21: Serena – Take It All

Serena POV:

Silence has filled the room since Rooster’s last statement, and he is right, Jessie isn’t hiding. If she wanted to scare her dad and Diesel, she could have just hidden in her apartment.

The door swings open, and Dwayne stood with papers.

“We have this, it is her phone records, she was meeting someone the night she disappeared. Also, the footage shows someone coming back with her, but we can’t see who. They are looking for anything from when they leave.”

“Do you know the number?” I look at him, taking the papers.

“No, some guy she called Rob, the number is just ringing.”

My eyes glance down at the paper. “Shit.” I feel sick.

“Shit? What is it?” Rooster looks at me annoyed.

“Mr Prent is Rob. The number though, I can’t explain. I know it, but the person is gone.” I thought he had gone.

“So this Mr Prent, where is he?” Rooster stands.

“Downstairs chained to a chair. I will deal with him if it has anything to do with him. Dwayne, get them to get a location for that number. I have a grave to dig up after dealing with Mr Prent.” This is revenge, Mr Prent warned me and I thought I had no one, no weakness. Jessie is a weakness, Jake, well, he is a weakness in a whole other way.

“I’ll get answers.”Diesel goes to leave, my hand stopping him.

“This is my city, you won’t even speak to him! You stand and shut the hell up.” I walk out and I know Diesel and Rooster are following me. I would rather tell them to stay the hell away completely, but that would be cruel.

As I walk through the door Mr Prent looks up and smiles, it quickly fading as he watches Diesel and Rooster walk in behind me. I guess his reaction just proved he knows where Jessie is. I watch as he swallows hard, his eyes trying to stay focused on me, but every now and then they stray and look at either Diesel or Rooster.

“You took my baby girl!” Rooster sounds furious, and as much as he wants to be the one getting the answers he can’t. Walking forward I sit facing Mr Prent.

“Where is Jessie.” He opens his mouth to talk, moving my fist hits his face. “Before you answer think, if you play dumb, lie or refuse you have days of torture ahead of you.” His death won’t be quick.

“Jessie?” He tilts his head slightly, looking confused yet there is pure fear in his eyes. Every time Rooster or Diesel move slightly he flinches.

“You know who she is, where is she? We know she spoke to you, we have her phone records!” I want to hurt him, but I am trying to hold back.

“You will need to give me a description, I’ve had so many whores recently, they all merge into one.” He laughs, but it quakes, I watch as Diesel goes to move.

Standing I grab the dagger and swing it down over Mr Prent’s leg, a scream erupting from within him. I can’t let them touch him, if anything they will just kill him and not get an answer.

“Jessie! The woman who works for me, you know Rooster’s daughter. You know who the fuck I mean so answer!” It is like he has accepted he is going to die so is just waiting.

“Wait, wait.” His words are hushed. “I remember now, how could I forget Jessie.” His words are cold, all our eyes stay on him. “I mean after that night, I doubt any guy would forget her. You missed out there.” He quickly glances at Diesel and I shake my head.

“He is baiting you so you kill him, don’t!” I stare at them, he wants a quick death. They are not giving him it.

“Baiting him? Oh no princess, I meant it. She gave me and an old friend a night to remember, she was meant to be worn out after to make it easier, but she wasn’t so we had to drag her out.”

I feel my body get thrown back, Diesel now on Mr Prent, Rooster pulling him back. “Where is she!” Diesel roars trying to break free of Rooster’s hold.

“Keeping my old friend company, or should I say entertained? He has a thing for daddy’s girls.” I feel my head shaking at his words. His laugh gets louder.

“Enough, where is she?” I stand up defiantly, trying to sort this out.

“You thought you had no weaknesses princess. You were wrong. Your dad was wrong. When word got around you were unlocking those files, the secrets that needed to be stopped. Why your dad kept details is crazy, even Jake wanted the past deleted, but your dad just had to save it all didn’t he.” He smiles like he has won.

“Who the fuck is Jake?” I turn and look at Rooster, I don’t want anyone to know.

“What do you want?” I turn and look at Mr Prent. “Want the money back, fine, want me to agree to your deal fine, want me to find others to agree to your deal, then I will.” I look at him waiting.

“All that would be nice Princess, but we want more.” He sits looking at me waiting.

Taking out my phone I message Dwayne, telling him once they get an address to go and see if Jessie is there.

“What more do you want?”

“You’re going to agree?” Diesel looks at me annoyed.

“If it gets Jessie back, yes!” I turn and look back at Mr Prent. “Name what you want.” I will do it.

“The clubs, I want them, all the ones you own and others. I want all the clubs to stay having immunity from the police, and those in them regardless of what they do.”

“Done, now where is Jessie?” I look at him waiting.

“Slow down princess, that is just part of it. Jake wants the city, you and him running the city.”

I stare at him, I can’t do that. I am not going anywhere near Jake.

He laughs and claps. “There you were princess saying you had no weaknesses, but right now, you look like you just saw a ghost. So, shall I tell Jake you agree? Marriage bells, and all?”

“He doesn’t want me.” He wants the city, not me.

“Oh, princess you and he have unfinished business.” He grins at me waiting.

“He can have the city, everything, but not me.” I am not going back there. I watch Diesel and Rooster stare at me in shock. I would rather lose everything than be near him again.

22: Diesel – Words Of Flames

Diesel POV:

I stare at her shocked by her words, by her agreeing.

“Don’t be a fool, don’t make deals like that!” Is she a fool? “You’re making yourself weak! You stand there and claim to be the fucking Queen, yet one issue and you roll over and be a doormat and give it all up!” Maybe I shouldn’t shout and be so blunt but who knows what they would do to the city.

“It’s either that or no Jessie.” She looks at me.

“Now princess, Jake wants you as well, so it’s all or nothing.” I turn and look at him as he smiles.

“Fine, tell him I agree, now where is Jessie?” Serena looks at him waiting.

“No, she doesn’t fucking agree!” I stare at her shocked.

“Diesel let her, Jessie would be safe if it wasn’t for her. Right now it is her or Jessie, and I want my baby girl back!” Rooster looks at me furiously. I would tell him but Serena clearly wants it to stay hidden. If he saw what I saw he wouldn’t agree.

“So trade in one woman for another?” I shake my head at him. “What happened to the Rooster who would never let a woman go down like this?” He wouldn’t, so why now?

“I want my fucking daughter back Diesel, I don’t give a shit if I have to throw a thousand women at them to get her back, I will.”

“Call Jake.” I turn hearing Serena.

“What is the point? No one fucking listens to me.” I sit down, quitting and just hoping Serena has a plan to stop this.

“Now princess I can’t, you have my phone remember.” He nods towards the table where his stuff is. I watch as she walks over. She is a fool if she does this. My eyes follow her as she walks back towards us.

“Pin?” She looks at him holding out the phone.

“220122” his answer is quick. “Oh, and when you call, you talk, but on speakerphone princess.”

“Serena, we will find another way. There is always another way.” I reach out to take the phone, her hand hitting mine away.

“My city Diesel, my rules. If you’re going to do this, fuck off.” She glares at me.

Call me foolish but I have to try. “I saw those pictures! I saw the truth, Serena, nothing is worth going back. I know how you feel. Please.” I beg her, waiting.

“Don’t, you think you know my past from a few pictures? You don’t and you have no idea how it feels, no idea at all. Enough Diesel, I am doing this my way!” She pushes me back.

“How do you know? How do you know I don’t know how it feels?” I move towards her, Rooster looking at us confused.

“Diesel, you fuck women for fun, whatever you went through is fuck all. Stop making excuses for you using women to try and make yourself look like less of an asshole because you still are. Take whatever bullshit story you have and shut up Diesel as you have no idea.” Her words are screamed in my face.

I laugh, partly to stop myself from breaking and screaming and partly because she is going to find out just what her family was like. “Oh Princess, did Daddy never tell you…” My words are stopped as Rooster pulls me back, his eyes on mine.

“Not this way, shut it!” His words are quiet, and I look back to Serena as she is dialling the number.

“You’re late Rob.” I hear his voice from down the phone and watch as Serena freezes.

“She has me tied up. She is listening and agrees. Don’t you princess?” His head tilts as he smiles.

“Once I know Jessie is safe, fine. I will not hand myself over or the city until I know Jessie is safe.” Serena stands, her voice is strong yet her face screams broken.

“Ceecee, I don’t want you to hand the city over, I want you by my side, with us together the city is mine. Just like old times Ceecee only this time, your daddy won’t be here to tell me my job is done and push me away.”

“Enough, I agreed, where is Jessie? You want me, you want the city you win. Enough of the shit and acting like you care and love me. Tell me where Jessie is.” She doesn’t look well at all, why would she just agree?

“No! Jake, I am still tied to a damn chair. You come here, and drop Jessie off where she needs to be. Then once you get here there is no way she back out and refuse.” Rob states.

“Rooster, stop this. Yes, you want Jessie but come on!” I look at him, she won’t listen to me, hell she hates me. Maybe she will listen to Rooster?

I hear the smashing noise first, my eyes glancing at the phone.

“Too late! Good luck Rob.” Jake’s words rushed. No one talks as we hear more smashing.

“Search that room!” I relax hearing Dwayne’s voice, they are there. They will have Jessie. She will be there.

“Serena?” Has he picked up the phone?

“Yes, where is Jake? Jessie?”

“No one has seen Jake, as for Jessie, I don’t know we’re still searching, I will put the phone in my pocket.” I hear the muffled sound of movement as he places it in his pocket.

“Now can you accept this was stupid?” I look at Serena, hoping now she realises and relaxes. She turns and faces me, but right now she is more furious than before.

“Once I know they have Jessie. You’re gone.” She turns back to Rob. “Is she there? You may as well answer and save yourself some pain.” Serena moves, swinging a dagger down into his hand.

“Yes! Fucking psycho! She is there, he would have ran. If he tried taking her he would get caught.” Rob screams as she pushes the dagger deeper. He seems to be willing to refuse to answer questions now. Is it because he knows his plan has failed and he has no protection?

I watch Serena and listen to them while listening to the muffled voices on the phone. Waiting for confirmation they have her.

“Well, death will be quicker for you Rob, still slow but quicker than it was going to be. I watch as she grabs another dagger. Rob already looks like he has given in. “The pain now isn’t for Jessie, but for the fact you teamed up with Jake, you gave him power.” I hear his scream as she slams the dagger down over his finger.

“Enough!” I step forward and try to pull her back.

“We got her, I will drop her at Diesel’s it is closer than Rooster’s.” My body relaxes hearing Dwayne’s words, the line cutting out.

I keep my hand on Serena. “You want to hurt him fine, you want to punish him, fine. Don’t lose yourself trying to make a point! You want to hurt Jake, well he isn’t Jake. Trust me anyway, trying to hurt the one who caused the pain doesn’t fucking help take the pain away, I know!”

“Back to you again Diesel? Not everything is about you, and to assume you know how it feels is wrong. Rooster, take him home and check on Jessie.”

I watch as Rooster nods, is he taking the piss?

“How do you know? You assume you know me, know everything but you don’t Serena, you were kept in your castle hidden away, and Daddy’s little princess has no idea what real fucking pain is.” I don’t get time to move as her fist swings and hits me.

“Fuck you Diesel. You don’t owe me shit! I don’t want to see or hear from you again. The money you owe isn’t even enough to make me want to see your name again. You don’t exist anymore, and if it weren’t for Jessie it would be you tied to that fucking chair right now!” Her voice shakes and I see tears in her eyes. I didn’t even think, I just hurt her. I wanted her to see hurting Rob or Jake wouldn’t stop the pain.

Nodding I turn and walk out, hearing Rob’s scream of agony as I do. I can’t look back, how can I?

23: Serena – Blinded By Pain

Serena POV:

I watch as the blood mixes with the water, before disappearing down the drain. I want to say I feel better, but I don’t. How can I? Jake is out there somewhere, and I will find him. I am now simply waiting for Dwayne, I need to know Jessie is okay. She was with Jake, and I hate to think about what he has done.

Climbing from the shower I get myself dried and dressed before going back to my office. Everyone is back to their usual jobs except for a few people who are searching for Jake.

“Hey.”

I look up hearing Dwayne’s voice.

“Well?” I hope she is okay.

“She is fine. She was out with Jake apparently, and they met up with Rob, and came back here to her apartment.”

“Dwayne, that doesn’t tell me shit, what happened in her apartment as it was trashed.” If she willingly brought two men back fine, but what happened after? Did she agree and set it up to make Diesel Jealous?

“Apparently she had been drinking, was worn out and everything. She went to bed, but couldn’t sleep and heard them discussing getting you. She wasn’t the plan Serena, she was the way in, the fact she heard them planning to find a way to your apartment made her react, which made them change the plan.”

All I can do is nod. I need to thank her and show her I appreciate what she has done to stop them from coming for me.

“Anyway, they ended up fighting to drag her out and made a new plan. Use her to get you to agree.”

“What about the blood Dwayne? There was blood.” I wait, wondering just how badly she was hurt.

“It was Jake’s, she broke his nose, and apparently bit him so hard his arm was bleeding.” His words make me relax, at least I know no blood was lost from her, she didn’t deserve this.

“It’s over.” His words confuse me and I look at him confused. “Me, Jessie. She won’t be near me again.” He looks hurt. I want to laugh and joke but I won’t.

“Dwayne, she will be back here working trust me. She may not live here, but she will still want her job and you will see her plenty.” I can understand him being worried she will hide, but she won’t, she will work and he will get to see her.

“No, Serena, fuck no!” My eyes widen at the loudness of his voice. He is hurt.

“What have I missed Dwayne? Did you tell her to stay away? You were fine with her fucking random guys, did her doing it with two cause an issue?” I can understand, he likes her although he won’t admit it.

“Diesel.” His one word makes me laugh.

“Oh, Dwayne if you’re gonna hide from her because Diesel threatened you then you don’t deserve her. Stand up to him, you like her, make him aware. If he tells you to stay away you refuse. Prove you want her and she is worth the risk.” I sigh and shake my head.

“Diesel cares for her Dwayne, he is freaking out she was possibly hurt. Once he calms down he won’t have an issue with you, he didn’t before, so he won’t now.” I hope not anyway as then I have to get involved and the last thing I wanted was to be anywhere near him or even speak to him.

“He’s jealous! He is going to give in, believe me. I don’t know what the hell switched, but something has Serena as I saw his face the longer we sat there. I saw the jealousy on his face as she cuddled against me. We all know she won’t turn him down and once she goes in that direction, I won’t even waste my time.”

Diesel wouldn’t, maybe he is just jealous of how close they have gotten. The fact that Jessie now spends all her time with Dwayne and not him?

“He will no doubt be jealous that she is close to you, that she spends more of her time with you Dwayne, nothing more than that.”

“I heard enough Serena. Whatever you said to him fucked him over, he was a mess. He held it together for Jessie, but before I left she was comforting him, and he was letting her in. I don’t give a crap anyway, she was just fun to have around, a laugh to drink with nothing more.” He stands and begins to walk out.

“Dwayne, before giving up, maybe tell her how you feel, none of this you’re a laugh, and great to have around. If Diesel makes his move and she takes it, that is on you not him or me. You not telling her how you feel. Diesel is fine, he wanted to be centre stage, and I refused, he isn’t hurt.”

He stays still, his back facing me as he laughs. “You’re lucky I grew up around you Serena and see you as family, otherwise I would walk out of this door, out of this building and never return. You’re so wrapped up in your own little world, you didn’t even notice you broke a man. A man who always seemed so strong, and like nothing touched him.” He continues to walk out, the door slamming behind him.

I can’t help but wonder if he is right? Was I so consumed by my own hurt, how I felt that I didn’t even realise I tore him apart? He told me I had no idea what real pain was, he wouldn’t have said that if he hadn’t felt pain. I knew there was a secret, but I forgot. Jake showed up, and all this mess made me forget.

Taking out my phone, I decided to take the first step. Messaging Diesel, I apologise for my attitude and what I said. Explaining I was just so fixated on myself that I forgot about everyone else.

I know though, he won’t reply, why would he?

24: Diesel – Craving

Diesel POV:

I leave with Rooster, but we don’t speak. I watch as he shakes his head looking at me with disapproval. It hurt, her words hurt and I would be a fool to try and act like they didn’t. Right now though, we need to see Jessie. I can ignore the hurt, ignore Serena’s words, at least until I know for sure Jessie isn’t hurt.

We rush in, and I see her sitting with her arms wrapped around Dwayne, and something inside me burns. Jealously swarms me and I don’t even know why. I don’t want Jessie, yet now she is sitting cuddled against Dwayne I am jealous.

She doesn’t look hurt, that is a good thing. I watch as she runs to Rooster and hugs him. He wants to scream, and tell her off, even Rooster knows though, doing it now, too soon will hurt her more. Her wild ways put her in a place where she can be harmed.

“What happened?” Rooster looks at Jessie, and I watch as she sits back now, Dwayne’s arm wrapping around her body in comfort.

“I was out with a guy, Jake. We were just…”

“No, Jessie, I don’t want to know shit about you and what you did with them. After, what happened?” Rooster looks at her annoyed and I can’t really blame him.

“I heard them talking. Jake was saying to leave it an hour then they would find a way to get upstairs to Serena’s. They were planning on forcing her to marry Jake. He said something about her dad wasn’t there to stop him now. I thought I could sneak out. Warn her but they saw me. I fought with them, refusing to help. I knew the way to get to Serena’s I have my own code. I wasn’t going to do it though.”

She did it to save Serena? Would Serena have done the same? I feel my own head shaking. Yes she would, she had. Serena had agreed to Jake’s plan to save Jessie.

“Anyway they dragged me out, and kept me hidden. They said I was the new way to get to Serena, and that they had no plans to hurt me.”

“So they planned it? Planned to meet you and sleep with you as a way to get to her?” I stare at her, feeling annoyed that she could be so damn stupid.

“No! Jake was at the club, and we got talking. It was only a short while after that Rob sat down. I remembered him. He was Mr Prent. Serena hadn’t told me anything about him really. So I assumed he was safe. He knew I worked for Serena. It was at that point he decided to use the situation to get closer to Serena.”

Sitting we talk and ask questions, but my eyes struggle to leave Dwayne and Jessie. The way she is cuddled against him. It has been an hour. They seem to be far more comfortable now than before. Walking through to the kitchen I make a drink and stand listening to them talking. Rooster is dealing with her. She is fine so they don’t need me. I walk to the room and unlock it. Standing by the door I feel my heart break as I take in my surroundings.

“You’re a fucking fool.” I hear Rooster’s words but ignore them. “Let it go, Diesel. This room just keeps taking you back. Get rid of it all.”

“You might think it is as easy as emptying the room Rooster but it isn’t. This is all I fucking have left. I’m not giving it up.” I never will.

“I told you not to go poking around in her life, trying to help. I told you this shit would happen and it has, maybe even worse.” His words annoy me.

“Enough! Rooster don’t fucking start because you really don’t have any idea. I am in a place right now where if you push I will fucking kill you. Give me my space.” I don’t bother moving, he knows what I mean The space I need is him not trying to talk about it. He can be around me, stay here but if he keeps trying to talk to me about it I will stab him.

I hear footsteps and close the door locking it. Turning, Jessie is stood smiling slightly. The smile is caring and selfless. I watch as she wraps her arms around me

She knows little about it. She knows the main things, but she has no idea it wasn’t an accident. No idea that it was all Serena’s dad.

“I’m sorry you’re hurting Diesel, and while you are, you had to deal with a childish attitude.” I can see she means it. Walking to the kitchen she follows and I stand with my drink.

“It isn’t a childish attitude Jessie. It’s a grown-ass woman’s attitude who is wild and knows what she wants. I’m sorry, about the way I kept speaking to you. Calling you stuff, it wasn’t right.” Hell, it wasn’t and Rooster should have shot me by now.

“Really? Did you hit your head Diesel?” She laughs slightly.

“I would love to say I did. I didn’t though. I guess these last twenty-four hours just made me realise you are doing what all the women I sleep with do. You deserve someone who can actually love you, Jessie.” I try and smile at her.

Her arms once again wrap around me. “Don’t worry, no more going crazy, changing men every night. I realised when I was gone just how much you and Dad would be worried. I realised that you didn’t need it. So I’m sorry.”

All I can do is nod and smile at her. Pulling her into a hug.

“She was beautiful Diesel.” I look down at her confused. “Eva. She was beautiful, don’t give up until you find someone like her.”

“I’m going to get back.” I look up and see Dwayne.

“Thank you, Dwayne, for helping find her and keeping her safe.” I can’t ignore him. I watch as he simply nods and walks out. Looking down I smile at Jessie.

“He seems to really like you.”

“Jealous?” She grins as we both laugh.

“Honestly? Yes.” The words come out too quickly for me to stop them. I watch as she goes to kiss me, my hand stopping her.

“Not in that way Jessie. For over an hour, you sat cuddled against him to feel safe. That used to be me. It was me you would run to for safety. It was me who made you feel safe among the crazy. It felt weird seeing you cuddled against him and then going back to him and cuddling him.” That was me, things changed quickly.

“Diesel, you have nothing to be jealous of. I will still run to you. Just make sure you don’t lock your garage door and hide when you hear me coming.” She laughs and I nod. Maybe she has grown up? My mind goes back to Serena, that is a disaster and now thinking about it, even if she had no idea of what her father did. She is still his family.

Why the hell would I even try to get her attention?

“Thinking hard there.” Jessie laughs. “You aged about ten years just from that one thought.” I nod to her words. I think back to everything. How for years she didn’t even date guys because she wanted me. I just turned her down again.

Do I push her away because I love her and I am scared of history repeating itself?

I close my eyes. “Fuck it.” The words are barely spoken before my mouth presses against hers.

Moans of pleasure surround us as I pull her closer, my hands roaming across her body.

“Diesel.” Her small cry makes me smile as I lift her, her head shakes as she pulls back.

“Don’t do this Diesel.” She looks at me.

“Or, I do, and we both enjoy it.” Moving I go to kiss her, but her hand reaches out and stops me.

“So, now you don’t want me.” What the hell! I go to turn, but her hand stops me.

“I do. I do so fucking much Diesel which is why this is hard. Me saying no is hard. When your mind is in the right space, if you still want to fuck me, fine come back to me.”

Laughing I look at her.

“What the fuck does that mean?”

“It means Diesel I am not fucking cruel. You’re hurting, reliving everything. Right now you want to feel loved, want to feel close to someone. Your mind isn’t clear, and while I would love to continue Diesel, I have a feeling tomorrow you will wake up and realise your hurt led you into my bed when you didn’t want to be. I would be using your Diesel, knowing you’re not thinking straight. So tomorrow.” I watch as she walks off.

Is she right? “Shit” The word to myself as I realise she is.

25: Serena – Hidden Past

Serena POV:

It has been a week, and everything has been quiet. I want to see Jessie, make sure she is okay and thank her.

Every time I consider it, I hear she is still at Diesel’s place. I don’t want to go there, I don’t want to see him. I have to though.

I have battled all week over whether or not I should open the folder with his name. It could give me every bit of information I need on Diesel. It could tell me why he is the way he is. It could also hold information that I never want to know.

Just like my folder. I’m glad I know the truth now, but that doesn’t help. It doesn’t mean I don’t think back over and over about how things ended up. My dad knew, and I don’t know if he agreed with what Jake did to me.

Hell for all I know it could have been his idea. He told me Jake disappeared, but it was clear my dad had paid him too. The payment that no doubt he hoped would keep his involvement a secret.

“You know, it doesn’t matter how long you stare at the screen, at the folder. Nothing will change. You either read it or delete it.” Dwayne looks at me.

He knows, hell I sat here debating with myself in front of him over opening it and looking.

“It also doesn’t make deciding any easier.” My words are quiet.

“Look, you open it and read it. You find out what makes Diesel act the way he does. You don’t let him know you know. You rebuild things. Or, you open it and find out the worst things ever. You do the exactly same but walk away.”

His statement is true. Closing my eyes I click it, my eyes open and I click the first document.

It’s a contract. £50,000 paid to a guy to kill a woman? I shake my head in confusion, it must be in the wrong file. Ignoring it I scroll down and see an image of Diesel that makes me smile, he looks happy.

Jessie is in the background and this was clearly years ago.

I click the next file, another contract. Reading I feel the shock build. My dad wanted his garage. The contract shows he wanted to use Diesel and the garage, but Diesel never signed.

So did the contract never go ahead? I feel like I am going to be left with far more questions than answers. The address of the garage however isn’t the place he has now.

Actually…I move through the files on my desk and stop at the address. It is no longer a garage, it is a business that Mr Prent ran. How did he get it?

Clicking on the next file, I see a list of names.

Rooster at the top, followed by Jessie. Then Eva May Demerat. Only her name has a red line through it, why?

There is too much, printing everything out I sit on the floor. Slowly spreading out the papers. I look at the list. Eva May, I saw that name. Searching through the papers I find the contract.

Eva May was the one named on the contract my dad had paid £50,000 to someone to kill her.

“Well?” I look at Dwayne and shake my head.

“Not now!” I don’t have time, I move, sliding out the pictures, my eyes stopping on a picture of Diesel with a woman, Eva. I see his hand in hers, a ring on her finger.

He looks happy, I feel the panic build in me as it all comes together and unfolds. She was pregnant. Diesel and she were engaged.

He refused my dad, and that made my dad hurt him. No, it made him kill him by killing her.

I sit, struggling to breathe. Was my father even the person I thought? He pushed Jake into my life. He knew he had hurt me to try and make me lose our baby. He paid Jake to take care of it.

Now, I am staring at someone who Diesel loved, clearly a lot. Only she is dead. Her and the baby.

Shit, I feel sick…

“Serena?”

I feel my head shaking at Dwayne’s words, everything was a lie. Who the hell was my father? Sure I knew he killed people, but a woman who was pregnant?

“You don’t look well, what is happening?” Dwayne steps me.

I want to hide my truth, but I need to tell Dwayne, I need him to understand.

“How long did you work for my dad Dwayne?” I look at him.

“Since I was about fifteen why?”

“Did you fucking know?” I feel like I want to burn every person who knew.

“Know what?” He sits on the chair, looking at me confused.

“About my dad and what he did. About Jake, about our engagement, him being abusive, the baby everything?” I watch the shock overtake him as I talk. He didn’t know.

“What about Diesel? Did you know he refused a deal? That he was engaged and his almost wife was fucking pregnant when my dad ordered the hit!” I scream and stand up.

“Shit.” His word is quiet.

“Shit yes! Was all this with Diesel him wanting payback? What the hell!” I scream, the mess just keeps growing.

“I didn’t know shit. Diesel wouldn’t have been here for revenge, does he even know?” He looks at me.

Laughing I nod. “He knew, why else do you think Mr Prent ended up with the building in the perfect location? The location of Diesel’s first garage! He knew.” Did Jessie know, was she part of the plan?

“Look, the only answers you need and can get come from him. Suck up your pride and go ask him. If he wanted revenge Serena you would be dead. If he did lose his wife and baby because of your dad, he wouldn’t have walked away after what you said.”

He is right. I told him he had no idea, for weeks I have ripped him apart, yet he went through it all. He knew how it felt and now I need to apologise.

26: Diesel – Payback

Diesel POV:

I woke and considered last night. The fact I would have fucked Jessie is wrong. I smile at her from across the table.

“Don’t worry Diesel, I know it was a mistake.” She smiles at me.

“Fuck, Jessie! I don’t deserve you to be nice to me or your understanding. I’m a fucking prick.” How can she smile and forgive me so quickly?

“You’re not a prick Diesel. Last night you were hurting over everything. In those moments you let go of the ‘what ifs’ you don’t hide from your feelings or love. Don’t worry about it.”

I simply nod to her.

“Wait.” My word sounds confused as I watch her look towards me.

She laughs slightly nodding. “Yes, Diesel. Don’t worry though, I know your past, and I know that is why you hide from love. I don’t blame you. Letting someone in and admitting it leads to pain. While I was gone I realised.”

“Realised what Jessie?”

“That me pushing you was wrong. You won’t ever let me or anyone else in Diesel. Anyone who you even remotely care for, any woman that is. Fear of what comes next stops you. I realised pushing you like I had was wrong, I was trying to force you to move past it.”

I don’t answer, I sit and think.

All I can think about is if she is right. Hell, I always said I loved Jessie as a sister, was that to keep her away, through fear? I like Serena but I made it complicated, knowing full well how I acted would make her push me away.

It has been years. I think back to all the women I have slept with. None of them I loved, or could see myself loving, the ones I did though?

“You didn’t stand a chance.” My words escape before I can stop them.

“I realised that Diesel. I thought you pushed me away because of my dad. Because you didn’t want anything serious. I know the truth now.”

Everything is a mess. I should be at the garage but for now, I won’t. Rooster is busy, and I don’t feel like it is safe to leave Jessie yet.

I watch as she stands and begins to walk past me towards the door.

“I will see you around Diesel, I’m going to get home.” She smiles at me as she turns to the door.

Moving I reach out, my hand stopping her.

“I don’t want to die alone, Jessie.” My words are quiet, she turns and looks at me shocked. “I mean it, I have fucked up enough. I don’t want to again.”

My hands pull her to me as I kiss her.

“Diesel, don’t.” Her words mumbled against my lips.

“I promise this isn’t through hurt, or my head been a mess. I can’t promise I will give you everything Jessie and let you in fully. In time yes, but right now I realise how much I ran through fear.”

She doesn’t reply, instead, her hands pull me closer to her as I kiss her.

I ignore the words screaming within my mind as my hands feel across her body, stopping at the hem of her dress, I grasp it before pulling it from her body. My eyes admire her body.

Perfection, every imperfection just adds to her perfection. I goan feeling her hand grasp my cock, slowly stroking along it.

“Fuck teasing, fuck slow, this will be quick babes, we have waited long enough.” I wrap my arm around her body, lifting her I watch as her legs wrap around me.

Moving I pin her against the door, my cock pushing through her walls, a small escape her lips as her nails dig into me.

Grasping her chin, I stare into her eyes, just embracing the feeling of her wrapped around me. It took too long for me to give in.

“Don’t! Diesel I swear down. If you’re rethinking this, fuck me first then walk.”

I chuckle at her words. She stares at me confused, my lips pressing against hers as my hips thrust hard and deep. Her nails drag along my back.

“Diesel!” Her voice melts me as she tries pulling me closer. Her pleasure is now buried deep within mine as I keep thrusting, listening to her moans of pleasure rise.

My hand wraps around her neck as I kiss her deeper, the sound of her pleasure tears through my house as I thrust a final time and feel myself release. My hands stay gripping her tight. It was worth the wait and the abuse.

“Finished?” My head shoots up hearing Rooster on the other side of the door.

“Shit,” I whisper quietly as I step back from her and release her.

“He will be fine Diesel, I am going to get sorted.” She smiles, kissing me before skipping upstairs.

Moving I unlock the door, Rooster looking at me.

“Go ahead, hit me.” I stand waiting.

“Not going to Diesel, just make sure she knows this isn’t you agreeing to marriage and kids.”

“She knows, I told her I can’t promise to let her in full, not yet. She knows it will take time.” She knows, I know she does.

The week passes by quickly. I spend a lot of time with Jessie, yet she has barely touched me, and quickly makes an excuse to move when I try to touch her. Rooster has noticed as well. He is sitting looking at me, waiting for me to explain but I can’t.

I don’t know what is going on. I watch as Rooster walks into the kitchen.

“What is going on?” I turn and look at Jessie, maybe been so blunt wasn’t, right?

“Hmmm?” She looks at me confused.

“Since we fucked you barely even speak to me or touch me, did I do something wrong?” I look at her waiting.

“Not this time, no.”

“What time? Jessie, we only fucked once.” I try to keep my voice low, but her words confuse me.

“How does it feel Diesel?”

“What Jessie?”

“To be given a small bit, and be pushed away.”

I stare at her shocked. “Wait, so you fucked me then distanced yourself to try and show me how you felt? I fucking know, and I apologised.”

“No Diesel. I fucked you because at that moment it felt right, and then I regretted it. I remembered every time you pushed me the hell away. I wasn’t sure if I was sane, so I thought I would give it a few days. Then last night you tried again and I made an excuse to leave.”

“Stop, Jessie just tell me what the hell is going on.”

“I slept with Dwayne last night Diesel.”

I look up at her shocked. Hurt burning me.

“Jessie!” I turn and look at Rooster as he shouts at her.

“I’m sorry, once I got you I finally realised, I don’t love you, Diesel. See, this could have been figured out years ago if you didn’t push me away, so how does it feel Diesel?”

I stare at her shocked, unable to answer her.

“Shall I help? To know you were here willing to give yourself to me, and I left and fucked Dwayne instead, just like you did every time with me before.”

“Get her out.” I look at Rooster.

“Not yet, I’m not done.” I watch as she stands and walks from the room, I hear her doing something, moving I follow her and stop at the door.

“Get out of this room!” I step forward, Rooster stopping me.

“I will sort her, just calm down.” Roosters words quiet.

“This room, Diesel. Is your fucking excuse. All this shit is nothing! You’re keeping it perfect as if she was actually here once, she never got here Diesel. I honestly thought I loved you, I was wrong. That though doesn’t stop the hurt you put me through! You use this as an excuse to hide from women Diesel. Eva had a lucky escape.”

I move forward, Rooster stopping me.

“Jessie! Get the hell home, now.” He looks at her, and she laughs.

“Poor Diesel now knows exactly how it fucking feels to be hurt.” I watch as she walks around us and out of the room. Stopping she looks back.

“Why would you do this? Fine, you changed your mind, say it and fucking leave.” I am glad I kept myself locked away still.

“Because I am not the first choice Diesel. I am the second fucking option to Serena, and you thought you could just use me instead. She hurt you, so you won’t go to her, and decided I will do, well I don’t want to be the second option.”

I watch her walk off, Rooster shouting at her as he walks after her. I don’t move, just collapse to the floor, what the fuck did I do wrong this time? I gave in, accepted I had feelings for her that I ran from, tried to cover and pretend were nothing.

27: Serena – Showing Him

Serena POV:

I get ready and look towards Dwayne.

“Something is going on with you, what?” I look at him waiting. “Still convinced you lost Jessie?” He needs to go claim her.

“No, she slept with him the day after she was found.”

“Oh,” what else can I say?

“He agreed to give her a try, now Diesel will want me dead.”

I laugh at his words.

“Why now? Dwayne what have you done?”

“Last night I saw Jessie, she ended up back at my place, in my bed.”

I stare at him.

“Fucking hell Dwayne! You knew and still slept with her? I can’t exactly tell him not to beat you. I am going to go there anyway, see Jessie, and apologise to him. I will let you know how much of a mess it is.” Grabbing my bag and the gift bag I leave, climbing into the car I sit.

“Where to Miss?” Shaun looks at me waiting.

“Diesel’s home address, please. I won’t need anyone to come in with me.” I won’t, I know he will be mad at me for what I said but he won’t hurt me. Even I know that.

We stop outside and I walk to the door noticing it is open, knocking I wait. Hearing no response I step inside and look around, unable to see Diesel. Maybe he forgot to shut and lock the door?

I step further into the house, looking into a room I stop.

It is pink, with a small crib in the corner, Esmae, written above it. I look around seeing the baby’s room. It is like it is ready to be used.

“What the hell are you doing here?”

My head turns to see Diesel sitting in the room on the opposite side. He looks a mess, does this mean he knows about Jessie and Dwayne, or is it this room?

“Sorry, I knocked. The door was open, I wasn’t sure if you had forgotten to shut it. Why didn’t you tell me Diesel?” I step forward and look at him.

“It has fuck all to do with you. It would just be another thing for you to use to torture me when I don’t follow your stupid rules!”

I nod. I won’t hold it against him, hell I said worse to him. I can see he is hurting.

“It does though, you knew it was my dad, you knew he caused it.” I look at him. I want to ask if I was revenge but I won’t.

“You think you had a right to know my life?” He stands up and walks towards me. “You’re family just want to assume they have rights to everything, and don’t care who you hurt or how when you get it! It is my family, it has nothing to do with you.”

“Clearly you’re not in the right place to talk. I came by to apologise for what I said, and to give this to Jessie and check she is well.”

His face burns with anger, is it from me mentioning I came to apologise or from saying Jessie’s name.

“Well she isn’t here, and won’t be coming back, so take it with you and leave.”

Well, that tells me he knows about Jessie and Dwayne.

“Okay Diesel, when you stop with your attitude and anger let me know, then I will apologise as right now, you won’t care.” Turning I begin to leave, I will go to Roosters and see if Jessie is there. I can’t deal with Diesel and his crazy ass today.

“Wait.”

Turning I look at him confused.

“Am I really that bad?”

He looks at me hurt, he isn’t shouting now at least.

“What do you mean Diesel, what bad?”

“Come on, act like you don’t know, you do. Jessie fucking Dwayne, laughing at it hurting me. Am I really that bad? Did Eva have a lucky escape, am I really that much of an asshole?”

I stare at him, unsure of what to reply or how.

“That confirms it, so I do deserve it all.” His words are quiet.

“Diesel, I knew yes, but I only found out today she slept with Dwayne, I knew nothing else. Maybe something is going on with Jessie for her to say those things?” Hell, I don’t know what the hell happened. “I can tell you this though Diesel, no one ever deserves to find out their partner and baby died. As for Eva, I didn’t know you then Diesel, but even so, her death wasn’t a lucky escape.”

I wonder if Jessie is going through something, it seems weird she would say those things to Diesel.

“I hurt her though. Jessie, I hurt her.”

“Diesel, what happened?” I look at him, and I feel like I only have a small part of the story.

“I agreed. We slept together, and I agreed I would try. I told her I would need time to fully let her in. There is always that fear and doubt. She agreed, and then she just went all cold. Today she admitted she doesn’t love me, and rather than fucking saying she thought she would hurt me back.”

“So her sleeping was Dwayne was to hurt you?” Why would she do that?

“I could live with that, I think she knew I would get over that, so she hit me where it hurt. This room. Forget it, she is gone.” His words are once again cold and angry.

“I’m sorry Diesel, for what she and Dwayne did. Also for what I said, I was scared and hurting. I had to save Jessie, and saving her meant facing my demons.” I assumed he had no idea of pain, but he does, if anything more than I do.

“She will come back and apologise Diesel. She loved you, maybe she just wanted to hurt you. Make a point?” I look at him.

“If she shows her face here, she will be the one leaving hurt. I agreed, like a fucking idiot! I agreed thinking it might actually work, thinking that maybe it would help her calm. I won’t ever make that mistake again.”

“She hurt you Diesel, but don’t give up. Something made you give in and agree. You don’t deserve to be alone.” He doesn’t, and I feel like screaming at Jessie, what the hell did she do this for?

We sit in the silence of the room, my eyes looking around. Hell, he was ready, the room is immaculate. I see the scan images of the baby. Images of Eva as well. I never got this close, it was clear from the pictures I saw that she was at least seven months pregnant.

Silence seems to be good right now. We don’t speak, but I understand, the pain he felt from losing someone he loved, his daughter. I felt it, just in a different way.

I need to talk though.

“We had been together about three months when Jake proposed. I wasn’t sure, my dad told me to though. So I agreed. It wasn’t long after the proposal that he started hitting me.” I take a deep breath, watching as he looks at me.

“I found out I was pregnant, I told my dad, and he seemed happy. That was until I found out it was a girl. I knew he was disappointed but I didn’t know. Those six months were brutal. Jake would hit me constantly, each time it was harder and in more places. I was going to walk, I was warned if I kept getting hurt the baby had no chance. Turns out when I walked, he came back, and my dad told me to go home and sort it. I remember the arguing, him hitting me, then nothing until I woke up in the hospital and found out I had lost the baby.”

I feel my heart break as I tell him. Just hoping that if I show him I trust him, he will be more open.

“My dad said Jake was gone, nowhere to be found. Turns out he knew, the paperwork showed he paid Jake to marry me, to ensure I only had a boy. If I was pregnant with a boy, I would be married and stuck with no way out.”

I just wish I could have saved her, the baby was nothing to do with it. Yet just because she was a girl they wanted her gone.

28: Diesel – Telling The Story

Diesel POV:

I listen to her words and struggle with what to reply. Her dad knew, her dad planned it. Me fine, I am no one to him, but his own daughter?

“Is it fucked up that somewhere inside, that made me feel better? For years I told myself if I had done something different, or had begged him to leave Eva out of it, they would be alive today. Knowing even his own family were treated the same makes me realise nothing I said would change it.”

I wish it could have, but it won’t.

“Ask me in a few months, Diesel, as right now I am still getting used to the idea my dad knew and paid Jake. I knew he struggled to accept I could run the city, but I didn’t think it would be that bad.”

I look at her.

“Do you think Jake was the plan? Maybe your dad wanted him to marry you so he took over the city?” Why else would her dad pay him to be in her life?

“I know he did. I saw the contracts. My dad promised him the city once he died if we were married. He paid him to leave after I lost the baby, but the contract clearly signed that day shows he was paid to come back once my dad had gone and try to take the city.”

“No one can take the city from you Serena.” It is hers, no one other than Jake will try to.

“I’m at a place now Diesel, I am thinking fuck this. Packing a bag and disappearing and saying fuck you to the city.”

“You would regret it. Sure your dad may have done things behind your back and hurt you, but the city is turning and realising you’re the queen. Every day, more and more people accept you’re not just a princess.” I smile and wink at her, watching her laugh.

“So what happened Diesel? How did Mr Prent end up with your business location?”

I wanted to avoid this, but I know she needs to full story, not just bits and pieces she got from her father’s files.

“Eva’s parents had given her that building, her dad had told me to use it for a garage, and I did. It was doing amazing for years. Then he died, and the contract between him and your dad stated a set fee per month. It was manageable. Her dad dying meant your dad drew up a new contract. One that was basically leaving us with nothing.”

“So what? You couldn’t afford it?” She looks at me confused.

“No, we did. I opened the place I have now, extra money made it easier. Because the building was Eva’s she refused to give it up. She refused to sell it. I told her to let it go but she wouldn’t. Your dad kept trying to get me to force her to. I refused. There was no way I was hurting any woman to save myself. Turns out after he tried everything, and nothing worked, he thought up a new plan.”

I hate to think it but maybe had I hurt her, really forced her she would still be alive?

“He killed her.” Her words are filled with guilt, but it isn’t her who should carry that guilt.

“He paid someone. We had no idea that the taxi was a setup. She was going to the hospital, and insisted I stay and fix a car. She didn’t call or text, hours passed by and I worried. The guy shot her and left her somewhere it would take hours to find her. He wanted to be sure there was no way the baby lived, it would mean the building wouldn’t be free to take. If it had happened somewhere close to people, they could have saved the baby.”

If I had looked, gone to find her, could I have got there in time?

“Anyway, after that, your dad took the building and handed it to Mr Prent, threw two thousand at me which I burnt in front of his face, and never saw him since.” I made sure I would never see him.

I wanted to kill him but he was always surrounded by guards, he knew the way he did things put a target on him.

“I’m sorry Diesel. The building, take it back, it is legally yours.”

Turning I look at her.

“No.” What the hell?

She looks at me shocked, and confused.

“Look, the last thing I want is the building that destroyed my life, that got her and the baby murdered. No, I don’t ever want to see it again.” I don’t, I would rather watch it burn.

I watch as she stands, and walks to me before sitting down. The room is once again full of silence.

“I’m sorry.” Hell, I was a jerk.

“For what Diesel?” She looks at me confused.

“How I acted, calling your princess, and trying to make it seem like I thought you were weak. For what happened in the restaurant, I should have told her to stop, not fuck her mouth while you were there.”

I laugh slightly. “I really was a jerk. No wonder Jessie used me.” I deserved it, shit. I shake my head, realising how bad I was.

“One, you called me princess in a way that was pretty hot Diesel, it didn’t make me sound weak or useless. It was said in a way to turn me on. As for the restaurant, you tried telling me to leave, and I didn’t, that was on me. It was some good entertainment for sure.” She laughs and I nod.

“Well, I am glad calling you princess was a turn-on, makes me feel less guilty.” I laugh, my head leaning back. Everything is a mess.

“Do you love her Diesel?”

I turn and look at her shocked.

“Love is not a straight line. It isn’t one shape, it comes in so many shapes.” How do I answer, when even I don’t know?

“I love Jessie, I never lied when I said she was like my little sister. Over the recent years, there has been a shift. I agreed to try, part of me knows if I do, that love will turn into what she wants or would have.”

I know in time I would have loved her how she wanted, but she didn’t want it.

“I’m sure she regrets it Diesel, I am sure she will be back.”

I laugh, looking at her like she is crazy.

“I never go back, Serena. Hell, she is one person I might have agreed to go back for, but she turned me down and slept with Dwayne. Brought Eva into it, the baby everything, she is lucky if I even forgive her. I’m glad, it just confirmed we weren’t meant to be together. She knows I fucking hate someone cheating.”

She just confirmed all my fears. What the hell would she say if we got married, had kids and argued? It isn’t worth the shit.

“So, I’m bored of adulting now, time for fun?” Turning, I look at her confused and laugh. “I mean it Diesel, fucking kiss me and get it over with.”

My eyes widen as I laugh, more in shock than anything. I feel paralysed and unable to think of a reply, hell I don’t even know if she is joking or not.

29: Serena – Who Do You Belong To?

Serena POV:

I smile at him. His face shows he is shocked by my words. They were a joke, but now, I am actually considering it.

Do I really want to walk out of here, and regret it? If I walk out of here will things go back to how they were?

If I don’t make a move, will Jessie come back, and his head be turned? Moving forward, my lips press against his. A small moan escapes my mouth as I feel him pull back.

“Not the best time Serena.” He looks at me worried.

“No time is Diesel, I refused you, and you refused me. So just shut the hell up and kiss me.” I pull him to me, our lips connecting again, this time though he doesn’t pull away. His arm wraps around my body pulling me closer.

My hands move, slowly sliding up to pull his top off, his hands pull me closer as his body falls back. Staying above him, I straddle him, my hands fighting with his trousers as his hand pulls the shirt, the buttons falling from it.

My hips grind against him as I finally manage to unfasten his trousers.

His hands grasp my shoulders and push me up, so I am kneeling above him. Moaning I bite against my lip.

“What is it?” He looks at me worried.

“Whatever the hell you want it to be Diesel, just fuck me.” I go to lean forward his hand stopping me.

“You’re okay with this, even after Jessie?” He is looking at me like I am crazy. Maybe I am?

“Yes Diesel, I am fine with it. I wanted to ages ago but you were a stubborn ass who pushed me away.” I roll my eyes waiting for him.

“Okay, but I need to know what this is. I don’t want to in another week find out it was nothing and I thought something else.”

He is worried.

“Diesel, this is sex. Well, when we finally do it and stop talking about it. As for everything else, if you want it is fun, if you want to say we’re in a relationship fine, whatever you want this to be right now I fucking agree. Now, fuck me.”

He doesn’t answer, just pulls me to him, my hands pushing down his trousers as I feel his cock become free, my hand grasps it.

His hands move, lifting my skirt, and I lower myself onto his shaft. My head falls back from the feeling and pleasure. It has been years, too many years. My hips move, and I feel his hands sliding across my body, teasing me as they do.

We may both regret this after, but I can’t keep thinking, ‘what if’.

His hand grasps my hair, his hips moving as his other hand grips my waist holding me above him. My hands move, nails digging into his skin as I pull my hands down his chest, watching the marks show instantly.

His body moves, flipping us over so he is above me, he pushes closer and deeper into me, his hips rolling. My body shakes with pleasure, his hand grasping my neck as his lips meet mine.

My legs lock around him, our bodies moving together as our moans grow.

He moves, his hands ripping the rest of my clothes from my body, leaving me naked below him. My hands grasp his hair, the feeling of pleasure building within me.

I watch as he moves back, his hips stopping. His hands grasp mine and pin them down. He moves, placing kisses down my body, after each one, he bites against me causing small screams of pleasure and pain to escape.

His head reaches between my thighs, his tongue teasing around my clit. Moving I push my hips up, the pleasure right there, I just don’t want to give in to it yet.

His hands release my wrists, quickly grasping my hips and holding me against his mouth as he keeps going. My moans of pleasure continue to grow.

I feel him move, his hands flipping me over, the sound of something falling has me going to look, but stopping as his hands grasp my hips and pull me against him, his cock pushing straight into my sex.

He isn’t slow or gentle. His hips ram into me over and over, my body unable to stop the orgasm. The explosion of pleasure has me calling out his name.

I lose track of time; it feels like hours we are fucking. His hands controlled my body and moved me into a new position, just for him to fuck me as brutally as before.

I can’t complain though. He steps back, spinning me to face the wall. My body shakes as I feel his fingers push into my sex. His other hand grips my hair, pulling my head back, his mouth against my ear.

“I’m having your ass princess, so object now before I fucking do.” His words growled, and while I am scared as hell, I can’t say no.

Instead, I move, pushing my hips back, the feel of his cock against my ass.

I expect him to be just as rough as before, but he isn’t. He moves slowly, each time pushing himself deeper inside me. I feel him push until he is as deep as my body will allow him. My moans are loud as I orgasm.

I feel his hand slip between my legs, his fingers pushing into my sex.

“Ready?” His word is quiet as he kisses my neck, I nod slightly.

His hips thrust hard, pushing me against the wall, his fingers pushing against my G-spot in perfect timing. Screams flow from me as I feel the liquid run between us. He groans loudly as he keeps going, not slowing down. Once again, I lose track of time. Our bodies become entangled and sticky from sweat, but we don’t care. I hear him groaning more, his cock staying deep as he thrusts hard.

Screaming his name, I orgasm again.

He moves quickly, turning me to face him. His hands lift me as I wrap my legs around him. His cock pushes into my sex.

“Don’t be gentle.” My words quiet as I try and pull him closer.

His hand grips into my hair, pulling my head back. My hips move against him as he thrusts quicker.

“Who do you belong to?” His words rushed as he groans, trying to push himself deeper inside of me.

Biting my lip I shake my head, his hand pulling my head back more. He spits into my face, his hand hitting me, and everything goes back.

I don’t remember much, him asking again who I belonged to and me screaming you over and over as I drowned in pleasure. I remember his shout of ‘fuck’ and ‘yes’ just as everything became light again and we stopped.

I closed my eyes, falling asleep against him, too exhausted from the hours spent together to even try and stay awake. We waited too long, this was proof, us fucking for hours proves we waited to long.

30: Diesel – Regret Nothing

Diesel POV:

Silence surrounds us as we lay in each other’s arms. My mind screaming at me for so many reasons.

I should have said no, I care for Serena and Jessie, and now I have made a mess and I know I have.

I should have waited until I wasn’t so consumed with hate and hurt.

Shaking my head I move, lifting Serena from the floor and walking to my bedroom. Placing her in bed, I turn and find one of my shirts, placing it on the side next to her.

I ripped her clothes, so the shirt is there ready for when she decides to run.

Walking through to the kitchen I grab a drink, knowing I should be exhausted, I would be, but my mind won’t let me give in to exhaustion. Not until it has punished me.

I turn and see the door open, my eyes rolling. Did no one think to shut the door today? Walking to close it I stop and see Dwayne standing next to the car.

“Don’t hit me! I wouldn’t be here, but the guy called to say he had to leave, she wasn’t meant to be here more than an hour let alone six, so I replaced him.”

I laugh slightly.

“Wasn’t going to hit you. You might want to tell the driver to go home, and you go as well as she is asleep.” They will be there all night, so may as well leave and just come back when she calls.

Dwayne looks at me like I am crazy.

“I’m not going to hurt her, the door is getting locked, and I won’t let anyone hurt her.” I get it, he is worried. She always has someone close by, she doesn’t need it. Not tonight anyway.

“Okay, tell her to call when she wakes.” I watch as Dwayne turns to the driver.

“Dwayne.”

Turning he looks at me confused.

“We barely even got started, it was nothing, so I am not going to touch you for fucking her. That was her choice, so don’t worry.” He doesn’t deserve my shit. Honestly, I can’t even deal with my own shit right now.

He nods and gets in the car, turning I close the door and lock it, walking back through I stop at the room.

This is one of the biggest reasons my mind is screaming at me right now. I fucked her in here. I glance around. Items on the floor that were knocked off the unit. A small porcelain doll smashed. The carpet soaked from me making her squirt, more than once.

Walking back through I grab things to clean and return to the room. Spraying the carpet, I leave it to soak.

Picking up the items I place them on the side.

“Hey.”

Spinning around I see Serena walk into the room. Her body is covered in my shirt, but it is unbuttoned, showing her chest, her nipples barely covered by the fabric.

My eyes look across her body, anger building as I see the small bruises already showing. I was wrong, why the hell did I fuck her like that?

“You going to come to bed?” She smiles at me.

Turning, I face my back to her. “No, I’m going to sort in here.” Hell, I did all that to her and I have no fucking idea if she even wanted that, enjoyed it or was okay with it.

“Okay, I will help.”

“No! Just leave Serena.” My words are blunt.

“Diesel!”

Her voice has me turning to face her.

“Don’t you fucking dare! I know the story, Diesel; I know what happened. So, me being in here isn’t a threat. Don’t be a fucking jerk and push me away because your mind is now running scared because I swear to fucking God, I will murder you.”

Her words slam against me, and hell I feel myself nodding to her and giving in. I watch as she walks in and begins to pick up items.

“I’m sorry.” My words are quiet.

“For what Diesel?”

I watch as she continues to clean, my hand stopping her. My finger strokes along her neck.

“For this, and all the other marks. For how far I went. I never go that far if less it is someone I have seen a lot and know they will enjoy it.”

“Had you gone too far I would have said. I enjoyed it Diesel, and I don’t regret it.”

“I spat in your face and slapped you.” What the fuck? My eyes widen as I realise just how far I went. Hell, I usually take over a month with a submissive to do that, and I did it the first time with Serena.

“Unexpected, but I enjoyed it. I doubt that orgasm would have been so powerful had you not. Stop worrying Diesel, I am glad you did.”

Maybe I am worrying.

“Let’s go to bed. This can be done tomorrow.” I shouldn’t have her standing here helping me, she looks exhausted.

“No, because once I fall asleep you will come back here.” She laughs slightly.

“I promise to come cuddle and sleep, I won’t even try to clean the room until we’re both awake.” I won’t, not tonight. We both need sleep. Grasping her hand, I walk through to the bedroom. I watch as she removes the shirt a groan escaping my mouth as I see her naked.

“Behave, sleep.”

Her words make me laugh, but I nod in agreement, my arms wrapping around her as I feel myself finally fall asleep, my mind giving me the small break I need.

Waking, I roll over to see Serena gone. I don’t bother rushing, just stay laid with my eyes closed. The images of last night burned through my mind.

Part of me regrets it. Mostly though, I am glad. I have no doubt today she will regret what we did, so I will just enjoy that we got that moment, even if it never happens again.

Moving, I climb out of bed, walking through I don’t see Serena. A noise has me turning, walking through to the room I stop.

Serena and Jessie stood in the room, Jessie’s eyes on me. I don’t want to deal with this today.