every second felt like a blade pressed to my throat. I imagined Marenโwild, furious, terrified. I imagined Malrik dragging her by the arm. I imagined her breaking, thinking I had abandoned her.
By the time the ritual neared completion, I worked myself up so much that my body begged for release, if only to soothe some of the tension brewing all over. My breathing increased at the unrelenting pace, sweat trickling down my torso. Gulima mustโve felt the end, arching her back, ready to receive my seed. And with a final thrust, everything unraveled beneath me, and I panted in my lone effort to finish.
Relief washed over me as I sat back on my heels, still spilling into her. An odd ringing in my ears persisted, annoying, becoming louder until I realized too late that they were voices from the hall. However, before I could pull out, a soft chime echoed, and the door slid open.
My spine locked.
Gulima turned.
Malrik stood in the doorway, chest rising and falling as if heโd sprinted across the ship.
And in front of himโMaren. Her eyes were blazing, jaw trembling with hurt and fury and something far deeper. Her hair and clothes were a mess, as though sheโd fought her way through the ship itself. Her gaze moved from me to Gulima. To our closeness and the ritual markings glowing faintly on my arms.
And the world stopped.
18 The Language of Attraction
Maren
Malrik and I screamed at each other up and down the decks. The Eksese around us stopped and stared, as the Captain cursed at me in his native tongue and me in mine. Half the time, we didnโt even understand the references we flung about, which only furthered our arguing. When we reached Korathโs floor, he was insistent that I wait outside the room until summoned.
โWhy?โ I asked. โYou mean, heโs in there? Why canโt I go in?โ
Malrik looked like he was at his witsโ end with my shenanigans. โObey! That is your only directive, and yet you cannot perform such a simple task! How does Korath stand you?!โ
I ignored his rant. โLet me in, or Iโll scream again.โ Apparently, with the Ekseseโs heightened hearing, a high-pitched girly scream was insufferable, as I had learned on the way here.
โDonโt, or stars guide me Iโllโโ
โYouโll what?โ I challenged, โKill me?โ
His rage faltered. โYou are too aware of what hold you have over him.โ
I shook my head. โNo, but what I do know is that something is going on, and itโs about me.โ He glared harder. โNow, let me in, or Iโll squeal like a fangirl meeting her celebrity crush.โ
His brow creased at the reference that held no meaning to him. โNo.โ
With that, I screamed.
Malrik grimaced, but managed to grab me, shoving me through the door. His hand clamped around my upper arm like a man escorting a bomb about to go off. I barely heard him muttering curses under his breath as I screamed long and high. I was still vibrating with the last shreds of anger from the Command Deck, with soldiers scattering and metal sparking under my beatings and button pushing. Whatever had snapped in me hadnโt fully reset; the world still felt too bright and loud.
And then I suddenly stopped screaming. I stopped breathing at the sight before me.
There were two people in Korathโs quarters. Korath and a female Eksese, and they were…
She lay there unmoving beneath him, posture relaxed, as if this were the most ordinary moment imaginable. Her skin shimmered faintly with what looked like painted markings that glowed like embers. Watching me, she didnโt push away from him. She didnโt even seem embarrassed, stripped bare for the three of us to see.
Korath’s head snapped to the side, eyes widening, every line of his body going rigid. โMarโโ he stopped himself, โMalrik, you should not be here.โ
My brain didnโt process the words. It was still stuck on the image in front of meโon the fact that the air still smelled charged. Heavy.
โWhatโฆโ My voice scraped out, cracked, and dry. I couldnโt even finish my thought, slipping through my fingers like oil.
Malrik released me with a shove like he couldnโt stand another second holding on. I fell to the floor, too paralyzed for my limbs to work properly. โI tried to keep her out,โ he snapped at Korath. โHer screams are now affecting everyoneโs work! Not to mention the destruction on the Command Deck.โ
Korath didnโt look at him. His gaze was locked on meโwide, frantic under the surface, but still trying to look composed. When I stayed down, he jumped out of the bed without a second thought. I buried my face, squeezing my eyes shut, not wanting to see any more of themโany more of him.
โYou better not have damaged her,โ he growled, sounding surprisingly steady. I felt his hands grip me, placing me gently on my feet. After a few seconds, I chanced opening an eye to see Korath and the female pulling robes over their blue, naked flesh. The Commander fastened his ties, and his eagle eyes found mine searching them. โAre you unharmed?โ
I nodded, mute and blank, too numb to do much else as realization began to dawn on me. I was a silly human with a crush on her captor. The Eksese may be emotionless, but they clearly had the same physical urges as others. Hell, the soldiers were taking humans for entertainment, why shouldnโt their superiors be any different, if simply more selective about it?
Even soโฆ who the fuck was this female, and why hadnโt Korath told me about her? Especially after asking me to stay with him permanently?! My thoughts spiraled at the possibilities of perhaps an arranged marriage or maybe she was a mistress of sorts.
โSo, this is her? Your pet?โ She cooed at me like I was a child.
I wrinkled my nose, looking back at Korath and his eyes that were laden with discomfort. โYes, it is, Gulima.โ
Gulima inclined her head politely. โHuman,โ she greeted flatly. She was tall and beautiful in the terrifying way all Eksese females wereโlike carved stone and sharpened scales that complemented her feminine curves. Her posture said she wasnโt threatened by me, waltzing about the room as if she owned it.
Korathโs voice cut in, low and urgent. โBoth of you need to leave. Now.โ
Malrik scoffed. โGladly, Commander.โ He then glowered down at me, lowering his voice threateningly. โI look forward to hearing your screams from punishment. Death, if we could only be so fortunateโโ
โMalrik,โ Korath growled, but his Captain simply saluted and left.
Gulima was still studying me, the same way the Councilor had. The memory was still disgustingly fresh. โI have not seen a human up close.โ She reached a pointed claw toward my face, and I flinched away.
โMaren, go wait in the washroom.โ His stare was firm, unmoving, but pleading beneath the layers.
I followed the order without argument, because whatever fight had brought me to him was gone, replaced with dread. Crossing the room, I went inside, and the door shut automatically behind me. I still stood next to the door, trying to listen to what was said on the other side of it.
โItโs impressive how quickly their mood changes. It must make your solitude limited.โ
โIt is challenging, but not in the way you think.โ
Gulima chucked, mithlessly. โI thank you, Commander, for your time. It was refreshing to have an experienced mating partner, and one so determined.โ
I stopped listening right then and turned on the water to drown out his response.
โMating partner.โ What the hell was that? A one-night stand? Contractual bang? It all had the air of Eksese efficiency with no room for myโฆ jealousy.
I threw my clothes haphazardly around the room, as the tears came unbidden. How stupid had I been. Korath does not feel like I do, living a logical lifestyle, dictated by duty. To think we were heading toward middle ground before all this was irrational, wishful thinking. In trying to understand me, heโd soon learn we were too different to be more.
The longer I thought about it, the more my mood sank with my body beneath the water. I prayed that heโd leave me alone tonight. I didnโt want to talk, but pound my fists against the walls or prune so much I just melted away. Iโd never get so lucky, though, because I knew Korath and his inability to let my emotions go. Heโd call them confounding, but he never let me be without a diagnostic.
And sure enough, the minute I turned off the faucet, the door behind me opened.
Korath
Void swallow me. I cannot fathom what Maren thinks of me. Iโm sure her imaginative human mind is on hyperdrive. Malrik was not to return with her so soon.
โItโs impressive how quickly their mood changes. It must make your solitude limited.โ Gulimaโs lingering presence did nothing to help the situation.
โIt is challenging, but not in the way you think.โ
Gulima chucked, mirthlessly. โI thank you, Commander, for your time. It was refreshing to have an experienced mating partner, and one so determined.โ
โApologies,โ I kept my tone level, โbut I need you to leave. I must secure the base.โ
โAnd your errant pet, no doubt.โ Her head tilted, waiting for more, but I was not going to fuel her with rumors to take back to Ekse. โStars guide you, Commander Korath.โ
โAnd you.โ
Leaving me alone, half-dressed in the middle of my quarters, I swallowed thickly, looking to the closed washroom door. I could hear nothing beyond my breathing, the quiet a farce for what was churning in my gut. All my plans had been sucked down a black hole, and worse, Maren had gone supernova. Either way, I needed to deal with the fallout. Malrik and Serral could handle repairs, but I needed to tell Maren the truth. All of it.
Rising, I made my way to the door, opening it. Immediately, the steam rushed forth and out of the doorway. As it cleared, I saw Maren hunched over, scrubbing at something on her knee. Either she didnโt hear me or was ignoring my presence. Her clothes were thrown about, unlike the usual neatness I require of her, crumpled on the floor, and even snagged on knobs to the storage compartments.
โMaren? May I join you?โ I had not known my voice to ever be so soft. It had only ever commanded, but that tone had no place here.
She sniffled and straightened, still not looking at me. โYou may do as you like. I have no authority over you, Commander.โ The title was thrown like a blade.
Even so, I placed my robe aside and stepped into the circular bath, leaving space between us. โI need to tell you something.โ I paused, waited for her attention, but she didnโt move. โI want to speak to your face, not your back.โ
Maren spun with defiance and fire in her eyes despite the tears. There were so many things I wanted to say in that moment, but the words wouldnโt form. Having no idea how to broach the subject, I decided to keep it simple to end her spiraling.
โI find myself attracted to you.โ
Her eyes widened, and her lips opened. After the initial shock, she stammered, โY-You say that after w-what I just saw?! Whatโs wrong with you?!โ She continued to rant, throwing various insults at me.
My raised voice halted her tirade. โIf I can explain, youโd have the answers you want.โ
Her lips pressed together in a line, but she nodded her head. โYes, please explain why you never mentioned your girlfriend. Does she know aboutโฆ You know, howโฆ comfortable we are together? Of the human who sleeps naked beside you?โ
โI would not call Gulima my friend. Simply a female who wished to mateโโ
She cut me off, unable to contain her wrath. โAnd as gallant as ever, the hero Commander wouldnโt dare refuse.โ The words dripped with bitterness.
โNo. It is my duty to keep the Eksese species alive. Whether that is conquest or procreation, both are required of me. Both keep me the Supreme Commander of this mission on Earth.โ
Maren balked back, splashing the water with the motion. โLetโs unpack this one stupid act at a time. So, you literally just mated with her because itโs your duty?โ
I nodded. โThatโs not allโโ
โBut she could be pregnant with your child. You donโt care?โ
I sighed, realizing she was just going to continue to cut me off until satisfied. โIt is not my role to care for it. Mothers raise younglings alone. Such connections to multiple caregivers interfere with development.โ
She scoffed. โIโll agree to completely disagree with you on that point, but for the sake of not getting off topic, please continue.โ
โWe already are off topic,โ I said, brow furrowing. โI told you I was attracted to you, and now we are speaking of younglings.โ
That drew a laugh out of herโsharp, then soft, like the release of pressure in her chest. โI know youโre not being a smartass, but you sound like one,โ she said, glaring me straight in the eyes. โAttraction isnโt just physical, Korath. Itโs about connection. Eksese call that weakness. Are you sure thatโs what this is?โ
โYes,โ I said simply. โItโs why I chose not to tell you.โ
โTell me why.โ Her voice was quiet now, almost tentative.
I didnโt look away. โI did it to protect you. I needed to appear a paragon of Eksese culture out here on the edge of our territory. It is known I have a pet now, and of the five planets Iโve conquered, not once have I indulged in such a thing. The eyes of Ekse is upon me, and if anyone, such as the Councilor, would wish to harm me, they would seek to threaten your safety first.โ
Her eyes widened, realization dawning. After a moment, her lips parted, and she swallowed thickly, finally listening.
So, I continued, โIf Iโm to protect you, I cannot appear to be bonded to you. There are rumors beginning that we have become so. Rumors that will only result in a chain reaction if not dealt with.โ
She blinked a few times, color blooming high in her cheeks. โBonded?โ
โItโs a rare arrangement amongst my people, but not unheard of. Itโs when two Eksese mate for life. Most find such a thing irrational and limiting, but there is still a minority who practice it.โ
โMy people call that marriage or a relationship of a sort, and itโs not uncommon at all.โ The bath water rippled as she moved closer. โSo, she didnโt mean anything to you? You really wonโt see Gulima again?โ she asked almost shyly. โNothing?โ
I shook my head. โShe will return to Ekse with the first cargo fleet. I will not see her again.โ
Marenโs gaze lifted to meet mine, and I could see the relief take root. The air between us hummed, thick with something neither of us had language for. Our hands brushed beneath the surfaceโa fleeting, electric contact that neither of us pulled away from because we needed it.
โIโ,โ she whispered, letting out a sigh heavy enough for the both of us, โBy human standards, I should be pissed at you for ignoring me, lying, and then hiding Gulima from me, but youโre not human. And your intention was to protect me, not hurt meโemotionally, I mean.โ Maren seemed unsure, breaking eye contact to look aimlessly about the room. โAnd weโre notโI mean, we are justโฆ justโฆโ
โAttracted.โ
โYes, that.โ She pushed some damp hair behind an ear.
โThen you reciprocate this attachment.โ
Her throat bobbed. โYes. I reciprocate it. Whatever this is between usโฆ Itโs real to me.โ
Real. Despite everything Iโd done wrong.
The bathwater lapped softly around us, the only sound in the room. Her knees brushed mine under the surface, deliberate or accidentalโI could not tellโbut my entire body responded as though it were a signal.
โAnd as real as it feels,โ she added, quieter now, โI get that youโre not human. You donโt think the way I do. You donโtโฆ love the way we do.โ Her voice wavered. โBut you still chose me five planets later.โ
I forced myself to meet her eyes. โI did not ignore you because I wished to,โ I said, the words scraping out of me. โI ignored you because every time I look at you, I want things I don’t have the right to want, or ever thought Iโd want.โ
Her breath caught audibly, and that spark in her eyes returned, the one sheโd been trying to give back to me for days. Hope, fragile but fierce.
My hand rose from the water before I even decided to lift it, touching her cheek. Wet skin on wet skin. She leaned into it, and my entire chest tightened as if sheโd put her hand inside and squeezed.
โKorathโฆโ Her voice was a whisper that trembled through me.
She moved closer, slowly and carefully raising herself out of the water. As though approaching a wild creature that might bolt.
โMaren,โ I warned, though I wasnโt sure what I was warning her aboutโher safety or my control. โWhat are you doing?โ
โSomething human,โ she murmured. โSomething that meansโฆ You matter to me.โ She lifted her face toward mineโtoo close, far too closeโand before I could process the intention, her lips pressed softly against my mouth.
I froze.
Literally froze.
Her lips were warm, yielding, and gentle, but firm enough to send a shock through me like a bolt of pure heat. I didnโt understand it. The purpose, function, or sensation.
She pulled back just enough to see my face, waiting for my reaction. Marenโs hand gripped my thigh, holding me in place.
โWhatโโ My voice rasped as if my throat were raw. โWhat was that?โ
โA kiss,โ she whispered.
โAโฆ kiss.โ The word felt strange in my mouth.
โItโs something humans do when theyโฆโ She swallowed, cheeks burning red. โWhen they care for someone. When theyโre drawn to them and want to show it.โ
I stared at her lips, glistening from the water, from the contact that lingered like an imprint on my senses. โAnd that small gestureโโ I swallowed hard โโis meant to convey all that?โ
โYes,โ she breathed.
I exhaled sharply, the sound almost a growl. โThat isโฆ dangerously effective.โ
Her laugh was soft. โYou didnโt hate it?โ
โHate?โ I leaned closer now, unable to stop myself. โMaren, Iโฆ I felt it everywhere.โ
She blinked up at me, stunned, as though she hadnโt expected the words. Her hand slid to my chest. My heart hammered against her palm, far more violently than I wanted her to feel, but she smiled, small and knowing.
โThen,โ she whispered, โmay I do it again?โ
I shouldโve said no. I knew I should have for many reasonsโฆ but there were battles even I could not win.
โYes,โ I said, voice almost unrecognizable.
And when she kissed me againโslowly, deeplyโI did not freeze. I kissed her back.
19 The Language of Balance
Maren
I woke first, the light through the viewport was soft and gold, brushing pale bands across Korathโs rugged chest where my hand rested. My fingers glided over his dark blueish-gray scales lining the center of his chest and torso. His breathing was steady, deep, his arm draped over my waist like a weighted blanket. The borrowed shirt I wore hung off my shoulder; that fabric was soft and thin, allowing me to share my body heat, which he seemed to treasure. His crest nestled in his mohawkโdark, sharp, and unmistakably alienโwas silhouetted against the pillow.๏ปฟ
For a long moment, I watched him. His face was relaxed in a way Iโd never seen while he was awake, the perpetual tension gone from his jaw and brow. The pronounced cheekbones not casting their normal shadows down his face, smoothing his harsh lines. It was a peace he never let anyone else witness.
Eventually, he stirred, eyes opening with a sharp, soldierโs awareness, then softening when they landed on me.
โGood morning,โ I whispered.
He blinked once, slowly. โI missed this.โ
Something in my chest tightenedโsomething hopeful and dangerous. โHow very human of you.โ
He pushed up onto an elbow, the movement controlled and deliberate. โYouโre influence, no doubt.โ
I huffed a quiet breath of laughter. โMaybe. Or maybe Iโm bringing out whatโs been hibernating inside.โ I gently rest a hand on his non-augmented pectoral. โYou wage war for your people, but youโre really after peace.โ
His fingers brushed a stray lock from my cheek, the pads lingering longer than necessary. That tiny hesitationโthe pause, the softnessโwas something no one else on this planet would believe existed in him. โI must attend to my duties today, after taking care of thatโฆ matter yesterday,โ he said at last, though even I could hear the reluctance.
โRight. Commander things.โ
โCommander things,โ he echoed, almost amused.
Watching him stand and reach for his uniform felt oddly intimate, even now after everything that happened yesterday, as if seeing behind a curtain I wasnโt meant to. The early light caught the dark scales on his spine and the network of old scars across his shouldersโevidence of sixty years of war carved into skin and bone. Piece by piece, the man who had destroyed my world put himself back together to face the next fight.
Before he sealed the last plate across his torso, he turned to me. โStay here,โ he ordered. โThe corridors will be restless with gossip, but I will do my best to quell it.โ
My stomach dropped a little. โGossip? Aboutโฆ us?โ
โAbout yesterday,โ he corrected, though the flicker in his eyes suggested that was only half the story. โYou destroyed part of the Command Deck when you were distressed.โ His jaw tightened. โThey must believe I punished you for it.โ
โPunished?โ
His silence was heavy.
Oh. Right.
If they didnโt see consequencesโif they believed he treated me differentlyโtheyโd talk even more. And talk in a base like this could turn into suspicion. Suspicion into danger.
โFor your safety,โ he said quietly. โOnly for that.โ
โI understand.โ I did, even if it made my stomach twist.
โI will make certain the records reflect the proper discipline,โ he continued, gaze dropping briefly to my lips, and I wondered if his mind was on pleasure instead. โAnd that the soldiers spread it. There is a high probability I will have to send you to the Sholta pens.โ
His yellow eyes lingered on mine, watching for a sign of defiance. He was going to lie to protect me in an official capacity. Another layer added to the strange, shifting ground beneath us. Iโd be an ungrateful fool to fight him on this.
โIโll do what you need me to. I was never one to hide from a fight; Iโm not about to now.โ
He stepped closer, one large finger lifting my chin. โYou are strong, but strength alone does not win battles. We must also be smart.โ I nodded in agreement. โI will return when my duties allow,โ he murmured. โRemain here. No one will question your absence.โ
I nodded, but inside a knot of something raw tightened. He was the Commander again, and I was his human. What had happened between us was a secret locked behind his door. Korath lingered a heartbeat too long, eyes searching mine in a way that made my pulse flutter. Then he turned and left, the door hissing shut behind him. Leaving me alone and suddenly very aware that caring for a man like Korath came with a cost neither of us knew how to measure.
I spent the first few hours pacing, feeling restless about the fact that he was out there on literal damage control while I was stuck here. Useless. There had to be something here I could do, but whatโฆ
The slate!
Rushing over to it on the table, I opened it to find something surprising: A cooking guide to Eksese cuisine, sent to him from Serral. Did he cook? No, he was a soldier; others did the cooking for him. Was Korath feeling homesick?
And then it hit me. A way to help him, though it wouldnโt be what heโd expect. With everything he was doing to protect me and the length heโd already gone, I wanted to repay that debt.
Inside his quarters was a version of a kitchenette, but heโd not touched it except to get a drink. I played around with the surface heater and found very basic cookware and dishes stored below it. I had made more with less on the driving trail over an open fire, and seeing that I was always the only woman, the responsibility of cooking fell to me by default. Aside from what we packed, I always had my eye out for wild plants and herbs, priding myself on improvisation.
Excitedly, I began reading through the recipes, but slowly began to realize the cookbook was for making food using their space-grade rations. The text flickered in Eksese symbols with a translation overlay. โProtein starch mixture,โ I read aloud. โAdd flavor compounds. Simmer untilโฆ purple?โ
I frowned, but skimmed to the description of the dishes. Many of them resembled rich stews and hearty Earth dishes with a slightly similar taste palate. The thought of using highly preserved mixes and โflavor compoundsโ when there was fresh food all around was appalling.
Walking over to the wall panel, I followed the directions Korath had given me for ordering meals, but instead, I requested ingredients from the kitchens. Being the Commander, he had access to the full inventory list, so I could see what was all stockpiled by the humans they had farming and gathering. Putting together a list, similar to online shopping, I hit the button and waited. After a few minutes, the panel chimed, and I opened the door to find the ingredients neatly sorted in a large bowl.
Eager to get started, I washed, cut, and dropped everything into the stew to simmer while I tried my best with the bread. The yeast substitute they had rose much faster than I was used to, but I figured it out after two tries.
The whole time, I kept second-guessing myself. Would he like it? It was good in terms of human standards, but would it satisfy him? Would he be mad that I was wasting resources? Maybe I misread the whole situation, for all I knew, Serral was sending him recipe suggestions for the mess hall.
When the door finally opened that evening, I almost dropped the utensil I was holding.
Korath stepped in, the hard line of his jaw tighter than usual. He lookedโฆ weary. His eyes flicked to me, then to the table. โYou cooked,โ he said, the words slow and almost disbelieving.
โI attempted to cook,โ I corrected, feeling suddenly self-conscious. โIt might be terrible, but I wanted to try.โ
He stared at the dish, then back at me as I rambled on about the dish and how I thought it was similar to something from Eksese, but it was like he wasnโt really hearing me. Something in his expression softenedโthat guarded command giving way to quiet surprise. โYou did this for me.โ
โYou do so much,โ I said simply. โAnd I thought maybe youโd like a meal that didnโt come from a ration crate.โ No need to mention my snooping on his slate.
He exhaled, long and measured, before sitting down at the table. I served, quickly returning the pot to the alien stovetop, and joined him. I watched as he tasted the stew, his crest shifting faintlyโtheir version of a raised eyebrow, I was learning.
โWell?โ I asked, heart pounding, strangling the spoon in my hand.
โIt isโฆโ He paused, swallowed. โโฆbetter than what the rations provide.โ
I beamed, because from him, it was the truth without the frivolities. โYou mean that?โ
โYes,โ he admitted, and the corner of his mouth lifted.
We ate in companionable silence for a time, the hum of the ship and the muted glow of the viewport wrapping around us like a cocoon. After the meal, he stood and regarded me across the table. โThere are rumors,โ he said quietly. โAbout you. About us, but I will allow it for now. They are the kind that will perish in a few weeks.โ I nodded quietly, enjoying the sight of him spooning the stew into his mouth. โWhat matters is that when I returnedโฆ my quarters felt different. Warmer.โ
My throat tightened because he was the one person in this broken world who made it feel like home. I stood and moved behind him, his eagle eyes tracking me the whole way. โThatโs because itโs lived in now. Youโre not alone anymore.โ My hands found his firm shoulders, leaning over one to plant a kiss on his rigid cheek.
โThisโฆ closeness,โ he said quietly, โyou are a slave. My pet.โ His eyes met mine with a burning resolve. โYou know I do not see you as such.โ
โI know. And I donโt see you as Supreme Commander. They are labels that others place on us, but they donโt define us.โ
For a long moment, neither of us moved, letting the words settle into an undeniable truth. Then, his chair slid out, and large hands guided me to him. Even sitting, he was tall enough to be at eye level with me. Korath dipped his head tentatively, as though afraid to break something fragile, and pressed his forehead against mine.
His breath mingled with mine, warm and uncertain. I let my hands find the back of his neck, combing my hands through his hair at the back of his neck. His lips brushed my temple, the gesture careful, almost questioning, as though he was asking for permission in a language older than words.
I tilted my face up in answer. The kiss that followed wasnโt desperate, or born of hunger or victory. It was discoveryโa slow, aching press that said I see you. I want to feel to understand.
When he finally pulled back, his voice was roughened to a whisper. โYou bring calm where I am chaos.โ
โAnd you bring order where I am falling apart,โ I replied.
We moved together to the bed, not out of impulse, but because it felt like the natural place for two souls who had finally stopped fighting themselves. He held me, careful with every breath, every shift of his body. His skin was cool against mine, but his heartbeatโstrong and alienโthrummed beneath my ear like a steady drum. Neither of us spoke for a long time. Words werenโt needed in the peace we created just by each otherโs presence alone.
His arm tightened slightly around me. โSleep,โ he murmured.
I smiled against his chest. โEven commanders need rest.โ
โPerhaps,โ he said, the faintest warmth in his tone. โYou first.โ
The room had gone quiet, save for the rhythm of his breathing beneath my cheek. The air still carried the faint spice of food and the warmth that followed between us. I felt safe, and while it was probably too good to be true in the reality waiting outside the room, it was the hope I clung to along with my protector. My new home.
20 The Language of Consequence
Maren
By the end of the first day, my arms felt like Jell-O. Working the Sholta wasnโt just hardโit was brutal. The vats expelled a rancid stench that clawed into my throat, and the beasts themselves kept you on your toes with their aggressive hunger. Iโd thought being a ranch hand was bad most days, but Sholta handling made horses and cattle look like plush toys.
And I wasnโt allowed water breaks. Or shade. Or time to sit, because I was โpunished.โ
Korath hadnโt called it that aloudโhe would never demean me in that wayโbut everyone else did. A human pet who destroyed half the Command Deck? Yeah, she gets the Sholta trenches from sunup to sundown for weeks. Had it not been for my โpetโ status, Iโd certainly be dead.
Even so, when Korath told me what was set as an acceptable sentence, I agreed without hesitation. We were in this together, and I had no doubt that he spared me the worst of punishments. Whatever he asked of me, Iโd do for us.
When Korath showed up at the end of my shift, every muscle in my body trembled. He played his role perfectly, stopping at the pens with an expression of a cool, unreadable slate. โPet,โ he said, loud enough for the handlers to hear. โCome. Youโll prepare my meal. Your work isnโt done.โ
Despite everyoneโboth Eksese and human alikeโlistening intently, no one watched us directly. They would go back to the mess hall or the cells and speak to the others of it later, being their entertainment this week, but nothing now while the Commanderโs wrath was one wrong glance away.
I kept my head down. โYes, Commander.โ
But when he escorted me through the side corridorโwhen the others couldnโt seeโhis hand brushed mine for half a second. A secret apology. A secret reassurance that it was an act.
That night, he bathed me himself. The warm water, the gentle scraping of his claws through my hair, the slow, careful rinse down my spineโฆ all of it made the days survivable.
And the cycle repeated for days.
By the end of the first week, I stank of Sholta musk no matter how hard I scrubbed. I was scraped raw, dehydrated, and bleary-eyed. The handlers barely looked at me anymoreโjust another human being put in her place.
Korath remained distant in public, but every night, after the doors sealed behind us, he held me before he even spoke. Sometimes he had water and food at the ready, knowing my body was being pushed to its limits; other times, he didnโt let me fall asleep until heโd massaged the cramps out of my legs. I knew he was having full days of work too, but for him to spend his nights caring for me kindled a strange, secret tenderness neither of us had words for.
The yellow of his eyes seemed to darken when his hands trailed over my bruised, broken, and bare skin. I never shied away from his gaze when he examined and touched me, leaving goosebumps in his wake. Part of me wished he would make a move, but I realized it probably never occurred to the logically-ruled Eksese to do such a thing. Or maybe he didnโt know how.
Now, wasnโt the time for me to push anything, though, with everyone watching us. The act was working, and adding desire into the equation just wasnโt the greatest idea. As Korath had said, we needed to be smart.
The sun was dropping behind the mountains as I saw to the cleaning and preparation of the equipment for tomorrowโs feedings when I felt the prickle of being watched. Not by the handlersโthey were busy arguing over a malfunctioning temperature regulator in the Sholta stables.
No. This gaze felt different. Heavier. Older.
When I looked up, Korath was standing in the far aisle. Not where anyone would normally enter. Not for observation. Not for reprimand. He was early, and he was watching me. His posture wasnโt his rigid Commander stance eitherโit softened by degrees as he took me in, as though cataloguing each bruise, each blister, each breath I forced out of my aching lungs.
I swallowed hard and kept working. I finished hosing off the buckets, wiped the sweat from my forehead with my sleeve, then stepped away from the equipment with legs trembling like overcooked noodles.
Korath moved thenโslowly, quietlyโuntil he was beside me, close enough that I felt the heat radiating off him through my filthy shirt.
โCommander,โ I said, barely above a whisper.
His eyes flicked to the handlers. None were looking our way. Only then did his voice soften into the version only I knew. โYou endure more than most of my soldiers.โ
โI donโt have much choice.โ It wasnโt a biting remark, just the simple truth of the matter.
โYou do,โ he murmured, wiping something off my cheek. โYou chose not to break.โ
My dry throat tightened. โYouโre the reason I didnโt.โ
His gaze locked onto mine, and for a heartbeat, the world narrowed to the faint scent of metal and earth he always carried, and the rush of everything we werenโt allowed to say. I turned toward him, hidden from the handlers by his large frame, letting my fingers grasp his chest plate, using his weight to drag my tired body to him. Korath looked at me with that need in his eyes he didnโt know existedโbut I did.
Briefly, my aches were forgotten, surviving alone off his attention. โAs my master, you have the power to do whatever youโd like with me.โ
The depth in his voice couldโve brought me to my knees. โThatโs a dangerous idea, Maren.โ
Thenโ
A shuffle.
My breath hitched, and I stepped back from Korath just enough to keep the moment from tipping into something reckless.
Korath heard it too. His eyes snapped toward the sound with a predatorโs precision. His posture shiftedโstill, alert, coiled. Then, in an instant, everything about him hardened back into the Commander. Korathโs voice sharpened instantly, transforming back into his public tone. โYou are to finish your assigned tasks, then I will return for you. Do not falter.โ
โYes, Commander,โ I said, still retreating back to work. I forced my gaze away from him. Forced the moment shut, but my heart tripped, pretending to scrape leftover slurry from the edges.
He didnโt wait. Didnโt linger, not risking us being seen too close. The moment he disappeared from the stall, the air thickened around me. The handlers were too far to hear anything. The corner where the shuffle came from looked empty.
Thenโ
A hand clamped around my upper arm.
I jerked, sucking in a sharp breath as I was yanked sideways into an empty stall. Rhett. His eyes were wild with anger, disbelief, and something unhinged sparking behind them.
โSo itโs true,โ he hissed, voice all gravel and venom. Rhettโs flannel shirt, vest, and jeans were holed and soiled from work.
โRhettโโ I tried to pull back, but he clamped down harder, his grimy fingers biting into muscle.
โYou really are his faithful pet.โ His lip curled, glistening with sweat. โFirst you sell us out, and now youโre spreading your legs for him?โ
I gritted my teeth, trying to free myself, but he didnโt budge. โI didnโt betray anyone! I begged him not toโโ
โBullshit.โ His grip tightened until my skin screamed. โI heard everything. Saw how you touched him.โ His face was inches from mine. โYouโre not just his petโyouโre his favorite little whore.โ
My face flushed violently; having someone hear words only meant for Korath. โThatโs notโlet go of me, you ass!โ
He shoved me against the stall wallโnot enough to send me to the floor, but enough that stars burst behind my eyes. The Sholta in the nearest pen let out an uneasy, guttural snort.
โOr what?โ Rhett snarled, his auburn, disheveled hair falling in his face. โYouโll run crying to your alien master? Maybe heโll pat your head and give you a treat?โ
โStopโโ
โOh, Iโm just getting started.โ His free hand slammed against the wall beside my head, caging me in. โYou think youโre protected? That collar makes you special?โ He leaned in, breath hot and fraying at the edges of control. โI have nothing left to lose, Maren. Nothing. You canโt threaten a dead man walking.โ
Anger shot through me, hot and shaking. โI donโt need Korath to handle you. I can handle you myself.โ
I threw a sharp jab at his face, connecting with his nose, making him snort up the blood. Rhett took half a step back before lunging for me. His hand shot up, fingers closing around my throatโjust beneath the collar. My head and back slammed up against the corrugated wall with a thud, making some of the equipment hanging there fall.
โWhat was that?โ One of the handlers hissed.
We both froze, holding our breath. Rhettโs hand squeezed tighter in warning, but I wasnโt about to cry for help and prove him rightโthat I was a traitor.
โThe Commanderโs pet is back there,โ another answered. โHe said he would return shortly for her. Leave her be.โ They walked off, resuming their rounds, leaving us alone once more.
I huffed at him. โIf they catch you, theyโll punish you. Or worse. You should goโโ
โYou always think you know better than everyone else,โ he whispered, spit hissing between his teeth. โWe all lost people because of them. But you?โ His thumb brushed the base of the collar deliberately. โYouโre climbing into the bed of the monster who burned our world.โ
His words cut deeper than his grip ever could.
โWe lost, Rhett,โ I snapped, bitterness twisting with exhaustion. โThereโs no coming back from this. No rebellion. No cavalry. Itโs survival now. And Iโโ My voice cracked. โIโm trying to make things better for us. Korath listens to me. That could help everyone.โ
โThe only person I see you helping is yourself.โ
โYouโre delusional if you think anything you do will send a message,โ I hissed. โAll youโll do is get people killed. Wake up, Rhett. This is our reality.โ
His jaw clenched. Hard. He looked like someone holding on to the last thread of sanity.
โI said let go,โ I breathed. โNow.โ
For one long, suffocating heartbeat, I thought he wouldnโt. Then Rhett released me, but he didnโt step back.
He leaned in so close I could feel the heat of him, the fury rolling off in waves. โWeโre not done,โ he whispered. โNot by a long shot.โ His voice dropped to something colder. Meaner. โAnd by the end, youโll die with them, traitor.โ He stalked off down the aisle, footsteps echoing like hammer strikes.
I pressed a hand to my throat, feeling the ghost of his fingersโthe imprint, the threat, the promise. For the first time since the invasionโฆ I wasnโt afraid of the Eksese. I was afraid of the humans.
Korath
I saw the marks the moment she shed her shirt. Pale finger-shaped shadows along her arm and a scratch by her collarโrage tightened every muscle in my body. She tried to turn away from me, mumbling that it was nothing, that she would handle it.
โMaren.โ Her name vibrated low in my chest. โIf you return to me marked again, there will be blood. I will not allow this.โ
She looked up at me then, brown eyes soft even through exhaustion and pain, and she did what only she seems able to doโtemper the instinct to hunt, to break, to punish. Her hand came to rest on mine, small and warm. โLet me deal with it,โ she whispered. โPlease.โ
I should have refused. Instead, I let her lean against me as I finished tending the bruises. She relaxed by degrees, first her shoulders, then her breathing, slipping into sleep before I could coax her to the bed.
That was when she said his name. Barely a breath, a dream-muddled whisper, but the fear was there.
Rhett.
She wouldn’t tell me, but now she didnโt have to.
By morning, Malrik had a direct order: Rhett is to be watched. Report everything.
The reports began that same day: โCommander, the human provoked your pet again today,โ and โCommander, voices raised in the Sholta stablesโhostile.โ Always tense. Always near violence. Always involving her.
Through the final days of her punishment, Maren insisted she was managing it, but I saw the tightness around her eyes, the forced calm. I saw her flinch when a worker dropped a bucket too close to her in the vat.
She had made no progress and carried the burden alone, as if shielding me.
Foolish. Loyal. Infuriating.
So, I stood there in the shadows watching her walk into the Sholta stables alone, and accepted what I already knew the moment she whispered his name in her sleep:
I will handle this my way.














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